Shhh.

And honestly sure I still have my bad days but..my mental health is so much better than it used to be and my partner and i can communicate about our feelings without it being a fight or making each other upset and that is just. Everything to me.

Went back to my hometown for a week and honestly? I didn't miss it at all Lol. Sure it was great to see some of my family But aside from that? The town makes my skin crawl and makes my negative headspace come back and I do not miss it. I'm actually happy with my life now, you know? Its crazy because I didn't realize how much moving away would improve my life and my mental state

My r*pist reached out to me. Wanted to apologize. Wanted to try and have a civil relationship with me again. I told them no. I got closure, which I never asked for, and I stood my ground and refused to be drug back into their shit. Closure...feels weird. I hate them but I have so much history with them. I miss the friendship but I dont miss the rest. I was strong, and im glad, but I hate that I feel so weird about all of it now.