Greedy Again

I am stressed. I am stressed about money. I am stressed about school. And I am stressed that I will bring this virus home to my family.

I love my job and I know they are trying to keep us safe. But there just isn’t enough resources.

I’m scared. Stressed. I was mad but I’m too tired to stay mad. I don’t have it in me.

When this is done I’m gonna splurge. I’m gonna get a switch and animal crossing and hide in my room for three weeks and play. Which, interestingly, is what everyone is being asked to do to help me.

Also it’s allergy season we all feel like shit. I can’t tell who has allergies and who might have covid. But no one is seriously ill so that’s good.

Sonora did Perfect Girl are good. Stressed. A little scared for me. They have the same worries I do.

I guess that’s all.

Nursing school is almost done.

I cut my hair off.

I got plague and have been HECKIN sick for over a week.

Sonora and kids are sick too.

Perfect Girl is not sick. She refuses.

Got a new dog.

Two new cats.

New tires.

Just five months till graduation.

Probably getting Disney Plus

That is all.

I am so honored.

So I see this all the time on my FB. This post. And then lots of happy people laughing.

I’ve been this girl. Trying SO hard to believe it’s going to be okay. That it wasn’t a mistake. That it’s just hard because marriage is hard. That it will get better. Trying to paint pain as joy.