If you were there, beware.

i got so used tl that message coming up everytime sighs

suddenly remembers the day kit sent me an assload of nudes and i asked her to stop because it was making me uncomfortable and giving me some inherent obligation to reciprocate and i was nowhere near ready for that and when i asked to stop she toks me not to be a baby and had asked 'is this bc of your chub???? come on dont be so childish' and practically lectured me that 'i didnt have to be so self loathing with her' lmao

hhghgfhhh dumb aching chest

i deleted jays.message eg on accidnent and ibstarted crying godf fucking dkammitt im so so tupdid igfuckc

ill learn to draw meow sooner or later ive tried but theyre all trash so eh

would it be too much to ask for dandy to hug me Dont grope me or anything.just hug me im stupid and sad and fuck

lmao my sister wont stop talkgi an about how disgusting iam on top of this im abot tu to fucking

i just feel stupid for saying any of.it everything im upset about is absolutely childisj and stupid i cant wait until i can go away

who care es who care s

i had the bas jay dream and then i had a bad dream with dad and then i couldnt stop thinking abojt thw dandy episode i dont know why it made me feel so shitry ir was wondwrful to see him being so sweet and j alreasy love him maybe it becayse hes so like jay and she so dudnt like him abd they obviously didnt ger along abd jt hit close to home and im just si lonely it that it like stung a lot but i xant think about ut withoutbcrying because im a fucking idiot

i tried to sleep so mjch k trjed so hae bjt no jm so rtired i fele awdful

im sorry for this i wish i disnt get thsi afwful i knwo hwo shitty itbis to deal with i wish i would stop

fuckifnn god i.felel so stidupdi

whyvdisd i watchh thsi i feel so muchsb worse

i jhat eme i hate me so.mucj i hate everuoene byut ri hate me i want ro seleep thats all i want i dont want dreams i want to sleep i dont want a job i wdont want to.draw i dont want hugs ill sleep ill keep sleeping and i wont bother anyone andbibwont be upset anymore

whooooo caaaaaares anyway lmao deflates and disintegrates

ok cool thanks