Vydarian Soulborg

"You need therapy!"

"I don't want therapy. I don't think that would benefit me."

"So you only care about what benefits YOU? You don't care how your Unhealthy Behaviors Mental Illness Brain Chemistry affects your family and friends and society? Most people are in therapy because of selfish narcissists like you who refuse to go to therapy!"

"Yeah, I actually have a lot of moral and philosophical objections to the premise that I have some kind of moral obligation to change fundamental aspects of myself to make me more palatable to others."

"Nooooooo, sweatie, babe, modern therapy isn't about making you palatable to others! It's about your goals and your healing journey and making you your best self!"

"Okay, well, my goals and my idea of my best self don't really involve the idea that my default state is a disease I need to be 'healed' from."

"So you expect your poor elderly parents to support you forever? You want to be a burden on the hardworking taxpayers? You want to be an economically unproductive useless eater? How selfish!"

"I mean, I think the premise of therapeutic 'help' centered around making the subject more economically productive is inherently unethical. People's value doesn't come from money."

"Nooooooo, honeeeeeeeey, therapy isn't about making you more economically productive! That's just what those silly anti-psych people on REDDIT say! Real therapy is actually very leftist and socialist, because the real economic revolution is SELF-CARE! You deserve to be HAPPY!"

"Right, I don't find therapy helpful for that, because the things that make me unhappy are generally rooted in my material reality and other people's treatment of me, not in some inner quality of my brain."

"So you think the world should change just for YOU? You think the world revolves around YOU? You think you're SPECIAL and DIFFERENT and everyone around you is supposed to just accept that?"

"Well yeah, I unironically believe that people should be accepting of differences."

Uber is a fucking shell game of a company designed to leech investor capital and output bootleg cabs.

Nvidia posted a profit in 2023 of $4.37 billion. This is like someone stealing less than a penny from me.

And they lock this kid in a prison hospital for LIFE?

AND THE INSTRUCTOR SAID I WAS REALLY REALLY GOOD AT IT FOR A FIRST TIMER and told me about the people who aren’t, so I believe her, and Santa said I was like I’d been doing it for at least two months already and I’m going to do it for sure AGAIN it’s something I’m going to DO it’s really fun and DIFFICULT and when you get all the way good at it you can just go SKYDIVING which is whatever but an excuse to go up in a plane!!!

Also I donated blood right before (got halfway through super red in the hopes of keeping my plasma, but my physiology was just like. no… not bleeding out today thanks… and I kept getting the slow alert on the machine and having to wake up and reposition arm and take deep breaths and brace and wiggle) and then I! went indoor skydiving and now I’ve had THREE drinks in noisy suites and I’m going back to my hotel room.

me, an elder fandom veteran, suddenly having anne rice flashbacks:

no.

NO.

starting to rock back and fourth.

you do not understand.

you were born into an age of peace. i was there Gandalf. i was there three thousand years ago. i remember the cease and desists. i remember authors hunting fanfic writers for sport. i remember when every fic opened with a disclaimer because we genuinely thought it might protect us.

we do not charge money for the copyrighted gay wizard stories.

do not tempt fate youngling.

step away from the paywall.

that is how you summon the ancient evils.

Once they had mastered the Drownproofing technique, students learned to stay afloat with their wrists and ankles bound, swim 50 yards (46 m) underwater, and retrieve diving rings from the bottom of the pool using their teeth.

If you start ballet at 16, you are too old to ever expect to be able to do it seriously. If you start at 12 you’re too old. If you want to do ballet as a serious thing, as a career, you need to start at like eight years old or even younger, because your bones and joints need to be trained while they’re still flexible in order for you to be able to perform many of the required motions and stances of ballet. In particular, you need to be able to perform turnout of the hips, but all of your joints in your legs and feet will be affected, and this irreversibly changes your body.

And yet! Nobody talks about this as a negative thing! Little girls say they want to be ballet dancers, and if their parents have enough money, that’s what they get to be! Does it cause problems in later life? Yeah, sometimes! Often, even! But nobody talks about that because it’s a thing for cis people to do and so naturally it’s all fine!

By the time I was done dancing at age 18, I had been through physical therapy for 3 separate issues caused by ballet. The worst one was because of how my hips and muscles developed and it cause discomfort in my knees so bad that I couldn’t walk very far without pain, much less climb stairs. One time at a pt session, a neighboring patient, who was elderly, said I was “too young to be here”. I was in middle school so I rolled my eyes. It was/is funny to me.

I am 23 now, and I still get stiff in some places, and I’m sure it is related to dancing as a kid. I snap, crackle, and pop like Rice Krispies.

I have no regrets because ballet and was a big part of my life. I just know that it will have long term effects on my body and there is nothing I can do to change it.

These facilities chew you up. They suck the life from you and grind your body to dust to extract every ounce of profit they can.