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Harry Styles • Tom Holland • Marvel cast + characters • JJ Maybank • Rafe Cameron

• ₊°✧︡ please keep in mind that english is not my first language so mistakes are possible, please be kind



Read part 1 here

Also thanks for nice and kind words. English is not my first language so i appreciate you guys so so much🥰

„And I consoled you while you cried Over your ex-girlfriend's new guy. My God, how could I be so stupid? You found a new version of me And I damn near startеd World War III. Jesus, what was I even doin'? 'Causе now it don't mean a thing. God, love's fuckin' embarrassin'. Just watch as I crucify myself. For some weird second string, Loser who's not worth mentioning. My God, love's embarrassing as hell.”

Two weeks passed and you could get a trophy for ignoring Peter Parker. He really fucked up and broke your heart. He chose MJ but still were texting you like crazy.

From FUCKING Parker

please y/n can we talk?

Im really sorry

I need to talk to you please

Delete. It was painful but at least very easy. Until one day when you got a call from MJ, his girlfriend.

“Hi y/n, uhm i know you probably can’t stand me and i totally get it but Peter really needs you.“ she said. You rolled your eyes pretty annoyed.

“Yeah, you’re right. Listen, MJ is really don’t care.“ you wanted to disconnected that call but she was still talking.

”Actually it’s about his spider duties“ she said a little quieter. You took a deep breath and agreed.

“Fine, give me 15 minutes“. Love was really embarrassing. As hell.

When you came to his apartment he was with MJ and Ned. It looked like Ned got his memory back. Good for Parker.

”y/n! You came!“ Peter smiled when he saw you at his front door. You walked in without knocking or calling, it was a simple habit because his home was once yours.

“You asked.“ you said and sat on the couch next to Ned.

“Okay, so we have a problem. Something happened and suddenly guests from different multiverses are back. I’m not gonna lie i’m pretty scared cause last time that happened i lost… a lot.“ You could tell that Peter was nervous. You wanted to hug him but you couldn’t.

“Hello, I’m Peter.“ a tall guy stand behind Peter Parker. Your Peter Parker.

“ Uhm, another one? I think one Parker is enough.“ you were confused. But…. Something is his sparkling eyes intrigued you.

” y/n please be nice. Okay so i need to meet Dr Strange and Someone needs to stay with Peter number 2“ The first Parker said.

“y/n can stay with him. We wanna go with you. I mean it’s Stephen Strange!! I wanna see him again! if u let me.“ Ned was really excited so you knew that your next hours are already filled with new Parker by your side.

“Fine, i hope he sucks a little less than the first Parker.“ You got up and went to the kitchen so you two could drink a coffee.

“That wasn’t kind but thanks y/n“ Peter smiled.

“No problem. I don’t treat people the way you do.“ you waved him goodbye when all three of them walked out.

You started doing your favorite coffee when Parker number two followed you to the kitchen. He was quiet but it wasn’t awkward. Actually he felt like a comfort person which was very weird. You didn’t know him.

“I can tell that Peter fucked up.“ he started. You look at him and smiled.

“I’m really trying.“ you gave him a cup of coffee and sat on kitchen countertop. “But you know it’s not that easy. We were together from the beggining of college and now suddenly out of nowhere his girlfriend got her memory back and he chose her. I don’t blame her actually but sweet Jesus it hurts.“

"I understand. I remember them being together. At least if he was your soulmate you can still have him as a friend. My soulmate will never go back.” Peter took a sip of coffee and looked at you.

”why?“ you were feeling very comfortable in his company

“She… Gwen passed away becasue i fucked up. I should have protected her and cared more. Way more." You felt very sorry for him and put hand on his arm. You were trying to show him your support.

"I’m sorry i don’t know why i said it. I just feel like you and i uhm.. we can become friends if i stay here a little bit longer." Weird. You felt the same.

”Well maybe we can go for a walk and get to know each other more?" What was in this guy? He was so fucking charming.

You two spent whole afternoon together. And the next day. And a few more days. You were texting with Peter all night and talking with him all day.

One day you visited him in Parker’s apartment and you were watching with him a movie, when he put his arms around you. You couldn’t explain this but he was like home to you.

But then Parker came back.

"Peter number two I’m home!“ he said and that pretty view of you two shocked him a little.

"Welcome back Parker." You said. He sighed and couldn’t wait any longer.

"Y/n can we talk?" Parker asked and you agreed this time. You were ready. He went to his bedroom and you followed him. Oh how you loved that bedroom long time ago.

"I wanted to apologize. I’m really sorry about that day. MJ just came here and i was so excited. I know that i treated tou bad and that was cruel…." He started.

"Oh yeah you were cruel” you gave gim that beautiful sarcastic smile.

"That’s what i’m saying. I’m sorry. Really truly fucking sorry.”

”Are you apologizing because you are worried that i share your secret with others? I’m not going to do this." Maybe you were a little mean to him.

"No! I trust you." He came closer and hugged you. You missed him.

"Okay I forgive you. We can still be besties and i really mean it!" You laughed.

"Thank you, i don’t wanna loose you. Ever. I swear. But there’s something i need to tell you." Here we go again.

" I uhm.. i talked to Peter and he really likes you. Like a lot. So i hope you won’t take this news for granted. I feel like he is your Peter Parker. But if he do something bad i swear i’m gonna…" you sweet Petey came back.

" hahaha stop! Okay Petey I swear i’m gonna treat him good. I really like him too. He feels like…home. I mean once you were my home too and I’m not goona hide it, I’m not gonna lie but i always felt like… uhm there was a small missing piece you know? I’m sorry too. I need to apologize MJ, i like her actually but shh that’s a secret!" You smiled and hugged him one more time.

"Just text her. She doesn’t like talking about feelings in person." He brushed his fingers through your hair. "Oh and you call me Petey again! Good, old y/n is back!"

"If you won’t stop, I’ll be jealous" your new Parker came to Peter’s bedroom and tried to look mad.

"You don’t have a reason. Even a little one." Peter looked at you and your new boyfriend and smiled. He didn’t want to loose you and that relationship you had. After all he still had you, his best friend and you were falling in love with his different version.

You needed to apologize MJ. She wasn’t the one to blame.

To MJ:

Hi MJ! I would like to apologize for every mean word i’ve ever said. I don’t know why i was so rude to you. I hope you both are happy. You look amazing together :)

From MJ:

Heeey y/n, it’s okay. We can hang around. I hope you get along with Peter too. You are his best friend and he needs you.

To MJ:

We are cool :) and sure i would love to!

"Why are you smiling?" Your Peter asked and kissed your forehead.

"am i?"

"Need a mirror? Actually i want to tell you something" Peter started. He seemed to be worried. Or stressed maybe.

"Go ahead”

"I love Gwen and i will always love Gwen but if you want to give us a chance. Even the smallest one, I’m totally ready." He said. You skipped words and sentences and kissed his lips. That was enough, right?

"I like that answer but If i go…"

"Parker don’t think about it."

"But what if…" he couldn’t stop thinking about it

"Then i’ll go with you."

"No way, you both will stay here. And please GET A ROOM! Love is fucking embarrassing."

"As hell!" You laughed.

After NWH. You met a very lonely boy with sadness in his eyes. You helped him. He told you his biggest secret. But when finally everything seemed to be okay… she came back. His love, his lifeline.

PART 2 HERE

“This is me praying that his was the very first page, not where the storyline ends. My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again. These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon. I was enchanted to meet you. Please, don't be in love with someone else. Please, don't have somebody waiting on you.”

You met Peter in college. He was in your class. Always alone and lonely as well. Your math professor paired up both of you and suddenly Peter became your friend from project.

Parker invited you a few times so you could do the homework together but you were always staying at his place longer than planned. Talking with him was so easy and funny. He was smart, kind and shared common interests with you. You became friends very quickly. One night he even told you his biggest secret about being a Spiderman. That was your favorite memory and you could see that scene in front of your eyes over and over again.

“look, i know that i’m not the most interesting girl in the world, but it would be lovely to tell me that you have different plans! I would understand you!” you said when he stood you up once again. Peter didn’t even texted or apologized. He looked sad. You wanted to continue your walk to class but he grabbed your hand and said “actually i need to tell you something. Can we…please go to my place? Please y/n!“.

You agreed and when you saw him climbing on his wall, your face became pale.

“Well as you can see I’m uhm…. I’m a spider. Spiderman actually and i know that you hate spiders but I’m a friendly Spider. Maybe cute? Or maybe not. Please y/n just don’t freak out” and your answer was simple. You came closer to Peter and kissed him. That day changed everything between you and Parker. He told you everything. You met Tony Stark in the prettiest memories, you could picture his Aunt May even though she wasn’t there anymore. You also got to know the story about his ex girlfriend MJ and the history behind his loss. You were just laying in his bed with pizza, snacks and hot chocolate the whole day and he was talking. You both needed something like day off from normal life.

“Thank you for listening.“ he said when realized how late it was. “i can’t believe we were here the whole day and i was just talking!“ and you couldn’t love him more in that moment.

“Thank you for telling me Petey.“ you smiled. He looked so calm.

“I wanted to do this for a while. Y/n you have no idea how much you helped me. I was on my own the whole time and you just came into my life and now everything is good again.“ and that was the moment when he got your heart completely.

Everything was so easy and perfect. That day became your favorite memory. It was like the beginning something so pure and strong at the same time. You had Peter so you weren’t lonely in such a big city. Peter had you and he wasn’t on his own. You spent so many afternoons with him studying and doing your homework. Whenever he left for a patrol, you were baking his favorite apple pie or cooking dinner.

“I can’t believe you are here. I have someone who’s waiting for me. Gosh y/n i’m so fucking grateful for you.“ Peter said when you were cleaning up his wounds. “And i really mean it.”

Even fights with him were bearable because you knew that he loves you. Your Petey was just a little lost sometimes.

“I told you, don’t touch it y/n! My Gosh, that was my last stock of web! Is there something you can do right?“ he was yelling like crazy. That evening was difficult to survive so you just wanted to go and let him cooled down.

“Parker don’t be rude! I wanted to clean the kitchen, it’s not my fault your are so messy tonight! I have to go actually, text me when you come back after patrol.“ you said and took your hoodie from the couch.

“Great but I’m not going. I can’t go and this is all because of you! Why are you so annoying? Maybe something bad is going to happen tonight! I won’t be there and I won’t help like i could to this when May needed me!“ for the first time you saw Peter throwing a plate. He started crying and you realized that he wanted to celebrate his aunt’s birthday. With her. But it was the only thing you couldn’t do - to brought her back to life.

“Petey, i know it was a long day especially when your aunt should have celebrate her birthday with you, but please calm down, you’re scaring me.“ he was a mess.

“You know shit about May so shut up y/n! Gosh, MJ would never act like this.“ and you had enough. You left him alone in his apartment.

The rain was pouring all the way to your dorm. You wanted to stay but he said too much. You couldn’t sleep so you stayed awake trying to read your book. When you heard soft tapping you took a deep breath and opened your window.

“i’m sorry. You know i didn’t mean it. I love you so much and I’m really sorry. I’m a mess and I miss May today more than ever and i know you wanted to help me and just be with me, i swear i would do anything to turn back time but i can’t. I’m sorry and i swear i didn’t mean it.“ Peter was looking at you and shaking. You didn’t say a word but hugged him tight.

But one day, the nightmare came to your dreamy day. Like a storm, she took your peace. Peter was silent the whole day. You wanted to check if he was okay so you went to his place. When he opened the door you saw her. MJ. His ex girlfriend.

“Y/n! It’s good to see you.“ he said. MJ got up from the couch and passed you by. You didn’t expect her.

“ I have to go. You two should talk.“ she said and left his home. Peter smiled but them he brushed his hair with fingers and took a deep breath.

“What’s going on?“ you asked.

“You won’t believe but MJ got her memory back! I don’t know how or why but she is back! She found me!“ and in this moment you stopped breathing.

“But how? I mean uhm…that’s great Peter, but what about us now? I mean she was your girlfriend and you never really broke up and…“ you were talking so fast, stressed and lost. You wanted her to go away and just spend some time with your boy.

“ I don’t know… i mean you know i love you so much but she’s the one. MJ always was and always will be the love of my life. I am so sorry. My God i feel so bad, i don’t even know if i want to broke up with you.” You had enough. Your eyes became glassy and you just wanted to go home. Your real home.

“This is your choice Parker. I can’t fight for both of us. Not anymore.“ and you left his apartment.

• the one where JJ falls in love with a new girl but she’s only in OBX for the summer

„I wake up every morning with the years ticking by. I'm missing all these memories, maybe they were never mine“

• JJ didn’t want to fall in love. Like, ever.

• but he saw you on the beach, playing with your dog and he decided to talk to you

• He was very funny and kind

• JJ gave you his number and you were texting with him for the first week

• And you both finally met again

• He invited you to chateau and you met pogues

• You were sitting with them, laughing and joking almost till morning

• In the morning JJ walked you home and you kissed him finally

• Maybe because you were drunk

• Or maybe not

• You started to hang out with pogues every day

• you were watching sunsets with them, watching JJ surfing, visiting him at work

• He was going for a walk with you and your dog every evening

• pogues were happy because JJ was finally happily in love

• But one day he came to you in the middle of the night crying, with bruises on his face

• You cleaned the wounds, gave JJ a cup of tea and he told you his story

• You were talking with JJ all night and in the morning he went for a walk with you and your dog because he wanted to watch the sunrise with you

• And he said „i love you” for the first time

• You said „i love you” back and invited him on a family dinner

• Your family liked him very much and he was always welcomed in your beach house

• One day he gave you a bracelet on a string with a small surfing desk.

• Kiara and Sarah helped him choose that one

• Your summer with JJ and pogues was amazing but nothing last forever

• Your last day in outer banks you started on the beach where JJ wanted to eat breakfast with you watching sunrise

• You spend your whole day talking with Sarah and Kiara, drinking beer with John B and Pope, and your evening belonged to JJ so you were sitting on his lap all night by the bonfire, talking about your favorite memories.

• “Promise me you’ll come back next year and everything will stay the same“

• The next day you were gone and JJ missed you like crazy, he was drinking too much beer, even got into a fight with Rafe

• A Few days later you started college,

• When you were walking alone through the campus, your bracelet with surfing desk brought you the best memories, you were missing Outer Banks so much.

• Whenever you were sitting on the lecture, your mind was far away in Outer Banks, your little own piece of heaven

• You didn’t want to text JJ, because you missed him so badly

• But you had enough, you were trying to find your phone in bag and you just….

• To JJ loverboy : hey crazy surfer! Wanna talk today?