Glowing Vegan

1. happiness

2. pure love

i don’t force my phone to hit zero before i plug it in, or else it takes ages for it to even turn back on, and ages longer to get it to a level where I’m comfy taking it out of the house. similarly, pushing yourself to use up the last dregs of energy is gonna slow you down for way longer than you need.

love isn’t complication after complication. love isn’t feeling a lump in the back of your throat every time you think of your person, scared shitless that you aren’t enough. love isn’t co-dependence and insecurity and screaming matches that end in hot, salty tears. love isn’t an unwillingness to communicate, its not answering whats wrong? with nothing, i’m fine.

and now you’re looking at me, waiting for an answer.

what? i ask, unaware that you even said anything in the first place.

you push a strand of hair out of my face. you say, i asked what you’re thinking about.

oh, nothing, i say. i’m fine.

you nod slowly, knowing full well i’m lying but not caring enough to push further.

a silent tear rolls down my cheek and i wipe it away before you can see it.

because what i’m thinking is love isn’t like this.

what i’m thinking is

like for example my cat always speaks to me when I come home and i meow back to her and she’ll meow again & even though i don’t think twice about it to her it’s probably a situation where it’s like

her, meowing: “im glad you’re home”

me, meowing back: “tax benefits”