Kaleidoscope of colors

Because after everything don't know if your foe or friend

How long does a guy has to be tame?

I've been so self conscious of this mane

Wait wait wait, let's rewind

I love Eminem but I can't lyrically destroy you like he can

But then again you're so lame, God should've made you a bitch instead of a man.

I'm racing against the clock because I can't find decent cock

Please call me psycho, cause the best writers paved the way with their unapologetic might

Did I say cock? Sorry I meant to ask someone where to shoot my mark.

Women, guys, trannies with polished thighs

Bisexual? Maybe, depends on the night, but there are so many people living their true lives and singing in the light

But when you fell in love with me, my ears are bleeding, broken record on repeat, I want tear my insides out on the sidewalk

Just so your pussy ass life can finally have some meaning

I'm sorry there's no category high enough for you.

But why did it feel so right at first

Sorry, my Goddess is Venus, can't take a libra down with a basic curse.

Hunny what's your IQ again, I hate to be shallow but that's the first thing I should've asked and heard.

No, clean your ears, not Amber Heard, but now that I think about it...

(bet your the type to shit on someone's bed)

What a coincidence, no one cares about her and you, it's time to talk to the Lord.

IM MADDDDDDDDDDDDD, but not really because I know your insecure and it'll stay like that til your old

Of course, I can go off, of course I'm jackal & hide,

But mi vida is perfecto, I was blessed to not have any pride

Damn....I don't even have an alter ego to call upon

When you hear these words, babe, you haven't unleashed the beast

When you betrayed me, I HAD to questioned that IQ,

So self centered, times up!

It's Russian Roulette between me and you

I'll bless your ego, too bad it didn't mean much

I'm a beast, I'm a werewolf, I was waiting until it became my favorite lunch

I warned you when my heart is severed, if you're the one who caused it,

Fair warning, I told you to grab your Bible and pray.

Because when I'm back, I'll always be ready to play.

To be continued!

I forgot every inch of my fibers and questioned, how I became to monotoned, so mechanically wired.

So reckless, so dangerous I wanted your toxicity to be mine.

Simple story, yet so loud

I sink my teeth in you again and you never let me feel dull

On the deadliest drink and drive, your were the best.

Keep me in on this rampage.

Although the emotions you put me through, and how vivantly clear you were to me. I tried to contain myself, but I couldn't help how much I loved you. And every lie you told me, made me a different person.

Turn him out, he won't bite, much.

Give him your devotion & he"ll return with my sensual touch.

There's no salvation when you run into a promiscuous problem.

He'll lure you with his sweet charm.

Open his legs, give him a kiss, while fucking him missionary

Don't worry about faith, youll undoubtedly become a follower.

Unholy body, he's ready to be baptized in drugs and toddy's.

Entice him, he's the most attractive drug

He's a Black Widow, there's no cure when you taste the poison

Fuck window shopping, his body is yours for free

With his mouth enjoy your sweetness.

What's a boy to do, when he's on his knees?

Roll up your sleeves, kiss all the right spots, it's always pointless to be a tease.

His sex will raise you from the grave, the sex is better when they fight, indulge in the feelings, he's composed of the dark, seduce him until you see the light.

Being elusive won't seal the deal with him

Play to win, don't give up on a whim

You heard the rumors, he gives it up like they are all true.

He'll dance for you on the stage, make him your muse.

Turn him on, the climax will be worth the news.

The climax will have you running to the church's pews.

Don't be gentle, there so much his body can handle

He's bad at love, but he's excellent in bed

Venus herself blessed him with the best head

Come bite the apple, his sweetness you'll memorized

Make him your slave, are you ready to be his Master?

He knows he feels like ecstasy when you have him on his back

He'll make up for all the sexual qualities you lack

Ruin him, he's always down for a disaster

Screaming your name, he'll make you feel like a star

Sex with him will bring our your anger from Mars

Once you had him, you'll return for more

The man's sex is a dagger, let him penetrate your core.

I tip toe carefully to be safe, then it welcomes me and leads me to danger.

I try to commit to peace, then it tells me to "release your anger."

Being recessive was my desire, but then it says "what a pretty liar"

One day I'm flying, the next I crash, the undoing of harmony, the wickedness it casts.

You know me now, then you know me not, the battles it causes, it indefinitely comes out on top.

The beautiful, stinging pain it causes, the relentless severance, it undeniably causes.

When it comes out to play, it's nothing short of erotic.

When it comes out to play, all motives are purely promiscuous, nevermind if it's night or day.

It encloses me with the monsters in my mind

Suitors, lovers, sexual partners of any kind.

People will say "whose son is that"?

"Clearly his innocence & dignity is lost"

When he loses control and the past turns painful

He'll grab the bottle and drop his halo.

Seven medications to keep it at bay but it manages to slip through.

The unbeknownst boy doesn't realize, when it takes over, there's so much to lose.

I want to believe the heart is the strongest muscle

I want to believe bones will never break

I want to believe people never fade

I want to believe progression won't come at a cost

I need to believe that stars will never refuse to shine

I need to believe feelings will lead me the right way

I need to believe the truth will hurt less than the lies.

I need to believe avoidance never heals pain

I need to believe his taste on my lips won't go sour

I wanted love, but I could do so much more with power.

I was constantly reminded of your past

I give people, almost everything, in hope to make it last.

He said don't go

And he said maybe we aren't right

I kicked dirt on your name but, I'm helping you out.

To bury yourself is your future, I'm sorry baby, it's your fate without a doubt.

I said it's too late, your uncovered insecurities wrapped around my throat so tight.

I said I only have one life, you don't have the right to throw it away.

When he was gone, infidelity was at play.

Your clouded ego put matter in between us

Stand on your own two feet, your pathetic unambitious demeanor, is what broke my trust.

He said "with you I feel like I'm drowning".

I pondered, what a "good reach".

Little does he know, with him, I was immersed in bleach.

I spewed hatred after you gave into lust. Boys, Drugs & Money will only turn your "heart" to rust.

My explosive reaction, I contemplated it too much, an eye for an eye, is a hundred percent a must.

You think you disappeared, and I would be shattered

Your words had no weight, so why the fuck would that matter?

My dopamine & serotonin was watered down,

How unfortunate to be a man, whose destined to drown?

Lilith yearns to creep out & greet people

Why do we shun her? What makes them shudder?

It only gets worse when we don't acknowledge her and only her brother.

she's bound to burst. She's bound to strike.

When she's ignored, her desire to be present will only grow. She wonders why she's not smiled upon, as the star of the show.

Her venom runs through these veins, she never makes me pick a side

be true and caring, you won't have to hide

My sun always tell you what he desires, and always shows perfection at first impressions

He shines so bright, but he's not someone that people always mentions.

His most pure intentions can make his energy lessen

His self sacrifice and anxiety unknowingly simmers.

I always ask people to handle him with care.

If you hurt her brother, Lillith will be there.

He always covers the least expecting of people, radiating comfort in their aura

But lillith is in infatuated with serving enemies their karma.

She understands why his heart is on his sleeve

She blessed my presence when I was a teen

She loves to satisfy me with the most orgasmic extrasensory power.

Her rage for acceptance will turn the strongest men into cowards.

Her influence is much more satisfying than a man's attempt of sex, she makes me moan for more

At times she makes me feel like I'm the most perfect whore.

How she keeps my dark secrets, approves of the sweetest revenge

Her kryptonite is when someone pleas to make amends

She's sick of the bullshit, she doesn't want to pretend.

She'll be out for blood, your abuse to her brother she contends.

Predisposed Lillith was given to me through thier genes. All she ever wanted, was for us to be heard, and seen.

She was the cause of Humpty Dumpty falling off the wall

She wanted to see compassion, only to see all the people watching, and no one attempting to break his fall.

She's the most alluring vixen I've ever seen.

Sun always tried to cease fire, and tried to understand why society was so misleading, so mean.

Him and her both respresent my scales,

But she rises and conquers when justice does not prevail.

When Lilith comes out, dont suddenly become so pale.

Don't attempt to run, your efforts will fail.

When she makes you wonder and make you shed crimson tears

She warned you once, take precautions if you cross us and come near.

Lost in a stranger's eyes, I used to see a twin flame.

If you lost your dreams and ambitions, whose really to blame

The course of four seasons, and my heart is the one that needs change?

I knew and know you inside out, throwing your insecurities my way without a doubt

If the sun would explode, would you be proud of the man you are about?

A man that drove me insane, drove me so close to the edge.

You'd say I was different, then why am I alone in your bed.

Again, I'm lost. Your timing is so complex.

This heart can't amend anymore mistakes,

Flawless forgetfulness, let's talk about that

Memoirs of a dead man, your excuses fall flat

But again...I'm lost, you were the star that led my way

Don't grovel to me, you loved the way I put you under my sway.

I always beted on being able to do anything that he can

I'm competitive but I know how to give credit when it's due

My patience is never based on your mood

When you came in for the first time

I seen your whole life in front of you, I'd knew there would be many chapters my mind would exploit

Frustrated, when I left but I always know I am a human placeholder

In the beginning they always hold my body closer

But being born free wasn't planned.

I could see every variation of you as a man

Everything of you, you had so much potential to grow

I'd love to build you up and you chase my mind

My visions and dreams had me thinking you can

Maybe so, maybe so, but I'd never be the first one to let someone go

Not me, someone who has rose colored glasses, I imagined you in every aspect

The conversations where you needed to dominate and tell the most disgusting lies.

But somehow, I've always struggled to cut the ties.

You'd be the first, but the extra weight I carried?

Do I think of the people I let go?

You used mine as a burden,

I used yours as perfection, and then I learned how to grow.

You were artwork, I'd ignore all the colors

They'd never be the one that got away

There will be someone who lets life turn them so weak

How is it my fault you're mind turns so shallow & bleak

I'd like to say, I think about him, but there was never anyone "who got away"

How'd you feel when I dropped you so suddenly like a bomb?

You'd be the first to object but, I always just finish the job

Your sadness doesn't come down to me or you.

Your sadness is a dusty pyramid created on construct.

The more your feed into what makes you sad, the more the sand (and others 🫣) will pour on your pyramid.

And people will not think twice to blow it away and pour a more abundance of sadness and self projected insecurities onto your new one. 🥱

How about you blowing away their pyramid of bullshit when you and I have been nothing but the solid foundation of theirs.

Everything youve ever been held to, convinced of, lied to, scared into, is your sadness.

I wish I could cure it.

When I was younger, I believed in magic, harry potter type shit.

Then I realized, we are the magic.

Our whole existence is, the magic.

Forgive yourself. And You'll find solitude.

Our sadness, is fueled by our desires and dreams.

Sometimes, those fluffy cloud dreams, or whatever you believed in, burst.

It's okay, believe in your mind, and dig deeper into the person that makes you happy.

It's a social distortion, a social construct that builds you up to be sad to the misfortunes, please don't be sad. Why weren't we conditioned to face it, improve ourselves and move on from it? No one denies a diabetic their insulin syringes. So why deny us when we feel exhausted, uncreative, and defeated. That's sadness.

The key to happiness is to not attach yourself to anything.

How unfortunate, we learn this with experience or as we grow older. Get ahead of the game,