Just trying to hang in there....

I don’t want to exist anymore, I’d like to think I helped a lot of people but it seems I just can’t help myself

Please don’t yell at me for apologizing for everything. I’m sorry I feel like I’m screwing everything up, every minute of every day. I’m sorry I’m not good enough, and that I need constant reassurance and validation. I’m sorry I have panic attacks and that I have so many triggers. I’m sorry I suck at being an adult, and have to do things at my speed, whether that means actually getting out of bed, or cleaning, or even taking a shower. I’m sorry that I get so nervous about little things. I’m sorry I overthink every detail. I’m sorry that I don’t think I’m beautiful. I’m sorry that I argue with you about me being beautiful. I’m sorry that I sweat a lot because I get nervous. I’m sorry that I either eat way too much or not at all. I’m sorry that I have night terrors and get little to no sleep. I’m sorry I’m always sick or in a lot of pain. I’m sorry I let you get so close to me, and now you’re probably miserable. I’m sorry you had to go through this. I’m sorry I ever existed.

Please don’t yell at me for apologizing for everything. I’m sorry I feel like I’m screwing everything up, every minute of every day. I’m sorry I’m not good enough, and that I need constant reassurance and validation. I’m sorry I have panic attacks and that I have so many triggers. I’m sorry I suck at being an adult, and have to do things at my speed, whether that means actually getting out of bed, or cleaning, or even taking a shower. I’m sorry that I get so nervous about little things. I’m sorry I overthink every detail. I’m sorry that I don’t think I’m beautiful. I’m sorry that I argue with you about me being beautiful. I’m sorry that I sweat a lot because I get nervous. I’m sorry that I either eat way too much or not at all. I’m sorry that I have night terrors and get little to no sleep. I’m sorry I’m always sick or in a lot of pain. I’m sorry I let you get so close to me, and now you’re probably miserable. I’m sorry you had to go through this. I’m sorry I ever existed.