greek_psyche

-Frankenstein, Mary Shelley

All I've done is endlessly consume content that is not in my control well, kind of but at the same time not. Obviously, there's so much good to tiktok as well as bad, and recently, I've been getting most of the bad end.

But I just think this is the best decision for me, I'd like to be more in control of the type of media that I'm viewing, something that will fuel my brain instead of something that's taking away from it, tiktok can be and has definitely been an unhealthy obsession

No one understands me, and no one ever will but then again I'm not asking for someone to understand me all I'm asking for is empathy towards my emotions which I don't even understand. And sometimes it feels as if no one is empathetic to my mental battles that I so often speak of these days, because I smile and laugh it feels as if they don't the screams and crying as seriously

I know I always present as fine, but the truth is I'm not, I'm in such physical and mental pain everyday, it hurts and is very tiredsome.

Slowly everyday I'm trying to give myself hope, trying to find joy, but it's just so hard deep down at times that it's really hard to feel some sort of contentment in my life

Slowly, I thought my life was moving back on track. Everything seemed to get better for a while, or maybe I just convinced myself it was getting better