Rest in Fucking Pieces

Not to make myself cry again but in the 5 years that I've had an Instagram he had never liked a single picture of mine. And yes I Checked.

My 2 hour crying spree is over

I haven't used Tumblr to vent in a long time but I finally lost a friend I've been fighting 5 years to keep because I finally decided to stop putting in effort. Then I unfollowed him on several platforms. Then I vented about him and he unfollowed me on all platforms. So. I guess its over. This brings up so many fears that if I stopped texting anybody in my life I just wouldn't get a text back and wouldn't be friends anymore. And the fact its happened with (now that this friend just cut me out) literally everyone I went to high school with and most of my friends from college is just proof no one really wants me in their life. I'm just someone people settle for. I'm so so so tired of being alive and fighting everyday to be apart of a world not one person really wants me in. I don't want to try so hard to feel this bad but the alternative is to try less and feel worse.