Whereās Robbie? Ā Again.
It was not a dark and stormy night but this is where my life super-changed.
My Grandfather died last November. Ā He was 89 and I was right there. Ā Totally, it does suck, but it was strangely OK then and remains so. Ā However, he left behind my now 92 year-old Grandmother who refuses to move in with either of her daughters, one of them being my 72 year-old Mother.
Everyone assumed sheād move in with my Mother. Ā Not so much. Ā Imagine the following. Ā She moved from her fatherās house, to her horribly abusive first-husbandās house and, finally, to the house of the only Grandfather on my motherās side that Iāve ever known. Ā She had never lived alone. Ā Ever.
When asked about moving in with my Mother (or my Aunt), she railed, āAre you drunk right now?Ā Iām sorry heās gone but Iām having fun being by myself!ā Ā And she is! Ā Sheās doing great!
However, sheās able to do so because my Mom does myriads of things for her every single day and my Mother is dreadfully overweight bordering on obesity and has mobility issues of her own. Ā I should mention that my Grandmother fits exactly that image of the sweet little, old lady. Ā She, in fact, is a very sweet and charming little, old lady with a wicked sense of humor but who is so Goddamn demanding in almost every way, itād make your head swim. Ā Sheās a handful even for a team of professionals.
We donāt have a single team of professionals. Ā Not a one. Ā We have my Mother. Ā My Aunt isnāt a factor, sadly. Ā Sheās the baby as well as the under-performing sibling who has no problem letting my Mom, the over-performing sibling, do all the heavy lifting. Ā In order to prevent my Mother from dropping dead from exhaustion and/or from committing matricide, I compensate for my Aunt by spending about half my time at home in Charlotte and the other half in Lexington. Ā The rage I feel toward my Aunt comes and goes. Ā I think Iām getting closer to accepting things as they are.
Whereās my brother, you say? Ā Being a shit and not helping me even a smidge. Ā In our ecosystem, heās the under-performing sibling (as well as the baby) and Iām the over-performing stooge who wants to break his neck. Ā But, again, I think Iām getting closer to accepting things as they are.
When I make the eight-hour trek up there, I usually pack for a monthās long stay and have three ā usually stinky ā canines in tow in the back seat. Ā Thank God for station wagons! Ā Even still, itās a lot of trouble but I have to do it and, despite the resentments, I do so gladly. Ā I like my Grandmother and I like my Mom and want them to hang out with me on this planet for as long as possible. Ā I never take my PS4, though. Ā I wanna and I could fit it but Iād never have time. Ā Seriously, my Grandmother has me on the move very nearly around the clock throughout the day. Ā āI just got back from Costco and now youāre telling me you need me to go back to Costco to get bananas? Ā At 4:35 PM?! Ā You know how easy itād be for me to kill you, right? Ā You are very tiny. Ā Literally, I could kill you dead in about, I dunno, less than a minute?ā Ā Our relationship allows us to talk to each like that. Ā As I say, she has a fierce sense of humor but, duh, she also drives me insane.
On top of all of the above, Iām also starting my own business. Ā I provide private computer tutoring on Apple products to, well, ladies who lunch. Ā I charge an obscene amount for my services and I truly enjoy what I do. Ā Itās what I did for seven years while working for Apple so it aināt no thang. Ā I feel very fortunate in this regard but what this means, though, is that even when Iām at home, I have very little time. Ā Youāll gain a greater understanding of the lack of time thing a few paragraphs down.
But wait! Thereās more! About six to eight weeks ago, the HD on my PS4 died, dammit. Ā So, yay for that! Ā I was trying to logon to FFXIV and the entire system started acting just a little bit wonky; then, I heard The Sound. Ā I hate that sound. Ā Iāve been meaning to order the replacement kit from OWC but just havenāt gotten around to it yet.
Lastly, as some of you know, my right hand, my number one⦠sheās dying. Ā Her name is Paige and she has advanced kidney disease. Ā We learned this just a little over two weeks ago. Ā Many things that were priorities no longer are. She could die in a coupla weeks or, if weāre super-lucky, it could be in the area of eight months. Ā Sheās nine years-old and the likelihood of her reaching ten is far-fetched. Ā My gut says I will have my sweet, sweet girl for two more months. Ā Just speculation, but I can kinda feel it. Ā I was a mess for about a week but Iām now in a better place.
Last week, a friend of mine and I and our collective pack spent a couple of days hiking in Pisgah National Forest and it was just what the doctor ordered, both for humans and canines alike. Ā Iāve slowly been posting photos in an iCloud Album. Ā As soon as Iām finished, Iāll post the URL.
Because Iām able to set my own hours, Iām able to spend as much time with her as I want. Ā I even take her to the office when Iām working. Ā Any prospective, new Student Clients are asked about allergies to dogs and if they provide an affirmative response, I apologize and refer them elsewhere. Ā Thatās just the way it is.
You have no idea how much I miss all of you, mmm⦠most of you and canāt wait to visit FFXIV as soon as my stupid console gets fixed.
For those of you who donāt mind showing yours if I show you mine, catch me at
rā0ābābāiāeāhā0āwāeālālāaātāmāaācādā0ātācā0ām (Ditch the dashes and change the zeros back to oās.)
Otherwise, hit me up on Twitter. Ā Iām not there nearly as much as I used to be but I try to get on at least once every couple of weeks. Ā Sometimes, more, sometimes, less.
Iām over-the-moon to have heard from those of you whoāve reached out to me. Ā Thank you. Ā It means a lot. Ā Iāve been a shitty friend. Ā I know it. Ā You know it. Ā So, cāmon⦠ No reason to whitewash anything. Ā However, even though Iāve been a shitty friend, I think youāll agree that my reasons are pretty compelling. Ā Ā Nevertheless, I offer each of you my sincerest apology.
Lastly, Iād truly love to hear from all of you! Ā It may take a while to get caught up fully with each of you, but Iāll take that action over nothing.
PS. Ā If anyone knows how to get my animated GIFās to move on Tumblr, please let me know! Ā Itās making me crazy! Ā Youāre missing out on my awesome dogs!
PPS. Ā āGame of Thronesā rules all and if you disagree, you will get cancer and die.