Girl With Sword and Bow

u ever think about how when ilya selectively remembers his mother as being so superhumanly bright and funny and wonderful and shining, he’s actually just remembering her being manic

and the thing is. like. ilya carries his pain about his mother for so long and so quietly. he never complains. he wires money home. his brother calls him slurs, considers him nothing more than a bloodbank of money, siphoning siphoning siphoning. he says i promise to work very hard for you, papa, for this american team. i promise to win. for you, mama. ilya and irina, the weight of a household on their shoulders. you must stand tall, ilya, just like her. carry it with grace. do not let the household crumble. fill the emptiness with something else— girls, sex, money, alcohol, shane — no, not shane. shane is separate. shane isn’t allowed to see the hole in your chest, the festering wound. it’s okay, tuck it away like mama’s cross beneath your shirt. you’re good at keeping things hidden. deflect and divert. back straight, ilya, eyes up, ignore the blood pooling, ignore the blackened flesh. you can play with missing teeth, you can play with bruised ribs, you can weather anything. focus, this is nothing. grit your teeth and bear it. when you tell shane about mama, make sure he does not think she was weak. she was funny and beautiful, and papa was so hard on her. make sure he knows that first. who cares that you’re still bleeding, ilya, quit slouching, lazy boy — you’re beginning to look just like her.

there is absolutely no shame whatsoever in using a shower chair. there's no rule that says you have to shower standing. stop ignoring the pain. get yourself a shower chair. please.

they call it bloodlust because it’s meant to turn you on

they should invent an understanding and intellectualizing your feelings that makes them go away!!!

My liege im sorry to break it to you but your advisor that's actually evil and wants you dead turned out to be straight. I know you really wanted to have an enemies to lovers situation with him. Yeah I'm afraid the poisoning didn't hold any romantic intent behind it. The king of the enemy kingdom is bisexual though, I could send him a letter? Yes, I'll make sure to include multiple threats of homoerotic nature. You will have your toxic yaoi, my liege

underrated ship dynamic is 'they deserve each other /derogatory'