the losing dogs and i are engaging in insider trading

accused of using too many ellipses... don't care... there's always more to come...

what’s it called when you switch off your emotions to avoid being a vulnerable mess

Im pretty certain thats called being very healthy and there is nothing wrong witg me

Yearning for what you can never have is beginner level. Real yearners know the good shit is what you could freely have if you allowed yourself to, but never will.

Your just saying that because your a sick pervert who gets off to themes and ideas

i like to think i'm the dead horse that everyone keeps beating

The four most interesting parts of time loop are when the person kills themselves for the first time, when they kill someone else for the first time (in a fuck around kind of way, this doesn't count if they already were killing people outside of the loop), how they break the loop, and the weeks afterward where they loose their fucking minds in an entirely different, significantly more damaging to the world around them way. And yet I rarely see anything done with that last one. People leave time loops and are all happy go lucky 'oh boy'. Where's the grappling with people you know who will never know you? Where's the knowledge that the safety of the loop is gone, and you can't fix any mistakes you make? That's the good angst I want

Ive been so back from overs that were so that you couldnt fathom