gustavo

There are things I simply will never consume again, even if I recover. what's the point of sugary soda? and coffee with sugar? they're simply not worth it, even within a higher-calorie diet

I don't really care if my thighs are thick or if I have belly fat, but my breasts… I can't feel good about it, no clothes look good, I can't even allow myself certain intimacies with my bf cause of this shit. I don't care what weight I need to lose if I can get rid of my breasts

I hate the moments when I genuinely want food. It's not hunger, it's not an uncontrollable craving, I just want it. I don't have any food at home right now, I let it run out on purpose, so maybe order something? no, it's too expensive. what if I go to the bakery nearby? I could do that. but I shouldn't. I shouldn't. I shouldn't. I shouldn't. I shouldn't

I'm tired of college, of having to study for so many exams, of having to eat to be able to study, I just want to go home and not worry about anything other than fasting for more than 24 hours every day I still have an exam today btw. and I haven't even studied this subject yet (at least I only need 6 points out of 40 to pass). and another exam next Tuesday (that I need 20 points out of 30 I'm fucked)

I really don't know how I used to do planks for 7 minutes straight, only 1 minute and 30 seconds seems like hell to me now 😭

I'll never forget the time I went to a diner with my aunt and cousin. the slogan was "don't take life so seriously, get messy" or something like that. and after eating the sandwich I ordered, my face was covered in sauce, so my aunt pointed to the slogan and said I really had gotten messy. I've never felt so much like a pig

The good thing about living with people I don't know is that after a certain time (usually 10 pm) I don't feel comfortable going to the kitchen to cook, so even when I'm hungry I stay in my room, cause I don't want to bother anyone with the noise of pots and pans. and I don't leave any food stored in my room, so I just don't eat anything

I NEED to get back to counting the calories in my meals somehow. It's really hard when your diet becomes dependent on the college restaurant

I just don't understand the appeal of mulkbangs anymore. like, it's a lot of food that tastes the same, and it's mostly swallowed rather than chewed after just a few bites. can you really taste it that way? and all that sauce dripping down your face, shouldn't it be in the food to enhance the flavor? what's the point, anyway?

I will always morning the ballet dancer I could have been if I had been born a boy

would he forgive me for destroying my body?