âaw, thatâs so cute how we think the exact same way, graycie â which reminds me, youâre my date to the halloween party tomorrow, right?â
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âJust trying to get me to show them off even more, Gray? Iâll do it, though. Iâll attract hella attention, though, so caution. My attention might be taken away from you for five seconds, I hope you can handle a few minutes without your best pal.â
This was ridiculous. Homecoming had been ages ago, but the way Ben told it, it was like the whole debacle had just happened. Grayson had promised that heâd talk to Sophia and apologize (or whatever) though, and now that he and Ben were finally back to normal he wasnât about to fuck things up again. Especially not because of anything to do with Sophia. Grayson doubted Sophia would respond to any texts from him again though, so he was forced to ask Ben where the hell her locker was, and subsequently use that information to track her down at school. Spotting her in front of it at lunchtime, Grayson leaned up against the lockers beside hers, hopefully startling her in the process. âBen wanted me to talk to you, so donât yell at me for being here,â he said, in lieu of a greeting. Heâd only promised to apologize for ruining Sophiaâs (stupid) date with Ben on homecoming; he didnât have to be civil past that.
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âYes, I meant it as an insult, how old are you? What do you have against tights, Gray? They are surprisingly stretchy and comfortable, except for in the ball area, I will admit. But people are going to be admiring my arms in this Luke costume, Iâm telling you.â
âIs that what youâre going as, Gray? And Iâm offended, Iâm cooler than you, Mr. I-Sometimes-Wear-Spiderman-Boxers. They were Superman and  Robin Hood.â
âOkay, first off Spider-Man is the shit, so if you meant that as an insult youâre just plain wrong. And, uh, considering that Lukeâs the only one of those costumes that doesnât involve tights, Iâm gonna say youâre probably making the right call going with that one.â
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âI bought three costumes just in case I change my mind and I think Iâve finally convinced myself to be Luke Skywalker for Halloween. What do you think?â
Ben spots Grayson leaving Samâs house in the aftermath of his latest task.
In Graysonâs experience, sometimes things were just too much to deal with all at once. Some things just had to be put aside for later, when heâd had a chance to catch his breath or knock back a drink or two. This was one of those things, and as he crept out of Samâs house in the middle of the night, he was pretty certain he needed that drink. Or âsomethingâ. Maybe then it would be easier to process the fact that two months ago heâd kissed a boy, and now heâd just had sex with one. And not even with the same boy heâd kissed. He couldnât even pin the blame for tonight on Simon, not entirely, even though he wanted to. Simon had been the âlastâ thing on his mind once they were back at Samâs place after all. It wasn't like he was âgayâ though. He liked girls -- loved them -- and that definitely hadnât changed. And yes, he knew gay and straight werenât the only options, but even thinking it would...God, it would change everything. This was not how heâd expected his senior year to go, to put it lightly, and he still wasnât any closer to figuring out what to do about it. Well. That wasnât quite true. While heâd had no idea how to describe any of it before, now it just felt like there was something lodged in the pit of his stomach, and he was going to have to deal with it sooner or later. Later, though. Definitely later. For now, Grayson just wanted to find his car and get home. Hopefully his mom hadnât noticed he was gone, because he really didnât want to answer her questions about what heâd been doing all night. He ran a hand through his hair, trying to fix it all back into place as well as he could, and scanned the street for his car. Where the hell had he parked?
Ben hadn't been outside long. At least, he couldn't really remember how long he had been out there. All he could feel was the cool night wind tickling his spine through his hoodie and the warm smoke filling his lungs. The day had been entirely uneventful, especially since he had decided to abandon his homework and do nothing but play video games all day. By the end of it, he tried to convince himself that too much video games will rot his brain, so instead he found it himself to roll a blunt and walk outside, which could literally rot his brain. His last conversation with Grayson still played in his head, however. He couldn't seem to get the words from spinning in his mind, from everything he had said to everything Grayson had said. Ben was a proper idiot, everyone knew that, but he still couldn't believe some of the bombs he had dropped onto his best friend, especially considering their situation at the moment. A part of him almost suppressed the two memories, never wanting to think of them again, but another part of him held them close, not wanting to let go of something that made him feel a lot less.. alone. He pulled the blunt back to his lips, breathing in the smoke. It was becoming a roach now, which made him realize he must have been outside a lot longer than he thought. Just as he was pulling it back up, though, he saw something from the corner of his eye, a small human figure walking across Sam's lawn. He squinted slightly, looking at the figure that wasn't that far from him. Was Ben just high or was that.. "Grayson?" He called out, moving out of the shawdows of his porch. "Grayson, is that you?"
Graysonâs relief at spotting his car was short lived. He only made it a few steps towards it when he heard someoneâs voice calling out his name. Not just anyoneâs voice either, but unmistakably âBenâsâ voice. Fuck. Grayson froze, grimacing. Sure, Ben and Sam were neighbors, but did Ben have to be outside right at this moment? Then again, it somehow didnât seem too shocking that this would happen to him. Ben had been there for all his âotherâ moments like this, so why wouldnât his friend randomly show up tonight too? Grayson inwardly debated pretending he hadnât heard Ben, despite the fact that the night around them was quiet and calm. Maybe if he just kept walking then Ben would assume that he was wrong, and it wasnât âreallyâ Grayson sneaking out of Samâs house in the middle of the night. But no -- from where he was standing he could easily see Ben in the moonlight, and he was sure Ben could see him just as clearly. Bolting would be more suspicious, and he was already paranoid enough. What if Ben had already put the pieces together? Or worse, what if he hadnât even had to, what if someone had âtoldâ him? Grayson knew he and Sam been practically alone in the movie theater, without anyone else sitting nearby, but what if someone âhadâ somehow seen them anyway? Or, taking the prize for most irrational fear of all, what if Ben could just look at him and somehow âknowâ something had changed? He took a deep breath before smiling over at Ben. âUh, yeah, itâs me,â Grayson admitted, making his way over to Benâs house, arms crossed in front of him. âWhatâre you doing?â
It took a few moments for his best friend to respond to him, but Ben took no mind to it considering his state at the moment. He was just ready to continue his friendship with Grayson without having to worry about all the âbaggageâ that came with it. Despite everything apparently being "fine", Ben knew there was still stuff between them that hadn't been spoken about. However, whether that thought in Ben's mind was conscious to him or not was a mystery. Denial practically ran in his family. "Just, having a smoke." He said, flashing Grayson the roach in his hand. "It's almost done, but if you want a hit or two, i'm sure it'll buzz you." Ben had no idea if that was true; his mind somehow convinced him that saying that was better than being silent. There had been enough silence between them for long enough. "Why were you at Sam's place?" He asked, looking back up at Sam's house behind Grayson. It had just occurred to him that his friend was definitely not leaving his own house, but had walked out of Sam's front door. "Was there some secret nerd convention?"
He eyed what was left of the blunt in Benâs hand, before deciding that it was worth a shot at least. Roach or no, he could really use a buzz right about now. âSure,â he said, taking it from Ben, careful not to burn his fingers in the process. Ben didnât seem to be acting out of the ordinary at least, thank God. Maybe he was just being anxious for no reason -- he and Sam were friends, so it wasnât that weird that theyâd be hanging out. Grayson would just have to talk for a little bit and then say he had to get home to avoid getting yelled at by his parents. Itâd be fine. He hoped so at least, because something about the idea of âBenâ knowing, well. It seemed like itâd be extra horrible. âYeah, I wouldâve asked you to come, but we figured youâd be offended if we invited you to anything called a ânerd conventionâ,â he quipped, rolling his eyes and trying very, very hard not to imagine what itâd be like if he actually had invited Ben out for these purposes instead of Sam. âUh, no, we were just playing video games and lost track of the time.â The excuse came easily, the same one heâd used to invite himself back to Samâs place in the first place.
Something about his answer sounded odd, but it went right over Ben's head. He wasn't listening as much as he was watching. His eyes went from the roach in Grayson's hands up to his lips. He watched him, and something he felt inside of his strange state was too much for him. He was beginning to have similar urges, ones that he said didn't exist, and he had to make himself look away from his friend in order to convince himself of this. Would he even remember thinking this tomorrow? He hoped not. "Right..." Ben replied, putting his hands in his pockets. Something about that made him uneasy, because Grayson wasn't very close to Sam from what he understood. He had never really seen him go over to Sam's anyway. Or perhaps he was feeling a bit... jealous? âShitâ. "What did you guys play?"
âThe new Fallout,â Grayson said, blurting out the first game that came to mind, despite the fact that he had no idea if Sam even owned that one. Heâd just have to hope that Sam was okay going along with an increasingly specific ruse. Right now he needed to change the subject though, at least slightly. The easiest thing would probably be to ask Ben about Sophia, considering the fact that his friend had apparently asked her on a âdateâ at some point without bringing it up once before, but Grayson almost felt like heâd rather deal with Benâs questions than talk about that right now. Bringing up parties right now was out of the question too, considering the fact that drinking with Ben was what had started the whole problem. Jesus, talking to Ben was not supposed to be this hard. âStill canât beat FIFA -- you and I should get together and play next time youâre free,â he added, quietly willing Ben to talk about his own schedule or favorite games rather than asking any more questions.
The new Fallout? "Well, is it any better than the other three?" Ben wasn't a big fan of Fallout, but he guessed Grayson was. âWhy didn't I know that?â He could feel the cool air beneath the spaces in his jacket and every spec of hair seemed to be flying, but that was only because Ben's time was lapsing slightly. He also got a really sudden need to devour a couple hot pockets. "FIFA is definitely the best," He agreed, his skin shivering a bit. "Why don't you come over? I'm free right now or tomorrow. I also have more kush, if you want to roll up." Ben would be lying if he had said he hadn't been lonely more than usual these past couple weeks. Grayson was the only one that really came around all the time, and it had slowed down since everything had happened. "What do you say?"
âThe dog canât die this time around so, yâknow. Thatâs an improvement,â Grayson said, with a quick grin. He almost faltered when Ben immediately asked him over, because truth be told, yeah -- he would love to just hang out at Benâs place, even right now. The prior weirdness between them meant he hadnât been over to Benâs place in what felt like ages, and he could see how easy it would be to follow Ben back inside, to start up their favorite video game and get high. He had to get home though. He needed to shower, he needed to get some sleep, he needed to figure out how to subtly ask Sam to never breathe a word about this to anyone. âUh, I canât right now actually. I gotta get home. You know how my parents can be,â he said, making an exasperated face. It wasnât too far out of the realm of possibility -- this wouldnât be the first Friday night heâd had to book it home early to avoid his mom waking up and realizing he wasnât home yet. âBut I can come over tomorrow for sure! Text me, yeah?â he offered, before taking advantage of his hopefully effective exit line to turn towards his car and take a few steps away from this whole mess.
Ben didn't mind the fact that Grayson had to get home. He knew his parents were, that's true, but Ben still couldn't help feeling like that wasn't entirely it. "Of course, tomorrow!" He said, feeling just as chipper. It had been awhile, you can't blame him for being somewhat excited. "I'll text you." He watched, seeing Grayson turn slightly in the light of the street post. "Gray, wait," He said, moving to him quickly. "You have something on your neck," He went to get it, before realizing it wasn't a smudge, or anything of what he /thought/ it was considering Ben's current state. Instead, he felt a surface that felt like it had just dried up, and he realized the spot was a small purple bruise coming up to the surface. You've got to be fucking kidding me? "Gray..." He said again, pulling his hands away cautiously. Even in his state, a part of him knew what was going on, but a part of him didn't want to believe it. He took a small glance back at Sam's house before looking down at Grayson's feet. "You guys weren't playing video games, were you?"
Grayson stopped automatically when Ben asked him to, only to regret it moments later when Benâs fingers brushed up against a spot on his neck, abruptly making him realize how sore it was. He let out a slight hiss when Ben pressed against what he now realized was a bruise. A hickey, to be specific. He couldnât see it obviously, and it wasnât like heâd taken the time to examine his reflection while grabbing his clothes and booking it out of Samâs place, but even still, Grayson could easily guess what it was. And even worse, he could almost see the pieces fall into place for his friend. Fuck, heâd been so close to making a clean getaway. How could he not think about this possibility? He knew he bruised easily, but he hadnât ever thought about just how easily until this exact moment. Still, Benâs open-ended statement gave him some level of plausible deniability, and even as Grayson frowned, his stomach sinking, it didnât take long for him to decide he should just lie. âYeah, we were,â he said obstinately, in what he hoped was a convincing tone of voice. He couldâve gotten a hickey from somewhere else, right? It wasnât like Grayson was some kind of monk.Â
Ben couldn't explain the feeling that went through him in that moment. It was a mixture of sadness and confusion; he couldn't stop himself from feeling slightly sick as well. He also felt very replaceable. "Don't lie to me, Gray." He said, his mind sobering up slightly from the hurt he was experiencing. He couldn't imagine that happening, so why was he coming up with this conclusion? Maybe he âwasâ wrong. Maybe he was just high and coming up with the next best explanation because he didn't want to admit that Grayson had... âmoved onâ just like Ben had ("had"). He wanted any explanation but this, but it made the most sense for Ben at the moment. Besides, if it âdidâ happen, and Grayson wanted to hide it from him, that obviously meant more was going on between them than Ben wanted to admit. Unfortunately, that was exactly what was happening. "You've got to be fucking kidding me?"
Why couldnât Ben just let him lie about this? What was so wrong with Grayson wanting this to be âhisâ business, and not Benâs? He didnât want Ben knowing because...well, he just didnât. That was all. It was private, and he didnât need any more reasons other than that. âWhat does it matter? Why do you care?â he finally said, his tone equal parts angry and petulant when heâd only meant for it to be casual. He and Ben had decided very clearly that they were just going to be friends, whatever else had gone down between them. And it was just...theyâd only kissed. It didnât mean anything. It âcouldnâtâ mean anything, obviously, not if Ben reacted by shutting Grayson out for three damn weeks because of it. So Ben didnât get to turn around and pry into Graysonâs personal life, not when Grayson was dealing the best he could with -- with all of this. He was allowed to shut Ben out too if he had to.
It had been one of the first times he felt Grayson get defensive with him. Not that Ben didn't deserve it, because he did. He could sense a bit of Charlie growing into himself every day, but something about this situation right now made him feel more sensitive. He did feel hurt, but something slightly snapped inside him, making him feel completely pushed out of Grayson's life. He definitely deserved this. "You really fucking did, didn't you?" Ben couldn't believe it. Not only could he not imagine that going down, but he couldn't imagine him doing it with someone like Sam--someone who was so close to Ben before his life had spiraled. Sam was a bit of his childhood that hadn't been ruined yet, but his memory felt pretty tampered now. "What a ânerd conventionâ. You couldn't have picked someone else?" Ben felt sick to his stomach, his high obviously being ruined. He could always blame this on the fact that Sam was someone Ben used to know very well, but at the end of the day they both knew what was really bothering them, even if neither of them wanted to do anything about it. Ben sighed, bringing his tone down, because who was he kidding? He isn't angry with him, he isn't hurt. "Do you like him?"
âWhen did you get so âmiddle schoolâ? Obviously I donât like him. We were just having fun.â And, oh -- maybe he shouldnât have been quick to spit that out, to somehow reassure Ben that Grayson wasnât secretly pining over Benâs old friend. He was still trying to catch up in the conversation though, acting on impulse and unable to find his footing now that they were openly discussing this. Because if Ben was asking that then he thought that maybe Grayson could like Sam. That Grayson was the kind of person who could just like âguysâ that way. And that would mean putting Graysonâs sloppy, drunk attempts at kissing Ben into a whole new light, wouldnât it? He wanted to follow up his comment with something to shut that down, something to keep the tenuous peace theyâd only just recovered. Maybe he should add something like âyou can kiss someone without liking themâ, because it was true, but...he couldnât bring himself to say it, not even in that vague sense. âLook, can you just -- donât tell anyone, okay? Itâs not their fucking business either,â he finally said, gaze now firmly pinned anywhere but at Ben. Even just asking that felt like an admission. People didnât keep secrets unless they mattered, and even if he wasnât interested in Sam, Grayson knew that tonight mattered. He didnât know how Simon had found out about his confusion, but they were right -- this particular task had forced him to stopped ignoring it even just temporarily, and no matter how much he was avoiding reaching any conclusions right now it almost felt like it was only a matter of time now before he lost control of all of this and had to stare it in the face.
Ben just watched his friend as he went through an emotional roller coaster. In the midst of his answer, Ben also got a small confession, which made his stomach drop even more. âWe were just having funâ. Right, because stuff like that was just fun these days. They both belonged to a group known as the fuckboys(TM), how did he not expect this from him? He couldn't help but wonder if he had shown the same type of determination, if he had obviously just wanted a bit of fun but instead had everything turn into this big mess of bullshit. Why couldn't everything be easy? "Got it," Ben finally said, "I don't have anyone to tell." The only person he told absolutely everything to had been Grayson. Although he liked Sophia, there were some things you just couldn't tell friends that were girls. Guy things were sacred, but even if he could do it to spite Grayson, he wouldn't be able to bring himself to do it. It just wouldn't feel right. "Well... I hope you enjoyed it, then."
âOkay.â Grayson took a deep breath, finally looking back over at Ben. âThanks.â Whatever this conversation was it seemed to be drawing to a end now, and Grayson jumped on the opportunity to escape once more. He didnât particularly feel like this was âclosureâ, but it was late and he didnât really know what closure would even look like right now. âI really do have to get home though,â he mumbled, not entirely sure if his invite for tomorrow still stood, but deciding not to mention it at the moment. âIâll uh, Iâll talk to you later, okay?â Hopefully their next conversation wouldnât be so damn draining. He just wanted to walk away from Ben without feeling so exposed and âtiredâ was that too much to ask? Apparently so, these days. He climbed into his car and took a moment to lean back against the headrest and close his eyes, quietly muttering âfuckâ under his breath. Tonight had definitely been...something. Grayson sighed, started up the car, and drove off, unable to resist glancing at Ben one last time in the rear-view mirror.
Summary: Sara and I discussed who would top (i.e. for Hannah)
Grayson : Â No, no, no, nooooooooooo. No, no, no. Stick to the stuff you know. If you wanna be cool. Follow one simple rule, donât mess with the flow, no no. Stick to the status quoooooooo.
Sam: âShutup, Grayson.â Sam said, because that was in character.
Grayson: âBUT I LOVE HIGH SCHOOL MUSICALâ Grayson cried and shook his fist in the air.
Sam: Sam smacked Grayson quickly after licking his hand.
Grayson: âWEâRE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER ONCE WE SEE THEREâS A CHANCE THAT WE HAVE AND WE TAKE ITâ
Sam: âShutup.â
Grayson: âbut weâre all in this togetherâ
Sam: âI will smack you.â
Grayson: âow?â
Sam: âum more like kapow hahah stay in school kidsâ
Grayson: âur dumbâ
Sam: âu have no thumbsâ poof all thumbs in the world vanished we are now equal to apes.
Grayson: âWHERE DID MY THUMBS GOâ
Sam: âAHâ
Grayson: âI AM NOTHING MORE THAN A MERE THUMBLESS APEâ
Sam: âWHO WILL OPEN THE DOORSâ
Grayson: âWE ARE NOW STUCK OUTSIDE LIKE WILD ANIMALSâ
Sam: âmhhm atleast we have grass thoâ sam bends down to enjoy the locally grown grass.
Grayson: âGrassâŚyes, sweet grassâ Grayson said but wasnt hungry so he just watched.
Sam: Sam spit out a lady bug, oh no it was a radioactive ladybug. He is now lady bug man saving the world from harsh smells and rotten cheese.
Grayson âALL HAIL LADYBUG MAN
Sam: lady bug man fluttered away, oh no a radioactive grashshopper coming towards Grayson.
Grayson: Grayson tried to avoid the grasshoper but could not. The grasshopper bit Grayson and he died because his body did not take well to the radioactivity.
Sam: âNO!â Sam yelled as his tiny wings clinged back onto his body, he ran over to the carcus that now was Grayson. âI always loved you.â Sam said as a tears dropped onto Graysons crotch.
Grayson: The ladybug tears on Graysonâs nether-regions held magic powers and Grayson came back to life with wings on his penisâŚ.you could sayâŚ.his dick was fly.
Sam: âGraysonâ
Grayson: âSam-izzleâ
Grayson: âMy dizzle has wizzlesâ
Sam: âYouâre alive.â
Grayson: âNo shizzleâ
Sam: Sam embraced Grayson in a hug, avoiding the winged penis region.
Grayson: No one can avoid the winged penis region. Graysonâs wings fluttered and softly caressed Samâs thigh.
Sam: Sam moaned slightly at the soft feel of the boyâs wings. His lady bug wings popped out and began to flutter; they ladybug equivalent to a boner.
Grayson: âdas gayâ Grayson whispered
Sam: âim not gay thoâ
Grayson: âwell das still gayâ
Sam: âim bisexual u shitâ
Grayson: âgayâ
Sam: âbiâ
Grayson: âhomoâ
Sam: âwell thatâs sexistâ
Grayson: âur sexistâ
Sam: âIm biâ
Grayson: âsexistâ
Grayson: âbi-sexistâ
Sam: âur hotâ
Grayson: âthxâ
Sam: âur wlcm sweet cheeksâ
Grayson: âmmmm bbâ
Sam: âthatâs gayâ
Grayson: âur gayâ
Sam: âno im samâ
Grayson: âo srry samâ
Sam: âdas ok"
Grayson: âwe cool denâ
Sam: ânr weâre lady bugs I thinkâ
Grayson: âoh well only my dick isâ
Sam: âoh Iâ
Grayson: âyeah soâ
Sam: âwell can u flyâ
Grayson: âonly my dickâ
Grayson: âit floatsâ
Sam: âhow does that workâ
Grayson: ânot wellâ
Sam: âwow must be great for sex"
Grayson: âu kno how i doâ
Sam: âno no I dont
Grayson: âoâ
Sam: âyeah so Iâ
Grayson: âyes benâ Grayson asked because that was ic
Sam: âu cant talk to himâ
Grayson: âyâ
Sam: âur mine I gave u a flying penis dammitâ
Grayson: âo right thx 4 tht btwâ
Sam: âoh ur wlcmâ
Grayson: âwell COMâ Grayson laughed at his sex joke
Sam: âhaha good oneâ Sam laughed even though h didnât understand. what was sex
Grayson: Grayson and sam have weird RADIOACTIVE RADIOACTIVE sex
Sam: âwow now I understand the sexâ
Grayson: *star wars main theme plays in the distance*
Seems like youâre stuck in a love triangle now, arenât you? With the queen bee Scarlett Coleman practically hanging onto your every word as you pine after Oakviewâs Ben Greene, itâs understandable that youâd had a hard time deciding which.. side you want to take. But donât fret! Thatâs why weâre here, remember? To look out for our dear seniors? So Simon says to hook up with someone â preferably of the same gender, too, so you can really determine whether or not these feelings for a certain blonde are valid or not. Weâre practically doing a favor here for you, are we not?Â
- S
Grayson was usually at least ten minutes late to every movie he went to, especially if it was one heâd already seen, but nerves had him at the movie theater a good fifteen minutes early for once. He loitered around the lobby, trying not to examine those nerves too hard. Now really wasnât the time for introspection. Normally Grayson would welcome another person right about now, but spotting Sam in the lobby too only reminded him that this was -- what? Not a date, obviously, but thanks to Simon it was about to get really awkward or really...well. His thoughts about that were exactly what he didnât want to examine too hard. âHey!â Grayson called, flagging Sam down as he rushed across the theater to meet his friend. âI would ask if youâre excited to see the movie, but this is what, like your seventh time?â There was a part of him that wanted to keep rambling, filling the space, but he stopped himself for now.
It wasnât his intention to arrive so early. His mother was expecting guests at the house, a philanthropic group hoping to save the endangered bats of Kentucky, and she needed her son to leave for parking purposes. It would have been an inconvenience if the boy hadnât had plans. Sam entered the theatre and went through the ticket procedure, nodding at the current attendant. He had worked the same spot over the summer, because boredom had gotten the best of him, but it mainly had to do with his grandfatherâs incessant threats to stop adding funds to his bank account. He carried himself through the lobby and entered the adjacent theatre, holding a spot near the door until he spotted the person he expected to meet. Sam greeted Grayson with an endearing grin and a short handshake (a dap). âOh, tenth, actually.â He corrected the other, his voice was quiet and held a hint of embarrassment. It was honesty, though. The first four times were for pure enjoyment, but around the sixth or seventh he realized he was just waging how many times he could sit through the space opera before the DVD release. âAre âyouâ excited to see it again?â
âTen times? Damn. Are you sure you wanna sit through it again?â It was equal parts terrifying and bizarrely impressive, as Grayson barely had the attention span to make it through a movie twice, let alone ten times. â'Cause we could always go back to your place and do something else if youâre suddenly bored of it,â he added, abruptly struck with the fact that he had no fucking clue how to flirt with a boy. That line would be obvious in any other context. Hell, just asking a girl out to a movie one-on-one usually meant something, but that didnât apply here, right? He and Ben watched movies alone together all the time, and half the time it was back at Ben's house. Although that probably wasnât the best example, considering. God, maybe he really should have just flirted with some random guy at a party. Sure, that would mean dodging half his friends all night and potentially getting punched by some drunk guy who's signals he'd misread, but at least he wouldn't have to be sober. Truth be told though, as stupid as it sounded, there was a part of him that wanted to try this without being wasted. Maybe this would somehow work instead of blowing up in his face, and heâd kiss Sam and immediately hate it. Or...maybe he wouldnât. But either way, he wanted to know. Not that he enjoyed admitting that, but hey, this way he didnât have to. Simon gave him permission to pretend otherwise. âBut uh yeah, I am! This is only the second time for me,â he said, producing his ticket, already crumpled from being in his pocket for ten minutes.
He shrugged his shoulders in reply to the question. âIf you donât want to watch it, we can go somewhere else. Iâve seen it nine times, I think I know how it ends. â Sam found it odd that even though Grayson had been the one to suggest the movie, he was willing to change his plans just like that. It wasnât that he wanted to sit through The Force Awakens for a tenth time. Of course, he didnât mind rewatching it, but Sam didnât know what they could do in itâs place. âYeah, uh, thatâs fine. We can play video games or something. Itâs your call, whatever you wanna do.â He suggested, fiddling with the sleeve of his sweatshirt and second thinking the otherâs statement. Sam didnât believe Grayson meant to phrase his words the way he did, mainly because he had never heard anything about him being something other than straight. Guaranteed, though, he didnât get out very much. He brushed his thoughts aside and climbed up the stairs of the theatre, making his way through to the middle of a deserted row. âYouâve gotta see it at least seven more times to get the full effect, you know?â The male grinned as he took a seat in front of the glowing cinema screen.
Going back to someoneâs house for video games probably wouldâve been easier, but in all honestly, Grayson was far from operating on any kind of a plan. After reading  Simonâs latest text, heâd gotten about as far as âwell, fuckâ and, âshould i really do thisâ, and âsamâs not straight, rightâ. And so, in all his rushed genius, heâd asked Sam out to Star Wars. Not as a date per se, except for the part where Grayson was trying to get into his pants, which honestly made it pretty damn close to any of the actual dates heâd been on. Thinking about Sam that way was followed almost instantly by his face heating up, not entirely from embarrassment alone, and Grayson immediately worried about his facial expression. It wasnât like heâd considered Sam that way before, but there was no getting around it now. He stole a sidelong glance at Sam who was, thank God, heading towards the movie rather than noticing anything about him. Once they reached their seats, Grayson took a deep breath and settled down alongside Sam, trying to figure out how to go about this. Movie theaters were time honored date spots for a reason though, and Grayson took full advantage of it to lean in close to Sam under the excuse of âkeeping his voice downâ while they talked. âDonât encourage me. Benâs already over it, so youâd probably get stuck going with me seven more times then.âÂ
Samâs eyes fell upon the screen as he sat down, and he claimed the armrest of the vacant seat on his left. The lights had been dimmed and the screen had just focused in on the opening scene. He yawned and leaned onto his palm, letting the action of the scene rise before he focused back on the movie. In order to reply, he adjusted his position and moved a bit closer to the boy, âI bet you could do it, but I âdoubtâ Iâd be able to sit through this seven more times. Maybe, though.ââ His words came out in a hushed tone, and he tried to avoid disturbing the few other people that were sitting in the room.
âClearly youâre not really committed to this movie if you canât watch it seventeen times.â With the lights down and the movie going, it was easier to fall into a pattern of things -- leaning in to practically whisper dumb observations to Sam, using the cramped seats as an excuse to get close or âaccidentallyâ brush their arms together, cracking jokes for both a sense of camaraderie and a distraction. If Grayson stopped quietly panicking about the fact that this was âSam McGuireâ, then it was fine. It wasnât until they both turned towards each other to make some comment about Finn and Reyâs escape from Jakku that the whole thing became solidly real again and Grayson froze. Sam was too close, the lights were âliterallyâ dim, and it was probably as close to a good moment as he was going to get. But he was also Graysonâs friend, and hadnât Grayson learned his lesson about messing around with friends? Apparently not though, because he wasnât going to waste this chance. Simon says, right? So Grayson swallowed, ignoring the fact that he didnât have a particularly believable excuse planned if this thing blew up in his face, and leaned in the last few inches to kiss him.
âI guess Iâm not as big of a fan as I thought I was.â He whispered in amusement, his mouth retreating to a thin smile. Sam watched as Rey and Finn navigated through the wreckage and jolted off into space. He inched closer to his friend, opening his mouth to praise the Millennium Falcon, but his words were brought to a halt when the other boyâs lips came crashing against his own. His eyes grew wide in surprise, and he didnât react instantly. He had noticed a difference in Grayson tonight. A few odd actions had caught Samâs attention, but he pretended to not notice the frequent touches and how he continued to move closer. He suspected was nothing, but it still made him wary of the maleâs movements. In the moment of hesitation, Sam shut his eyes and tilted his head, returning the kiss the boy had shocked him with. He was tense and unsure, his mind holding various questions as to why this was happening, and he only relaxed into the unexpected kiss when the sounds of the theatre were drowned out by whatever was going on right now. He pulled away, his eyes fluttering open and moving in the direction of the screen. âYouâre gonna have to wait a minute, this is the best part of the movie.â He waited until after Han and Chewie had appeared on the ship to move back into the kiss.
For a moment the other boy didnât react, and it was just enough time for Grayson to immediately shift into panic mode -- heâd misinterpreted something, heâd assumed too much about his own ability to pull this off, maybe he was just point blank âbadâ at kissing boys and God, wasnât this going to be embarrassing --, but then something changed, and Sam kissed back. It was different from kissing girls, different from kissing Ben, but it wasnât bad either. Far from it actually, and his disappointment when Sam pulled back was about more than just concern for his Simon task. He snorted when Sam brought up âwhyâ heâd stopped though, because âof courseâ. Inviting Sam out to The Force Awakens was a good way to guarantee that heâd come along, but maybe not a particularly good way to ensure that Sam would be easily distracted from the film. âOkay, first of all the best part is actually the Han and Leia reunion,â he started, before Sam leaned back in and Grayson remembered that he wasnât actually here to dissect which Han Solo scene was the best.
Samâs lips moved against the other boyâs, and he slid his hand behind his neck. His heart started racing as the kiss went deeper, and the surround sound of the movie theatre seemed to fade from his hearing. The night had definitely taken a different route than Sam had expected. It wasnât a bad turn, though, but it âwasâ close to the last thing he figured would happen. He never thought heâd be making out with Grayson Handler in the back of a nearly empty movie theatre. It was abrupt and unplanned, and honestly, Sam was still confused as to why this was happening.
Thank God it was dark, and thank God the original hype over the new Star Wars movie had slowed down, allowing them relative privacy in the theater. Grayson couldnât imagine trying to explain this to someone he knew. Of course, Sam would obviously know this âthingâ about him now, but Grayson patently ignored that anxiety for the moment in lieu of focusing on the kiss alone. It was easier than expected actually, even while sober, to lose himself in this. Making out in the theater wasnât the extent of what Simon had asked of him though, and so when they finally pulled apart again for air Grayson blurted the first stupid line on his mind, too busy trying to sort through everything that was going on to really think it through -- âStill down to go to your place and play video games?â And come âonâ, Sam had to understand what he meant this time around, right?
When they pulled away from each other and Grayson began to speak, Sam felt like an idiot for not understanding what he was saying earlier. In his defense, he wasnât thinking like âthatâ when Grayson first suggested they return to his home. Still, he felt the blush creep onto his cheeks. Whether that was from the boyâs question or his sheer stupidity, he didnât know. âYeah,â he started, pulling his phone from the pocket of his jeans to check the time. His motherâs friends should have left by now, or at least relocated to a bar, because there was no way they could discuss  bats for this fucking long. âLetâs go.â For some reason, he didnât expect to be playing video games tonight.
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Three weeks. Grayson was pretty sure he hadnât gone that long without talking to Ben since theyâd first met each other freshmen year. To be fair, it wasnât like things had been entirely silent, but they certainly werenât what he was used to either. A few scattered texts and a very pointedly distant Ben were clear enough signs that things were still fucked up. It wasnât like Grayson had been particularly good about reaching out either -- sometimes it was just so much easier to ignore the problem. Not always though. So finally, after alternating between anxiety, exasperation, and some bitter feeling that felt far too similar to longing, he decided it was time to say something to Ben. They had drama together last period (which was an even shittier class when he couldnât properly mock it with his best friend), and so Grayson made sure to catch up with Ben as he exited the classroom. âYo, can we talk? Uh, not here obviously,â he added, his voice low enough that no one else could hear them in the chaos of the hallway.
Ben had been in a state of denial--mostly. Ever since Sophia had told him that Grayson made up some kind of bet between them, he hadn't been able to look at his best friend the same way. Well, regardless of that, it was harder to talk to him because of what had happened between them at the bonfire. No significant words can be exchanged, but they had both acknowledged their drunken (mistakes? he wouldn't call it a mistake...) happenings to each other, which left Ben feeling more vulnerable than he cared to admit. Not to mention he found out about the bet the very next day. He knew one of these days they would have to talk about it, but he didn't quite know what to expect when he heard Grayson's voice behind him. "Oh, uhm," did he have any kind of practice? meetings with friends? what was ben kidding? he didn't do anything besides hang out with grayson most of the time. "Sure." He finally told him, admitting defeat. I can't run away from him forever. He began to walk again, waiting for Grayson to lead him in whatever direction he wanted to.
Admittedly, Grayson hadnât thought this far ahead, and he faltered for a moment before dragging Ben into a nearby classroom. It was empty, thank God -- heâd hate to have to turn around immediately and track down a different one, because there was no way in hell he was bringing this up in front of anyone other than Ben. He didnât even particularly want to talk to Ben about it but...he wanted his best friend back, plain and simple. He wanted Ben. And apparently going back to normal wasnât an option unless they talked about this stupid thing between them. âOkay, so...are we. I mean,â he paused, clearing his throat in a clear attempt to buy time. âSo we should probably do something about the fact that we kissed and now weâre ignoring each other.â It all came out in a rush, practically a single stream of air, as if saying it quicker made it any easier to say (it didnât).
It took a few seconds for Grayson's sentence to process in his head. As soon as he heard the....k-word, he immediately became numb from his neck down. He tried his best not to falter in his stance. He was so glad no one was around without them knowing. He had no idea what he had done. But now this was actually happening, and the word had been brought into the actual conversation, and everything seemed completely wrong in the moment. But he missed him. He did. At the same time, he thought about the incident with Sophia and he had feelings of doubt again; he felt betrayal between them as well as tension. What kind of tension? He wasn't sure, but he couldn't seem to ignore it. "Should we?" Ben finally replied, feeling himself tighten up slightly and reverse into himself. "Maybe we should do something about the fact that you tried to ruin me and Sophia's friendship."
Grayson had expected a lot of reactions, from acceptance to anger to straight up laughing about it. He hadnât expected Ben to immediately turn around and fling his task with Sophia back at him, although he probably shouldâve seen it coming at some point. Truth be told, in the interim between sabotaging Benâs homecoming date and now heâd just been hoping (selfishly, but what else was new), that heâd gotten away with it. Besides, heâd been too busy worrying about their kiss that night to really consider Sophia in all this mess. It seemed fitting that this would be the week Ben brought it up again though, considering he had a brand new text from Simon on his phone at the moment. âOh. She told you about that?â Grayson hesitated, unsure what to say about it. It wasnât like he could tell the truth about Simon, so he fell back on his favorite lie -- âIt was just a joke. Honestly, I didnât realize sheâd take it so seriously, okay? Sorry.â It wasnât too far out of the realm of reality, considering the animosity between Grayson and Sophia.
Ben honestly thought that whatever Grayson could respond with that it would make him feel immediately better about the situation, but for some reason his sentence only pissed him off slightly. A joke? He knew Grayson was about jokes and being funny, but a part of him knew his best friend knew when it was time to be serious. He also thought this would be one of those moments. "A joke?" Ben repeated, feeling his jaw clench slightly. "So, what? My long term friendship with Sophia is funny to you? Me getting rejected on camera and becoming an internet joke again was funny to you?" He should feel more angry. He should be more furious at the fact that this was even happening, but mostly, Ben just felt sad. He felt betrayed; he felt like the one person who had always been there for him had finally seen he wasn't worth much. Then there was the kiss, which Ben couldn't stop thinking about as much as he convinced himself he did. "That night... homecoming," He said, trying not to use the word like Grayson had so bluntly did a few moments prior, "You let it happen... you knew what you did." An epiphany began to build behind his eyelids, and now Ben was confused more than ever.
âNo, thatâs not what I wanted. I just wanted to mess with Sophia. She hates me anyway, I didnât think sheâd actually believe me.â Did Ben really think that Grayson wouldâve wanted to actively hurt him? Apparently so, and even knowing the truth about Simon, that stung. Mostly because Grayson couldnât defend himself, not even within the privacy of his own thoughts. It was all Simonâs idea, but Grayson had been a little too happy to destroy Sophiaâs chances with Ben for the night. Benâs next few sentences were still worse though, especially when his tone changed, sounding more sad than angry. âI didnât -- I mean, I pulled back,â Grayson said defensively, as if that helped the situation. Ben was right though. Even knowing that heâd sabotaged Benâs real date only hours beforehand, Grayson had been perfectly willing to stand in for the good night kiss, and he hadnât been nearly drunk enough to use alcohol as an excuse. âYou surprised me,â he added helplessly, as if reminding Ben that he was the one whoâd instigated it, not Grayson, would help.Â
Ben didn't know how to feel or what to think. Grayson's defensive mode made this even harder, because he could sense that this was hard for both of them and was trying to make it better any way he could, but something about the entire situation was fucked. "Sophia is vulnerable," Ben said suddenly, "Even if she doesn't want people to know that, she is. âIâ know that. I'm her best friend. I can't believe you wanted to hurt her." I can't believe you didn't think about how it would hurt âmeâ. He could feel a tear or two gather up in his eyes, but he sucked them back, trying to do anything else but be overly upset right now. "It doesn't... that doesn't matter," Ben knew he instigated it this time. He remembered the first kiss and he remembered the second, but he forgot that Grayson didn't know that detail. "I may have done the last one... but you started it." He kept his gaze off of Grayson, not sure if he could look him in the eyes at that very moment. "I remember." He finally admitted, keeping his eyes down.
Grayson couldnât think of a single thing about Sophia that was âvulnerableâ, but now wasnât really the time to get into that. âI said Iâm sorry! And I can apologize to her too if you want --â he started. Sophia would probably gloat for years, but itâd be worth it if this was over. He lost that train of thought when Ben admitted to remembering the night of his party though, abruptly shocking him into silence. Ben remembered? And heâd lied about it? Even though Grayson had initially wanted to ignore it too, he still found himself irrationally upset at the knowledge that Ben, clearly, thought it was a complete mistake, and would rather have lied forever than ever admit it had happened. It wasnât like Grayson was a paragon of honesty, and he knew he didnât have the right to feel like it wasnât fair, but he did anyway -- Ben was able to lie and act like nothing happened, could kiss him again and then hold them both against him, and Grayson couldnât stop thinking both kisses either way. But Ben was right. Grayson âhadâ started this. In the end, it was his fault. âFine, Iâm sorry about that too. Wonât happen again. Is that what you want me to say?â Even as he said it, Grayson wasnât sure what he wanted to hear back -- that Ben regretted it and wanted him to regret it too, or that he didnât need to be sorry. The sinking feeling in his gut told him he was probably screwed either way.
"You are going to apologize to her," Ben said, "And you're going to make sure she knows I had nothing to do with your little âjokeâ, because I don't want anything hard feelings to ruin..." He hesitated, feeling the slight word at the tip of his tongue. "Our date." He finally said, feeling himself lose a bit of the anger he had previously. As he had finally admitted that to him, he couldn't seem to get the image out of his head of Grayson's lips on his and vice versa. The simple thought didn't send Ben running in a different direction, which caused him to realize just how scared he truly was now. Grayson, his best friend, was in front of him, and they were talking about the âtwoâ times they had kissed and none of it felt real. This didn't feel real. "No," Ben said quieter than before, feeling like he had just hit himself in the gut. He wasn't sure what had happened between them; they had both went to far each time, and they had equal responsibility in this situation being completely fucked up, but a part of him knew it wasn't something he necessarily regretted. He just wasn't sure what it meant yet. "I don't know."
âYour date,â Grayson repeated flatly, suddenly feeling like apologizing to Sophia was the âlastâ thing he wanted to do. Actually, he kind of wanted Simon to tell him how to ruin this date too, because he apparently hadnât learned his lesson last time. âObviously sheâs not still pissed at you then, so thatâs...good,â he said, even managing to summon up some fake enthusiasm, because that was easier than saying anything else that was going through his mind. Better than dealing with the fairly spectacular ânon-answerâ Ben had given him. âFine. Iâll talk to her.â It was going to be like pulling teeth, and Sophia would never let him live it down, and Ben would probably still think Graysonâs feelings towards Sophia were completely unmitigated no matter how annoying she was, but fine. For Ben, heâd talk to her. Grayson didnât know how to tackle the rest though. Whatever tension heâd worried about was still there, but he just felt tired and deflated now. God, heâd never been any good at these kinds of conversations, so maybe it would be better to avoid pushing his luck any further. âAlright, so you donât know. Iâm not like, about to tackle you every time we drink together, okay? I just want us to go back to being friends. Like ânormalâ,â he said, stressing the last word like a peace offering.
Ben couldn't figure out what Grayson was thinking, but something changed between them then, and he wasn't sure if it was a good or bad thing. All he could think about was losing his best friend, which was definitely out of the question, but the way Ben had been acting didn't necessarily help the situation either. "Yeah," He said, clearing his throat slightly. He could hear a certain tone in Grayson's voice that he couldn't necessarily pinpoint. "Thank you," He said, "I really appreciate it..." He thought about both Sophia and Grayson then, and he never knew why neither of them got along. He never knew someone would dislike someone else that much. It all just seemed too bizarre. He looked up to hear Grayson's next words, and his first instinct was to freeze up and lose his cool, but Ben knew Grayson, and he knew how he was with his words, so he could sense the joking manner between the spaces. He decided to laugh slightly then, not really sure yet if it were real or made up at the moment, but it didn't really matter at that point. "A drink sounds nice though," He joked back, "You're always gonna be my number one, Gray.
Youâre always gonna be my number oneâ. There was no denying the relief Grayson felt at those words, and he smiled at Ben for the first time throughout their conversation. After all, Ben was his best friend. Outside of his family, Ben was his number one too, and if the past few weeks were a window into what life without their friendship would be like then he wasnât interested. Ignoring the voice in the back of his head pointing out that things werenât completely resolved, that neither of them knew how they actually felt about kissing each other, he chose to believe that things were going to be fine now. Ben wanted them to go back to being friends too, so things would be better, at least, if not completely fine. He knew Stella was probably right, and he still had things he needed to figure out, but he could work it out easier if he wasnât busy worrying about losing his best friend permanently. âYou too, man,â he told Ben, feeling closer to normal than he had since their first kiss. He felt good, actually. Happy, even though only moments earlier this had felt like a train wreck. If it was anyone else other than Ben in front of him, heâd be annoyed at how easy it was for them to impact his mood with just a few sentences. ââThereâ, that wasnât so bad, right?â he joked, fully aware that Ben had probably hated this conversation as much as he did. âNext time we have to fight letâs only put it off for like, two weeks max.â Or better yet, maybe they could just not fight at all next time.