With.Everything.

He has been under intense pressure at work, with a stretch of long days and nights, and when he could have done anything for a moment of peace, my introvert came to sit with me while he ate and we caught up.

Then today, I wanted to check in on him to make sure he’d had some recovery time, and he had me laughing. We spent a solid half hour talking about a variety of intense and not-intense things. Always level headed, knowing how to keep me calm with his different perspectives, letting me in because he knows I am all in with him and letting me process as I share.

I messaged Soul Mate I was running late and asked him to wait for me.

The train then got to his station and sat there for longer than it should have, so I messaged him to tell him.

It continued to sit there, and as the doors were about to close, he stepped into the train and leaned on the door across from me.

I was staring at him, grinning, waiting for him to catch my eye.

Instead he looked all around me, sighed, looked stressed and looked down.

So I asked what was going on, and he looked up and smiled at me.

His face lightened up when he saw me. He didn’t tell me what was wrong, but what a weird situation it was.

I get that he didn’t expect to see me, but why did he look like that?

Anyways, I told him about my messages and it was only then that he looked at his phone to read them.

He was so up in my space.

When other men have done this, I react by bristling, but this time I didn’t even flinch.

We had a fire alarm, and the two of us walked down and then back up our 30 flights of stairs together. We sweat and I intimately know his musk.

I checked in before the appointment, told him I’m thinking about him and I wanted an update when all was done.

All of a sudden he calls, so I get somewhere private hoping for the good news I’ve been praying for.

Instead, he tells me he is going to the ER and may need emergency surgery so he will be unreachable.

All day, I am stressed but continuing to work and keep the information private because that’s how I am.

Our big boss’ staff messaged and asked for an update. I had none, but I was amused that she knew I’d know what was happening. I was pleased he’d taken the time to call me while messaging them the update.

I ended the day with family and checked to see if there were any updates, and there he was, saying all is fine.

I tell him to take it easy, and he tells me he will see me in person tomorrow. It is a moment I love his need for normalcy.

So I am thrilled and tell him I will wait wherever, because this is the third significant time this man has caused me stress due to his health.

This morning, he waited for me. I was so relieved to see him. He filled me in, and we went back to life as usual.

I informed him that he owes me for all the stress he has put me through this year between his health and promoting douche and he laughed but he knows me enough to know I am not joking.