Gift to Mankind

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character in general: I mentioned this earlier but James Buchanan Barnes is the love of my entire goddamn life. Both MCU and 616 Bucky are absolutely incredible just as humans. He’s supportive and attentive and incredible and he doesn’t let the world ruin him. He doesn’t become the villain they want him to naturally be. He shakes the program and does his best to do g o o d and that’s just so inspiring for me. And not only is it inspiring for irl, it’s also inspiring for a number of characters. Reading back to some of the older comics has given me a deep appreciation for Bucky because he’s a lot of the reason that nat is the way she is. Not even just because of their relationship in the comics, but because he showed her you don’t have to be made bitter by your past. She grows to have so much faith in him and to appreciate him so much and he shows her that maybe the red room is wrong and maybe love isn’t the worst thing in the world. He helps her learn and grow and he supports her in that and I just think that’s amazing. He shows her that even the strongest people have doubts, like when he was asked to take up the shield, and it was suddenly her chance to unconditionally love and support him and I just think that Bucky Barnes needs more time in the spotlight in the MCU because he’s i n c r e d i b l e.how they play them:  H o l y s h i t I love them. I think Sam just has a way with every muse or something because I have never read anything of sams that felt out of character or that I didn’t like. And I read a lot of Sam’s stuff in passing, but specifically on Bucky, I think there’s that inner turmoil that’s so elegantly captured, those doubts and fear, but I think the one thing that really got me, among the antagonizing and nat just being a brat because she doesn’t believe in babying people who don’t need to be treated like glass, among all of that, what got me were the details. Specifically, what grabbed my attention was the way it was mentioned that Bucky listens to each component of the music rather than just the piece as a whole and that just kind of struck me. It struck me as something that I need to think about for nat, those minor details that just solidify your understanding of a muse, but it made me realize just how much Sam puts into her muses. I’m absolutely amazed. completely incredible. the mun: I mean this parts a little bit obvious if you read the last part but I do adore Sam. So incredibly kind, loving, attentive, always checks up on me if she knows I’m having a bad day. We’ve had so many conversations just loving on muses, on a certain third party, on just everything and I just appreciate the positivity and love that just radiates off of Sam.  Such a sweetheart and someone I would truly consider a friend. <3

do i;

follow them: I’m pretty sure I follow on all her blogsrp with them: I do indeedwant to rp with them: always I love reading sams replies, even if I am really slow sometimesship their character with mine:  maybe if we can get her to stop prodding him like this, don’t worry she’s about to go and apologize to him and it’ll be a step in a lighter direction but hey at least the fact that he shot her is out of the way

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        She had NOTHING to say in response, just a smile that was a little too smug, not nearly hesitant enough. To say she had a death wish would have been accurate, but she didn’t expect to die by his hand, it just meant she treated this situations a little less cautiously than she perhaps SHOULD have.

        It’s a few HOURS before she gets back, going about her business for a bit before going to find him and APOLOGIZE.

          She clearly wanted to make a POINT, but the point she was going to eventually wind up making was that once a monster, ALWAYS a monster. He didn’t trust himself. The others clearly didn’t trust him EITHER. And she was pushing every button she could find. He didn’t have the patience or desire to put up with anyone’s GAMES.

“Oh no no, I’m nothing like Rogers- I don’t go fighting everyone on two legs” He joked in amusement and enjoyed picking on Steve whenever he could. He practically melted against Bucky’s touches to his hair and just being close to the man. He felt butterflies in his stomach as Bucky’s lips grazed his temple, he loved it when they were this soft with each other and it made Tony realize how much he cared for the man and how much he truly wanted this to be so much more. 

“I remember Peggy telling me stories of the time Steve first tried to talk to her. Leave it to Capsicule for being able to motivate a whole nation but heavens forbid he could properly talk to the person he likes” He chuckled and leaned into the cool metal and made a soft noise as he slipped his eyes shut. Yup, he was gone for the man, the ship has sailed and Tony felt his lips tug into a small genuine smile that was only reserved for a select few. 

“I know but you know me…I just wanted to give you a gift…” he had other reasons to wanting to give Bucky gifts, shower him in things and luxury and he wasn’t going to dwell on that any longer when the mentions of pasta made him perk up, “Pasta?? count me in! come on Bucky Bear” his smiled brighten when he leaned forward and pressed a shy peck on his lips. 

          Bucky couldn’t help but CHUCKLE at the insistence that Tony was nothing like Steve. He may not be running around challenging just about anyone to a fight, but despite what a LOT of people assume about the man, he’s not the best at talking to people. Especially in situations like this. 

          Biting back a groan at the memory of what Steve had told him about one of his first conversations with Peggy, Bucky just SHOOK his head. “Yeah.. that was... typical Steve,” he admitted with a chuckle. “Not that YOU are doing a whole lot better, Mr. Hides Away From People Instead of Talking to Them.” He grinned, bumping his nose against Tony’s temple gently.

Tony almost ran when he heard Bucky chuckle, okay so maybe it was a bit comical and he sent his bots a glare that held no heat and before he could hide for the next twenty years he felt himself be pulled closer to the other and he immediately wrapped his arms around Bucky’s waist. “Um..no, maybe-yes..” He pouted and grimaced as he thought back on the past few days and yes he may have avoided Bucky when he was trying to think on how to ask the man out, officially. 

“I’m sorry, didn’t mean to avoid you-wanted to give you something special. I know we’re not officially together and this is me officially asking? want to make it Facebook official?” His cheeks darken and he ducked his face, that once smooth and suave Tony Stark was no where to be seen at that moment and he opted to bury his face in Bucky’s shoulder. 

At the mention of food his stomach decided to growl and he remembered he hadn’t eaten in may possibly be two days and he flushed deeper that the tip of his ears turned pick. “I wanted this to be special” he whined and pulled back to show how embarrassed he was. He bit his lips and looked down at his feet and mumbled, “food sounds good right now” he looked a bit dejected as he leaned forward and leaned against Bucky’s body once again. 

          It was hard to try and HIDE his smile as Tony responded by wrapping his arms around his waist and Bucky gently tightened his grip on him. It wasn’t like they hadn’t been CLOSE physically before, but it was nice to know they could have it like this, not just when they’re both super exhausted. Chuckling quietly again, Bucky just SHOOK his head, hugging him snugly against his chest. “Maybe, yes, huh?” he teased gently, fingers skating LIGHTLY along Tony’s spine as he hummed quietly.

          Bucky smiled, shaking his head again as Tony explained WHY he had been avoiding him. His brows furrowed in confusion at the request to make it “Facebook official”, but it was MOSTLY forgotten about when Tony pressed into his shoulder. He turned his head, nosing against the side of his head gently, fingers moving along the back of his neck and into his hair. “You’re almost as BAD as Stevie used to be,” he teased gently, lips grazing against Tony’s temple. “But, I guess you’re still able to form REAL words, so that’s a good start.”

‘Oh.’ { GAZE lowered towards fingers; dictionary filling in the blanks as Bucky spoke, ( his own file stating clearly that he had aversions to an invasion of privacy. ) Something he’d read in a rush before while trying to remember vital information. It was reassuring to know he wasn’t the only one sometimes, and yet he also wasn’t sure what to do now. } ‘I didn’t know….’ { Should he have DONE? Sucking in a breath; he nodded andscurried to pick up his plush. ( A thing that couldn’t refuse him, choosing to pet it and become the infamous fly on the wall. ) He could easily pretend not to be there. He’d had much practice. }

Seeing that small smirk play on Bucky’s face made him brighten, honestly all had seen on the man were frowns and pressed lips but he felt himself start to smile until he mentioned his strengths and that smirk, however small it was disappeared and quickly rushed to make it right without realizing his mouth to brain filter was way off, “I meant that I kinda want to get you, Rogers and Point Break to do a lifting contest, preferably without shirts on. ya know for science”

It was too late to stop himself and he groaned in embarrassment, “or the floor can swallow me up now” he mumbled and pushed aside whatever dark thoughts he had and solely focused on Bucky. Barnes didn’t deserve to have his issues dump on him knowing he had enough shit to deal with and Tony wouldn’t do that to the other.

He watched Bucky move to stand and he scrambled to sit up, leaning forward and reaching out to place a hand on his arm, stopping him from leaving. Tony had a small smile on his lips and he said in a light tone, “Thank you…really Bucky, For what it’s worth…I’m glad it was you” there he finally stood and turned to head back to his lab. Before he turned the corner he stopped and glanced back at Bucky and disappeared.

“for what’s it worth i’m glad it was you?? what the…when did I get sappy?!” He mumbled in surprise and shook his head.

          A lifting contest? With their shirts off? Bucky decided to NOT think too much about that because that wasn’t a path he was ready to go down just yet. So, he pushed it aside as he kept moving to stand up.

          Flinching slightly at the UNEXPECTED hand on his arm, Bucky snapped his head around to look over at the other man. He was tense, but froze, since that was CLEARLY Tony’s objective. He wasn’t really sure what to make of what the man said next. “Uh... anytime?” he offered with a CONFUSED frown. Naturally, he assumed that it wouldn’t be happening again.

          He watched the other man leave, then went back to his room to finish meditating and actually sleep for a little while. He then went to the gym and hung out with the others for a bit. He told himself his noticing Tony’s absence wasn’t ANYTHING special. It was just an observation. Only that. Right?

          It was THREE days before he let it finally get to him. Feeling a little stupid, he stood in the common living room, checking to be sure that he was truly alone, before talking to the damn CEILING, asking where Tony was. The voice responded that he’d been in his lab since they’d parted ways a few days ago. Which just made Bucky frown. That was stupid. He shouldn’t care. He DIDN’T care. But, he was still heading down to the other man’s lab, knowing that it was his private space and not caring.

          Frowning slightly, he tried the door, a bit SURPRISED to find it unlocked and had a sneaking suspicion that maybe that little computer wired into the compound might have given him a little help on that one. Slipping into the lab, he cleared his through LOUDLY so Tony wouldn’t get the shock of him appearing SILENTLY at his side since he had yet to break the habit of moving without making a sound. Stepping closer, he frowned slightly at he looked the other man over.

‘ stay with me tonight? ’

‘ don’t talk. save your strength. ’

‘ hey, i’ve got you. it’s okay. ’

‘ i’ll be right here. don’t worry. ’

‘ i think we’re done. ’

‘ hold my hand. ’

‘ it’s all been a lie, hasn’t it? ’

‘ we’re out of time. ’

‘ you’ll always be a friend. ’

‘ just hold me. ’

‘ i have to leave you behind. i’m sorry. ’

‘ don’t do that. it’ll only hurt. ’

‘ go on, cry. ’

‘ keep your eyes open. ’

‘ can i hug you? ’

‘ i trusted you. ’

‘ do you remember? ’