GoAskSawyer

Listen to her sing shes so cute.

Thank you so much.

Im ‘getting help’ in the sense that im seeing my doctor about it. I would honestly like to go to therapy, but i have no time for that.

I think im in a slump because i might have forgotten to take my Zoloft. I dont remember missing a dose, but ive been getting brain zaps super bad (Although theyre almost gone now), which happens when you come down from an antidepressant. I make sure to take it every morning though, so im hoping my brain will go back to normal soon and ill start feeling better.

We’ve been stuck in the house since like Saturday and it sucks so bad.

Thank you so much.

Im ‘getting help’ in the sense that im seeing my doctor about it. I would honestly like to go to therapy, but i have no time for that.

I think im in a slump because i might have forgotten to take my Zoloft. I dont remember missing a dose, but ive been getting brain zaps super bad (Although theyre almost gone now), which happens when you come down from an antidepressant. I make sure to take it every morning though, so im hoping my brain will go back to normal soon and ill start feeling better.

But i think that’s a part of what has brought me down lately. Me and Tristan have been together since we were 14. We were tiny babies when we started dating, and our relationship got so serious so fast at such a young age. He practically moved in with us before i even got pregnant with B, when we were 15. It has never really been just me. Yeah, i was single when inwas in my pre-teens, but at that age i was still dependent on my parents and didnt need to worry about no serious relationship.

But from 14 years old until now, ive always had Tristan in the back of my mind to worry about. Back when i used to party a ton, i always called Tristan to check in with him. When we were still in highschooo and childless, it was always “Do your homework Tristan” “You gotta be here at this time”. I dont even know what its like to be alone and not worry about another person.

And even now, the first thing i do every morning is get out of bed and get Bella whatever her heart desires that morning. Even like when i shower, the first thing i do isnt get myself dressed, its go grab Tristan’s clothes from the bedroom for him, check on Bella, depending on Daxton’s mood, ill put on some undies and lay down to feed him. All before even taking care of myself.

And Tristan is the same way, hes never been alone either. He has always had me there. I do EVERYTHING for him. I get him up for work, i drive him to work, i make his appointments for him, i cook, i clean, i pay his bills (With his money obviously), i filed his taxes, i fill out important paperwork for , i do everything. He literally calls me everyday on his lunch break and asks “Hey is it cool if i buy myself a drink?” lik, its your money?? And i dont really think its a bad thing. Im sure hes capable of doing these things by himself. But thats just how we’ve grown up, and how our relationship has always been, and it works for us. I dont mind it.

But i just think about it, and im only 18. I’m barely an adult, and for the last 5 years, when i should have been being a teenager and doin whatever teenagers do, I’ve always taken care of someone else.

I think im really spread thin between everyone in my family. I realized that i dont even do anything i enjoy anymore. I dont play video games, i dont read, i dont crochet, i dont even sew anymore. I spend every waking moment making sure everyone in my family is taken care of, that i haven’t bothered to take care of myself. I dont even shower alone, that’s how much time to myself i get everyday. It sucks.