sorry for the wait guys, here are some fics that have been updated or posted from the month of august till now! :)

-September 

Die Young, Stay Pretty

Zayn is happy being a hairdresser who minds his own business; that is, until someone called “Liam” has to come in, dragging his friend on the back of a bet. And, really, Zayn didn’t stand a chance.

Do you have to let it linger?

“We’re married, I swear. It sounds crazy but we are. I was in 2020, and then I woke up back in 2010 and life is very different but there has to be a reason why I found you again, right? Please, listen to me.” Zayn pleads while Liam looks freaked out, “Uhh, sorry mate, but I don’t even know you, you must’ve gotten me wrong for some other bloke.”

between the past and future (we’ll find a forever)

❝ He feels like he isn’t doing it for Zayn anymore, because the interest in his mind starts building a tower for itself and he brings himself not to mind anymore. ❞or where Liam and Zayn fall in love over Bollywood-y things.

Start again

This last 18 months have all been about endings and not just temporary endings, permanent change and Liam just wants to feel like the ground isn’t quicksand under his feet anymore.A story where Liam’s parents head for Australia leaving him with no choice but to find a nanny to help him take care of Hannah. This is what happens next.

Swipe Right

Liam, 26 less than a mile away “Daddy gets high, but daddy takes care of business"Or the one where zayn gets out of a relationship and decides to try out tinder and meets the one and only Liam Payne.

words will be just words till you bring them to life

He lived in a world where people are born inked with words forearms and wrists. Words that have meaning and reason. The first words your soulmate directs at you. (Or alternatively, just another soulmate AU)

Tattoos and Superheros

Inspired by this tumblr post: "AU where everyone is born with a very unique tattoo on their ankle, nobody else in the world has that tattoo. Every time you fall in love with someone, their tattoo appears somewhere else on your body. (not necessarily soulmates, just who you fall in love with)."Zayn Malik, who only has one tattoo on his body that wasn’t his own, and that was enough. He didn’t need anymore than that, it was difficult enough the first time.Liam Payne, the popstar who falls in love too easily, whose body is scattered with tattoos.So what happens when they meet and find a new tattoo on each of their bodies? I blame the Superhero Incident.

Pup Fiction

The lives of two dads, a baby, and a puppy intertwine in a (short) tale of giggling and yapping.– It’s entertaining to the point of Zayn belatedly realising he’s no longer behind Liam. Instead, he now watches the adorable ‘massacre’ from Liam’s lap, soothed by a gentle warm hand on his back. Gentle circles on the small of his back underneath his shirt. This is certain to make him melt every time."It’s cute, but— we’re watching this 'cos…?”“Obvious, innit?” Liam grins, eyes crinkling up as his whole face lights up with excitement. “Alim’s getting his own dog."Well, Zayn can’t say he saw this one coming. – Or the one where Zayn should learn how to say 'no’ to Liam.

Zayn, The wonder photographer

“you killed him..how could you do that? I thought we were brothers man.”

Thirst Has No Curfew

Zayn and Liam have a Halloween movie night, but an innocent night turns into something else.

They don’t know we know

Inspired by the Friends episode “The one where everyone finds out.”Liam and Zayn decide to see how long it takes the other boys to figure out they’re together, added to them not allowed to leave their hotel, turns into a battle to see who wins.They don’t know that we know that they know that we know.

I thank God you came (how many more days could I wait?)

Four years ago, Hawkeye saved the Black Widow. Now Zayn has to save Liam.

Zayn + Liam [Romeo and Juliet au]

Romeo and Juliet, their love story is one of the most told around the world, except, aren’t love stories supposed to end with happily ever afters?So what happens when Zayn Malik, son of one of the most well known and richest CEOs in London, falls in love with the son of his father’s rival, Liam Payne?Will their love story end like Romeo and Juliet’s, with poison and blood, or will theirs be different?

Just a four letter word

Zayn’s fine living in this world where love’s unspoken. Not allowed.Till he’s not.

The Money Maker

a fake relationship AU where Zayn struggles to hide his fond for Liam, and maybe–just maybe–Liam has the same problem with Zayn

Sink or swim

Zayn hates swimming pools. He has to go pick up his daughter from one, when he sees her swimming teacher, he may just forget how much he hates them.(a prompt fill from Tumblr for Single Dad/Teacher AU. and another exercise in how I can’t come up with titles for love nor money)

Cupcakes & Confessions

Ethan giggled at that, pressing his little fingers into Zayn’s beard. “Your kisses tickle, papa!”Zayn froze, his lips on the tip of Ethan’s nose. He and Liam had only been together a few months, and Ethan routinely called him ‘Zee’……so this? This was new.

Leave The Past Behind 

Apart from a failed relationship and a secret that he’s not sharing with anyone, Liam likes his orderly life just fine. Zayn hates people like Liam and when a chance encounter throws them together, neither of them are prepared for what follows.

Every Day With You

Liam and Zayn have been married for years, and have three beautiful sons. Liam works from home to take care of the house and the kids, while Zayn spends all of his time working. Dealing with an angsty teenager, a hyper 7 year old, and a quickly growing toddler (mostly) alone is dragging him down to a place he hasn’t been since before he and Zayn met. At least their dog is cute.

Let’s kiss a little instead

Zayn and Liam are the world’s best football players and they both play for opposite teams. Zayn had a hard time growing up and struggles a lot with anxiety and pressure problems and he hates Liam for always being cool and chill and perfect. So when the two rivals finally meet, things go down a completely different road than Zayn had expected.

Temporary Fix

Liam’s boyfriend recently broke up with her and Zayn decides to have a girls night in… just one tender touch leads to a passionate night and Liam can’t help but wonder if this temporary fix can solve her heartache.

Begin Again

Zayn watches Liam everyday on the bus, he has a sketch pad full of drawings, half written songs about the boy with the brown eyes but absolutely no desire to get his heart broken again.

Nobody Compares

N/A

I don’t want to be without you anymore

They broke up. He’s broken.

Wingman

In which Liam’s girlfriend of 2 years breaks up with him, leaving him an absolute pathetic, wreck, so his friends [Niall, Harry, Louis, and Zayn] take it upon themselves to take him out to a club after weeks of solitude.While they’re there, Zayn unknowingly helps Liam hook up with a girl, which results in Liam begging Zayn to be his wingman and help him hook up with anyone he deems worthy.Zayn agrees [sort of], but unbeknownst to Liam, there’s just a faint problem.Zayn is helplessly, irrevocably, and unbelievably in love with Liam.

Shades of Blue

The moment the sentence drops on the table he notices the way Liam starts to shake before he’s looking into his eyes with this incredulous look on his face. “You’d want that?” He heaves out his tone almost bewildered. Zayn just grabs his fingers under the table and presses. “If I didn’t – you’d know by now I wouldn’t have stuck around.” “But you’re so – I don’t really know how to put it – just –” “Shush it.” He orders maybe a bit too harshly. “You’re one of the best things that have entered my life since she left it. Kiss me.” He watches as Liam’s eyes divert towards the girls lost in the tablet Liam handed Vi in the car. “Kiss me.” He says again. “From the look of them, they’ll be just fine with the news.”

I Like the Color Red, So I Let It Bleed

(Or the one where Zayn is not interested in thinking about the consequences of making Liam his).

We Are The Worst

Liam and Zayn meet up on Grindr and screw it up the first time. Niall wants to rectify that.

Never Gonna Wanna Let Me Go

Zayn Malik is one of the highest paid escorts in London. He’s good at his job, he knows this. But it’s not his chosen field, it’s easy money so he can have a chance to pursue his chosen field without becoming homeless. His employer Caroline has many rules to keep him safe but Zayn only has one ‘Don’t Get Attached’. Of course, there was always going to be one, the guy who would come in to the picture and make Zayn’s easy job almost impossible.

Guess I always push my luck when I’m with you 

the Tinder AU nobody asked for. 

When I’m with you

They’ve been pushing their luck since the day they met, difference is they do it together.This is canon but of course AU. The lead up to the kiss in 2014 at the NRJs.

amentation (MCD)

What is grief? In technical terms, it is a multifaceted response to loss, particularly to the loss of someone or something that has died, to which a bond or affection was formed. Although conventionally focused on the emotional response to loss, it also has physical, cognitive, behavioral, social, and philosophical dimensions. My mum likes to say that grief is the invisible anchor that has kept me in my bed, too weary to properly function. Grief is what cause people to look at me strangely when I suddenly can’t breathe because I saw something that forced me to think of him. It shouldn’t be this hard. He was just a boy. A boy with freckled cheeks that crinkled by his eyes every time his frown that would curve upwards and instantly have everyone surrounding him grinning too. To me, grief had very little similiarities to what I have been going through since the day his mum called mine with news that would change my life forever.

Impaired

Liam’s been blind since he’s eight, and he’s now twenty three. Zayn’s a painter who plays his music too loud, and always wears a collogne that sticks in the hallways. Liam has an imaginative mind, and Zayn has the brushes to paint it. They help each other out.

Counterpoint

Zayn and Liam are two complicated and slightly dysfunctional people trying to craft an uncomplicated and functional relationship.

Happily

Basically, I wrote this for the first round of the 1D Lyric Wheel on tumblr. I got Happily and it ends up with poor Liam getting drunk because Zayn goes on a date with someone else.

We came all this way (but now comes the day to bid you farewell)

my angsty take on the "come on then, come on” kiss.

Let’s Be Alone Together

maybe in the end it doesn’t matter so much where you end up, as long as you aren’t alone.

My Bestfriend’s Wedding

Zayn’s getting married.

so come on give me a taste

Liam gets really drunk and when he’s drunk he gets horny.

this dawn monologue

for the first time in a while, zayn allows himself to crumble.

Beyond the sea

This story is played in the mid 19th.. Zayn, Louis and Niall are pirate friends and their captain is Louis. Harry is a British nobleman who will join in by a few chapters.. And the major character is Liam, the captain of a birtish navy ship. All of them will eventually get together, with Some accidents..

a solid thousand percent

ziam coffee shop au.

chasing something in the night

Another drabble from the SPN universe. I have so many head canons. So many.

sequel  from we’re riding out tonight to case the promised land

A Pirate’s Love for me

Here are some fics that were published this week :) enjoy 

In Wonder, Steady Going Under

It wasn’t supposed to be like this. The fighting was only supposed supply good money to help out back home. Liam didn’t mean to get caught up with the mafia. He didn’t mean to put a price on his head. He didn’t mean to fall for the Father’s son.

(AKA the mafia!au where Liam’s an underground street fighter and Zayn’s the son of the most powerful man on the East coast.)

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Impaired

Liam lost his eyesight when he was eight years old, growing up blind has always been a struggle for him. But when he’s done the same things over and over, he’s come to recognize and know his surroundings. When a new neighbor moves in across from him, he seems to suddenly become lost again. . Liam’s been blind since he’s eight, and he’s now twenty three. Zayn’s a painter who plays his music too loud, and always wears a collogne that sticks in the hallways. Liam has an imaginative mind, and Zayn has the brushes to paint it. They help each other out.

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your albatross, let it go

hey’re all here for a reason, Liam’s not stupid. They all have reasons to be in a safe house in the middle of Budapest, and here’s proof. They might need to talk about it soon. Not now, though, when one of them looks to be shaking apart at the seams. They’ve all been so hurt, and they’re trying to piece themselves back together.

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Viva la Vida

In which Liam is not a princess, but needs saving anyway; everyone is just a pawn in a dangerous game of politics and brutality he’s not sure anyone knows how to play; there’s more than one side to everything and maybe no right side to anything; and you can find and love and learn to live without people even after you’ve lost them. And instead of a princess that needs saving, there might be a boy who never needed anything, except maybe something worth dying for.(Or, Liam is the crown prince of England who gets kidnapped by rebels and finds out that the world is a big, ugly place full of beautiful, broken-up people who may never get a happily ever after, no matter how hard they try.)

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I can’t hide this (no matter how hard I try)

Liam has had enough. He can’t do this. It’s not fair. His love shouldn’t be hidden. But it has to be. For Zayns sake.

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In the bed all day, bed all day, bed all day.

Viva la Vida by: iambluehead

Pairing: Zayn/Liam, side Louis/Harry Chaptered/WIP

In which Liam is not a princess, but gets kidnapped and needs saving anyway; everyone is just a pawn in a dangerous game of politics and brutality he’s not sure anyone knows how to play; there’s more than one side to everything and maybe no right side to anything; and you can find and love and learn to live without people even after you’ve lost them. And instead of a princess that needs saving, there might be a boy who never needed anything, except maybe something worth dying for.

A small rec list:

seasons have changed and so have we by jesswritesthings : 20K | Rated: Mature

He doesn’t think of Liam when he fucks into the guy he can’t remember the name of in the back of his Range Rover or the time he spreads Michael one of his employee’s on his and Liam’s bed and eats him out before sending him on his way with a small kiss on his lips. He doesn’t but he cries in the morning after in one of Liam’s shirts as he watches their wedding videos and thinks over where everything went wrong and why he couldn’t still be in love with this guy that gives him and supports him through everything.

or

Where Zayn doesn’t love Liam like he use too.

Home by jesswritesthings | Words: 6K | Rated: teens and up

where Liam thinks zayn is cheating or bored but really he was just planning a surprise

i wish it never ended with a heartbreak by jesswritesthings | Words: 2K | Rated: teens and up | major character death

“Hello from the other side I must’ve called a thousand times To tell you I’m sorry for everything that I’ve done But when I call you never seem to be home…”

before the sun comes by jesswritesthings | Words: 1K | Rated: teens and up 

the sun isn’t up but Liam decides to be a little shit.

Zayn likes to tease Liam by speaking urdu.

baby, kiss me before they turn the lights out by jesswritesthings | Words: 8K | Rated: teens and up

Liam and Zayn kiss beside a Ferris wheels at the fair before they close down for the night.

Cards on the Table by StormDancer | Words: 33K | Rated: Mature

Slowly, very slowly, Zayn nods. “After the job,” he agrees, and turns to leave. But then he pauses, with his hand on the doorknob, and Liam braces himself because he knows the signs of a Zayn Malik bit of wisdom coming. “But Liam—” he talks to the side, not looking back, “You keep on wanting me to show my hand. But you–you’ve barely got any money in the pot.”

In which Liam pines, Zayn broods, Louis is manic, Harry charms everyone, Niall makes the best sandwiches, and stealing the money is barely the point at all.

the boys of the summer by countthestars | Words: 22K | Rated: Mature

Louis cracks open his can and holds it up in a toast. “To the best summer of our lives,” he declares.

“To graduating high school,” Harry adds.

“To beer!” Niall crows.

Liam looks around the fire at his three best friends in the entire world, the rest of summer stretching out in front of them as vast and endless as the ocean. There’s nowhere on earth he’d rather be.

“To friendship,” he says.

Four cans clink together in a toast and just for a moment, Liam feels like he’s invincible.

;

Liam is 17 the summer he falls in love.

Boys of Summer (Solstice) by ballsdeepinharry | Words: 13K | Rated: Mature

It’s 1999 in SoCal. Zayn just graduated high school but all he cares about is riding bikes and occasionally getting high and getting dragged around to parties by his two best friends— Niall and Harry.

Niall rides bikes that he makes out of stolen parts and Harry is just a broke kid with a skateboard and a ridiculously high IQ.

Liam lives a privileged life, everything handed to him on a silver platter, but all he dreams of is being a pro skater. Louis is Liam’s best friend (if not his mischievous sidekick) who doesn’t mind stirring up trouble with the kids from the other side of the tracks.

You Never Give Up On Me by sunshinexbomb | Words: 31K | Rated: Mature

Zayn doesn’t know if it’s funny or a little sad that they keep skirting around this thing they’ve gotten themselves into. Sometimes it hurts knowing that Liam never asks him to stay even though Zayn knows he wants him to. He wonders how long he can keep doing this, can keep waiting for Liam, and he doesn’t know if it scares him or not that he could possibly wait forever.

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In which Zayn is an English teacher tempted to write awful poetry about the warm coffee color of Liam’s eyes, Liam is a primary ed teacher and single parent who thinks he’s too busy to be in a relationship, Niall and Harry are the sickeningly cute newlywed teachers in the school, and Louis is a drama teacher who is not-so-patiently waiting for the day of his own wedding.

This Love Left a Permanent Mark by harrietelizabeth | Words: 25K | Rated: Explicit 

Liam’s memory of Zayn is a summer afternoon, scraping enough money together between them for ice creams and a pack of smokes, the window open in Liam’s room to entice a breeze inside. It’s midnight conversations and early morning kisses, still half asleep. It’s all the words Liam never knew how to say until he heard them from Zayn’s lips.

And Zayn’s memory of Liam is….well, that’s the problem. Liam has no idea.

i’m not crazy, i’m just a little unwell by redsweater | Words: 27K | Rated: Mature

“You need to get over the fact we haven’t shared everything together babe,” Liam mumbles tired.

Zayns shakes his head, “I do not. Couples must experience everything together. I know smoking our first cigarette together is stupid, but it makes me happy considering I didn’t get drunk with you my first time, nor did I lose my virginity to you.” Zayn gives Liam a pointed look, like he dares him to say something about that topic.

zayn is special, and liam’s in love

searching for a sweet surrender (but this is not the end) by grayaolouis | 18K | Rated: Teen and up audiences 

Louis Tomlinson and Harry Styles, the two most loved coaches on The Voice UK known for their banter on the show and best friendship off. Louis’s determined to win and finally end Harry’s winning streak with Zayn Malik on his team, but Harry’s flirting and Liam Payne have different plans.

— Or an AU based off the Voice where Louis’s Adam, Harry’s Blake, Niall’s Shakira, Zayn and Liam have a cliche Romeo/Juliet love story and Louis’s too old for pathetic pining.

Black Treacle by littlenoona | Words: 68K | Rated: Explicit | ABO 

Liam wasn’t gay. She wasn’t. She liked dick. She’d never seen one in person, but she’d watched enough porn during her heats to have a pretty good idea of what they looked like, kinda scary but well, that’s just how they looked like. She liked them. She was supposed to, right? She was an omega, was supposed to want an alpha, a male alpha, to stuff her full of his pups and make her his good girl. So why the fuck was she fingering herself to the girl next door?

(or the fic where liam doesn’t like girls and zayn will punch whoever looks at liam in the throat and harry just wants zayn to fuck her and niall just wants to have a simple date with his girlfriend and louis just wants to fool around // genderswap!)

Watch you dance by vastlyunknown | Words: 5K | Rated: Explicit 

Liam is a dancer. Zayn is an R'N'B singer. Louis and Harry are agents who hate each other. It all turns a bit ridiculous and a lot lovely.

I’m a good boy by rosetintmyworld | Words: 46K | Rated: Explicit | VERY TRIGGERING

Liam Payne seemingly lives a normal, if not boring life. He has one friend and is a second string lacrosse player. Everything seems normal, until you look behind the closed doors. His father loves him, even if it’s too much and he’s convinced himself of that. Until, a new boy comes to town, the boy has scars and a secret of his own, and he only wants Liam to let him in.

small town firelight by theviolonist | Words: 74K | Rated: Explicit | genderswap

“I love you,” the little girl in blue says, ducking her head, and the daredevil, who was so happy to make a friend when she climbed over the fence that first day, has never hated friendship more.

(or, Zayn is a punk and Liam is her best friend and definitely not a lesbian)

for you, i can be by top_linson | Words: 8K | Rated: Mature

prompt: How about a fic where Liam is like the cliche frat boy and Zayn is like some hipster art student who hates frats but goes to one of their parties and ends up falling for Liam

somehow i still carry on, burdened by fears by slashter | Words: 31K | Rated: Explicit 

He doesn’t realize how much pain he’s in until the hot water hits his shoulders. He hisses at the sting but lets the water pound his aching muscles anyway, washing himself with Liam’s body wash and shampoo, then toweling himself off until he’s practically pink. His knees are already buckling as he makes his way over to the dresser, grabbing a pair of clean boxers, and he eases himself into bed, wrapping himself in the cold sheets. He doesn’t cry, no, not at all.

[Or the one where Liam’s been kidnapped but doesn’t remember Zayn and Zayn struggles with loss and love and heartbreak all over again]

your personal superhero by zaynplusanyone | Words: 11K | Not Rated

Liam stumbles into Zayn and his daughter’s lives but a secret or two may end up not being worth the fight.

i don’t want to wake up lonely by larrification | words: 7K | Rated: teens and up 

“Zayn had never been more grateful for his vapid bitch of an ex-wife.”

or where Zayn loses his wife, his kid, and his job over a few months. He doesn’t know who he pissed off, but he does know that he’ll do anything to get his life back. Minus Perrie. Plus the hot CPS worker.

rather be with you by takemeorleaveme | Words: 2K | rated: teens and up 

He downs the rest of his more gin than tonic and sets his glass down. He begins to walk to the loos, except he feels a tap on his shoulder. Zayn turns and is frozen in place, staring into a pair of friendly eyes. He raises an eyebrow in response. The other male motions him to come to the bar— he follows because- fuck it. It’s not like this night can get worse. Alternatively: Zayn really regrets going out with Niall. When a man approaches him with an offer he just has to refuse, Zayn isn’t too gutted about it.

my favorite color’s liam by ziam22 | words: 9K | rated: mature 

A scrabble on Zayn and Liam’s first meeting, conversation, hand holding, hug, I love you’s, kiss, French kiss, shower, handjob, blowjob, and time (sex)

i think of only you by alifeofourown | words: 7K | rated: teens and up

Zayn is in love with Liam but Liam is with Danielle, so Zayn has no choice but to win Liam over by seducing him and just plain loving him.

you’ll never treat yourself right, darling, but i want you to by wafflehood | words: 10K | rated: teens and up 

He loves it, the singing and the touring and the fans and the boys, his boys, and he wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world, not being a fireman or an Olympic runner, and he’s so, so grateful for everything he’s been given, everything they’ve been given. But sometimes he reads hateful tweets, or comments not meant to be hurtful but end up feeling like a punch in the gut anyway, listens to people belittle everything they’ve achieved, and he doesn’t mean to let it get to him, but it does.

(or, in which Liam doesn’t love himself, (or think he deserves to be loved by anyone else), and Zayn tries to show him why he should).

baby, look what you’ve done to me by heroesneeded | words: 4K | explicit

“'Is there a reason you’re always staring at me from your window?’ Liam learns that Zayn’s very blunt.

Liam stutters and tries to come up with an answer that doesn’t seem creepy. He doesn’t want to tell him the truth so he starts to tell a lie.

‘Do you just like admiring me?’ Zayn asks, licking his lips and Liam’s eyes glance down at the movement before looking back into Zayn’s eyes.“

Or, Liam’s always admired his yard guy. He’s never talked to him just stared at him from the window. He thinks he’s being sneaky until one day the guy needs to come in to get a glass of water. And something else…

though i try by outofcases | words: 17K | rated: teens and up 

When Liam tells Zayn he wants to come out to their families, Zayn stalls until he can’t anymore. Backed up against a wall and scrambling for options, he makes decisions he’ll come to regret and rushes to fix them in any way he can. Along the way, he finds out what family really means, picks himself back up when he falls, and learns that courage and show business have next to nothing in common.

or

Liam is getting tired of secrets, and Zayn is not good under pressure.

heart stutters like moths wings by ihavetoomuchfreetime | words: 5K | Not rated

non-au. the four times that zayn shows liam he loves him, and the one time he says it.

no regrets, just love by burieddeep | words: 7K | rated: teens and up 

Liam is a prostitute with pretty routine life. Zayn is a college kid who has developed a fascination with drilling holes into Liam’s routine.

right from the start you know i got you by tomlinblows | words: 10K | not rated 

“I’m going to die,” Liam rushed through his head. “No, worse than death. I’m going to shrivel up into the size of a pebble and get chucked so far out into the ocean a whale swallows me in. Then, I’ll taste so bad that it’ll spit me out and land me on some socio-monkey island where I’ll get torn to bits and passed around like a hockey puck as they sink their diseased teeth into my flesh. I knocked into Zayn Malik and I am definitely going to die.”

lips do what hands do by erstwhiled | words: 36K | rated; explicit

You’re not supposed to fall in love with students, it’s unethical or something.

follow you into the dark by ghostrider | words: 18K | rated: mature | VERY TRIGGERING / major character death

Zayn doesn’t know exactly what brought him to this stage. Doesn’t know when Liam became both his biggest weakness and strength. He still can’t quite believe that there is someone in his life who has deprived him off the ability to say ‘no’.

What he does know though; is that he’s too far gone to be pulled back. And according to the irritating voice of his subconscious, he is so fucked.

On the other hand, by the way, Liam is too far gone as well. But, in an entirely different way.

i like it when you sleep by grandtheftlove | words: 5K | rated: mature | girl/boy drug use

“Zayn sits cross legged on the sheets, staring at the embers burning at end of whatever the hell it is he’s smoking, the only light in the pitch black room. There are cigarette holes in the duvet. He doesn’t care what he smokes anymore. When he’s not high off the taste of Liam on his tongue, it’s got to be something else, anything else. He only smokes when she’s asleep, and he knows withdrawal from Liam would be harder than withdrawal from anything else he’s sucked into his lungs, but it’s so hard, he’s so fucked up.”

Inspired by the poem “I Like It When You Sleep” By Matty Healy of the 1975, Insomniac Zayn struggles to protect the girl he is head over heels in love with from the drug addiction that consumes him. He’s guilty for being who he is and he’s guilty because Liam loves him, and Liam deserves so much more.

doing it wrong by fuckmeliam | words: 4K | rated: explicit

Liam writhed beneath him, trying in vain to thrust up into Zayn’s elusive fingers. He felt warm all over, his body pumping blood and pounding with the low music Zayn put on what felt like hours before and the desperate, aching desire to feel something, anything on his leaking cock.

“Please—” Liam breathed the word like a prayer, breaths huffing out in little exasperated whines.

“I guess I did want you to fucking beg.” Zayn slowly pressed his palm to Liam’s hip, sliding closer to where he was panting to be touched.

(or the one where liam’s pouty and jealous because zouis hang out and get high together and he just wants to blow smoke in zayn’s mouth)

better to be than to burn by ashsparagus | words: 14K | rated: teens and up 

Zayn’s twin sister, Leigh, is betrothed to Liam. And Zayn hates him. Like, a lot.

escape by becharlatan | words: 2K | not rated

Zayn never knew that Liam liked making love in the midnights on the dunes of the cape. He knows, however, that their marriage life is slightly slipping down the hill.

to feel a little warm (all by myself, im here again) by leeyumosaurus | words: 2K | rated: teens and up

In which Zayn skips out on Jay’s wedding.

eyes shut fingers open by lostlenore | words: 4K | not rated

Liam gets off the bus in front of the fine arts studios feeling like he should’ve arrived wearing nothing but a trench coat and expensive heels.

let not my love be called called idolatry by lostlenore | words 4K | not rated

Liam would make a terrible princess

for your love (i’d proudly climb a mountain) by hit_it_with_a_shoe | words: 10K | not rated

It’s the last few days before they’re all off to Uni. Zayn just wants his boys around him while he still has them.

-It’s not that Zayn is restless, more just… floating. Unquestionably awake, but in a quiet sort of headspace, weed fading from his system even as the alcohol clings to him slightly. The red eyes of Louis’ bedside alarm clock (a creepy little Pooh Bear perpetually about to pinwheel over the side as he reaches for a pot of honey) says it’s just about two in the morning.-

In which Niall discovers that he is, in fact, the very last straight boy.

and ive been thinking about you lately… by supercalifragili | words: 13K | rated: mature

“What’s up?” Niall’s groggy voice filters through and “You worked some sort of love charm on me right?” Liam asks quickly and Niall laughs with him at 2:03 in the morning. He’s never laughed this much.

well that was just a lie (when they said you was high classed) by postitbandit | words: 8K | rated: explicit 

The funny thing about all of it, about how it starts and how it ends, is that he met Zayn first.

we move on like this by sunnysideup | Words: 13K | not rated

A comment on Christmas Day 2016 takes Liam and Zayn on a journey to family life.

(ps i didn’t add really popular fics, i added fics that had less recognition and my favs also i shamelessly promoted my fics! 

Push Your Head Towards The Air

Rotten Summer

It’s just as well (or maybe it can be)  self harm tw

Some Love Wait Till Its Time

i want to be a part of it all

Half A Heart

Lost for words

Here to stay? Here we go. words;4666 

[Alternatively; Zayn is just trying to be Liam’s type. It doesn’t work out.]

The Killing Type words; 130453

Zayn is a doctoral student who goes to great lengths to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. Liam is heading the biggest serial murder investigation London has seen in half a century. And before this, he’d never been sent a love note via corpse.

Please Don’t Go words; 42221

(AU: veronica malik moves schools, and falls in love with the football captain liam payne. only things aren’t as simple, but when are things ever?)

Out of Your League words;24953

(Or the one where Zayn is a slightly pretentious Art student who has people falling for him left right and centre, until gorgeous Music student Liam Payne walks into his life and refuses to bow down.)

Learning to Let Go words;9590

Zayn has always been responsible, putting his family first, ignoring what he wants for the sake of others. So in order to save his company and secure their future, he says yes to a marriage proposal. It’s not like he has someone special in his life, he reasons. Just when things seem fine, he meets Liam, and he starts to question every decision he ever made.

You’ll never be mine words; 3581

Its a chilly night in Kruger National Park when Liam hears I won’t mind for the first time. He’s never felt so close but so far away from Zayn.

(or I’m really rubbish at summaries and this is just my interpretation of what happened when Liam heard that magical song for the first time)

(Louis is only mentioned as are the Paynes).

Make You Feel My Love words; 9175

(Or the one where sixteen-year-old Liam is Nicola little brother, and when she asked her best friend Zayn to help cheer him up she probably didn’t predict it all to end like this.)

Change My Mind words;3915 

Zayn gives Liam a challenge, but ends up cheating at his own game.

Patience words; 7277

“How did you know I was going to ask how you feel about me?”

Liam rubs a hand up his spine, eyes bright. “Because I heard you tell the little one last night that you love him and his Papa. And when I was waking you up this morning I asked because I couldn’t stop thinking about it, and you said ‘of course I love you, Liam.’’

Picture Perfect words; 8584

Inspired by Liam and Zayn mirroring each other’s selfies.

jmcats Fic Masterpost

I have been incredibly blessed to be apart of something magical for nearly three years now.  There were good times, there were some needed tears but I don’t think I’ll ever forget having the honor to write some pretty therapeutic stories!

Here’s one last trip down memory lane for those interested…

but the sun comes up instead

there’s a bookmark where i met you

autumn leaves of red and gold

baby be with me (so happily)

i’ll be strong for you

lost for words

the only ones who know

you know i got you

Floating On The Water - Scottmcniceass

Liam just wants to get through his last summer working at Malik Resort before University without incident. Of course, life is never that easy, and he ends up getting roped into giving the bosses son, Zayn, swimming lessons. That wouldn’t be so bad, if Zayn didn’t happen to hate him so much.

Colour My Senses Cherry Red -Thilia 

Zayn Malik, closeted gay pornstar.

Don’t Go - Scottmcniceass

Liam’s out of the country most of the year because of his job, but he needs someone to take care of his dog. Zayn thinks he’s hit the jackpot when he starts renting the room in Liam’s apartment. He gets the whole place to himself most of the year, and all he has to do is walk and feed a dog.

He never expected to fall in love with Liam, but it happens anyways.

I’ll Be Strong For You - Scottmcniceass

When Zayn breaks his leg attempting to skateboard over Harry’s car, he ends up stuck in the hospital for two weeks. The only thing he doesn’t hate about the hospital is the gorgeous volunteer, Liam, who is almost annoyingly sunny and happy. But Liam’s got a secret a secret hidden behind his impossibly bright smile.

Sonnets Behind the Flame - jmcats

Liam has been anticipating a weekend away at Louis’ family’s cabin for years. It’s nothing but wilderness, bonfires, football, his best mates, alcohol, and an escape from their last year in Sixth Form. Oh, and Niall has invited Harry Styles and Zayn Malik along. The same Zayn who’s a complete prick to Liam’s mates. The same Zayn that Liam has spent so many years hating, he doesn’t know the reasons anymore.

Suddenly, Liam doesn’t think this is such a brilliant idea after all.

Permanent - Scottmcniceass

At twenty-six, Liam has made a name for himself as one of the best football players of his generation. He’s in the prime of his game when a car accident threatens to end his career permanently. Depressed and hating the world, Liam heads back to his home town to take some time off and find himself again. He doesn’t expect to find life pretty much the way he’d left it eight years ago, and he definitely doesn’t expect to find something that might make him want to stay permanently, but that’s what he gets.

Tea, Coffee, or Captain America? - jmcats

It’s just a little used bookshop – that also sells comic books, DVD’s, vinyl, but Liam knew a long time ago that it was so much more to him. This city was much more to him. His best mates Louis and Zayn (especially Zayn) were much more to him. And this just might be a story where Louis likes torturing the new guy Harry Styles, Harry likes lollipops, Niall likes everyone, Zayn likes being around Liam, and Liam likes comic books.

“And somewhere, when he didn’t expect it, they all decided that this little city wasn’t so bad after all. No, it was good enough for Louis to stick around, for Niall to find his place, for Harry to be himself, for Zayn to finally fall in love, and for Liam to never regret sticking around when his parents moved away.”

Tunnel Vision - Scottmcniceass

In which Zayn is an award-winning popstar with a knack for getting himself in trouble, and Liam is the bodyguard he didn’t want to hire who has a few problems with staying professional.

Let’s Pretend It’s Love - wafflehood

Pretend!boyfriends fic in which Liam and Zayn get papped while hamming it up for Louis and Eleanor, and management decides the easiest way to deal with the resulting hysteria is to let it run its course.

Mirrors - ohioinmymind

Liam and Louis are a couple of rich kids, with no care in the world. Zayn doesn’t care about anything but skating and Liam. Harry wants Louis to see him for what he really is; a good guy. And Niall just wishes they would all get their shit together.

Burning Away From Inside - Scottmcniceass

Zayn/Louis/Niall and Cher save the city, Liam’s a mechanic with a habit of being in the wrong place at the wrong time, and Harry’s a little too curious for his own good.

Some Girls - Rave

Zayn wakes up a girl. Liam tries to be helpful. (series)

Like Peter Pan (Or Superman) - jmcats

Zayn has spent most of his life up until now in a cloud of smoke, hiding from his past, being different. When a firefighter named Liam rescues him from a fire, Zayn starts to realize maybe Liam’s saved his life in another way… and he’s not quite sure he’s ready to be that guy he should’ve been all along. But maybe, just for Liam, he can?

Kill Monsters In The Rain - blackwayfarers

A story where Liam can’t get over how great Zayn is at singing and drawing and pretty much everything, how just being near Zayn is enough to make Liam’s life a hundred times better, how lucky Liam is to have a best friend just as dedicated to pretending to be a superhero as he is.

‘Til I See You - vastlyunknown

In an effort to distract themselves from their own feelings for each other, Louis and Harry bully Liam and Zayn into a blind date. They very reluctantly agree but vow to not enjoy it. That is until they actually meet.

Run For the Woods Now - jmcats

Zayn knows some of the best and worst moments start with one of Louis’ ideas. Still, it’s almost as if everyone knew where this, his life, was going when Harry and Liam moved into Wagner’s old flat, with that stupid plant sitting in the doorway, and too many cigarettes and Justin Timberlake for any of this to have been one of those classically clichéd love stories. And Zayn doesn’t do clichés. Not until Liam, that is. {parts: II / III / IV}

Hold on When You Get Love (and Let Go When You Give It) - jmcats

This city, where Zayn’s lived all of his life, has always felt like home. He has two goals: finish up his Lit degree at University and avoid distractions. It’s unfortunate, and probably referenced in a dozen words he’s read by Whitman, Keats, and Twain, that this city’s never seen something quite like Liam. He’s just a boy with a dopey smile, soft eyes, and he’s the most absolute definition of the word distractionZayn’s ever met.

Or where Zayn’s studying Lit at Uni and Liam is a construction worker who catches Zayn’s eye every day he passes by

I’ll Get Over The Way You Got Over Me - wafflehood