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someone I once held so close to my heart.

not because I stopped loving him,

but because I’m still learning how to understand myself.

there are feelings within me that I haven’t fully made peace with,

and sometimes they quietly weigh on my heart.

we shared moments, laughter, and warmth…

but when I return to my own space,

there’s a softness in me that still feels unsettled.

maybe I’m still figuring out what love truly means for me.

maybe I’m learning how to love without losing myself.

oh God…

please place آرام (calmness) in my heart.

teach me that it’s okay to be alone for a while,

to grow, to heal, and to find clarity.

guide me toward what is good for me,

even if it doesn’t look like what I once wanted.

surround me with sincere hearts,

and fill my life with Your quiet blessings and rizq.

You know what I don’t understand yet,

and You see what I cannot see.

so for now…

kalau kamu sekarang takut gabisa ini itu, takut salah dalam berbagai hal, wajar nak..

artinya kamu bertanggung jawab atas kehidupan yang akan kamu selamatkan nanti

takut itu perlu, terutama yang mendorong kita ke hal-hal yang positif. jadi kalo sekarang kamu overthinking belum handal dalam berbagai hal lalu kamu berusaha sekuat tenaga untuk belajar, it's okay, itu sudah lebih dari cukup

But what if I missed the chance because of it

My medical rotation officially ended today, I promise I won't call.

First time it was chill, we were on the hill

Second time the weather is cloudy, with our feet getting salty

Third time, there's no third time, because while my jeans still wet, you're already gone to the west