ANGELS ROLL THEIR EYES !

             “ You’re not very good with threats. ”          He set his new red and gold racquet against the ground, opening himself up and taking a stance as if to egg her in to making good on her veiled promises of harm.          “ I didn’t say thank you at first, but I doubt your or our captain would like me to repeat what I did say. I thought we were brought here to practice, not banter. ”           Grey eyes met her brown ones for only a moment before he looked away, hating his inability to maintain eye contact. He listened to Jeremy list their warm up drills, and gave Emma a wide birth before he broke in to an easy jog to start his laps. 

she  stares  at  him  .  arms  folded,  a  stormy  expression gathering  across· her features .    jean  was  wrong  if  he  thought  emma· was· above· lashing· out .· ·she’d· learned· how· to· fight· ·young,· and· to· fight· well   she· just· wasn’t· game· to· try· it· in· front· of· jeremy· and· see· where· it· landed· her   so  as  badly· as· she· wants· to· say· more,· she· instead· spits· out· a     ❝· fine  !   we’ll· train· then·   ❞  and· then,· under· her· breath·   ❝  not  good  at  threats  ... I  am  so  ❞

i’m thinking abt it bc I’m writing a reply but: emma realising she doesn’t want to throw her life away, actually. the way she threw her heart and soul into the shadowhunter life because it offered her redemption and revenge but it also blinded her to everything she had then. she had to learn that she didn’t need redemption because she was a child when what happened to her happened, and it wasn’t their fault or their job to fix it. and that revenge didn’t have anything to offer her because it wouldn’t bring her family back. and that the expectation any of the children were at blame for anything that happened to them was cruel and wrong. 

she always distanced herself from the blackthorn family just a little, always thinking they were julian’s family not truly hers until the siblings show she is their sister too. and her cutting herself off emotionally from julian when she needed him most (and he needed her), because she was so caught up in the blood relation politics/the law is hard but it is the law/revenge as a value underpinning shadowhunter relations.

I think a lot about her emulating herself after jace and clary as a hero/martyr in LM before switching her modelling, thinking of them (and also izzy and alec) as friends and modelling her relationships after theirs and their campaign for change.

shadowhunter society values coldness, but her arc and the role of her friends is to show everyone that coldness does not serve you well (something diana literally says to emma at one point, i think)

emma leaves the shadowhunter world to go travel the world with julian because she gave everything, quite literally everything, to that world and they didn’t love her back (as an institution) and because despite that she was literally the model shadowhunter, the system failed her and her family again and again until the very end

             Jean knew the first few practices would be…an adjustment. As much as the Trojans were known for their sportsmanship, they were unlikely to just accept a former competitor in to their ranks. Unable to hide the shudder that ran up his body as she pointed the racquet at him, he settled for leveling her with a flat look.           “ Vous pensez peut-être que vous me menacez, mais il n'y a rien qu'une petite fille puisse faire qui ne m'ait déjà été faite. ”           Behind him, Jeremy cleared his throat and politely asked him to use a language they could all understand.           “ Thank you for the warm welcome. ”

emma  knew  she  was  supposed  to  be  friendly  .    she  could  see  jeremy  shooting  her  glare  over  jean’s  head,   all  his  exasperated  pleas  from  earlier  that  she  be  nice  gone  to  waste .   but  emma  didn’t  care.  she  didn’t  trust  the  ravens,  and  she’d  look  out  for  her  own  team  before  his  feelings .    

“ maybe this isn’t about you. “ feyre’s voice is harsh; however open to the idea of peace she was, she wasn’t going to stand by the insult. the way she said the word fae, made rage burn in her chest . “ — it’s personal business . “ family. that’s the only thing that could drag feyre back to this world again.