for wonwoo

This is heartbreaking.

One of the members of my first fandom went to heaven.

Words can’t even explain how down I am.

How weak I am.

But then, I want him to rest and forget all the bad things that he has been thinking all his life.

I want him to be happy.

Even if it’s late and he’s on his second life.

He doesn’t deserve the depression enveloping his existence from the beginning.

An angel is supposed to be happy, right?

All he did for us is to give us songs that will fulfill us as a fan.

But in the music, he showed what he can’t say.

That everything is suffocating him and he can’t breathe from it. 

The chains are tying his hands and he can’t move.

He’s asking us to tell him what to do.

It’s painful because I realized this when it’s already late.

I will not say that he’s gone because I know he’s still there, being our guardian angel.

Our forever angel. 

I love you, Kim Jonghyun.

I will never forget you.