Women flirting with me makes me sweating about-to-explode nervous I'm never going to be able to stop being a loser lesbian I'm doomed

Tbh I think men hitting on me should be illegal. There is no greater disappointment than when a man randomly starts flirting with me in the most disgusting way possible.

The worst part about my detransition is the scars. I just have to live with that for the rest of my life, and it feels like a humiliation ritual every time I go outside when I'm not covered. People have brought up it up, and I'm honestly just sick and tired of it. Everything faded a lot, but the texture is still there. I can edit as much as I want online, but I'm never going to be able to escape people from noticing in real life. My body is permanently altered because of their stupid fearmongering, and there's nothing I can do about it. I get a reminder everyday of how stupid I was to fall for it all.

I'm not gonna lie, one of my helps for dysphoria right now is looking at fanart of a fictional character I like because she's represented as actually female with a female body despite her masculinity and it honestly makes me feel better about myself

I'm working on the radfem discord server, but dm me if you want to be invited. I'm gonna keep it fairly small like a groupchat and very guarded to get in, so only join if you actually have intentions of friending radfems and talking, though it is super casual and more for connecting-women purposes in comparison to super serious servers!! B-) You will have to voice verify and have proof of an active radfem account that I can go through

I might create a discord server with the intent to stay small and just be a female based server as a less serious, more friend group based casual radfem server cause everything I see is basically just for discussing serious radfem matters only, if anyone ever had interest

I have opinions on butchfemme especially modern butchfemme and people will not like it

I actually really appreciate being able to say anything I want regarding my detransition and battling my dysphoria here and getting nice comments + advice in response, I feel like I can get everything I am truly feeling about it out, and people understand. Thank you guys 🤍

My dysphoria made me want to be skinny and completely flat but I'm honestly happy with my build more now, I got new shirts and if they're tucked in it just shows I have broad shoulders especially to waist ratio I think, so for once I am not depressed about it. Maybe I need to get bigger instead 💪 I've been thinking about it heavily, and that's making me much happier.

I wish TIMs would stop grouping ftms and mtfs together so often when talking about a general subject that only has to do with mtfs, just because they're determined to use ftms as a stepping stool.

I'm trying to possibly get to a point where I'm okay with showing that I have a female figure. I'm just not even sure where to start with that. I can't keep degrading myself and trying to make myself look like I'm a stick with 0 figure because I'm not really achieving any true happiness with it, and that's never going to work in the long run. I'm just a little lost on how to get over that part. I've gone back to working out on the regular. I think it's going to help if I can replace that feeling with wanting to gain more muscle.

My radfem turning point when I first got involved was when I was 17 and semi-"friends" with a TIM and came out as a lesbian, I rejected him like 10 times and despite that he'd try to touch me, get close, all of it. At a Halloween party, he asked me again, this time in a closed off room, while he guarded the door as he asked. He ended up physically lifting me, pushing me against against things, because keep in mind this guy is 6'3. My shirt had holes in it because it was Halloween, he said he never saw a shirt with holes in it, so then he shoved his hand in it on top of my boobs. It was just a night of countless violence and assaults, so I'm tired of the idea that TIMs aren't violent. Because they are, and they're all the same because I proceeded to have the exact same experiences.

Everytime I remember I was assaulted by a stupid ass TIM I want to rib my boobs off and crawl out of my skin I seriously hate it here

While I was being encouraged to be trans identifying, there was pressure to have it as my main personality trait. Right now, that's something I've been struggling with but with different things. If I like something, I feel like it's my only "thing" I should like, and that I need to be hyperfocused on it and let it define me, and that is becoming super draining. Especially with not exactly knowing who I am. I find it nice when people describe me because I feel like I have some sense of self, and I can make a judgment on who I actually am based on other peoples perceptions of me. I have to learn that I can like multiple things and be a complex individual.

I let women off the hook with things easier. No, I don't care that it's hypocritical. If I had a situation where a male and woman both do something wrong to me in the same situation, I'd have a way higher chance of forgiving the woman.