My (personal) Quest for Ā āFUTUREā
What does the FUTURE mean for those of us who canāt imagine ourselves in it?Ā
I am Currently researching the concept āFUTUREā. This is just a digital scream to the void. A blogpost for FUTURE me to answer.
Ā The FUTURE is something that hasn't arrived yet. IT doesnāt exist. Multiple versions of it exist but theyāre pending. Uploading this post on my blog means that regardless of when its read-it too is part of the FUTURE. In early 2000 i watched the film Zenon: Girl of the 21st Century, although I was a child I still felt a wave of disappointment at the current situation I was in. There was no world like Zenonās. She claimed to be of the 21st century but here I was using my dialup connection to play games on kidsWB. I think thatās the first moment I felt constant disappointment for the dreams of FUTURE.Ā Granted I was living 50 years before Zenon in theĀ film but I found it deeply ironic. I keep remembering that film whenever I think of the FUTURE.
One of the things Iāve been trying to get a language for is the concept of NOSTALGIA.Ā
Weāre on a loop of constant reminders of a past we* never will experience, itās etched in our iPhones. Our Spotify accounts have a throwback playlist. We have mixes we play just to remember an era regardless if we were experiencing it or not. How does one remember the 70ā²s if they never existed in it. How does one remember the 90ā²s if they never lived in it? Is it the stories carried out or are experiences tied to commercials, political events, fashion or music? So is our past only tied to those factors? Ā āOnly 90ā²s babies understandā Loops of digital soundscape that was used in the 80s are more appealing to us now. Every decade reuses another decadeās fashion. Itās a constant borrowing of another era. Sometimes I think the best documentation of our own collective culture is via memes. Weāre actual starter packs?Ā What Iām trying to understand is the FUTURE. How we plan for it. Whoās included in this FUTURE? Who are we afraid of? More importantly what about those who canāt picture a future with themselves in it. They canāt imagine a FUTURE that is a construct of this. How can we imagine a FUTURE when weāre still are in the early stages of destroying the structures that keep us from achieving that FUTURE? Will White Supremacy exist in that FUTURE? Will we decolonize fully? Will religions be a part of that FUTURE? Who controls this FUTURE? Is Late Capitalism Ā destroying and halting our FUTURE? I listen to hours and hours of music of pasts I will never experience. I spend hours watching footages of eras I will never experience. It becomes a part of me. Influences me. Yet thereās that voice of mini me in early 2000 askingĀ āWhere is the FUTUREā. Imagination is crucial. Maybe I need to step back and question my consumption of music and art that wonāt really pull me into imagining another world yet to come. I am guilty of a specific aesthetic that I use in my art but most of it is questions I keep having. I like to play with Nostalgia but I also like to understand FUTURE.Ā *(the we is not universal)
