i don't usually put drama here but this guy... where do i start this is the most disgusting thing i ever thought id have to write
trigger warning:
the account in question is @/levismatrix.
i met them on discord in may. i didn't notice anything right off the bat but after they made a friendship with me i wasn't fully aware of even being official. they made shart jokes excessively, which lasted for the entire friendship. a month into our friendship, and he says looking at Pinterest eases or stops his headaches from splitting alters. a few systems fake claimed him, and i not wanting to fakeclaim was on his side. i believed "you can't say what goes on in someone's head right?" well apparently when it comes to DID even though yes, there are many ways this disorder works, that's not one of them. some members of the server made a google doc about levi and in those allegations is grooming. i wish i could have believed that. while he was still in the server, he vented about bladder problems and accidents. i have bladder problems and felt obligated to help. i was embarrassed about my bladder problems. it was supposed to be a one time thing but he would message me every time he had an accident, asking me for advice on how to hold it and wanting to know other shit about the bladder.
june ~ he was banned from the server. he invites me to his server where he considered us family and trusted people way too quickly. he continued his shart jokes and bodily functions jokes. he had Inside Out alters when Inside Out 2 was a trend and the alters disappeared when the trend was done.
November ~ he copies two of my alters. he also stole from my story. he said he had alters that remember when he was 3 after I did and said he knew about sexual stuff at a young age after i said I did.
December ~ he mocks one of our friends alters. i called him out and he banned me.
other stuff he did ~ after i talked about feeling like i was faking being abused bc im the youngest (was in some Bad ™ "trauma support groups" and they all made it seem like only firstborns can get abused, firstborns have it worse, the youngest is an annoying brat and manipulative, etc) he started talking about how their youngest sibling abuses them and would vent about it here and there. he wouldn't really be validating hed have be like "im sorry" and boiler plate bullshit. hed bring it up again knowing it was triggering.
Hey, so let’s actually talk about this and show the truth on what happened in some parts of what you were talking about here. I’m not going to downplay experiences you may have had with them, but I sure as hell am also bringing to light what happened for some of this stuff with what I know happened in the open.
You came out here on this and told people about someone else’s trauma like it was fake. Having lived with this guy for, based on birth certificates, 21 years, I have first hand experience with them saying some odd things. A lot of this, at any point, you could have said “hey, I’m uncomfortable with this”, yet you chose to let it build up to the point you exploded, fakeclaimed them, and then when you were banned from that server that I now own since they deleted their discord, you proceeded to call them a slur an hour or two later:
That trauma and abuse they told you about with their youngest sibling? I was there experiencing that firsthand, because, believe it or not, he was trying to connect with you and show that no, youngest siblings aren’t always the abused, they can be the abuser as well. A lot of the “venting” talk he shared was in a VENTING CHANNEL, so sorry if there were some triggers in there, as it was in a private server, and not really meant to be specialized to your needs since there were multiple people in there.
You also: blamed him for you being suicidal, which, yes while that might have been true, I have seen it way too many times as a form of manipulation. You also told me that I was a “second account of theirs” because I didn’t chat in that server much. Your constant suicide talks and s/h talks was what distanced me from you, and then when he showed me a dm AND a text of you saying that “some people DESERVED to be SA’d” (while i do not has ss proof, I saw this with my own eyes, to anyone else happening to be reading) I just decided to ghost when talking to you because I didn’t want to be your friend. I wasn’t going to stop them from being your friend, but I was done with trying to be friendly and it’s better to stay silent than cause an issue. After you had been banned, he blocked.
Speaking of texts, let’s talk about the fact you doxxed their number. The real kicker to him leaving discord and tumblr. I did the justice of marking out the phone number and the texts messages. By the way, when someone says they trust you with information, and you want something to be a one-time thing to talk about, tell them that.
As for the Inside Out 2 “trend” thing, those alters didn’t “disappear”. They talked to me, sorry they didn’t want to talk to you. Also, the first installment of the movie is about a decade old at this point, and I’ve talked to those guys for YEARS. If it even happened to be one from the second installment, that’s none of your business of what goes on at home with the people they live with to cause that unless they trust you enough to tell you.
Them saying “I’m sorry” a lot in regards to your venting was to say “I’m sorry you feel that way”, or “I’m sorry this is happening.” And for the “copying”, some people can have similar backgrounds with what has happened to him, because yes, he did know about sexual stuff at a young age. Sometimes when having a conversation, believe it or not, some words or phrases can trigger memories. Why do you think a trigger is called, well, a trigger?
And, at this point, if you’re STILL believing I’m them, I’d be willing to send you a photo of what I look like, or will you take that and make edits of it as well to make fun of me like you did with them? I did the courtesy of censoring since you decided to do that.
While they shouldn’t have posted their face on a private server in the first place, it could have easily been ignored. Yet, you were the one that decided to save the image and make things out of it, posting it where you posted their phone number, further doxxing them. Which, hey, doxxing someone like that with their phone number not only put us and our family in danger, but those two combined can put them in serious danger with a quick google search for the area code and middle three digits.
The ONLY reason you had their number was because he was worried while you were on one of your “breaks” you would cause harm to yourself or need someone to talk to. He doesn’t just hand his number out like it’s candy. He was worried, especially since most, if not all, of your vents at that point were either talking bad about yourself, suicidal talk, or s/h talk.
You’re saying he “trusts too easily” which, sorry he’s kind and a bit dumb in that aspect, but it actually shows they’re not going to discriminate upon first interaction. Had I picked up on your behaviors beforehand, I would have told him to have you banned a lot sooner.
They are gone from discord. They are gone from Tumblr. You had put them in danger, and, while I still dislike you and am not willing to even try and be friendly, I will put that aside if you want to sort this out further. You know where to find me, and, if you happened to have forgotten my user, ask a mutual friend between the two of us, @garysversionforlegalreasons -Xie
