nolan

i love you im sorry - gracie abrams

I was a dick, it is what it is / A habit to kick, the age-old curse / I tend to laugh whenever I'm sad / I stare at the crash, it actually works / Making amends, this shit never ends / I'm wrong again, wrong again

the wedding song - renee rapp

I would have sang it to you soft and sweet / You'd want it every anniversary

feel - fletcher

Doin' time, tryna heal / Do anything so I don't feel you

after the party - the menzingers

But you just want to dance in a basement / You don't care if anyone is watching / Just as long as you stay in motion / We put miles on these old jean jackets / Got caught up in the drunk conversations / But after the party, it's me and you

this song always makes me think of tk and nolan, but it fits extra well in this fic when nolan and tk are in that weird in between of friends and something more

the story of us - taylor swift

Oh, I'm scared to see the ending / Why are we pretending this is nothing / I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how / I've never heard silence quite this loud

back to me - john allison weiss

Another damp dark room and I'm spilling my guts right out / About the love I knew that I'm learning to live without

if only - dove cameron

Don't know what I'm feeling, is this just a dream? / If only I knew what my heart was telling me

sometimes an artist has a huge discography. other times they don’t and you pull out a banger from a dcom soundtrack. much like my pets: if it fits, it sits (on the playlist)

home - catie turner

I don't take spoonfuls of romanticism in my tea / But this is not a love song / It's my truth I have to speak / Oh, you are so important to me / And I won't let you go

I won't let you go / Cause wherever you are is home

be alone - paramore

Yeah, we could be alone / But never get too low on me / We could be alone together

heaven - petal

But I will take your voice rolling over me always

gimme love - carly rae jepsen

Cause I want what I want, do you think that I want too much?

nico

that’s so true - gracie abrams

Think about your dumb face all the time

too well - renee rapp

I get so sick of myself, can't stop overthinkin' / I heard you're happy somewhere else / But I don't forget too well / I get so sick of myself, can't stop reminiscin' / I heard you're happy somewhere else / But I don't forget too well

becky’s so hot - fletcher

Cause Becky's so hot in your vintage t-shirt / Oh, she the one I should hate / But I wanna know how she taste

this is THEE nico song for this in my opinion. yeah yeah nico’s too nice to threaten to hit tk, but like. he’s got eyes, alright? he sees the appeal

casey - the menzingers

And I bet I sound like a broken record / Every time I open my mouth / I want to wander around the city with you again

holy ground - taylor swift

We had this big wide city all to ourselves / We blocked the noise with the sound of 'I need you' / And for the first time I had something to lose / And I guess we fell apart in the usual way / And the story's got dust on every page / But sometimes I wonder how you think about it now

this and casey are both songs that are a little bittersweet, looking back at a relationship after it’s ended, and i think that’s what nico does a lot during this fic

new love - john allison weiss

There's no love like new love / You're moving on and all I want is you, love

we go down together - dove cameron

If you go down / Then we go down together / If you hold on / I might just stay forever / If you get hurt / I'll try to make it better / If you go down / Then we go down together

i luv him - catie turner

He's what I want / But I'm not what he needs

proof - paramore

Then I'll believe in what you say / There's nothing left for you to do / The only proof that I need is you

nature - petal

Every fiber of my being seems to scream to me / "You are now mine in a life we both know"

i really like you - carly rae jepsen

It's way too soon, I know this isn't love / But I need to tell you something / I really, really, really, really, really, really like you / And I want you, do you want me, do you want me, too?

tk

risk - gracie abrams

I’m not proud / Guess I'm just scared of you shooting it down / You can just talk, and I'll stare at your mouth / It could be bad, but I wanna find out

i was between risk and in between for tk, and in between isn’t on streaming, but risk also hits the nail on the head

i do - renee rapp

When we're saying, "I love you" / I mean it different than you do / Terrified I always will even after the day / You look at somebody else and you say / "I do"

lead me on - fletcher

So why don't you just lead me on? / 'Cause something is better than nothing at all / Yeah, I want you to lead me on / 'Cause something, yeah, something is better than nothing / Yeah, something, your something is better than nothing at all

tk truly does spend so much of this settling for all he thinks he can have, and i feel like this song really encapsulates that

time table - the menzingers

As time tables suggest / We were only just friends / In constant motions, covering stilts / I’ll give you a dollar for another ride home / Or something to mix with your Coke

say don’t go - taylor swift

Oh no, oh no, it's not fair / 'Cause you kiss me and it stops time / And I'm yours, but you're not mine

i had to do it - john allison weiss

If my heavy heart were strong enough / I'd stay and let you keep it / But to know you is to love you / And I don't want to love you anymore

sand - dove cameron

I saw the end when we began / You couldn't love the way I can / I tried to bargain with the stars / For more than half your heart / But you have more pieces of me than the desert has sand / And I have less pieces of you than I can hold in my hand

(wish i didn’t have to) lie - catie turner

I don't hate you / I just hate the way I love you / And I hate the way I tell myself I'm fine / I wish I didn't have to lie

looking up - paramore

Could've given up so easily

I was a few cheap shots away from the end of me

left a mark - petal

i was born to kiss your mouth / i was born to be the dust / i was born to cover you / i was born to leave a mark / i was born to be the light / to be the light inside your room / i was born to be the dust that covers you

runaway with me - carly rae jepsen

I'm a sucker for an aching heart / Gotta suffer for the sake of art / And I want you cause you make it hard

foolish one - taylor swift

Oh, you haven't written me or called / But goodbye screamin' in the silence / And the voices in my head are tellin' me why

enough for you - maisie peters

And that hole in my chest gets a bit bigger / And it dawns on me / All the things that I couldn't see / It was perfect as long as it wasn't real

that was then - emily james

We were a summer kissed red but oh that was then / And this is now

(un)lost - the maine

I'm not looking for anything in particular / But I'm far more desperate than you think

maybe dont - maisie peters (ft jp saxe)

Yeah, I run from the things that I want the most / You said, "I get that's what you do, but maybe don't."

i left a party for you - pilar victoria

I know how you feel, if this is real, what do I do?

closer - tegan and sara

Here comes the breath before we get, a little bit closer / Here comes the rush before we touch, come a little closer

in the movie version of this fic i directed in my head while reading it, this song would be playing softly in the background of the arcade while luke shows trevor how to play pinball

i wanna be your girlfriend - girl in red

I wanna kiss you until I lose my breath / I don't wanna be your friend

generally, i try to do songs from the perspective of the pov character, but this song just felt so trevor in the fic that it had to make the cut

hurt - sasha alex sloan

I freak out every time we get closer / Cause I'm scared that it's just gonna hurt

treacherous - taylor swift

And I just think you should, think you should know / That nothing safe is worth the drive / And I would follow you, follow you home

harry and sally - taylor bickett and charlie pittman

Cause it isn't killing me we're not in love yet / We're just in the part, we're just in the part / Right before we figure it out

i saw your face - emily james

We could sit in silence / While this feeling finds its space / Keep the moment gentle / As it settles into place

the reasons - the weakerthans

I know you might roll your eyes at this / But I'm so glad that you exist

technicolor - sainte

Fell into you like the sea / You broke my fall / And you pulled me deep / I think that you should know this uncertainty has got me restless / Counting myself to sleep

millhouse - maisie peters

But in you, darling, I trust / Oh, everything's coming up Milhouse

love in real time - the maine