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Little drabble of what I think running into Sentinel at Ortega's birthday might be like for Tegan. 823 words, no warnings.

Coming here was a mistake. You knew Ortega's birthday party would draw a crowd and though your shields are stronger than they've ever been, its still a claustrophobic kind of feeling with so many minds pressed against your own. Like bass that drowns out the music in an already loud room. You get just the briefest hint of a familiar presence before the owners voice cuts through the din.

"Tegan!" Sentinel, though you suppose it's just Luis now, calls out, working his way through the crowd towards you. So much for anonymity, there's no way other's here didn't hear your name and you silently curse him while raising your drink in greeting. He stops a few steps away from you, respecting your personal space. Your reputation for being prickly must still be intact that he doesn't go in for a hug or a handshake. Of that you're grateful but he still looks you up and down in a scrutinizing way that does little more than piss you off.

"Been a while, though you look like you're dressed for a funeral instead of a birthday party." He gestures to your black suit with the drink in his hand. "Looks like you finally got a bit of style over the years though." His smile is warm and friendly. Friendlier than it should be for you, maybe retirement and fatherhood have softened some of his edges.

But I will tell you, nothing and I mean nothing can prepare you for having your own smut AI regurgitated back at you as a scam. Its so bad.

sura playlist (a bit eclectic but i like my motifs abt performance/desire for love and attention and unreality in there)

juno playlist (the sabrina carpenter song is partly a joke lol. bits and pieces about ace, i found Two fitting songs called sucker lol)

junolene/suralene playlist (ok this one's out of order fr but too bad by sophie truax (thank you idle), heaven in hiding by halsey, this hell by rina sawayama, and those nights by bastille are the highlights - latter for the "and i do want you. for my sins" line that makes me go feral every time)

fuck it suraric (and sorta junoric) aka torment that old man playlist too. largely angst/bitter anger

some comments: oh no by marina is on both sura's and juno's playlist cos it's my ultimate juno and sura song whenever i think about them

If you are not very careful Your possessions will possess you TV taught me how to feel Now real life has no appeal It has no appeal It has no appeal It has no appeal It has no appeal It has no appeal I know exactly what I want and who I want to be I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine I'm now becoming my own self-fulfilled prophecy Oh, oh no, oh no, oh no, oh

perfectly blends sura's neuroses about identity and ambition with the cuckoo thing along with the disconnect w/ people and the puppetstuck situation

you first by paramore too

Everyone is a bad guy And there's no way, no way to know Who's the worst Karma's gonna come for all of us And I hope, well, I hope, I just hope She comes, comes for you first, oh Which wolf wins? I guess it really depends, just gotta wait and see Which one's appetite's the biggest? Turns out I'm living in a horror film Where I'm both the killer and the final girl So who, who are you?

like yup this is definitely identity issues imposter stuff and being hunted by impostergos

and more recently alice by lady gaga (which is a bop btw pls listen to it) which is very puppetstuck to me even if there's not a lot to say

Here's the snake and berry illustrations together as a set now that they're all finished:

💜 Western Glossy Snake + Blackberries

🩷 Corn Snake + Strawberries

💙 Baron's Racer + Blueberries

🧡 White-lipped Tree Viper + Cloudberries

❤️ Milk Snake + Cranberries

telepaths when they don’t like your thoights 🧠

dangerous blues 🌊🩵