you loved me back to life

I had what i assume now it’s a fling with an older guy who basically checked all the boxes and i thought maybe i had a chance with him for a longer relationship but it turned out to be just another fling for him while i’m crying my eyes out and having my heart torn every fucking day thinking about him and how good he made me feel on the three (3) days we were together

yes it was only 3 days but the thing is for the first time someone i genuinely liked in a non casual/one night stand sense actually liked me back and acted on it, and i was shocked to realize that mutual atraction is apparently real lol but then it just amounted to nothing?

i’m fucking tired, after almost 15 years of ppl telling me my time will come, that i will find someone worthy of me, so far i have found NO ONE while all my friends have at least had a boyfriend by now if they’re not already engaged/married/with children