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Main Tags: Hybrids AU, College AU, Strangers to Lovers, Slow Burn (kinda), Coffee Shop AU, Tsundere Taehyung, Character Development, Light Angst, Smut, Mpreg, Social Commentary (Race, Gender, Socioeconomic Status), Tooth-Rotting Fluff
Word Count: 92,192
A/N: This is my BIG BOY !!!!!! The longest fic I've ever written (so far ?? maybe I will one day reach 100k). Idk how I did it. Iâm listing this as complete, but new drabbles may be randomly added as I think of little slice of life scenarios I want to write. I'll probs post the chapters weekly cuz this is too much to do at once jhdfks.
Summary:Â Black Swan, an up-and-coming alternative metal rock band, is going on its first official tour. Jungkook looks forward to proving himself in a cutthroat industry, and Taehyung looks forward to the groupies. Neither expects to find the comfort their hearts truly desire in one another.
Pairing:Â Drummer Taehyung x Singer Jungkook
Chapter Rating:Â Explicit
Chapter WC: 5,596
Chapter CW:Â The best sex I've ever written in my whole entire life, I was basically crying by the end of it, we're in our healing era
A/N: this chapter was brought to you by r/AskGaybrosOver30 cuz if there's one thing jai will do for you, it's do extensive research on what it feels like to top someone for the first time to make sure you have the optimal reading experience. the downside? this triggered my gender envy jskdfhsk it's FINE i'm just agender and wish i had a dick. it's fINE
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Later, Taehyung will see the missed calls and text messages from Jimin and Seokjin, when itâs too late to respond and theyâre already back in their hotel room, fast asleep. Right now, heâs too busy wrestling his legs from his tight, wet shorts while Jungkook kisses him with his face cradled in his hands.Â
Because Taehyung is pretty sure they're gonna do it, and he's acting like a virgin about it.
The thing is, every band has a designated sex symbol. People might argue that Black Swan has four, as long as Seokjin isn't wearing his suburban dad ensemble. (Or, maybe, when he is.) Regardless, sex sells, and Taehyung is the band-appointed merchant. They toss him up front on stage when the crowd is dying. They steer him toward the girls during meet-and-greets and afterparties. They may flaunt Jungkook on their socialsâhe's got the rockstar look, long, messy hair, tattoos, washboard abs, dark stareâbut Taehyung knows how to pimp out in real life. He knows how to half-smirk and look bored in the kind of way girls scramble after, hoping they'll be different, that they'll be the ones to capture his attention.
It's easy. Taehyung could do it in his sleep.
And then there's Jungkook.
Sweet, beautiful, perfect Jungkook. Impossible Jungkook. Jungkook, Jungkook, Jungkook. Taehyung's brain skips, a rock fighting not to drown in the ocean, a broken record. Jungkook, who kisses him, warm and wet, the suck of his tongue and bottom lip louder than the hum of the hotel room's AC unit. His tattooed hand slides from the side of Taehyung's face to dig into his frizzy hair. Taehyung follows wherever Jungkook's grip takes him. Tilted to the left, noses bumping together. They share exhales, panting into each other's mouths when their lungs burn as hot as their arousal, pooling low.
âHow much pent-up energy do you have left?â Jungkook asks as he chases Taehyungâs mouth whenever Taehyung tries to bend over. He needs to wiggle his shorts further down his legs.
âJungkook-ahâ â Taehyungâs mouth parts in a slow smile that presses his teeth to Jungkookâs lips â âthatâs not fucking funny anymore.â
A shudder runs through Taehyung when he kicks his shorts away and finally feels Jungkookâs naked body against his. Shockingly, the world doesn't end.
âJust answer the question,â Jungkook insists between kisses, âso I can know how much youâre willing to put up with.âÂ
Taehyung jerks away from him with a deep frown, forcing Jungkook to drop his hands to his sides. âThe fuck does that mean?â
The AC unit hums in the silence of their hotel room, making Taehyungâs body shiver with goosebumps. The heat that climbs across his face isnât from the temperature. He doesn't even get the chance to process that he and Jungkook are standing in front of each other, as exposed and vulnerable as they could ever be.
âIÂ what?â Taehyung doesnât mean to snap, heâs just scared.Â
There it isâhe admitted it to himself. Heâs fucking terrified, of Jungkook, of what theyâre doing, about to do, of fucking up because Taehyung has always been a fuck-up. No matter how good things are going, he manages to ruin them. There arenât many things Taehyung can be sure of in life, but he knows without a doubt that he canât afford to lose Jungkook. Heâs already on thin fucking ice.
Ducking his chin, Jungkook takes a deep breath. When he looks back up, his eyes are watery.
Taehyungâs stomach drops. He watches Jungkook sit on the edge of the bed and can't understand how physically ill he feels when the distance between them grows.
âKooâŠâ
âYou donât even like men, Taehyung. And, yeahâ â Jungkook pauses to take a shuddery breath â âI said I wanted this, but itâs just really hard when I know youâre only going to fuck me because you feel sorry for me, even though it makes you uncomfortable. And I didnât realizeâ â he blinks up at the ceiling â âthat it was going to hurt this bad, okay?â
âJungkook,â Taehyung speaks slowly, with a frown he canât shake. âWhat do you mean, I feel sorry for you?â
âI told you how Iâm not like you⊠that first time, when we were together. I have to⊠I can, I can only feel this way with friends. I have to force it with strangers, and itâs really shitty. And you said youâd give me whatever I needed, but this was a bad idea.âÂ
Fuck.
It was the night they watched porn together, jerking off like it was the most normal thing to do with a best friend. Like it wouldn't completely alter the rest of their livesâor, at least, Taehyung's. Taehyung replays the conversation in his head, searching for the part, the part he missed, the part Taehyung couldn't understand because he was so caught up on how Jungkook sounds when he comes, and how Jungkook looks with his head thrown back, the long column of his throat on display.
"Iâm not like you⊠I canât just fuck someone. But hiding to go jack off alone in the bathroom every time I crave intimacy is really pathetic..."
That was the part Taehyung had missed.
"Iâm here for you, right? Whatever you need, whenever you need it. I got you, you know that. I got youâŠ"
What Taehyung had said was true then, and it's true now. He would do anything for Jungkook. Everything. He already has, right? How long has it been since he's had something to drink? Rather than alcohol, Taehyung swallows, and it's Jungkook he tastes on his tongue these days. He finds he craves that more than the strongest drink.
He just never told Jungkook.
"God, I'm such a fucking idiot." Taehyung laughs bitterly, shaking his head. âI wouldnât be here, doing this, if I didnât want to,â he admits with a slow exhale.
And it's true. It's so true it hurts because there's a part of Taehyung that doesn't want it to be true. Life would be so much easier if he could look Jungkook in the eyes and tell him that his chest doesn't tighten when Jungkook smiles at him, or his stomach doesn't drop when Jungkook cries, or his mind doesn't run away at night with the sound of Jungkook's moans while he's trying to sleep.
Taehyung's pulse pounds in his throat as he kneels on the edge of the bed between Jungkookâs legs because he knows it's where he belongs.
Jungkook scoots back, giving Taehyung space, but his gaze never waversâstarry-eyed even though theyâre no longer beneath the night sky. He watches Taehyung with eyes that could make even the most grounded person feel like theyâre floating. Itâs almost too much.Â
âYou swear?â Jungkook asks as his fingertips skirt across Taehyungâs bare hip.Â
âLike a fuckinâ sailor, yeah.â Taehyung grins, his cockiness a deceit they both recognize. He doesnât even try to dodge the pinch Jungkook gives his side.Â
âYou have a really weird way of expressing affection,â Jungkook had told him.Â
Taehyung presses forward, nudging Jungkook down until heâs flat on his back, the heaviness of Taehyung's body blanketing himânot the weight of the world bearing down on them. And when Taehyung kisses himâharder than beforeâhe thinks his way of showing affection isnât so bad.
âYou donât like men, though.â
Jungkook wonât let it go. He whispers against Taehyung's lips, stealing the air from his lungs just to punch whatâs left out of his chest with those words.
Taehyung lets his head hang and squeezes his eyes shut. But the storm inside him quiets when Jungkook combs his fingers through Taehyung's hair.
âI donât know..." Taehyung whispers.
Jungkook's fingertips trace Taehyung's cheeks, his nose, down to the bow of his lips. When they skim over his mouth, Taehyung kisses them.
âHyung,â Jungkook murmurs, pressing his fingers to the underside of Taehyungâs chin.
Taehyung finally lifts his head to lock eyes with Jungkook. His unruly hair is fanned out beneath him, damp strands curling at the ends as they dry. How long has it been since they got back from the hot tub? How long until Jungkook's patience for Taehyung runs out?
âI just donât want to force you toââ
Taehyung kisses him before he can finish.
It doesnât matter. It shouldn't matter. Taehyung doesn't want it to matter. If he thinks too hard about this, he'll psych himself out. It's just sex, just casual sex; that's the mantra he repeats to himself as he opens his mouth to let Jungkook's tongue slide against his. Taehyung is great at sex. Amazing, actually. The best. Big Dick Kim Taehyung. He knows how to use it.
None of this matters.
But then Jungkook lets out a content sigh between kisses, the kind that isn't quite debauched enough to be a whimper but still breathy enough to make Taehyung's body tingle. And he knows he can't keep fucking lying to himself.
Jungkook grabs Taehyungâs arm as he starts to pull away. âWhere are you going?â
âGotta get a condom,â Taehyung says, cocking his head in the direction of the dresser where they tossed their bags earlier. Super casual, cool as a motherfucking cucumber.
"Trojans?" Jungkook says the word like it's glass cutting the inside of his throat.
"Uh⊠yeah?"
"You're so straight, hyung."
Taehyung frowns. "Okay, so what?"
Jungkook wiggles his lip piercing with his teeth, and Taehyung tries not to be a freak about it. Instead, he waits as patiently as he can, subconsciously tapping a beat with his fingertips against the outside of Jungkookâs thighs.
âWhen was the last time you got tested?â
The meaning behind the question isnât lost on Taehyung. Jungkook wants Taehyung to fuck him raw.
Taehyungâs cock jumps involuntarily, and embarrassment finally hits him full force when Jungkook laughs.
âLeave me the fuck alone,â Taehyung snaps, but heâs not tough enough to cut through Jungkookâs near-hysteria.
Jungkook tosses his head back as he tries to regulate his breathing through the laughterâfirm, muscular chest rising and falling. His cock is hard but well-behaved, sitting there waiting for Taehyung to get his shit together. God, Taehyung feels like he shouldnât look at it, definitely shouldnât stare, but he canât help the desire that seeps through. Itâs liquid hot, lava in his veins.
Taehyungâs cock kicks up again.
âDamn, hyung, are you that hornyââ
âAfter that time I went out with Hobi and Namjoon,â Taehyung interrupts before Jungkook can embarrass him further. He averts his eyes, keeping his gaze locked on the alarm clock. Wonders how long Seokjin and Jimin will be gone. âThat's the last time I got tested. Just âcause, yâknow, I hadnât since we started the tour. But, uh, I havenât been with anyone since.â
It was the day Taehyung returned to their rental house early in the morning, covered in hickeys that Jungkook wouldnât stop staring at the rest of the day. The girl heâd gone home with that night was hot, probably in the top five since going on tourânot that Taehyung is counting how many girls he has slept with. They all blur together at some point. He doesnât even remember this particular oneâs name, but it doesnât matter. The high of fucking her was real good, but Taehyung crashed hard the moment he saw Jungkook the next morning. He was sleepy-eyed, with a sad smile still somehow warm with kindness Taehyung didnât deserve, doesnât deserve.
âAhh, yeahâ â Jungkook sits up, making Taehyung take a step back from the bed to give him room â âI remember.â
âIt didnât mean anything,â Taehyung blurts before he can stop himself, not needing to say what it is. Thereâs no point in explaining himself. They both already know it didnât. Sex never means anything to Taehyung, aside from it being a means to an end.
Thereâs this look Jungkook gives Taehyung that he doesnât understand. It makes him feel guilty, maybe even a little inadequate, like he has just failed a test Jungkook expected him to pass.
âFor me, it was before the tour,â Jungkook says, ignoring Taehyungâs unwanted confession. âObviously, I havenât needed to go again since then...â
Taehyung nods, swallowing down the words he wants to say. It wasnât that obvious. At least, not to Taehyung. But he needs to shut the fuck up.
âOkay," Taehyung says, the word slipping out on a shaky breath. His fingers trace slow, deliberate circles along Jungkookâs outer thighs, raising goosebumps in their wake. God, he's so sensitive.
âOkay,â he says again like heâs convincing himself. âYeah. No condom.â
Itâs been years since he fucked someone without one.
Jungkook lightly squeezes Taehyung's forearm. âYouâre thinking too much,â he murmurs. âCome here, Tae.â
Taehyungâs cock twitches at the sound of his voice, low and alluring. His hands tremble where they rest against Jungkookâs thighs, blood roaring in his ears. He wants to push Jungkook down into the mattress and fuck him stupidâwants to ruin him, make him cry.
And that realization is fucking terrifying.
âWhat if I hurt you?â
It's not the question Taehyung really means to ask, but itâs something. Something is better than nothing.
Jungkook tilts his head, his hair clinging to his damp forehead and doe eyes uncharacteristically dark. But his lips quirk in amusement. "Well⊠you are big.â
Taehyung lets out a strangled laugh and drags his hands down his face. âJungkook, what the fuck. That has never sounded more like an insult in my entire fucking life.â
âShut up.â Jungkook grins. âSome positions make it harder to take big dick, okay?â He reaches up, taking one of Taehyung's hands to lace their fingers together. âLet me ride you.â
Taehyung swallows hard. His grip on Jungkookâs thighs tightens like he needs something to steady him. "Yeah,â he breathes. âYeah, okay. Thatâsâuh, yeah. Thatâs dope.â
They dance around each other, Jungkook sliding off the bed as Taehyung crawls onto it, sitting back against the pillows. Taehyung watches Jungkook dig through his duffle bag for a small bottle of lube, and he feels pretty useless lying on top of the white starched sheets, waiting.
With girls, it's always Taehyung leading during sexâcalling the shots and setting the pace. He's the one who does the seducing, who buys the condoms, who takes control. Yet here he is, brain buzzing like static, white noise making him feel fuzzy while he watches Jungkook kneel on the bed.
The mattress dips with Jungkook's weight, and the frame creaks as he crawls over Taehyung, settling in his lap. He palms the bottle of lube, rolling it in his hand and giving it a light squeeze just to watch the liquid squish in the clear plastic. His free hand slides up Taehyungâs chest, fingertips grazing over his collarbone, up the column of his throat, and the hinge of his jaw.
"You good?" Jungkook asks, dragging the question out with his fingers along Taehyung's jawline.
Itâs overwhelming, the weight of Jungkook straddling his lap and looking at him like this. Like he's memorizing the pattern of his breathing and the freckles scattered across his face. Like Taehyung is something worth cherishing. He swears his heart is hammering hard enough in his chest that it could break one of his fucking ribs.
"Yes?" Taehyung says, though it comes out more like a question than an answer. He can't be fucked to feel embarrassed when Jungkook laughs under his breath.
"That didnât sound very convincing."
Jungkook opens the cap of the lube with one hand, squeezing out a drop onto his fingers. He rubs them together absentmindedly as if this is the most normal thing for them to do right now. When his gaze flicks up to Taehyung again, his expression is soft and relaxedâpatient, in a way that makes Taehyung's chest ache.
"Relax,â Jungkook murmurs, kissing the corner of Taehyungâs mouth before trailing his lips along his jaw. "I said I want you, Tae. So let me have you."
Taehyung groans, barely able to hold himself together. âFuck, okay."
He wants to say more, but his tongue is heavy in his mouth, and his heart is lodged in his fucking throat. Regardless, he's afraid if he opens his mouth, something terrifying will slip out. Maybe he'll admit that he's not even convincing himself. That his confidence is virtually nonexistent. That Jungkook is so pretty, Taehyung could fucking die.
With shiny and slick fingers, Jungkook rises to his knees high enough to easily reach behind himself. And, fuck, Taehyung doesn't need a play-by-play to know what Jungkook is doing. His breathing comes out in uneven gasps, his body rocking slightly. When Jungkook shifts forward even more, his cock drags against Taehyung's, precum smearing.
"Shit, Koo." Taehyung's fingers flex, but he digs them into the sheets instead of Jungkook's tight waist.
It's hard to stay grounded when the personification of forbidden fruit is fingering himself in Taehyung's lap. Taehyung has never given a shit about buttholes, but he finds himself burning with the desire to see how Jungkook circles his rim with lubed fingers, pressing his fingers into the tight, wet heat like Taehyung had in the hot tub.
Jungkook's eyes close as he exhales slowly. He bites his bottom lip, wiggling it with his front teeth like he's concentrating. Something about the action makes Taehyung feel like he's doing it on purpose.
"You can touch me, you know." Jungkook doesn't open his eyes when he speaks.
There's a long list of shit Taehyung hates, authority being right at the top. Yet the moment Jungkook gives him permission, Taehyung reaches for him like a man possessed. His hands tremble as he slides them up Jungkook's strong thighs. The hair on his legs is sparse, but dark and so much different than the smooth skin Taehyung is accustomed to caressing during sex. He follows the curves of Jungkook's body to his hips, skipping his cock because his heart is practically in his mouth.
"You're so hot," Taehyung mumbles absentmindedly as the white noise in his head fades until all he hears is Jungkook's breathy sighs.
"Yeah?"
Taehyung hums in response, wrapping his hands around Jungkook's tiny waist.
Jungkook shivers, shifting in Taehyungâs lap, and fuck, the movement sends electricity shooting straight to Taehyungâs cock. His grip on Jungkook's waist tightens, and his body burns so hot that he feels like he's going to go insane if they don't do something.
Grabbing Taehyung's cock, Jungkook gives it a few slow strokes, slicking him up with lube. He squirts the liquid directly onto Taehyungâs cock as if he remembers how Taehyung said he likes it, wet and messy.
For a moment, their eyes lock. In the hallway, someone lets out a sharp laugh, followed by a chorus of giggles that fade into the distance as quickly as they'd appeared.
Jungkook laces his fingers with Taehyung's and holds their hands against his hip. "We don't have to do thisâŠ"
If you don't want to. Jungkook doesn't need to verbalize the rest.
Shaking his head, Taehyung trails his fingers down Jungkook's body, past his lower back, before settling at the curve of his ass. He squeezes, fingers curling inward until they almost reach his sticky rim.
A content hum is all Jungkook gives in response before he lifts himself onto his knees. With a firm grip on Taehyung's cock, he lines it up with his hole, and then he sinks back down. He lifts up again just an inch, only to sink down a few inches more. It's a back-and-forth, easing himself onto Taehyung's cock. And Taehyung? He chokes on the first drag of the head of his cock popping through Jungkook's tight rim.
Jungkook exhales shakily, adjusting, getting used to the stretch. "You feel so fucking good, Tae," he moans.
Taehyung throws his head back against the pillows. "Jesus."
Jungkook moves carefully at first, rolling his hips like he's experimenting, using Taehyung's cock however he wants. His brows furrow, his bottom lip caught between his teeth, and Taehyung can see the tension in his body, the way his thighs tremble as he takes him in.
Taehyung slides his hands up Jungkookâs torso to splay across his chest. His thumbs brush over Jungkookâs nipples, drawing a gasp out of him.
Somehow, it feels exactly like he thought it would and not at all like anything he could have imagined. His hands slip lower, gripping Jungkookâs ass, guiding him into a deeper roll of his hips.
But Jungkook won't let him. He grabs Taehyung's wrists, yanking his hands back up to his waist. "Let me do it."
"Butâ"
Jungkook presses his fingers to Taehyung's lips, ducking his chin with an embarrassed smile when Taehyung opens his mouth to let him slide his fingers against his tongue.
To be perfectly honest, Taehyung's got soup for brains. He lies back and watches Jungkook ease himself into a steady rhythm of fucking himself on Taehyung's cock. Their bodies gently bounce on the mattress, springing up every time Jungkook lifts until only Taehyung's tip is inside him and drops down to the base again.
It's slow and torturous, but so fucking deep. Waves of electric lava shoot through Taehyung's veins, making his cock twitch inside of Jungkook.
Fuck, he's gonna come.
In a panic, Taehyung sits up, jostling Jungkook in his lap. He wraps his arms around his waist and holds him still for a second, face buried in his chest.Â
"What? What's wrong?" Jungkook holds the back of Taehyung's head as he pants against his skin, open-mouthed and hot. Taehyung is sure he can feel each shudder that racks through his body.Â
"Don't move!" Taehyung squeezes Jungkook tighter when he tries to get up and his body clenches around his cock. "Was gonna come."Â
"Wow..." There's no need to see Jungkook to hear the smirk in his voice.Â
"Fuck off."
Never in Taehyung's life has he almost come so quickly. Even worse, the sensation snuck up on him. One minute, he's vibing. The next, he's got that fluttery feeling in his stomach, breathing heavy, cock pulsing with this tight feeling. It's fucking embarrassing. At least Jungkook seems proud of himself for eliciting such a response from Taehyung. He giggles, tickling the back of Taehyung's neck and making it so much harder for Taehyung to calm down.Â
"Let's flip," Jungkook offers once he decides to be helpful. "If you're on top, you can control your strokes."
With a nod and a deep breath, Taehyung lifts up and flips Jungkook onto his back, pleased that he manages the move without slipping out of him. This is a more natural position for Taehyung, when he isn't hitting it from the back. People act like missionary is vanilla sex, but Taehyung likes the control it gives him, even when he's doing what his partner needs to get off. A people-pleaser in the most attention whore kind of way, Taehyung loves watching his partner fall apart.Â
And, if he really likes them, there's something about being able to mold himself into his partner. Like he does now, with Jungkook. Taehyung fucking whimpers into the crook of Jungkookâs neck as he thrusts deeper, slower like he's trying to hide inside the safety of Jungkook's body.
Jungkookâs hands find Taehyung's hair, twisting his fingers into the curls. "Tae" â he lets go of Taehyung to slide his hand across the sheets â "get a pillow."
Taehyung sits back, kneeling between Jungkookâs legs, the head of his cock still snug inside his ass. The hotel pillows are bodyless, but it's just enough cushion to make a difference when Taehyung slips it beneath Jungkookâs hips.
"This okay?" Taehyung asks softly, gaze sweeping over Jungkook's body. He's so beautiful like this, laid out for Taehyung.
Taehyung always thought being a man who gets fucked was some kind of surrender, an act that makes a man vulnerable, weak. And yeah, he fucking knows he shouldn't have thought that. But knowing doesnât erase the weight of his parentsâ expectations, the memories of stinging slaps and tender bruises, or the pressure to be the right thing, whatever that means. It all gets jumbled inside him, twisted into knots in his stomach and tangled with words he can't get right in his head because Taehyung runs away from the messes he makes.
So when he looks down at Jungkook, doe-eyed and open, Taehyung understands that he has never been as strong as Jungkook is right nowânothing weak about him or this.
"Yeah, this is a lot more comfortable," Jungkook says after clearing his throat. "Try to keep me tilted back, hips upward."
Nodding, Taehyung clings to Jungkook's instruction, agreeing to whatever he says despite having no idea what he's talking about. He taps his fingers along Jungkook's ribs, not a coherent thought blossoming in his brain.
Jungkook must be able to tell because he rolls his eyes with an annoyed smile. "Hyung," he scolds, "I'm trying to teach you how to hit my prostate. You've got a slight curve."
"Your what?" Taehyung blinks, forcing the unfamiliar English word through the fog in his head.
"Taehyung, my prostate." They stare at each other for a few beats until Jungkook sighs, endeared and utterly uninterested in giving Taehyung an anatomy lesson in the middle of sex. "It's basically the male g-spot."
That Taehyung understands.
"Shit, where is it? Did I hit it yet?" Taehyung adjusts his position, a little more of his cock pushing into Jungkook.
"Kind of? Whenever I ride someone, I know how to hit it. But like this, the pillow will help."
Taehyung scowls, but Jungkook kicks his side to knock the look off his face.
"Quit that shit," he says with narrowed eyes. "Like as if I haven't had to listen to you fuck other people for months."
Guilt racks through Taehyung before Jungkook even finishes. Regret is a tough pill to swallow, and Taehyung has a couple of bottles to get through.
"Imagine it's like aiming for my belly button from the inside," Jungkook continues.
Placing his palm on Jungkook's stomach, Taehyung presses down lightly as he eases his cock inside him. The pillow helps with hitting the right angle. One of Jungkook's legs twitches the harder Taehyung presses, and Jungkook lets out a quiet whine.
"Like this?" Taehyung asks, voice low, alluring.
"Mhm, just keep a rhythm" â Jungkook swallows thickly â "even if I go soft, just keep going."
Taehyung hooks Jungkook's leg over his shoulder, the one that's still. The twitchy one Taehyung grabs by the back of the thigh and presses up and outward, opening Jungkook to give himself more room as he snaps his hips forward.
This time, Jungkook's head falls back against the pillows, and Jungkook's hands grasp at the bed sheets to ground himself.
"Oh god," Jungkook says with a gasp. His hand flies down to grab his cock. He gives it a few quick strokes, twisting his wrist at the tip on each upward drag of his fist.Â
Taehyung wants to jerk Jungkook off himself, to give him double the pleasure. But he doesnât trust himself to keep a rhythm, doesnât think he has the fucking coordination to pull it off when all the blood in his body has drained to his dick.
"Is it good?" he asks between thrusts, his voice crackling like gravel.
Am I good? He can't bring himself to ask that question; he never has and never will.
"Mhm, mhm," Jungkook whimpers, nodding. "So good, so full."
Jungkook reaches up to press his hand against the bed frame so he won't hit it when Taehyung thrusts particularly hard. His other hand holds his cock, occasionally stroking it when more precum dribbles from his slit.
Jungkook stomach flutters with each flex of his abs and shallow breath, but Taehyung keeps his hand pressed down as he fucks into him. Taehyung's body moves on instinct now, chasing every breathy moan that falls from Jungkookâs lips. He gets his groove, fucking Jungkook hard enough that he's convinced he'll get bruises on his hips from it.
Fucking Jungkook is so different.
Most of the girls Taehyung fucks put on a performance. It isn't to fake an orgasm; Taehyung definitely gives them at least one. The performance is more about attraction, them trying to make themselves sexy for him, something pretty and filthy to fuck. Lots of tit squeezing, over-the-top giggly moaning, playing up their feminine innocence.
But with Jungkook, it's raw (literally) and genuine. It's real.
There's something about knowing Taehyung is the one getting Jungkook off, making him feel good. It almost doesn't matter how good Jungkook's ass feels gripping Taehyung's cock with each thrustâjust seeing Jungkook's eyes glaze over and his lips fall open in a shameless moan is enough to wreck him.
His thrusts quicken, sharp and deliberate, punching wrecked sounds out of Jungkook with every snap of his hips. The initial fear of hurting Jungkook melts away with the heat of his body. Jungkook fluctuates between soft whimpers and deep, masculine groans, all of which hit Taehyung right in the cock in the best way.
"Tae, stay, stay like this." Jungkook reaches for him, his nails dragging down Taehyungâs chest, leaving red, stinging lines mapped across his smooth skin. "Fuck, I'm gonna come."
Jungkook's ass clenches around Taehyung's cock, tightening up, gripping him with such intense heat.
And then Jungkook comes, untouched.
Taehyung barely has the time to process it before he feels it, the way Jungkook's legs begin to shake and the sudden wet warmth of his cum spilling between them. And fuck, the look on his faceâpure, unadulterated pleasure, mouth open as Taehyung continues fucking him through his orgasmâis almost enough to make Taehyung come right then and there, too.
He didn't even know men could come untouched like that.
"Shit, that was so fucking hot," Taehyung whines against the curve of Jungkook's ear, voice low and wrecked.
Taehyung continues fucking him, even as Jungkook's legs shake so hard he almost has a hard time keeping Jungkook still. The bed creaks even louder, and the frame thumps against the wall in quick, sharp bursts. He leans over Jungkook, nearly folding him in half as he presses their bodies together, grinding into him as deep as he can. His arms tremble as he braces himself above Jungkook, his breath coming in ragged pants, his body coiled so tightly that it hurts.
Jungkook cups Taehyung's face, tilts his chin, and kisses him. It isn't desperate like before, just soft, almost airy. It feels like permission, like love, if Taehyung is brave enough to believe it.
"You're fucking me so good, Tae," Jungkook whispers against Taehyung's lips, his nose scrunched up, so fucking adorable even after he literally just came all over them. It isn't fair. "You have no idea how long Iâve wanted this."
The words barely leave Jungkook's lips before Taehyung comes so hard he sees black spots in his vision.
He moans into Jungkook's mouth, breath hitching as he chants his name. "Jungkook, Jungkook." It's just as reverent as it is filthy, the only kind of prayer Taehyung has ever uttered. Each sound tumbles out of him as his cock pulses, shooting his cum deep inside Jungkook in waves.
Taehyung doesnât realize heâs shaking until Jungkookâs fingers thread through his hair, gently massaging his scalp. Jungkook sighs softly, arms wrapping around him, holding him close.
It hits him, then, that he just came inside of Jungkook, filled him up with cum that spills out of his hole when Taehyung pulls out. He stares, large hands squeezing the backs of Jungkook's thighs to hold him open. Jungkook's gaping hole clenches, pushing Taehyung's cum out in milky streams.
"Holy fuck, Jungkook."
Jungkook chuckles, his chest still rising and falling in deep, shuddering breaths. With a shaky hand, he reaches down to run his fingertips against his own rim, smearing the cum leaking out.
âAre you going to thank me for sex again?â Jungkook teases, voice rough.
Taehyung chokes on his own laugh, his head hanging down and his face half-hidden by his sweaty bangs. "Shut up."
Despite being sweaty and cum-soaked, Jungkook latches onto Taehyung. Their limbs are still entangled, their chests still heaving. With his head resting on Jungkook's chest, Taehyung can hear his heartbeat through their attempts to regulate their breathing.
It's quiet like this. Calm. Taehyung isn't the type to stay behind after sex. Funny, because at least while they're on tour, Jungkook is the one he goes home to every nightâno matter who Taehyung fucks.
"Thank you," Taehyung whispers against Jungkook's collarbone. He smiles, small and soft, when Jungkook laughs again.
"Wanna shower?"
Taehyung nods, but his grip around Jungkook's torso tightens. "In a little, yeah." Taehyung is calm and collected. He's casual, just like the sex they had.
Jungkook doesn't question him, but Taehyung isn't surprised. Sweet, perfect Jungkook who has guided Taehyung into so many leaps of faith.
There's so much more Taehyung could say, should say. But he keeps quiet and listens to the steady thrum of Jungkook's heart against his ear and the gentleness of his breathing. And maybe he melts into the soft caress of Jungkook's fingers tracing his spine, massaging his scalp, touching the freckles scattered across his flushed face. He's not sure if sex has ever left him feeling satiated like he does now, something holistic, whole-bodied. It isn't just the pleasure of busting a nut.
Jungkook squeezes Taehyung a little tighter as if he can hear how loud his thoughts are.
And this time, Taehyung doesn't panic.
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do yall remember that skit of taehyung searching for his crush(?) by interrupting the guys while theyâre taking a piss at the urinals, and he dramatically looks at their dicks ?
like he full on grabs them and stares at yoongi and jkâs dicks and melts into the ground with the edited blush on his cheeks?
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do yall remember that skit of taehyung searching for his crush(?) by interrupting the guys while theyâre taking a piss at the urinals, and he dramatically looks at their dicks ?
like he full on grabs them and stares at yoongi and jkâs dicks and melts into the ground with the edited blush on his cheeks?
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You were born with a Gift that the world wanted to turn into a weapon. All Jungkook wanted to do was show you that you could find love, even in the dark.
Relationship:Â Shadow Elemental Jungkook x Water Elemental Reader
Rating:Â Explicit
Warning:Â Graphic Depictions Of Violence (someone you love is gonna die I'm so sorry)
Tags:Â Dystopia, Fantasy, Friends to Lovers, Angst with a Happy Ending, Fluff, Character Death, Murder, Human Experimentation, War, Jungkook is a precious baby boy but heâll also kill you, Elemental Magic, Shadow Elemental Jungkook, Fire Elemental Yoongi, Loss of Virginity, Vaginal Sex, Vaginal Fingering, Cunnilingus, Outdoor Sex
Word Count:Â 25,983
A/N:Â Fun fact, Taehyungâs character is based off of Jeff Goldblum. Part of a spring offering collab.
Soundtrack: cyberpunk - ateez
moodboard credit:Â @btscontentenjoyer
3 MONTHS
Lookout duty is hard on you. When itâs your turn to camp out on the roof and watch for potential threats, you complain that staying awake all night is hard. Most of the other runaways are night owls, but you arenât. You need your beauty sleep, you joke. You canât get comfortable on the roof, even if thereâs a flat landing with pillows and blankets to keep you warm.Â
These are a few of your excuses, but you canât bring yourself to tell the others the truth: you are scared.Â
Itâs close to midnight when you hear the creak of the trapdoor opening. The likelihood of it being anyone other than the group of Gifted runaways you live with is low, but you canât trust that the impossible wouldnât happen. Youâve seen the impossible happen far too often. Â
Hopping down from the old milk crate youâd been sitting on, you crouch behind a giant bean bag with your bow and arrow ready. The harness you wear strapped around your torso holds your spare arrows. It digs hard enough into your shoulder that you form blisters if you donât wear a thick enough shirt.Â
The fluffy pink hair poking out of the trapdoor makes you sigh in relief.Â
âHey, kid,â the pink-haired man whispers.Â
He gently closes the trapdoor and walks with a hunched back toward you, careful not to expose too much of his body beyond the roofâs railing. The abandoned warehouse you live in is on the cityâs outskirts, with nothing for miles but empty concrete parking lots and overgrown plots of land.Â
Still, you never know who might be out there. Although the Red Pins have only inflicted pain from within their research facilities, all the runaway Gifteds know that the government employs more than one type of evil to hunt them down.Â
You try not to think about them, those scientists in long white coats that fall to their thighs and blood-red nametags pinned to their labels with names you often see painted on the walls of your nightmares. Lately, the frequency of the nightmares has lessened. It doesnât feel like it, though, when you often wake in the middle of the night to your friends screaming in their sleep while they suffer through their own trauma. You wish the knowledge that the pain of being government lab rats is something you all share could be comforting. But, instead, it only makes you hurt more. Â
âYoongi,â you huff, returning to your perch on the milk crate. Now your hands are all sweaty. âYou should be sleeping.âÂ
âHi, Yoongi; nice to see you too! Thanks for coming to hang out with me!â Yoongi mocks your voice, clearly stating what he thinks you should have said. âOh, no problem, Y/N. I just wanted to see how you were doing and hang out with my favorite kiddo.âÂ
You scrunch your nose at kiddo.Â
âIâm not a kid.âÂ
Yoongi leans over to rub his knuckles into your head. âNah, you definitely are.âÂ
Despite the lack of lighting outside, Yoongi practically glows. Thatâs always how it is with fire elementals. Itâs like they absorb all the light and let it buzz inside them. Like fireflies, youâd once told Yoongi. He hadnât found it cute to be compared to a bug.Â
âIf Iâm a firefly, then youâre a fucking fish,â heâd teased. Youâd promptly summoned water from a nearby puddle to throw in his face.Â
For as long as you can remember, thatâs how it has been between the two of you: fire and water. A push and pull. So different that you need each other to be whole.Â
You watch Yoongi get comfortable in the bean bag, his skinny limbs spreading like a starfish and his eyes lifting to the sky. In quiet moments like this, you would give anything to hold him. And not out of fear like you had when the scary men came to take you away from your parents. And not out of anger like you had to when you stopped him from blowing up the research facility theyâd held you in.Â
No, you want to hold him and for it to be gentle, soft, and peaceful.Â
Like now, when the world is silent except for the crickets calling to each other in the weeds and the rustle of wind in the trees.Â
But he thinks youâre just a kid.Â
Youâre not that much younger than him. But, if you put in the effort to look at your relationship objectively, youâd see that Yoongiâs paternal nature comes out with you and the other runaway Gifteds. He cares for you as an older brother would.Â
Itâs not enough for you, though. It will never be enough. Â
âIs everyone else asleep?â You rest your elbows on your knees and hold your chin in your hand. When you speak, you look out at the empty field.Â
âHobi sneezed and blasted a hole through the bathroom wall,â Yoongi says with a low chuckle. âSo me and Joon found some supplies to patch it up the best we could. I think theyâre all asleep now, though.âÂ
âHow is it Hobiâs the one breaking shit and Namjoonâs fixing it?â You press your hand against your mouth to muffle the ugly snort bursting from you. Thereâs very little to find funny in this life, so you cherish how your chest burns with fond warmth.Â
âThe worldâs all backwards.â Yoongiâs gummy smile lights up the night and tears into your heart.Â
The two of you fall silent once again. Moving slowly, you reach out to hook your pinky finger with Yoongiâs, a small smile forming when you feel his pinky wrap tightly around yours.Â
âWhere are we gonna go, Yoong?âÂ
He watches you with eyes heavy with sleep, determined to stay up with you even though he doesnât need to. Initially, you thought it was because he wanted to keep you company. Now, you often wonder if itâs because Yoongi is afraid to sleep, too. He never speaks about his experience at the Labs; the other runaways have learned the hard way not to ask. Singed eyebrows donât look good on anyone.Â
âI donât know.âÂ
You already knew this would be the answer, but it scares you anyway. Yoongi always knows everything.Â
Yoongi lets go of your hand to sit up in the bean bag.Â
âHey, kid,â he whispers. He gently presses his palm to your jaw, cupping your face. You hope he doesnât hear your breath hitch in your throat. âAs long as weâre together, you donât gotta worry about anything, okay?âÂ
You stare at him for a long time, searching the bags under his eyes and the worry lines on his forehead.Â
âYou promise?âÂ
âI promise.âÂ
3 MONTHS, 1 WEEK
Thereâs a stream that cuts through the overgrown fields behind the warehouse. Itâs man-made, flowing from a sewer tunnel beneath the cracked parking lot - and likely from somewhere else, perhaps connected to a lake beyond the woods at the propertyâs edge. The separation between industrialization and the natural world of the unknown hurts your heart. Youâd never felt longing until you found yourself inside a cage of cinderblock walls and concrete floors.Â
A rope of water whips across your face, drawing you from your thoughts of the woods. Itâs muddy and makes your skin and clothes smell sour.Â
Though the air is still crisp and bites at the tip of your nose, spring came early this year. It takes minimal effort for Namjoon to draw more water from the soiled stream as itâs not frozen over like it should be. With a flick of his wrist, another rope of water hits you, this time across your chest.Â
âAghh!âÂ
âPay attention.âÂ
You lift your arm in enough time to block his next assault. The liquid rope freezes in the air before shattering into a thousand glimmering pieces, scattering jagged ice across the pale yellow grass.Â
âIâm tired of this, Grandpa.âÂ
Namjoon rolls his eyes at the pop culture reference; youâre pleased he understood. Posed to speak, mouth already opening, he barely gets a sound out before another voice bellows across the field.Â
âWELL, THATâS TOO DAMN BAD!âÂ
Hoseok isnât afraid to be loud. He smiles, all teeth and pink tongue, and throws his head back as he cackles. Everywhere he goes, he carries the smell of spring with him - cherry blossoms and morning dew that makes newly-grown pieces of grass stick wet against ankles.Â
You close your eyes and let spring overpower the sour smell of sewer water Namjoon has thrown at you for the past hour. It lets you forget how your skin aches with welts and bruises.Â
As Hoseok bounds toward you and Namjoon, a dark tornado spins beside him. When he gets closer, you can see Hoseok occasionally blowing a small gust of air toward the tornado. It appears to be made of smoke, a gradient of grays and blacks.Â
âLook at this,â your friend announces with a mischievous grin. âMe and JK learned a new trick.âÂ
With a quick snap of Hoseokâs fingers, you and Namjoon watch in patient silence as the tornado begins to slow its speed. Almost gently, the smoke curls tighter and tighter until the darkness turns into a solid mass.Â
Jungkook stumbles a few times as he attempts to get his footing. His limbs continue to propel his body into a small spin.Â
Hoseok quickly reaches out to grab the younger man. Secure hands squeeze his shoulders, and then itâs only Jungkookâs head lolling about.Â
âCool, right?â Jungkookâs voice is gruff, but his lips curl into a weak smile.Â
Namjoon lets out a long sigh. âYou look like youâre going to be sick.âÂ
Although Namjoon is right, Jungkook does look like the effort of his little party trick took a toll on his body; you canât help but match his smile. Especially when his eyes flick toward yours. You told his gaze for half a second before Jungkook quickly looks away. His cheeks flush pink, but youâre sure itâs from the exertion of all that spinning.Â
âI think itâs really cool,â you praise the two while elbowing Namjoon in the ribs. With a grumble, your sparring partner returns to his previous stance a few feet away.Â
âWe should go again. Just for a little while longer.âÂ
Every muscle in your body feels stiff when you turn away from Hoseok and Jungkook.Â
âI hurt all over, Joonie.âÂ
âLet her rest!â Hoseok adds to your whining. âAll we ever do is practice fighting.âÂ
âSparring.âÂ
Hoseok waves a dismissive hand at the younger man. âWhatever you want to call it. I find it to be fri-âÂ
You stifle a laugh by pressing the back of your hand to your mouth as Hoseok is tackled to the ground by Jungkook. The two men roll around, all arms and legs, kicking up dead grass and dirt. A lot of howling and teasing laughter rings through the open air.Â
It isnât until Jungkook is launched into the sky by a gust of wind you know comes from Hoseok, and lands roughly on his back, that the playful fight ceases. How Jungkook lands knocks all the air out of his chest, but he laughs once his lungs start working again.Â
âRidiculous, all of you.â Hoseok brushes grass from his clothes. Itâs futile; theyâre dirty and ragged anyway. Try as you and Namjoon might to use your Gifts to clean the clothes; water does little when thereâs no soap.Â
âI let you win,â Jungkook teases.
Still, he stands a bit further from Hoseok than he had previously. Not far enough for anyone to notice, aside from you. You notice although you donât mean to. Itâs hard not to when Jungkook keeps stealing glances, only to look away when you try to return his gaze.Â
âYou did not.âÂ
âDid, too.â His insistence makes you giggle.Â
âAnd how did that work out for you? Hmm? How does your back feel? I know you landed on that rock.âÂ
âI-It, it doesnât hurt.â Jungkook glances your way. His cheeks are still pink. âWould take more than that to hurt me.âÂ
âJungkook is impossible to beat.âÂ
You startle at the gentle voice, spinning on your heels to see Yoongi approaching the group. Heâs got a leather satchel strapped across his chest and resting at his hip. It bulges with what you assume are plants and fruits scavenged from the woods.Â
âBoy Scoutsâ is what Yoongi offered when you asked how he knew so much about surviving in nature. It was peculiar; nothing about Yoongi seemed like the type. Heâs tougher, more steel than wood or earth. A bulletproof shield, you think. Broad and strong.Â
âImpossible?âÂ
Your question is meant to be a tease, but Yoongiâs face remains stoic. Such a severe look only reveals itself when he assumes his position as your misfit groupâs leader. It would be extremely attractive if it didnât scare you. Â
âHow can you fight shadows?â Yoongi deadpans. He stares into your eyes long enough to make your face feel hot, but you donât look away.Â
âIâŠâÂ
Yoongi hums at your lack of an answer. Suddenly, you feel unbelievably small.Â
âItâs not impossible,â Jungkook whispers. His head hangs low, long bangs hiding his face. The rest of his hair is tied into a bun at the nape of his neck. âIâm just as beatable as you, hyung.âÂ
Something about Yoongiâs expression softens at the honorific. Formalities died long ago, along with many other traditions that once made Korea what it was. So many things died during the war - tangible and cultural - lives and ways of being. Now, the Republic is something you know your friends no longer recognize. Although it is not your home country, your heart aches for what it once was - something you will never have the privilege to experience because you arrived during the Restoration of the Republic - a fallacy of an era since the country was never restored to how it was.Â
That may be best. It is easier to mourn the loss of something you never knew.
In moments like this, you feel terribly inadequate - when you speak with broken Korean or struggle to understand the foreign politics behind why Gifteds are hunted, no matter how many times Namjoon patiently attempts to teach you. All you know is that, at least here, to be Gifted is not a death sentence, per se. Other countriesâ governments have been far less lenient with their mutant population.Â
Youâre simply seen as a science experiment to be tested on, poked and prodded, pushed until youâre driven mad, and then warped into whatever shape the government has the need for.Â
âYou have no match,â Yoongi smiles softly at Jungkook with a shake of his head. âI do.âÂ
Holding out his hand, a small flame appears in the center of Yoongiâs palm. It floats just above the skin, though he isnât burned. Youâve seen Yoongi summon fire a million times from the heat of the air around him, and he never ceases to amaze you.
With a nod in Namjoonâs direction, Yoongi waits for a small rope of dirty water to splash against his hand. Namjoon is much kinder in his attack against Yoongi, only summoning enough water to extinguish the flame.Â
âWater will always win against me,â Yoongi admits. This time, he holds your gaze when he speaks. âIt is my match.âÂ
You feel something stir in your belly that migrates up your chest until it eventually threatens to suffocate you, nearly getting lodged in your throat.Â
âYou would do well to continue sparring with Namjoon,â he says after a moment before turning to Hoseok and Jungkook, who have otherwise been silent.Â
Itâs an order, even if Yoongi is gentle with his words.Â
With a sigh, you turn back to Namjoon. Itâs difficult to stamp down the heat Yoongi always manages to trigger inside of you. You would compare him to fire even if it didnât already run in his veins.Â
Drawing from the murky stream, you weave a ball of water between your palms.
âLetâs go again.âÂ
While you spar with Namjoon, Yoongi leads Hoseok and Jungkook to the other end of the field.
You and Namjoon spar as though you are dancing. Itâs a push and pull, your rhythms falling into harmony, even when one of you performs a surprise attack or a new move that hasnât been practiced before. Perhaps it is because you both fight with water. There is a fluidity to it that the others donât possess.Â
Occasionally, your eyes stray to where Yoongi, Hoseok, and Jungkook have begun to spar. The three men do not dance. Instead, they are a fury of elements intertwining in chaos. The wind snuffs fire, Yoongi and Hoseok blasting each other incessantly. Shadows allow Jungkook to disappear before being hit by an attack, only to reappear right behind his opponent to go in for the kill.Â
And it would be a kill if this was real. You know Jungkook keeps a rather terrifying knife strapped to his thigh. You all carry weapons, though you donât really need them. Even Jungkook, with a Gift thatâs misunderstood and exceptionally rare, is never found without his weapon.Â
Out of all the Gifteds youâve met on your way to safety, you have never encountered another who can manipulate shadows. So, there is truth to Yoongiâs statement.Â
Jungkook is terrifying, even with the wide, starry eyes he always seems to stare at you with. Heâs quiet and shy, typically sticking to Hoseok. You assume itâs likely because you found the two of them together. Both were kept in the same room at the research facility in Busan. As unassuming as Jungkook may be, youâve seen him manipulate shadows to wrap around a Red Pinâs neck. Those shadows twisted and tightened until the man crumpled.Â
You didnât need to have the Gift of blood manipulation to know when his heart stopped.Â
It was one of the scariest moments of your life, even beyond the suffering youâd endured having lived in the research facilities since you were a teen. Before then, youâd never seen someone die. Even when Yoongi and Namjoon helped you escape, they shielded you from the worst of it. It wasnât until the three of you came upon the newest facility that such horrors were unleashed.Â
Jungkook hates himself for it. You know he does; you typically make your bed beside his, and he cries in his sleep. Self-defense protects the body in the moment, but harms the mind and heart long-term.Â
You probably would have done the same.Â
For as tragic as his story is - or what little you know of it - Jungkook has an undeniably beautiful soul. Those horrors have yet to turn him cruel or his heart black. Even when he spars, you can tell that heâs being gentle. He holds back and doesnât reach his full potential out of fear of hurting others, youâre sure. You can see it in how he bounces on the balls of his feet to keep his movements light and how his back muscles ripple beneath his shirt as it clings to his skin. A bead of sweat runs along his neck, over the vein that bulges from his exerting effort.Â
Something prickles under your skin. When you look up, itâs into those wide eyes full of galaxies youâll never understand, are somehow okay with not understanding if it means you can continue to gaze upon them.Â
A small smile pulls the corners of Jungkookâs mouth up. His expression is short-lived, though, quickly falling as a bright orange flame licks at his ankles.Â
âDonât let my words get to your head, Jeon,â Yoongi teases. âImpossible to beat, but easy to hurt.âÂ
This time, you catch Yoongiâs eye. You duck your head when he winks at you, just in time to block another blast of water from Namjoon.Â
âWhy is everyone so off today?â Namjoon grumbles to himself. You havenât managed to successfully hit him even once.Â
âIâm tired,â you whine again, dropping a ball of water to the ground. Dead grass quickly soaks it up once it splashes. âWe should check on Jessi.âÂ
Your groupâs sixth and final member is tucked away in the corner of the warehouse on the top floor. Itâs dark up there, though Yoongiâs everlasting fire, paired with the windows Jessi managed to open, gives enough light for her to work.Â
She has black grease smudged on her left cheek and across her forehead. Her long, thick hair is tied back into a ponytail, though strands have fallen out to frame her face. When you step closer, you hear her muttering, but you canât make out what sheâs saying. Itâs not for you. She speaks, facing the black box placed in front of where she kneels on the floor. The floor canât feel good on her knees with its bits of broken concrete and dirt. Everything hurts in this life; it hardly matters as long as youâre here and not there.Â
âThis piece of shit,â Jessi hisses, running her hands across her face. It smears more grease onto her skin, but she doesnât care.Â
âNot working?âÂ
âBeep beep boop beeping all over the fucking place, then static. White noise and shit. Like itâs telling me to fuck off even though Iâm the one fixing it.âÂ
You hum, crouching down to stare at the box. Itâs an old radio meant to transport messages back and forth. Perhaps left behind by the military after it had occupied this land while it bulldozed the vigilantes seeking to save Gifteds from the fate you all ended up sharing anyway.Â
Jessi tweaks a few exposed wires. Every time they spark, you flinch. Mini white lightning, itâs deadly for anyone but Jessi. She grumbles and continues her work with deft fingers calloused from toiling away at the stupid thing for months.Â
âIâm normally so fucking good at this, I swear to God.âÂ
Frustration colors her tone, even if her expression and cursing didnât already give her feelings away.Â
You donât doubt her, though, and you tell her as much. Still, you know firsthand that it sucks when your powers donât work how you want them to. As a technopath, fixing the radio should be easy work for her.
âThere must be something wrong with it⊠Maybe the Red Pins did something to it?âÂ
You donât know anything about technology. Even with the phone youâd stolen off one of the Red Pins, all youâd gotten to do was look at TikTok and try to find out where your parents were before Yoongi made you destroy the device. The government had ways to track you. Technology was as much your friend as a stranger on the street.Â
With a sigh, Jessi leans back until sheâs sitting flat on the grimy floor.Â
âMaybe? Fuck if I know. I think Iâm getting close, though. Iâm getting some frequency when I concentrate really hard, but I wanna fix it so itâll work even without me.âÂ
Your friend whispers the end of her statement. It goes without saying; each one of you knows the fragility of life on the run.Â
âThank you for working so hard.â Even in the dim lighting, you can see her watery eyes shine. It hurts your heart, but all you can offer is a light squeeze of her shoulder.Â
Jessi shrugs. âItâs as much for me as it is for you.âÂ
You watch her stand and brush the dirt from her butt, her joints cracking from sitting down too long. When you first joined this mutant crew, you would have followed behind Jessi to comfort her. But, after months of running and fighting, youâve learned that sometimes solitude is the best healing method.Â
4 MONTHS, 2 DAYS
âWhat makes you think youâre ready? That any of us are ready?âÂ
Yoongi watches you with catlike eyes from where he sits at the kitchen table. The chairs circled around the battered wooden table are mismatched and in varying stages of deterioration from being abandoned for so long. The one Yoongi sits in is metal, and he leans on its two back legs, his right foot pressed to the floor to keep himself steady and his arms crossed against his chest.Â
Although Yoongi isnât raising his voice - he never does - you still feel like youâre being scolded.Â
âI know we are,â you challenge him. Your voice is steady even as your fingers tremble. To stop them from shaking, you squeeze your hands into a fist, nails biting at the skin of your palms.Â
You should sit down, but holding your energy in is hard. Instead, you pace the kitchen while Yoongiâs cat eyes and Jessiâs wide ones follow you. You feel like a lion looping its cage, the desire to run restricted and confined.Â
âHow?âÂ
âWe canât stay here, Yoong! We canât. I canât.âÂ
The front legs of Yoongiâs chair slam into the concrete floor. He allows the momentum to pull him forward, landing his elbows on the tableâs surface.Â
Looking at Yoongi hurts. You can tell from his face that the next thing he says wonât be pleasant. His lips are pressed into a fine line that curves downward slightly. Itâs cute how he can pull off a straight-lipped frown, but not when itâs directed at you.Â
Itâs been at least an hour of back and forth between the three of you. Jessi tapped out a long time ago, resolved to watch the tennis match of an argument between you and Yoongi rather than exert energy on a fight she isnât committed to. Yoongi and Jessi have the final say in all group decisions as the groupâs elders. Itâs another reminder of how you think Yoongi sees you as someone to take care of rather than an equal.Â
âHave you ever killed someone before, Y/N?âÂ
You pause your pacing to stand in front of the table. Yoongi is an exceptional cook, managing to create delicious meals out of what little you all have to work with from the forest. But now, at this moment, you feel like youâre going to be sick from the food churning in your stomach.Â
âNo.â Â
âNo,â Yoongi repeats. He speaks slowly, like heâs mulling your answer over, letting it twist around his tongue until heâs satisfied enough with its taste to swallow it down.Â
Leaning forward, Yoongi presses his palms against the tableâs surface. He spreads his fingers and stares at them. The two of you seem to trace over the scars that line his skin, little nicks, and slices that healed light pink or blazing white. Youâve never seen Yoongi naked, but you have seen a good expanse of his body when youâve used your Gift to help the others get clean. From what youâve seen, you know Yoongiâs entire body is littered with battle scars.Â
âI have,â he admits what you already knew, and the gravelly sound of his voice makes you shudder. âJungkook has.âÂ
You wince at the mention of the younger man, but Yoongi doesnât give you a chance to speak.Â
âDo you want to ask him what itâs like to squeeze the life out of another man? He may have done it with shadows, but I guarantee he still felt it in his hands.âÂ
Yoongi lifts his eyes to yours when the first tear rolls down your cheek. Concern wrinkles his forehead.Â
âYoongi,â you start, but the pink-haired man shakes his head.Â
âI donât mean to upset you, kiddo.â The pet name twists your gut tighter with frustration - even though Yoongiâs voice is filled with gentle adoration when he calls out to you. âBut Iâll be damned if I let us walk into that forest without knowing where weâre going or whose claws weâre running into. The Gifted Commune is, at best, a rumor. At worst - a trap.â
You want to tell him that falling for a rumor or getting caught by the government is better than sitting in a concrete cage. The prospect of finding a community of other Gifted runaways who have managed to create a society safe from the evils youâve grown up with means more to you than the fear of the unknown.Â
Thereâs no use, though. Jessi is nodding along to Yoongiâs words; the blank expression she wears when sheâs upset already masks her face.
âI will not put you in a situation where you must kill or be killed, Y/N. I wonât fucking do it.â Yoongi clears his throat suddenly, and he looks away from you. Youâre unsure, but think he might be blinking back unshed tears.
Youâre still pissed, but now your anger is mixed quite prettily with debilitating guilt. Youâve never seen Yoongi cry, and you realize with a sinking feeling that you really donât want to.Â
âItâs too fucking risky,â Jessi finally speaks. She presses her fingers against her forehead, massaging it slowly as she, too, looks for words. âThe radio is almost fixed; I can feel that itâs close. Then we will have a clearer line of communication with the Commune. It doesnât guarantee anything, obviously, but itâs better than going in without fucking knowing anything.âÂ
Thereâs nothing else to say. Yoongi doesnât look at you or Jessi, instead staring at something in the opposite corner of the room.
Jessi gives you what you think is a smile laced with pity - or at least an apology.Â
How can everyone be so content to stay in the warehouse? Youâre a bunch of sitting ducks, hiding out in the same location for months, practically waiting for the government to send their agents to either corral you into laboratories again or exterminate you. You donât understand how becoming a moving target is a bad thing.Â
But, ultimately, you donât understand why Yoongi canât just trust you.Â
With a frustrated huff, you twist around to hurry out of the kitchen. As you cross the threshold, Namjoon appears in the doorway.Â
âOh, I need to ask you-âÂ
You donât mean to shove Namjoon with your shoulder as hard as you do, but you donât have the patience to comply with whatever he expects you to do for him. Probably more sparring and training.Â
On the one hand, sharing your identity as a water elemental with someone else in the group is an affirming experience. On the other, itâs infuriating because Namjoon sees your potential and pushes you toward it - even when you fight against him.Â
Namjoon sputters something, and you hear Jessi convince him to drop it. Whatever else they have to say is lost on you; youâre no longer interested in entertaining the conversations of the âleadersâ of the group. Part of you wants to find Hoseok or Jungkook to force them to commiserate with you, but something about dumping your sludge of emotions onto them feels wrong.Â
So you do what youâve always done best: you repress.Â
It isnât until a few hours later when youâre lounging on your makeshift bed with the only tattered book you kept from your facility (Fahrenheit 451, how fitting), that you give yourself over to the gnawing need to interact with other humans.Â
Jungkook bounces on the balls of his feet, items that you canât make out pressed against his chest.Â
âWill you cut my hair for me, noona?âÂ
The out-of-use honorific flusters you, making your face burn under Jungkookâs attentive gaze.Â
âYou donât have to be so formal with me,â you insist, embarrassment ravaging your twisted stomach and fluttering chest. Something about the attention Jungkook gives you makes you feel nervous and giddy.Â
âItâs not very formal, really. Itâs⊠respectful? I just⊠You are, it means,â Jungkook lets out a huff. He blows his bangs out of his face as his cheeks turn pink. âYou are special to me.âÂ
You duck your head, shocked by Jungkookâs honesty. It warms you in a way youâre not sure you understand, letting the feeling sit inside your chest rather than exploring it any further.Â
âWhere I come from, we donât have words like that.âÂ
Jungkook gives you a shrug. Neither of you mentions that in Korea, those words donât really exist anymore, either.Â
âBut, okay,â you relent softly.Â
Jungkook stands beside the mess of blankets that make up your bed, holding a pair of scissors and electric clippers Jessi enhanced to operate on their own. Jungkook nicked them from a Red Pin on their way out of the research facility heâd grown up in. Hairstyling tools didnât seem high on your list of items to steal, but theyâd come in handy. Like now, with Jungkookâs bangs falling entirely into his eyes and his hair sweeping across his shoulders.Â
The pout Jungkook wears lessens slightly. He holds out the tools with an expectant look on his face. Itâs cute how his bottom lip juts out, pink and chapped from nervously chewing on it. Youâd overheard Namjoon scolding him for something earlier that morning before you went outside to patrol the grounds with Hoseok and Jessi.
Taking the items from Jungkook, you lead him out of the bedroom and into the bathroom. The lights sputter briefly before they fully brighten the small room. Jessi was excited to learn that her Gift extended to electricity as a whole, not just that within technology like computers and radios. With all your Gifts combined, the warehouse is liveable, almost comfortable.Â
Jungkook sits on the closed lid of the toilet, making you tower over him. He parts his legs slightly so you can stand between them as you run your fingers through his hair.Â
You spread your fingers and sweep his bangs up, exposing his forehead. It opens up his face more and makes him look older. Jungkook is handsome; thereâs no denying that. Youâre sure in another life, he could have been a regular college kid with a sweet girlfriend and a bright future.Â
âWhat would you like me to do?âÂ
âHmm?â Jungkook hums with his eyes closed, and his head tilted back slightly.Â
You donât miss how he leans into your touch, completely pliable in your hands, as you massage his scalp and continue to play with his hair. Itâs thick and soft, even without the proper haircare products to maintain the health of the follicles.Â
âHow do you want me to cut it, silly?âÂ
You reach for the hairbrush you keep tucked away in the bathroom cabinet. It takes a few more moments of silence while you brush out Jungkookâs waves before he finally speaks.Â
âShort. Cut it all off, please? Itâs too hard to take care of now, and it gets in my face.âÂ
âDonât get mad at me if it comes out bad.âÂ
Jungkook lets out a frustrated sound. âYou always do a great job. You gave Yoongi hyung an undercut. It looks so good!âÂ
At the mention of Yoongi, you feel your heart drop. Somehow you know Jungkook is here to make you feel better even if he hasnât said anything about the argument, and heâs the one seeking your help, not the other way around. Heâs a distraction - one you wonder if Yoongi sent himself.Â
It isnât that Yoongi wonât apologize; you just never give him a chance to before you run off to lick your wounds on your own.Â
Itâs the healing quality of solitude, you think as you prepare to cut Jungkookâs hair. However, this time, youâre not alone.Â
You canât help but smile when Jungkook starts singing a song of his own creation as chunks of his hair fall to the floor. His song drowns out the static that buzzes in your brain like the fuzziness Jessiâs broken radio emits when anyone but her fiddles with it.Â
âThis way,â you speak softly, not wanting to disrupt his singing as you press your fingertips against his jaw and under his chin to lift his face toward you. Your finger presses against the little mole just below Jungkookâs bottom lip. The angle gives you a better view of your work so far.Â
A small smile flickers on Jungkookâs face as though heâs trying to keep it down, but the corners of his mouth wonât listen to him.Â
âIt feels nice. We donât touch.â
You hum and nod your head, but Jungkookâs eyes are still closed. Itâs true; kind touches are rare. Hoseok is really the only one who gives out hugs. Everything is tough all the time. Thereâs little room for gentleness, even amongst friends.Â
So you understand when Jungkookâs smile wins out, and he finally surrenders to the happiness your light touches along his jaw bring him.Â
4 MONTHS, 5 DAYS
It takes Yoongi three days to apologize.Â
Perhaps you should have apologized first, but you struggle to see how you could have done anything that warrants an apology. Yes, you feel bad for upsetting Yoongi, but his attitude toward you lately has rubbed you the wrong way.Â
During the three days it takes him to apologize to you, he seems to do his best to avoid you.Â
On the days youâre assigned to go on patrol with Yoongi, Jungkook accompanies you instead. You donât mind having Jungkook by your side, you discover, even though youâre upset that Yoongi is behaving so childishly.Â
Neither Jungkook nor Yoongi talks much, but you learn that their silence feels different. Whereas Yoongiâs silence stems from feeling confident and content with not needing to fill the air with incessant babbling, Jungkookâs silence is awkward and heavy. He fiddles with the loose strings of his shirt, his reddened cuticles, and everything else. You donât mind the awkwardness, though. Itâs nice to comb through the woods with someone as powerful as Jungkook; you know thereâs nothing to fear with him around.Â
The only weapon Jungkook carries is the knife strapped to his thigh. You, on the other hand, stay heavily armed. Your fingers tighten around your bow. When you twist your torso, the harness that holds your arrows digs into your shoulder. You also have a knife, though you are honestly afraid of close combat. A gun would be even better, but ammo is difficult to come by. Itâs easier to collect your arrows after youâve shot them, although you havenât needed to yet. Since finding refuge at the warehouse, no one has discovered your group.Â
Apparently, all your friends are willing to keep testing fate. You arenât interested in pushing your luck. Jungkook doesnât comment on the groupâs plans for moving forward - or lack thereof. Something tells you that heâll do whatever Yoongi and Jessi tell him to do.Â
Still, going on patrol with Jungkook does a decent job of preventing your thoughts from straying toward your argument with Yoongi. Your hands brushed together a few times as you walked side by side, and you could practically feel Jungkookâs brain shortcircuit from the contact.Â
Part of you thinks he has a crush on you, but the more logical part of you knows heâs probably shy. The kid has gone through a lot in life. Not everything is always about you; you try to remind yourself. Yoongi doesnât even want you. Why would Jungkook?
On the third day, bright doe eyes donât greet you at the edge of the woods, just as the sun is kissing the sky for the first time. Instead, sharp cat eyes hold your gaze when you lightly jog over.Â
âGood morning, kiddo.âÂ
Yoongi wears dark shorts with tattered edges cut from a pair of old jeans and a plain t-shirt the color of the forest in spring. Itâs not warm enough to wear what heâs wearing, but fire elementals run hot like you run cold.Â
âHi,â you say, voice a bit stunted as you hold your jacket tighter to your body.Â
Youâve foregone your bow and arrows today; you may or may not have snapped your bow in a fit of frustration that may or may not have anything to do with Yoongi ignoring you at dinner the night before. A knife and your Gift will have to do, but you feel it is enough. Namjoon insists on learning how to use your Gifts and weapons in tandem. For double the defense, or so he says.Â
Carrying a knife seems ridiculous when you know how to choke someone with their own spit without touching them.Â
Once youâre within armâs reach, Yoongi offers his hand to you. He holds it as though heâs going in for a handshake. Yellow-orange fire licks at his palm and swirls in tendrils around his fingers and wrist.Â
After a few seconds of silence, he makes a slight grunting sound and wiggles his fingers, beckoning you.Â
Itâs impossible not to cave. A prickly feeling tingles down your arm, beginning somewhere in your chest and eventually settling in your fingertips. A tiny hurricane of water stolen from the moisture in the air circles around your hand just as the fire does Yoongiâs.Â
He lets out a pleased sound when your palms glide across each other. You hook your thumbs together, using the momentum to spin your hands around until your fingers are interlaced and pressed into your palms. You both squeeze your hands once, twice, three times in a heartbeat before pulling away. By the end, the fire and water have disappeared.Â
When you meet Yoongiâs eyes, the warmth of the fire in his palm has transferred to his gaze. There is an apology in how you release each otherâs hands. The handshake holds secret words of friendship and reassurance between you.Â
The two of you stand in silence for a bit until Yoongi tilts his head in the direction of the woods. You nod in response and follow Yoongi along one of the many patrol paths your group has established.Â
Thereâs never anything in the woods besides small animals like squirrels and rabbits, but everyone feels better knowing there is a consistent patrol of the area, just in case.Â
âSo,â When you look at Yoongi, his lips twist into a light smirk you absolutely do not like. âYou and Jungkook.âÂ
âMe and Jungkook what?âÂ
Yoongi shrugs. âJust seems like you two been hanging out a lot.âÂ
âYeah, because you were fucking ignoring me all week.âÂ
His smirk drops into a stern frown, but Yoongi continues following the path. He walks slightly ahead of you with his hands clasped behind his back. It feels like heâs taking a leisurely stroll through a garden rather than going on patrol in the woods for government assassins.Â
âIt was immature and irresponsible of me, and Iâm sorry for that.âÂ
Forgiving Yoongi is too easy. Itâs the way the morning sun shines through the canopy of trees above you, casting streaks of light against his fading pink hair. The way he carries himself with confidence is gentle and comforting rather than arrogant or misplaced. Itâs how he looks at you; you know he would do anything for you.
âItâs okay,â you finally concede. You scramble a bit to fall in line with Yoongi again. âI was being dramatic.âÂ
âLife is one big drama, isnât it?â Yoongi muses with a chuckle. Itâs a question he doesnât expect an answer to, which is good, considering youâve got something else buzzing around in your head.Â
Well, fuck it. Youâre just gonna say it. Â
Heart pounding, you eventually find it in you to say, âI still think youâre wrong.âÂ
After a moment, Yoongi hums in acknowledgment of your admission but doesnât offer anything else. Itâs better than nothing, so you tell yourself to be content with all that he offers.Â
âAnywayâŠâ You donât want to drop the subject, but Yoongiâs question is nagging in the back of your brain now - a nagging question you now have a gnawing desire to know the meaning behind. âMe and Jungkook can hang out without it meaning-âÂ
Before you can finish your statement, Yoongi slaps his hand against your mouth. The calluses on his palms are rough against your chapped lips, and his skin is sweaty. His free arm comes around to the front of your chest near your collarbones. He draws you against his chest so tightly you canât move.Â
âDonât talk.â His breath is hot against your face, and his voice is almost indiscernible.Â
You give a tiny nod before locking your body completely still. You hold your breath, straining to hear what Yoongi might hear or see what he might see. Thereâs nothing, just the usual sound of life in the woods - birds chirping, small animals scurrying in the brush. You donât see anything either.Â
You can only focus on the frantic pounding of your heart and the calm beat of Yoongiâs against your back. How he can be so relaxed when he thinks there might be danger in the woods that you canât even see is unreal.
Slowly, Yoongi takes a step back away from you. He holds a finger to his lips and silently mouths for you to stay where you are. Everything inside you screams to disobey as you watch Yoongi disappear further into the woods, the thick trees swallowing him whole.Â
But you donât. You stay put, fear rooting you to the ground even though your body desperately wants to follow.Â
What lies beyond the thicket of trees? What is dangerous enough that Yoongi wants you to stay put but not so dangerous that he believes he can take it on alone?Â
Just when your resolve is about to crumble, something catches your attention out of the corner of your eye. Barely breathing, you turn your head to watch a dark spot glide across the forest floor. Itâs two-dimensional, not an object but a presence creeping along the ground.
Suddenly, the spot grows. It spreads, turning its shape from a flat, uneven circle to a thing with tendrils sticking out of it, each new tendril moving independently. You gasp when one of the tendrils creeps up your leg. Despite being two-dimensional, you can feel the darkness. Itâs firm and cold, like a snake slithering up your body.Â
Every inch of you trembles as the strange darkness slowly spreads across your body. You squeeze your eyes and hold your breath. Perhaps this is the thing that Yoongi saw, a phantom stalking the trees. But now youâre left behind to be absorbed into its darkness, eaten alive.Â
Youâre startled when the cold disappears; instead, strong arms pull you against a firm chest. Warmth envelopes you, and when you open your eyes, you see familiar ones looking back at you.
âI got you,â Jungkook murmurs. He has you tucked under his chin, and he tilts his head down when he speaks to you. You shiver as his lips lightly brush against your forehead.Â
âWhere did you-â Â
âShhh.âÂ
Jungkookâs heart isnât steady like Yoongiâs had been. On the contrary, itâs beating rather furiously. You can hear him attempting to regulate his emotions, taking in mindful breaths and exhaling in a way that tickles your skin.
You donât know how long you stand there pulled against Jungkookâs chest. After a while, your breathing matches his until you fall into a gentle rhythm that makes you sleepy. The adrenaline is making you crash, your body hardly strong enough to hold yourself up after panicking so severely - still panicking. Luckily, when you lean into Jungkook, his hold on you tightens.Â
In another situation, pressing your fronts together would have flooded your body with heat. You can feel all of Jungkook like this, from the bulging muscles of his chest to his thigh pressed slightly between your legs from how he holds you up. But fear of the unknown and Jungkookâs clearly distressed state prevent those other thoughts from materializing.Â
Jungkookâs body doesnât relax until Yoongi appears around the corner of a large tree. He keeps his arms wrapped around you, and for a second, Yoongi looks around at the clearing youâre in as though he canât see you.Â
It isnât until Jungkook lets go of you that recognition flashes in Yoongiâs eyes.Â
âThere you are,â Yoongi murmurs to the two of you. He looks like he rolled around on the ground, little pieces of leaves and sticks caught in his hair and stuck to his clothes. His left knee is bleeding from a few superficial scrapes.Â
âWhat the fuck happened to you?âÂ
Yoongi looks at Jungkook before he answers your question, which irritates you. âI tripped when I rushed in, but it was nothing. Just a large fox I heard making noise back there.âÂ
A fox is likely the largest animal in the woods, with no bears or wolves in the area. Still, you donât trust Yoongi. You can pick up on the charred smell coming off of him. He smells like a barbecue, which means only one thingâŠÂ
âHave you been practicing turning yourself invisible?âÂ
Jungkook ducks his head down but no longer has long bangs to hide his face. It takes a second for your brain to process Yoongiâs question - and the change in the topic - but Jungkook is already answering him by the time you figure it out.Â
âItâs not really invisibility,â he says softly. âItâs more like⊠an illusion.â
Yoongi hums and motions for the two of you to start walking. Youâre returning to the warehouse, you realize, even though you only just started the patrol route.Â
âYeah, I can⊠adjust the lighting, I guess? To make it seem like you canât see me. Or, us, this time.âÂ
Jungkook gives you a small smile when you whip around to look at him.
âI didnât know you could do that.âÂ
âYeah,â Jungkook repeats. He draws his bottom lip between his teeth and wiggles it like he has more to say but doesnât want to let it out just yet.Â
The three of you walk in silence until you reach the warehouse. When Yoongi walks ahead of you, you can tell heâs limping, even as he does his best to walk normally.Â
âHeâs okay.âÂ
Jungkook stands beside you in the field behind the warehouse, watching Yoongi reach the backdoor.Â
âHeâs bleeding.âÂ
Jungkookâs ears are pink when he responds, âHeâll be okay.â
âHeâs lying to us.âÂ
Jungkook absentmindedly runs his fingers along his bottom lip. It droops as he speaks through a pout. âMaybe. But I trust him, even if he is.âÂ
Itâs a strange thing to trust someone who is lying.Â
All you can do is nod. All you can do is accept that the people around you are doing whatâs right because, aside from them, there is no one and nothing you can trust in the world.Â
As you approach the warehouse, Jungkook curls his fingers around your wrist to stop you. He watches you with the same wide-eyed look he gives everyone, though something about this time feels different. His expression is more open and vulnerable. He looks at you like heâs waiting for you to hurt him.Â
âIâm sorry I scared you,â he apologizes softly.Â
âBut you didnât?âÂ
Your eyebrows crease your forehead, trying to recall what you may have done to make Jungkook feel like you feared him. Sure, his sudden appearance in the woods was startling, but heâd brought you a feeling of comfort and safety - not fear.Â
Jungkook doesnât correct you. Instead, he lets go of your wrist as shame warms his cheeks, but he doesnât look away from you. The timidness is still there. You can see it in how he chews on his bottom lip. Still, his eyes take on a more guarded, hardened expression for a split second, and thenâŠÂ
Heâs gone.Â
âWhat the fuck?â You mutter to yourself.Â
Now that youâve seen the darkness before, your eyes quickly notice the spot on the ground that creeps and grows into odd shapes, slinking along the grass before taking form up your legs, curling around your arms.Â
Itâs Jungkook. You knew it in the woods, somewhere deep down. Your fear for Yoongiâs safety - and your own - prevented you from processing the situation. But now, as the darkness envelopes you again, you know what to expect when you close your eyes and open them to see Jungkookâs broad chest as he crushes you against him.Â
âYou never showed me before.âÂ
Maybe itâs weird that youâre still clinging to each other, but Jungkook is warm and solid, and his heartbeat guides yours into a slower rhythm.Â
âThatâs because itâs creepy.âÂ
âWell, I think itâs cool. Even though, yeah, you kinda scared the shit outta me.âÂ
Jungkook lets out an embarrassed whine and squeezes you tighter. You knew he could command shadows but hadnât realized he could become one or move within them. Sure, the tornado trick heâd done a few times with Hoseok had been cool, but youâd always thought he was merely swirling the darkness around himself. You hadnât realized he was the darkness.Â
Honestly, it made him all the more terrifying and equally as endearing.Â
âI just had thisâŠÂ feeling something bad was happeningâŠâ Jungkook whispers into your hair. âI needed to check.â
âGood thing it was only a fox.â
Jungkook nods in agreement; you know he believes it more than you do.Â
âIâm just happy youâre safe.â You can feel his cheek press against the top of your head for a moment before he finally releases you.Â
Thereâs a feeling there as Jungkook leads you to the warehouse. He laces his fingers with yours, and you canât help but hear Yoongiâs question on a loop in your head.Â
You and Jungkook?Â
4 MONTHS, 3 WEEKS
âWhat if they think weâre the feds and feed us false information?âÂ
âWeâre too stupid to be the feds. It would be obvious.â
âI donât know⊠we all escaped the government, so they must be pretty stupid.âÂ
âWhat if theyâre the feds?âÂ
âShit, I never thought about that.â
âTheyâre not the fucking feds.âÂ
âHow do you know that?!âÂ
âCan all of you please just shut the fuck up?âÂ
The six of you crowd around the radio on the kitchen table. Jessi shows you how to operate it, which flip to switch to activate the microphone, and how to adjust the volume. Youâre all muted for now. When Hoseok goes to flip the switch, Jessi smacks his hand out of the way.Â
âListen to me,â she says sternly, turning in her seat to get a good look at all of you. âNo one talks.âÂ
âBut-âÂ
âNo one talks.âÂ
Five heads nod at her command, including Yoongi, which feels very satisfying to you for some reason.Â
Details of the Gifted Commune somewhere beyond the woods traveled by word of mouth. Coordinates and radio frequencies were exchanged in hushed tones between the Gifteds who dared dream of a life beyond the Labs. Youâre sad to admit that you were never one of those Gifteds. It wasnât until Yoongi helped you escape that you even realized escaping was an option, so brainwashed into thinking the Labs were all you had. You were in a new country, stumbling through an unfamiliar language, taken from your family. Sure, youâd learned enough to get by over time - but missing your adolescent years made you feel hopeless.Â
Jessi is the only one who had communicated with the Commune leaders in the past when she and another Gifted managed to break into a control room in the Labs she came from.Â
Thatâs why sheâs the one to speak into the radio that you find operates much like a long-distance walkie-talkie. Youâre glad itâs not you. She introduces herself, her whereabouts, and her credentials with an even voice you know you could never replicate.Â
Despite the distrust youâre all afraid of, Jessiâs previous connection to the Commune makes it easy for her to request to speak to the Commune leader, a healer named Kim Taehyung.Â
Sitting with your fingers gripping the edge of the table so tightly your knuckles are beginning to ache, you lean forward as though you can get closer to the gentle voice that floats from the radioâs speakers.Â
Taehyung doesnât sound anything like youâd imagined, though you arenât sure what you were expecting, to be honest. Maybe someone with a rougher voice made harsh by the trials of life as a fugitive of the Republic. Instead, heâs soft as he asks Jessi how many there are of you and what your coordinates are. This man, already larger than life even though none of you knows what he looks like, is patient as he gives Jessi instructions on how to reach the Commune.Â
âI can assure you,â Taehyung speaks, and you donât know what heâs about to say, but you find yourself already believing him, âYou will be safe here. It wonât be a short trip.â That makes your gut twist, but you focus on his following words. âBut there are abandoned shelters along the route to find refuge in. The nights get terribly cold.âÂ
Namjoon scribbles some notes down on a worn piece of paper. Itâs been written on and erased to add more notes over the months youâve been at the warehouse since there are only a few pieces of paper between the six of you. Thereâs a small hole in the middle of the page where someone erased too hard - or too many times, you suppose.Â
âThank you, Taehyung-ssi.âÂ
The line is quiet for a moment. Jessiâs gaze shoots up to glare at Jungkookâs interruption, but Taehyung speaks before she can chastise the younger man.Â
âAnything for my dongsaeng,â the man on the other side of the radio states.Â
You donât know him, so there is no way to tell if the subtle lilt to his voice indicates affection, but it seems like it as the two men use polite terms no one ever uses anymore. Itâs old-fashioned and reminiscent of a time lost to all of you.Â
Jessi steers the conversation back to planning the groupâs journey to the Commune. Excitement makes you jittery as you skip out of the kitchen, the men - aside from Yoongi - following after you. The boring stuff is what follows, and youâre all content to let the leaders discuss that stuff.Â
âDo you think weâll be able to do it?â Hoseok clasps his hands together, occasionally squeezing them. When he speaks, he keeps his eyes on the closed kitchen door.Â
Namjoon shrugs at the same time you respond, âWe have to.âÂ
5 MONTHS
Later, when you look back on this time in your life, youâll see that everything that transpired during those precious months at the warehouse led up to this.Â
At the moment, though, you donât see anything but the beginnings of spring attempting to sprout from the hard winter earth.Â
You sit on the roof atop the old milkcrate with your elbows on your knees. Your eyes follow a small butterfly floating through the light breeze. Itâs quiet, just like any other day.Â
Yoongi, Jessi, and Namjoon are inside, preparing for the trip you all will make through the woods to the Commune. Hoseok and Jungkook are somewhere at the perimeter of the woods, gathering whatever they can as food for the trip.Â
Youâve learned that there is a runaway at the Commune whose Gift allows them to disguise the Commune, similar to Jungkookâs Gift of optical illusion through shadows. Except this Gifted can alter reality, bend the shape of time and space to make the Commune simplyâŠ. disappear to anyone they donât want to find it.Â
It sounds otherworldly, something you can hardly wrap your head around, but you must remind yourself that before your Gift had revealed itself to you, you had never believed in the supernatural or fantasy. Now you were everything a younger version of you couldnât have begun to believe.Â
A tiny part of you had been worried that you would get nervous, but you find you canât sit still from the enthusiasm building up energy in your body to the point you might explode. Itâs exciting, the knowledge that in a few short days, you wonât have to sit on top of this roof with your bow and fear that has seemed to make its home deep inside your chest.Â
Soon youâll be safe.Â
You hold your breath as the butterfly gently flutters toward you. With a slight dip in its flight, the beautiful insect descends until it rests on your shoe. Youâre pretty sure you learned somewhere that butterflies shouldnât be touched, but you want to run your finger along its wings so badly.Â
Just before you can touch it, a scream rings out, echoing against the warehouse and reverberating across the industrial parkâs empty fields and parking lots. Crows take off into the sky, their cawing harmonizing with the shouts coming from behind you.Â
With your heart beating in your throat, you stand and run to the other side of the roof toward the woods.Â
âRUN! Y/N, FUCKING RUN!âÂ
You just barely catch a glimpse of Jungkookâs face as he sprints out of the woods before suddenly disappearing. Your blood becomes ice, piercing your veins as it glides through your body. Jungkook is a shadow now, you tell yourself. He didnât really disappear. Â
Hoseok stumbles out of the woods behind Jungkook, the wind at his feet enabling him to run across the field faster than an average human.Â
At first, you think theyâre just playing some silly game. Jungkook and Hoseok always mess around, pranking each other and playfighting. This seems like some elaborate joke until you watch Hoseok use his Gift to lift a giant chunk of concrete from the ground near the warehouse and throw it toward the woods.Â
You watch with wide eyes as multiple masked men, wearing all black except for the blood-red insignia of the Republic on their chests, crash through the woods like a spring flood.Â
Red Pin agents.Â
Theyâre armed with guns, some still on their hips while others are holding them out in front of them as they swarm the warehouseâs perimeter.Â
One of the men tilts his head up, his dark eyes locking with yours before you drop to your knees to hide behind the protective barrier around the roof.Â
You throw your bow over your arm and head so it rests across your chest and back and crawl as quickly as you can toward the trapdoor.Â
Your limbs tremble so terribly that you miss the last few rungs of the ladder and fall flat on your back, knocking the wind out of you. With a gasp, you touch the back of your head and try to blink away the stars swarming your eyes. When you bring your hand back, your fingers are coated red.Â
âShit! Get up, Y/N. Get the fuck up!âÂ
A pair of strong hands squeeze your biceps, and once your vision clears, you see that itâs Jessi hauling you to your feet. There are grease streaks on her face. You wonder if theyâre fromâŠ
âThe radio,â you croak, your lungs still struggling to work properly.Â
âIt was fucking rigged,â she spits, âI donât know how I couldnât sense it. But it was.â
And now they are here to collect you - or kill you, you arenât sure.Â
Maybe they would spare Jungkook. He has a Rare Gift; they would be stupid to harm him. The rest of you, though? Common Gifts - although Jessiâs is Uncommon, but certainly not Rare.
You feel lightheaded, likely from the fall and blood loss as it trickles down the back of your neck. Itâs thick and wet. The smell of iron floods your nostrils and makes your stomach curl inward. It doesnât matter, though. Jessi throws your arm around her shoulders and practically drags you through the warehouse.Â
Inside is a tornado. Namjoon and Hoseok are scrambling to gather as many supplies as they can. Luckily, many of the essential items are already packed, though Jessi quickly tosses out the radio from the duffle bag she flings over her shoulder.Â
âStupid piece of fucking military bullshit,â she grumbles, giving the item a harsh kick with her steel-toed boots. âGonna get us all fucking killed.âÂ
Hoseok lets out a whine. âPlease donât say that.âÂ
His face is bright pink, and his hands shake while he shoves clothes, random notes, and anything else he can find into his duffle bag.Â
âWe need to get the fuck out of here,â Jessi growls in response. Her tone has Namjoon and Hoseok picking up the pace.Â
Somewhere below you, likely on the first floor, you hear the sound of glass breaking.Â
âFuck,â Namjoon hisses. You donât think youâve ever heard him curse before, and in any other situation, you would have giggled. But right now, he looks so grim it makes all the hairs on your arms stand. âTheyâre inside.âÂ
The sound of shouting and boots slapping against the concrete floors gets louder the longer the four of you stare at each other. Even Jessi, with her commanding presence, seems to stand frozen in place. The shouting becomes easier to understand as death threats if your group refuses to cooperate and willingly turn yourselves in to the government.Â
As if any of you would actually go back to the Labs. At least, not without a fight.Â
âIf we stand here, we are going to die.â Your voice trembles just barely above a whisper. Itâs enough, though.Â
Namjoon gives a curt nod and looks around the room youâre in - the room that was once your bedroom. Your little nest of blankets is in the corner, along with Jungkookâs and Jessiâs. The beds have been rifled through, likely by Namjoon and Hoseok collecting the warmest blankest to bring on the trip.Â
âThe window,â Hoseok finally says with a quiet hiss. The warehouse is relatively large, so it will take some time for the Red Pin agents to figure out which room youâre in.Â
The four of you rush to the window and peer out of it. From what you can tell, there arenât any Red Pin agents below. Even if there are, it would be a smaller number than is currently bulldozing through the warehouse.Â
Itâs a long drop, though. Youâre on the third floor.Â
âIâll ease you down,â Hoseok insists. He props open the window and rests his hip against the wall. âSit on the edge, with your feet out like that.â His fingers are delicate but firm as he positions Namjoon the way he needs him to be. Sweet Namjoon, willing to put his life in Hoseokâs hands and go first in case something terrible happens.Â
Hoseokâs hands shake as he uses his Gift to slow Namjoonâs fall when the other man finally jumps from the window.Â
Tears burn the corners of your eyes as you watch Jessi do the same as Namjoon. The two land on the ground roughly but without injury. Hoseok looks exhausted, likely from the pressure of not fucking up and less because of the exertion.Â
âCome on,â he urges you as the Red Pin agentsâ shouting gets louder. âTheyâre close.âÂ
You climb into the window, letting your legs dangle out the other side. Before Hoseok conjures a gentle breeze between his hands, you grab onto his wrist. Something is tugging at your chest; it has been since the moment you saw Hoseok and Jungkook escape from the woods.Â
âHobi,â you hope he hears the plead in your voice. âWhere is Yoongi?âÂ
The way he grimaces shoots anxiety through you so severely that you feel your entire body jolt.Â
âHe and Jungkook are down there.â
âDown thereâŠâ
âFigh-â
Hoseok cuts himself off by letting out a shrill shriek when Jungkook suddenly materializes beside you. He has a deep gash on his cheek, blood pouring from the wound, coating his chin and neck deep red. His hair is matted and stands up on end, and thereâs more blood all over his clothes, enough that you canât tell if the blood is from him or someone else.Â
âGet out,â he wheezes. When he grabs Hoseokâs arm, he leaves blotches of blood on his skin. âHyungâs gonna blow it up.â
âBlow it up?â You hiss, twisting around to stare at Jungkook.Â
Itâs a mistake.Â
His irises are dark and wide, so vast that his eyes are almost entirely black. It gives him a crazed look, like a wild animal backed into a corner with its teeth bared.Â
Whatâs worse, itâs not just his eyes that are black. The veins in his neck are black like dark spiderwebs climbing up his throat and spreading down so far that it reaches the raised veins in the backs of his hands. He looks like heâs possessed, like the darkness of his Gift is consuming him whole.Â
âGet out.âÂ
Before you can argue further, you feel Jungkookâs palm press between your shoulder blades, and suddenly youâre falling out of the window.Â
When you open your eyes, youâre on the ground. Your upper body is propped up by Namjoon. His arms are wrapped around your torso, your back pulled against his chest to stabilize you. His chest rapidly raises and falls against you, but you hardly notice this. All you can focus on are the eyes staring back at you.Â
âYou okay, kid?â
Yoongi looks much like Jungkook. Blood is splattered across his face and staining his clothes. His faded pink hair is plastered to his sweat-drenched skin. He crouches beside you and Namjoon, one hand pressed into the grass to keep himself steady.Â
From behind Yoongi, you can hear gunshots and screaming echoing through the warehouse. If Hell had a sound, you were sure it would be this.Â
You try to turn to look at the building youâd just jumped from, but Yoongi grabs your chin.Â
âHey,â he lightly squeezes your cheeks. âAs long as weâre together, you donât gotta worry about anything. You remember that?âÂ
You nod once Yoongi drops his hand from your face. You try not to shiver when the air blows against your now wet skin; try not to think about how your skin is now stained with someone elseâs blood.Â
âHyung!âÂ
Yoongi turns toward the warehouse. Now that heâs distracted, he canât stop you from peering around him to get a look at the building that youâve made your home for the past five months.Â
What looks like black smoke furls around the building. From how the tendrils move like snakes through busted-out windows, you know it isnât smoke but shadows. Through an open window, you watch one of the shadows slip around a Red Pin agentâs throat like a noose. It tightens and tightens, squeezing the man so hard his face turns purple and his eyes water.Â
Before you can witness more, your view is again obscured by Yoongi.Â
âHyung!âÂ
Jungkookâs shout sounds more desperate than the first, and you feel your heart constrict at the pained edge of his tone.Â
Yoongi must notice the desperation, as well, because he quickly grabs your hand. Fire swirls between his fingers as he presses his palm against yours.Â
âYoongi, please-â
âYou need to listen to me.âÂ
He presses his hand against yours even harder, only letting up when you give in and summon little streams of water to intertwine with his fire. You donât like how rushed your secret handshake feels.
âI need you to look after Jungkook. The kidâs stubborn as fuck, worse than you.â
âWhy are you saying this?âÂ
Yoongiâs gives you a small smile, lifting his hand to swipe his thumb against your cheek. The blood there mixes with the tears you hadnât realized youâre shedding.Â
âBecause itâs what I need you to do.âÂ
Taking your face in his hands, Yoongi pulls you close to kiss your forehead. You feel Namjoon lift you to your feet when Yoongi lets go. Hoseok had cushioned your fall from the window, but youâre weak from blood loss and the exhaustion that fear can instill in the bones.Â
Before you can say anything more, Yoongi sprints toward the warehouse, disappearing through the backdoor and into the darkness that surrounds the building.Â
âNamjoon, let me go!â You scream as your friend squeezes his arms around your waist to haul you toward the woods. Jessi and Hoseok wait for you there, hidden within the trees, as the sounds of fighting and death from the warehouse get louder.Â
Your friend lets out a low grunt when you dig your heels into the ground, but heâs stronger than you, and the action only deters him for a moment. He lifts you a bit, practically carrying you.Â
Namjoon only stops when a flash of bright red light turns the entire industrial park dark for a split second before a deafening crash rings through the air. Even though your feet arenât on the ground, you can feel the ground shake with the explosion that busts all the windows out of the warehouse. The entire building bursts into flames, turning the walls black. Balls of fire fly out of the broken windows, igniting the grass below.Â
You crumble to the ground once Namjoon reaches the woods.
âWe have to go,â Hoseok pleads. When you look up at him, his cheeks are streaked with tear tracks, too.Â
Turning back to the fiery scene across the field, you watch a dark spot slither from shadow to shadow in the grass until it merges with your own shadow beside you on the ground. You tremble when Jungkook wraps his arms around your shoulders. His body is still crawling with dark veins, and the whites of his eyes are now entirely black.Â
âWhere is he?â
You glare into Jungkookâs eyes and swallow down the fear they strike in your heart. Like black holes, ready to absorb anything unlucky enough to fall in their path.Â
The frown Jungkook wears intensifies.Â
âJungkook. Where. Is. He.âÂ
Jungkook closes his eyes and shakes his head, jaw clamped shut so tightly you can see the muscles ripple under his skin. When he opens them again, black tears pour from his empty eyes.
Itâs like all the air is sucked out of your lungs, like a punch to the throat. Youâre breathing in as hard as you can, as fast as you can, but nothingâs staying. Everything is too cold. You can feel the blood crusting on your skin, the throb in the back of your head. Black ash falls from the sky, further obstructing your ability to breathe.
Everything is too much.Â
âGet off of me.âÂ
You try wiggling out from Jungkookâs grasp, but he doesnât let go.Â
âWe have to keep moving.âÂ
âGet the fuck off of me!âÂ
Jungkook lets you push him away. He leans back on his heels and watches you. Or, you think he is. Itâs hard to tell where those black eyes look, but it doesnât matter.Â
âYoongi,â you moan, sagging forward to dig your fingers into the ground. You rip tufts of grass until all thatâs left is dirt.Â
With closed fists, you beat into the now bare ground, over and over, until your knuckles split open, and Jungkook has to scoop you into his arms to stop you. Your fingers are raw and bloody, and you donât feel any of it. Nothing at all. Just numb. Numbness spreads through your body like Jungkookâs black veins spread through his.Â
None of this is real.Â
âJungkook,â you sob into the crook of his neck with your arms thrown around his shoulders. He holds you bridal style with one arm wrapped around your torso and the other under your legs.Â
âI know.âÂ
âHeâs coming back, right? How will he find us if we keep going?â
Jungkook tightens his hold on you, cradling you against his chest. You assume heâs following the group deeper into the woods, but your eyes are closed, and your face is buried in his neck. He smells like smoke and blood, but you all do now.Â
âJungkook, heâs coming back, right?â
A wet sob cuts through the otherwise quiet woods somewhere in front of you. You think itâs Hoseok, but you canât tell.Â
âThis way,â Jessi whispers.Â
Thereâs shuffling, then only the sound of feet crunching dead leaves and snapping twigs. Jungkook jostles you slightly to adjust his grip on you, murmuring gentle apologies every time he does.Â
âHow are you holding up?â This time itâs Namjoon. He sounds close, like heâs walking in line with Jungkook.Â
âI can keep us hidden until weâre deeper in, but then Iâll have to stop,â Jungkook says through gritted teeth, as though he doesnât want to admit what he must say next. âIâm exhausted.â
âWant me to carry-â
âNo.â
Jungkook barks his response with an aggression youâve never heard from him. He squeezes you, almost protectively close to his chest, as Namjoon assures him everything is fine. Itâs hard to focus on the menâs hushed voices when you waver in and out of consciousness.Â
Eventually, all you can see when your close your eyes is a flash of bright light, like fire engulfing your brain.Â
And then everything goes black.
SHELTER #2
Hoseokâs hands shake as he holds the flint rock in one and the steel knife in the other. Twigs snap beneath his boots as he adjusts his squat. Each fidget draws your attention despite your desire to keep your eyes off the sight of Hoseok struggling.Â
After three failed attempts at creating a spark, Jessi quickly snatches the items from Hoseokâs grasp and kneels beside the fire pit.Â
âYouâre gonna fucking stab yourself,â she grumbles, though she, too, struggles the first few tries. Eventually, the little pile of tinder ignites, filling the circle of rocks youâd gathered with a hot fire whose heat licks at your ankles.Â
Namjoon fists your jacket sleeve and drags you backward, nearly toppling you over and making the wet grass stain the butt of your pants a dark green.Â
It rained today. You canât help but wonder if it washed away the blood and soot from the warehouse or if more Red Pin agents will show up and find evidence of what happened there. Â
âYouâre sitting too close.âÂ
âIâm cold.âÂ
âYouâre too close, Y/N.âÂ
You glare at Namjoon, opening your mouth to retort that youâre an adult who can take care of yourself when a sob cuts through the tension between you.Â
Hoseok shudders with each heave of his shoulders, nearly folding in on himself, with his elbows on his knees and his palms pressed against his eyes.Â
âHyung,â Namjoon calls out; his voice barely registers over Hoseokâs crying.Â
âIt makes me think of him.â Itâs all Hoseok says, all he needs to say.Â
Namjoon and Jessiâs expressions crumple like Hoseokâs body in the dirt. You watch them lock eyes with each other, something silent and private passing between them. You donât know why, but it pisses you off. It shouldnât, though.Â
Something dark and sick is growing inside you, this angry mass doubling in size every time someone cries for Yoongi. He was your best friend. He found you, saved you, and helped you see that there was more to life. The rest of them donât get it. Yoongi didnât mean to them what he meant to you.Â
Attempting to hoard grief all to yourself isnât fair to you or the rest of your group, but you want to do it anyway. You want to be selfish because you feel you deserve the right to hurt the most. The rest of them donât get it.Â
Rather than voice your frustration, you bite your bottom lip and dig your fingers into the dirt, winding up your whole body into a tight fist thatâs not quite ready to spring but prepared all the same. If you let yourself loose, you know youâll say something you shouldnât â something you know you donât actually mean and that youâll regret, if not tomorrow, then ten years from now. Assuming you survive that long.Â
For now, survival should be the only thing on your mind.Â
The fire sputters slightly. A section of the tinder is wet from the morningâs rain. You hold out your hand, palm facing the sky, and wait.Â
Hoseokâs sobs have subsided by the time youâve drawn the moisture out of the wet wood. It sits in a small pool of water in your palm. A reckless part of you wants to plunge your hand into the fire, but you spread your fingers apart instead. The water falls through your fingers and soaks into the grass.Â
The fireâs crackling overpowers the silence that blankets the four of you. Each of you stares deep into its flames, streaks of orange burning in your eyes. You wonder if Jungkookâs invisibility shield (âOptical illusion, guys.â) is strong enough to hide the fire. Youâd never thought to ask if he can maintain the shield when heâs not even around.Â
Twigs snapping in the distance make you reach for the knife sticking out of the ground beside you. Hoseok doesnât seem concerned by the sound, but his sense of smell as the air carries it to him may be compromised from all the crying. His nose has been running since your group left the warehouse.Â
You havenât cried since you woke up inside the first abandoned shelter Taehyung mentioned would be on your path to the Commune. Even if you wanted to cry, you wouldnât be able to. The part of your chest where the sobs should come from just feels empty.Â
The rustling in the woods increases until you hear the sound of someone clearing their throat.Â
Jungkook emerges from the darkness with a satchel â Yoongiâs satchel â thrown across his chest and a stone bowl in his arms. Â
âRabbit. I skinned them already. I thought you guys might not wanna seeâŠâ Jungkook trails off when his bright eyes fall on Hoseokâs tear-stained face. With a quiet sigh, he crouches beside the fire and slides the satchel off, handing it to Namjoon.Â
âFruits,â he mumbles, not looking in Namjoonâs direction once the older man takes the bag from him. Instead, and unsurprisingly, Jungkookâs eyes are on you.Â
You look away. Thereâs too much in those eyes, full of constellations of stories youâre too weak to learn. Bending your knees, you draw your legs against your chest and hug them, returning your gaze to the fire while Jungkook prepares to cook the meat and Namjoon handles the other food.Â
Yoongi asked you to look after Jungkook, but itâs he who has taken care of the group. Namjoon seems too busy fussing over Hoseok, and you know you arenât any help. Jessi is the leader by default now that Yoongi isnât here to take charge. Sheâs strong and has kept the group on a tight schedule. You know itâs her way of coping. Thereâs no time to lose herself in mourning if she charges ahead. Having an end goal gives her purpose.Â
If only you knew what yours was.Â
SHELTER #3
Your feet sink into the ground with each step you take. The sand feels soft between your toes as you wiggle them, watching the little black grains roll across your skin and make your toes disappear. Your steps halt just before you reach the waterâs edge, where bright orange waves lap at the black shore. The shore stretches in both directions, a black stripe for as far as you can see. A ghost of a memory tickles your brain. Jack-oâ-lanterns lit by tealight candles, and the smell of cinnamon.Â
Suddenly, the orange waves kick up in speed, crashing against the shore more violently. The force causes black sand to spray into the air. You can taste it in your mouth, feel it gritty against your teeth and harsh on your tongue.Â
You try to lift your hands to cover your face, but you find that you canât. Theyâre trapped to your sides by long vines that wrap around your wrists and dive deep into the sand, rooting you in place. You try to pull out of the vinesâ grasp. Thorns dig into your skin so deeply that black blood oozes from the jagged puncture wounds the thorns leave behind.Â
âDonât struggle.âÂ
The voice brings stillness to the whirlwind of sand and the crash of waves.Â
You already know who it is, but your body still feels surprised when Yoongi takes slow steps toward you from the other end of the shore. Heâs dressed in a flowy white shirt and loose white pants. When you look down, you realize youâre matching.Â
âWhat do I do?âÂ
Yoongi ignores your question. His fingers run along your forearm, his index finger dipping into one of the holes in your wrist, still dripping black blood. It doesnât hurt, even though you know it should.Â
Dark cat eyes examine the black that stains his fingers. After another silent minute, Yoongi wipes your blood on the front of his shirt. You donât know why youâre worried that heâll ruin it.Â
âJungkookie is here.âÂ
âWhat?âÂ
Yoongi walks toward the orange ocean. You scramble to keep up, but the sand grabs your ankles and pulls you back every time you step forward.Â
âYoongi! Wait for me!âÂ
âYou donât need me anymore. This is a good thing.âÂ
Your friend nods his head before stepping into the water. The moment his foot touches the orange waves, the entire ocean bursts into flames.Â
âYoongi!â You shriek, running as fast as possible, but the sand wonât let you go. It sucks you down until youâre up to your knees in the soft grains trapped in the hold of the shore. Your brain knows itâs hopeless, but your body keeps struggling even though Yoongi told you not to.Â
Suddenly, you feel rough hands grab your arms, and youâre being pulled into the sand, the grains filling your mouth and nose until your lungs are full and you canât breathe.
âHey, hey, shhh, itâs okay.âÂ
Fingers trail along your hairline, dragging down the length of your face and tracing your jaw. Rather than cold sand, you feel something solid and warm wrap around your body.Â
âBreathe. In and out, okay? Inhale⊠exhale⊠I got you. Itâs okay. I got you.âÂ
As your body returns to you, you realize your face is pressed against smooth skin. You can taste salt on your lips, but no sand. When you blink, your eyelids feel heavy and wet.Â
Youâre crying. Sobbing, actually.Â
âI miss him, too. So fucking much.âÂ
Jungkook is crying, too. His voice remains steady, though. Heâs always so steady now. The shy, fumbling boy of the warehouse is no more. In the time since the Red Pin attack, Jungkook changed. You all did, but he seems to have changed the most. His eyes still hold the stars, but the darkness seems⊠deeper now. His aura has lost its boyishness.Â
The abandoned building where your group has taken refuge is dark, only lit by the moonlight filtering through the slotted windows. You think it may have once been a cabin for a couple or small family.Â
Jungkook cradles you in his lap. The two of you are wrapped in thick blankets, cocooned away from the world.Â
âIâm sorry,â you whisper.Â
Jessi is asleep in the corner of the room, while Namjoon and Hoseok have made their beds in the room across the hall. Youâre all accustomed to loud noises at night. Nearly all of you have suffered from night terrors at some point.Â
âItâs okay. Youâve had to listen to me cry in my sleep, too,â Jungkook points out with a small smile.Â
Itâs a breathtaking smile. Jungkookâs cheeks shine with fresh tears, but his bunny teeth poke out, and his eyes crease with the sincerity in that smile. It warms the empty parts of your chest â like hot tea poured into a cool mug. Perhaps the odd feeling in your stomach is similar to the bubble of water boiling.Â
âYouâre cute when you cry. Iâm an ugly crier,â you sniff. Itâs stupid to say, but you donât want to think about how sad you all are.Â
âNo, youâre not.â
âYes, I am. All the boogers and the dumb faces I make.âÂ
Jungkook shakes his head. His hair is getting long again.Â
âI think youâre beautiful.âÂ
âDonât lie,â you try to joke, but your voice comes out small and unsure rather than teasing.Â
âI would never lie to you.âÂ
As if to seal the promise, Jungkook presses his lips against your forehead in a kiss. Your fingers ache from how tightly you squeeze the fabric of his shirt into your fists.Â
Every day you trudge through the woods in search of the Commune, and every day you live in fear of the Red Pins finding you once again. But being in Jungkookâs lap, face nuzzling the crook of his neck, his strong arms holding you against his chest⊠Itâs the only time you genuinely feel safe.Â
SHELTER #4
âWhen was the last time,â Jungkook pauses to pull his shirt over his head, âyou took a bath?âÂ
Your eyes roam the expanse of his broad chest, the dips and valleys of his abdomen, and the sparse dark hairs disappearing into the waistband of his pants. Youâve seen Jungkook shirtless before. Itâs a treat every time, although you feel a twinge of guilt from looking now. Running along his ribcage is an extended cut, red with scabs. Jessi did her best to stitch Jungkook up with whatever she had in the supplies Namjoon and Hoseok snatched before you fled the warehouse. Itâs a pretty nasty wound, but it seems to be healing well. Part of you wonders if exposing it to lake water is a good idea, but you keep the thought to yourself. Jungkook is tired of everyone babying him. He hasnât told you as much, but you can tell.   Â
âIâm too ashamed to answer that question.âÂ
âYou and me both,â Jungkook snorts.Â
He removes the harness strapped around his thigh, taking the large knife off along with it. After the Red Pin attack, you now know how pointless it is to carry any weapon other than a gun. However, none of you have guns, though you still believe your Gifts are better than any human-made weaponry.Â
âToo bad we donât have, like, soap and shit,â you grumble, stomping a cluster of wild mushrooms growing along the bank of the lake youâd found.Â
Jungkookâs tattooed fingers play with his belt buckle while his big, brown eyes flit up to meet yours.Â
âSorry!â You rush to apologize and turn your back to him. Heat creeps up your neck, spreading across your cheeks and biting at your earsâ tips.Â
Your discomfort worsens when you hear a quiet chuckle rumble from Jungkook. Thereâs the rustle of clothes and, soon after, a light splash that tells you he has eased himself into the lake.Â
âYouâre good.âÂ
When you turn around, Jungkook isnât facing you. He dips his head back to wet his hair, running his fingers through it a few times before righting himself again, still facing away from you. The water reaches his lower back when heâs standing, but you can tell he is crouching slightly because the gentle waves lap higher up on his back. Itâs not dirty water since the lake has a fresh stream feeding it, which ensures that the water isnât stagnant, but itâs murky enough from the plants growing at the bottom that you canât make out the rest of Jungkookâs body. Not that you want to, considering heâs naked.Â
Thankful for the privacy, you quickly strip out of your clothes and step into the water. You keep a respectful distance between you, choosing not to drift too far into deeper water. You much prefer to at least touch the sandy bottom with your tiptoes.Â
Slipping deep enough that only your head remains above water, you watch Jungkook as he uses an old rag to scrub his arms. Youâre both disgustingly grimy.Â
âLucky we found this place,â you think aloud as you begin to work on scrubbing down yourself, as well.Â
âWe are.âÂ
âJungkook. You can look now.âÂ
His head snaps up, gaze locking with yours for a split second before he averts his eyes again. Youâre close enough to see pink bloom across his face.Â
You clear your throat to fill the silence when he says nothing. Part of you thought it might spur him to talk, but the tension between you remains.Â
Youâre not sure when it first developed. Part of you knows it has always been there, perhaps dormant or less noticeable. Much of it falls back on Jungkookâs behavior, you think as you watch him slide the rag down his chest. The tension has always lived in the dark expanse of his eyes and how he searches for you, always you, maybe without even realizing it himself. Itâs gotten worse since youâve started waking up every morning wrapped in his arms and nuzzling his neck.Â
âWhatâs the first thing you want to do when we get to the Commune?â Jungkook finally speaks. When he does, you force yourself to drop your gaze, focusing intently on continuing to wash yourself to the best of your ability with the lack of soap.
âEat food that isnât rabbit, hopefully.âÂ
âHey!âÂ
A giant splash of water hits you in the face. You gasp, rushing to wipe away the droplets clinging to your eyelashes.Â
âFâfuck you!â You sputter.Â
âItâs not my fault rabbits are the easiest things to catch around here. Iâm doing my best!âÂ
Another splash slaps into you. It isnât hard enough to sting, but itâs a splash all the same.Â
âYouâre real dumb if you think you can start a splashing war with someone who has a water Gift,â you challenge.Â
âIâm not scared of you,â Jungkook sticks out his tongue after he challenges you.Â
All it takes is a flick of your wrist and a wave higher than most nearby trees descend on Jungkook. It doesnât ever reach him, though. The sheer panic that contorts his face is enough to warm your body with evil satisfaction. You gently let the wave descend into the lake, barely kicking up enough to splash Jungkook against the chest.Â
âI showed you mercy. Youâre welcome, young man.âÂ
Jungkook lets out a loud snort, eyes rolling into the back of his head in defiance. âYouâre insane.âÂ
âYou provoke me.âÂ
You donât like how high his eyebrows arch, unable to decipher what an expression like that is supposed to mean.Â
âI provoke you? In what way?âÂ
You narrow your eyes at him. âYou literally did it just now.âÂ
Jungkook straightens up a little. The action makes more of his torso rise from the water. You canât help but drop your eyes to the water level that has fallen so dangerously low on his hips.Â
When your gaze finally returns to his face, Jungkook is wearing an exaggerated pout.Â
âIâm innocent.âÂ
âPfft,â you scoff.Â
By this point, your fingers are starting to get wrinkly, and the position youâre standing in to ensure your whole body is covered in the water is becoming uncomfortable. Youâre just about to tell Jungkook that youâre done playing games â that the two of you need to hurry up before the rest of your group gets worried about you being gone for too long â when the man disappears.Â
âOh my god, Jungkook-ah, why?âÂ
Your eyes dart around the lake, eyeing each shadow suspiciously. You donât think you see Jungkookâs actual body underwater, so all you can guess is that heâs doing his creepy crawly shadow-walking just to bother you.Â
âThis is doing the exact opposite of proving that youâre innoceââ You interrupt yourself with a loud gasp when you feel fingers squeeze your bare hips.Â
âBoo,â Jungkook deadpans, but his face quickly cracks into a smile.Â
You want to laugh at yourself for being so easily startled, to match Jungkookâs joyfulness, but all you can focus on is the feeling of his fingertips pressing into your skin.Â
âJungkookâŠâÂ
âHm?âÂ
Heâs absentminded as his gaze drops down to stare at your lips. You automatically lick them, almost on instinct, unable to stop yourself. Jungkook follows your lead, though he pulls his bottom lip between his teeth instead of settling his face. If that action didnât already make your stomach twist into a knot, the darkness of Jungkookâs gaze does.Â
âIâŠâ Jungkook rubs slow circles into your hips with his thumbs, following the curve of your hip bone and effectively interrupting your thoughts.Â
You donât know who leans in first, but it doesnât really matter. The moment Jungkookâs lips connect with yours, itâs as though your brain completely empties.Â
Itâs a hesitant kiss, just a light press of Jungkookâs closed mouth against yours. He grows bolder when you donât pull away, parting his lips slightly. He nibbles at your bottom lip, prompting you to part yours as well, allowing him to slot your lips together.Â
You bring your hands up to squeeze Jungkookâs biceps, coaxing a slight whine from him when your nails lightly dig into his skin. The sound is gentle but needy, making your skin prickle with goosebumps. Youâve never heard Jungkook sound like that, never heard anyone sound like that.Â
Youâve never even kissed anyone before.Â
Itâs not what you expected, though you havenât spent much time thinking about physical intimacy. Being trapped in the Labs, it never seemed like something youâd have the privilege of exploring. Once you escaped, there was only one person you ever thought about being intimate with â and even then, it was far more wholesome than this, you now realize. This⊠is different.Â
Jungkook trembles, and you feel his hands flex against your hips as he tilts his head to the side, deepening the kiss.Â
A few times, the two of you fumble, noses bumping into each other and teeth nipping a bit too hard. It makes you wonder if this is Jungkookâs first kiss, too. You decide it doesnât matter if it is. Itâs warm and soft, and Jungkook tastes sweet, like the berries Hoseok picked earlier today. Youâre dizzy; Jungkook stealing the air from your lungs. Your body screams for you to pull away, but you cling to him tighter. Â
Something firm brushing against your inner thigh brings you back to reality. You nearly jump out of Jungkookâs grasp, chest heaving and fingers trembling beneath the water.Â
âIâm sorry,â Jungkook hurries to speak before you do.Â
Before you can say anything in return â though youâre not sure what you want to say â Jungkook is gone. All thatâs left are his clothes still neatly folded on the grass beside the lake and a thrum of excitement beating through your body to the tune of guilt and shame.Â
Kissing Jungkook felt good. And that is why it can never happen again. Â
SHELTER #5
If you ever told Jessi that you see her as a mother figure, she would probably kill you. You consider this as she wields a machete, hacking away at the brush that blocks your path as you continue toward the Commune. The muscles in her bicep and shoulders flex with each swing. Itâs sexy and terrifying, and you can only admire her strength when the rest of your group is floundering.Â
The guys trail behind, practically dragging their feet. Itâs Jungkookâs fault (and maybe yours, but you wonât think about that).Â
Ever since the kiss, Jungkook has avoided you. You havenât interacted with each other in days, aside from the cuddles you share at night when nightmares overtake you.Â
Hoseok and Namjoon have also noticed the shift in his behavior, though they believe itâs grief causing him to distance himself from the group. They hang back, letting you and Jessi march forward, so they can talk and do whatever boys do to cheer each other up when the world is falling apart.Â
You try not to think about it too much, but Jessi and her motherly instincts donât let you know peace.Â
âYoongi wouldnât want us to be so fucking sad all the time.â Jessi lets out a grunt as she hacks at a particularly thick tree branch blocking your path. âIf he was here right now, heâd kick all of our asses with a quickness.âÂ
Sheâs right; it goes without saying.Â
Letting her arm fall to her side, Jessi uses her free hand to wipe away the sweat that collects on her forehead and drips down the side of her face. She looks at you like sheâs waiting for you to do something. The expression makes you feel uneasy.Â
âWhat?â
âDid you even hear the shit I was saying?â
âYes.âÂ
âOkay then, whatâre you gonna do about it?â
You scrunch your eyebrows together. âAbout what?âÂ
Jessi lets out a frustrated huff and again brings the machete down on the tree branch. It splinters and breaks, providing enough weakness for Jessi to stomp down on it with a steel-toed boot.Â
âDid you and Jungkook fuck?âÂ
âWhat?!âÂ
When you gasp, youâre sure you inhale a bug, sucking it right down your throat and probably into your fucking lungs for all you know. It sparks a terrible coughing fit that makes Jessi pause to slap you between the shoulder blades a few times.Â
âWhyââ you heave, tears in your eyes, âwhy would you think that?âÂ
Jessi pushes forward through the forest brush with a roll of her eyes.Â
âItâs obvious thereâs something going on. The poor boyâs moping around after you like a lovesick puppy. Even worse than usual.âÂ
If you werenât already sweating your ass off, you would be heating up from Jessiâs astute observations.Â
âI donât know what you'reââÂ
âAish, fucking save it, babe,â Jessi interrupts you with a wave of the hand that isnât holding the machete. âAll Iâm trying to say is that itâs okay to feel good. Life is fucked as it is. Stop ruining good things for yourself and live as best as you can in the circumstances we got, alright?âÂ
She gives you a stern look from the side, a look that you quickly try to avoid by ducking your head down. Suddenly, the ground is fascinating.Â
âIâm fine.âÂ
âRight, and I donât have a fat ass.âÂ
âReally!â You insist. The desperation in your voice is pathetic and telling.Â
âYoongi would want you to live, hun. I know he would. And you wanna know how I know?â
There isnât a need to say anything; once Jessi has her mind set on something, she sees it through until the end.Â
âThere wasnât a fox in the woods. It was a Red Pin scout.â She gives you a pointed look. âBut ignorance is bliss, and he wanted you to be happy. He wanted you to live without more fear, so he didnât tell you. So do whatever you need to do to fix things with Jungkook and be fucking happy.âÂ
You fall behind as Jessi speeds up, the path much clearer now than it had been just a few feet before. The guys are still meandering further back, so you fall somewhere in the middle, close enough to see everyone at either end but far enough that you can be alone with your thoughts without interruption.Â
Jessi is right, but it feels wrong to let yourself feel good. How can you be happy when Yoongi isnât here? There is a bit of survivorâs guilt clutching at your heart, but most of your struggle is from the pain of simply not having Yoongi around. Being happy feels like it would be a betrayal of some kind.Â
Yoongi would disagree. He would give you that gummy smile and poke you in the ribs until you cry, and then he would tell you that youâre being an idiot.Â
With a sigh, you break into a light jog to catch up with Jessi, Yoongiâs voice echoing for the millionth time in your head.Â
You and Jungkook.
COMFORT
You are ashamed to admit that you take longer to apologize to Jungkook than Yoongi took to apologize you to.Â
In fact, you never apologize to Jungkook before your group makes it to the Commune. It never seemed like the right opportunity came. There was always someone else around, or Jungkook looked exceptionally sad, or you told yourself you would say something once he woke up but got caught up watching how beautiful he looks when he sleeps cuddled against you every night.Â
Itâs always tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow. The thing about tomorrow is that it always comes until it doesnât.Â
And then suddenly, youâre all stumbling into a clearing in the woods that leads to what looks like a hole in the trees, and there is magic dancing in your bones that pulls your thoughts away from anything but the man who stands to greet you.
Kim Taehyung is not what you expected from the leader of a notorious Gifted runaway commune that has evaded the authorities for years. Admittedly, you had few expectations â too busy worrying about surviving the trek to think about what the man would look like when he finally greeted you. Still, itâs a lot to process.Â
âWelcome, my little Gifts!âÂ
The lithe man stretches his long arms out as wide as his wingspan will let him. Your group exchanges looks when Taehyung doesnât move, his eyebrows arched as he waits.Â
The six of you stand at the Commune entrance, marked by two trees manipulated into forming a magical-looking arch. Large flower bushes and more trees flank the arch, hiding whatever may lie within the Commune. Try as you might, as you peer over Jessiâs shoulder, you canât see through the thicket.Â
Taehyung lets out a quiet sigh, but his arms donât seem to tire. He wiggles his fingers as though heâs beckoning you into his arms. The movements, although small, make the numerous gold bracelets that line his wrists clink together like wind chimes. He wears loose slacks and an oversized white silk shirt. A knitted shawl with intricate patterns stitched into it in earth tones hangs over his broad shoulders. The tassels sway in the wind. You donât know how, but he smells like summer.Â
âDo you not seek comfort?â
A loud whimper erupts from the middle of your huddle, and suddenly Jungkook pushes past Jessi and Namjoon. He stumbles the few steps it takes to reach Taehyung.Â
âJungkook-ah,â Jessi whisper-yells, but itâs too late. Jungkook has his face buried in Taehyungâs chest, a sob tearing through his body.Â
âShhh, my little Gift, you are home.âÂ
Taehyung keeps his eyebrows arched, giving the rest of your group a pointed look. It takes hardly a second before Hoseok follows Jungkook, launching himself into Taehyungâs embrace with such power youâre shocked the Commune leader manages to stay upright. Hoseokâs cries harmonize with Jungkookâs until Namjoon eventually joins.Â
Never one to open up about sadness, Jessi stares down the Commune leader with a challenging look that would make the bravest soldiers shit themselves â and yet Taehyung merely smiles the strangest, most charming smile youâve ever seen.Â
Before you know it, youâre standing alone because Jessi has a singular tear sliding down her round cheek, and Taehyung has one arm curling her against his chest, too.Â
Comfort.Â
Itâs funny, isnât it? Funny that we want it, crave it, even from a complete stranger. Comfort provides no solution to our problems and is even sometimes used to avoid problems altogether. You have known little comfort since Jungkook carried you away from the warehouse. Â
Okay then, whatâre you gonna do about it?
You meet Jessiâs gaze, and the realization hits you that this is the first time youâve seen her cry.Â
âBe happy, Y/N.â If Jessi speaks out loud, you canât hear her but can read her mouth clearly.Â
Itâs like something shatters in your chest. Itâs shocking; you were convinced nothing was left inside to break. But when Taehyung finally lowers both arms to wrap them around your group â yourself included â no pain or sadness plagues your heart. You feel strangely at peace. Taehyungâs summer scent envelopes you. Itâs freshly-cut grass, sea salt, and cherry blossoms. Warmth spreads from the man, what you imagine it feels like to be a plant absorbing nutrients from the sun.Â
âThank you for trusting me,â Taehyung speaks softly. âThis is my Gift, and it makes my heart happy to share it with you today.âÂ
You remember that Taehyung is a healer Gifted when he gently extricates himself from what became a group hug that lasted for eternity.Â
âAre we feeling better now?âÂ
You all find yourselves nodding. Taehyung beams at that. He claps his hands together, startling Hoseok into a small giggle.Â
âWonderful!â Taehyung turns on his heel, his shawl billowing out behind him as he swiftly crosses the archway. âNow, come with me. We have many things to take care of!âÂ
Your group hurries to keep up with the man whoâs all legs. Beyond the arch, the Commune is more like a small village than whatever tent city youâd expected. Little houses similar to the abandoned ones your group found refuge in on the way here line the dirt paths â except these are full of life. Odd markings are painted on the brick and concrete buildings, all in the bright colors of summer: sunny yellows, healthy greens, and vibrant pinks.Â
You notice that in the doorway of every building is a small basket, sometimes more than one, resting on the ground. Some are full of items you canât quite make out because Taehyung is walking so quickly that you donât have time to peek into any of them.Â
âI canât quite remember how many there are of us,â Taehyung says over his shoulder as he leads you down a road lined with shops. Thereâs clothing, produce, and other wares for sale. You feel embarrassed by how your mouth waters simply from seeing an apple. âI would say at least three hundred, but Seokjin hyung would know better. Heâs the brains of all this. Iâm merely the handsome face of the operation.âÂ
âYah, I heard that, Kim Taehyung!âÂ
âOh, so you heard me singing your praises, hyung?âÂ
Taehyung leads you to what you guess is the center of the Commune by the way the buildings form a half circle around a grassy quad. In the middle of the quad, there is a large pile of tinder â tree branches, dead grass and hay, planks of wood, and other items stacked on top of each other to build what will most likely be a giant bonfire from the looks of it.Â
The man known as Seokjin approaches your group just to shove Taehyungâs shoulder with his own. âI am both the brains and the beauty, thank you very much. You can be second-best.âÂ
âYouâre demoting me? In front of our new friends?â Taehyung pouts.Â
Seokjin twists his broad torso to get a good look at your ragtag team of misfits. Facing this new manâs beauty head-on, you are quickly reminded of how disgusting you all probably look and smell, having fought through the woods for weeks without even a proper bath.Â
Even though you all look like hell, Seokjin beams just as Taehyung had.Â
âOh good, you didnât run away!âÂ
You feel Jessi tense beside you. âWhy the fuck would we run away?âÂ
âTaehyung is insufferable, thatâs why.âÂ
âHey!â The leader shoves his friend much harder than his friend had shoved him. âYouâre so grumpy. Do you need a hug?âÂ
Seokjin swats at Taehyung. âDonât you have things to do? Summer is here soon. Go make daisy chains or something. Jimin and I will take care of our new friends.â
âDaisy chains?â You blurt out in question as Taehyung wiggles his fingers at your group in a goodbye. In the blink of an eye, heâs gone, disappearing into the crowds of people going about their day in the Commune. Youâve never seen so many Gifteds, free and all together, in your life. Â
Seokjin hums, beckoning your group to follow him deeper into the Commune.Â
âIn a few days, it will be the First of Summer. I assume you all have never celebrated Summer?âÂ
You find it odd that Seokjin speaks of the season as though itâs a holiday. When no one responds, he lets out a long sigh.Â
âYouâve missed out on so much, trapped like lab rats.â He spits the end of his sentence. Itâs in anger at the research facilities rather than a judgment of you, but it makes your heart sting just the same. You wish Taehyung was here.Â
Leading you to a three-story building that looks similar to a warehouse or an office building, with plain concrete walls decorated with more colorful markings, Seokjin pauses to let your group enter the front door first.Â
âThis is my home,â Seokjin welcomes your group. âMy husband and I sleep on the first floor, but there are a few empty guest rooms on the second and third. Newcomers tend to stay with us until weâve built them their own homes.âÂ
âThatâs so generous of you, Seokjin,â Hoseok speaks up for the first time. The crackle in his voice tells you heâs still on the verge of tears, but he smiles when you turn to look at him.Â
âPlease, call me hyung if youâd like.â Seokjin smiles.Â
Taehyung and Seokjinâs use of honorifics warms your heart, even though you donât have the same emotional attachment to the custom as the others. When you look out of the corner of your eye, you see Jungkook smile at the honorific, too.Â
âWeâll get your rooms situated, but first, are you hungry?âÂ
âFuck yes,â Jessi groans.
The group and Seokjin laugh when you ask, âDo you have anything besides rabbit?âÂ
In the kitchen, your group meets Seokjinâs husband, Jimin, a fire Gifted. When Jimin pulls you into a tight hug, tears prickle in the corners of your eyes because his body burns, and he smells faintly of smoke, just like Yoongi.Â
While chomping away at fresh vegetables and meat that isnât rabbit, you learn that Seokjin is the legendary cosmic Gifted you only half-heartedly believed to be real. His ability to bend time and space wipes the Commune off the radar, ensuring the Red Pins never find it. Despite his large personality, he seems too shy to demonstrate his Gift, even as Jimin pesters him.Â
Theyâre cute, Seokjin and Jimin. They fuss over your group as though they are your parents, making sure that you each get a turn taking a shower and that you have enough blankets and pillows in your bedrooms. Hoseok, Namjoon, and Jungkook share one, while you and Jessi share another. Jimin apologizes profusely about not being able to provide you with your own bedrooms, which you all dismiss.Â
âWe anticipate a few additional newcomers soon; Iâm so sorry we donât have enough room to spread out,â Jimin bemoans as he plays with his fingers.Â
âAre you kidding?â Namjoon teases with a smile that crinkles his eyes. âWeâve been living in an abandoned warehouse for months.âÂ
âSleeping on the floor gave me fucking arthritis, and Iâm barely thirty,â Jessi chimes in.
âThatâs not how that works.âÂ
âFuck off, Jungkook-ah. Tell that to my broken back.âÂ
Jimin looks appalled by your previous living situation, making your group joke around more. Laugh through the pain, right? Itâs a coping mechanism youâve all done a decent job of perfecting. Sometimes being alive is enough to laugh about because, well, at least youâre alive.Â
After a whirlwind of a day getting settled into Seokjin and Jiminâs home, you can finally ease your bones into a real bed with a thick, fluffy mattress and clean sheets. Your tummy is full of delicious food, your body clean and well-moisturized thanks to Jiminâs homemade skincare products, and you finally allow yourself to sink into the one thing youâve been scared to find: comfort.Â
Just before sleep overtakes you, you hear a quiet, almost timid, knock at the door. You wrack your brain, thinking about who it could be and why they need you. It feels like too much effort to get out of bed when youâve only just been able to relax, so you call out to the person on the other side of the door.Â
âHi.âÂ
Jungkookâs wide eyes peer at you through the dark, a sliver of moonlight peeking through the window blinds highlighting parts of his face.Â
âHi,â you say, pausing to quietly clear your throat. âWhatâs up?â
âCanât sleep.â
Your heart feels like it will fly out of your chest when Jungkook hesitantly steps into your bedroom. You watch him eye Jessiâs sleeping form in the bed on the opposite side of the room, perhaps weighing the pros and cons of being in the room if she wakes up.Â
Apparently accepting the risk, Jungkook scurries over to stand beside your bed.Â
âCan I sleep with you?âÂ
Itâs the most Jungkook has spoken to you since he fled the lake. His request shouldnât make your stomach flip with nerves; youâve cuddled together every night since your first nightmare about Yoongi. So it should be easy when you respond,Â
âOf course.âÂ
You quickly scoot over to give Jungkook room when he slips beneath the sheets.Â
âThank you,â he whispers into the dark.Â
Holding out your arms, you encourage Jungkook to curl against your side, a position you usually take, but something tells you that Jungkook needs this more than you do. Part of your assumption is due to the timid, gentle boy who entered your bedroom â a different person than the one you watched murder multiple Red Pins at the warehouse with frightening ease.Â
Heâs still the same, though, deep down, a lonely boy with nothing to his name, just like the rest of you.Â
Jungkook stays quiet while you run your fingers through his hair. Youâre reminded of the promise you were supposed to make to Yoongi, the one about taking care of Jungkook. Itâs time for you to finally fulfill that promise, and you already know what the first step should be.Â
âIâm sorry,â you apologize softly. âI donât like not talking to you.âÂ
And it hurts more than you realize. Saying it out loud makes it real, this scary uncertainty in your relationship that youâve never experienced before. Jungkook has always been there â a steady comfort to fall back on, soft eyes to search for in moments tainted with fear and grief. Not having Jungkook in your life⊠Itâs unfathomable.Â
âIâm sorry, too,â Jungkook whispers into the crook of your neck.
Youâre not sure what heâs sorry for, though you remind yourself that a relationship is a two-way street. The two of you should have talked rather than dance around each other. Even now, youâre not really talking. You want to bring it up â the kiss. What it means for him. What it means for you. Why it happened in the first place. If itâs⊠okay, okay to like how soft Jungkookâs lips had felt on yours and how sweet heâd tasted. Okay to feel an unfamiliar heat spread throughout your body, starting at his fingers gripping your waist.Â
âIâm sorry I did it without asking first,â Jungkook elaborates after a few minutes of silence.Â
Even though he doesnât say what it is, you donât need him to spell it out before you reply, âItâs okay.âÂ
âItâs not, though.âÂ
You shiver when Jungkookâs lips brush against your neck as he talks. His breath is cold, even though his body is warm. You wonder if itâs the darkness inside of him seeping out when he breathes.Â
âI swear, it is. I forgive you. We both kinda went for it, right?â You say with an awkward laugh.Â
âIâm not sorry about doing it.â Jungkook squeezes you tighter, but youâre already holding your breath. âIâd do it again.âÂ
His confession is whispered so quietly you likely wouldnât have heard him if it werenât for the fact that his lips brush your neck just below your ear.Â
âOh.â
âYeah.âÂ
Jungkookâs lips travel higher. You close your eyes and let out a shuddered breath when his lips brush against your earlobe.Â
Itâs getting harder to relax, your body completely rigid and your breathing on the verge of frantic as Jungkook drags his nose down the length of your neck. The touch sends tingling sensations across your body. A strange feeling, like your stomach is flipping around inside of you, consumes you. His nose on your skin tickles, but itâs somehow more than just a tickle. It feels⊠good. Makes your stomach tense and heat spread, chasing after the goosebumps.Â
âGoodnight,â Jungkook finally whispers into the crook of your neck.Â
It takes you a long time to fall asleep.
THE EVEÂ
Apparently, the First of Summer is something to celebrate at the Commune. It seems as though everyone has a task to complete on the Eve of the holiday to get all the preparations in order, even you and your misfit crew.Â
âOur Gifts are at their strongest during the Summer; havenât you noticed?âÂ
Jimin flutters around like a hummingbird, gracefully darting between about a dozen small baskets lined up in the grass beside his home. The fire Gifted places a variety of items in the baskets: flower bouquets, fruits and vegetables wrapped in protective cloths, and other little trinkets and handmade presents.Â
âIs that so?â Namjoon perks up from where heâd been watching a line of ants march into a small anthill. He sits in the grass next to you and Jessi while Jungkook and Hoseok stand closer to where Jimin flits around.Â
âMhm. We are more in tune with the Seasons compared to humans.âÂ
Jessi scoffs, âWe are humans.âÂ
Cradling a bouquet of tiger lilies in one hand, Jimin puts his other hand on his hip. Itâs supposed to be sassy and, perhaps, stern, but he just comes off as adorable in your eyes.Â
âWe are not humans.âÂ
âThen what are we?âÂ
With a huff, Jimin gently places the flowers in a basket thatâs nearly full.Â
âWe are Gifts from Nature. Donât you feel it? The Earth flows through our veins, Jessi. She broke pieces off herself to gift to us; pieces of the Universe exist inside of us. Humans donât have that.â
There mustnât be a good comeback for such lofty talk because Jessi remains quiet after Jimin finishes speaking. You donât blame her; the perspective Jimin offers isnât one youâve ever heard of before. Everyone talks about Gifteds as mutants, genetic abominations. Itâs scientific and clinical, although no scientist has figured out how or why Gifteds exist.Â
Jiminâs perspective sounds like⊠magic. You decide that you quite like the idea that some omnipresent entity chose to give up parts of herself to make you special, a lot more than believing youâre an unnatural freak.Â
âWhat are these for?â Hoseok asks, bending at the waist to peer into one of the baskets.Â
âTheyâre gifts,â Jimin says with a little giggle, likely at the tease around the word he uses. âItâs customary to give gifts on the First of Summer. Youâre supposed to leave them on your neighborsâ doorsteps, though you could directly gift them during the Bonfire.âÂ
Brushing his hands onto his pants, Jimin straightens up and looks around at your group. In the few days youâve known Jimin, youâve noticed that his lips poke out when heâs thinking. It reminds you of a little beak on a baby bird. Youâve told Jungkook as much, and he agrees.Â
Your eyes fall on Jungkook, hoping heâll look your way. It doesnât take long for him to tilt his head to the side and meet your gaze. Sometimes you wonder if Jungkook can sense you somehow. You donât understand how his Gift works, but it seems mysterious enough to be capable of anything at this point. How else would he somehow know when youâre looking in his direction every time?Â
With a mischievous glint in your eyes, you subtly pucker your lips.Â
Jungkook catches on quickly. His eyebrows shoot up, and a small smirk etches itself into his features. He pinches his lips into a pucker, too, and wiggles his eyebrows at you.Â
You have to press your lips together to stop yourself from laughing.Â
âJungkook?âÂ
The younger man quickly straightens his posture and schools his face when Jimin calls out to him.Â
âYes, hyung?âÂ
âWant to help me finish up with some decorations? Jessi, too?âÂ
Jungkook nods hard enough that you worry he might give himself a headache.Â
As Jessi pushes herself off the ground, Jimin turns to you, Namjoon, and Hoseok.Â
âHow about you all help Seokjin down at the quad with the Bonfire? Heâs working on setting up the tables and food stalls for the Morning of Summer. We gather to have a breakfast feast and celebrate the first Morning together.âÂ
Hoseok beams at the idea, turning to you with his hands held out. You squeeze them and let him help haul you onto your feet.Â
âIt sounds so nice,â Hoseok chirps with excitement as the three of you make your way through the winding dirt road toward the quad, past rows of unique homes and community gardens scattered across what is essentially a makeshift neighborhood.Â
âHaving a community⊠I feel like I donât know how to enjoy it,â Namjoon says softly.Â
âWhat do you mean?â It seems odd to you; havenât they all wanted something like this?
âI donât remember how to be social. I was, I think, at some point. Before the Labs. And, of course, I feel comfortable with you all. ButâŠâÂ
âBeing around strangers is hard,â you offer.Â
Namjoon nods in agreement. He isnât sad, though, like youâd assumed heâd be. Namjoon wears a smile as Hoseok wraps his arms around his waist.Â
âThe good thing is we have all the time in the world to figure ourselves out, now. We get to be whatever we want to be, and exist however we want to exist. No more running, no more hiding, no more fighting,â Hoseok says with a grin, and itâs impossible to not believe him.Â
The air Gifted nuzzles his face into Namjoonâs neck, and you swear there is light pink that mixes with the honey of Namjoonâs cheeks.Â
Hoseokâs display of affection reminds you of your nights with Jungkook. Theyâve become more frequent; nearly every night, he slips into your bed to cuddle with his lips dragging along your neck, just lightly enough to seem innocent but still present enough to make your body burn with an unfamiliar heat. Â
You havenât done anything more than cuddle, and youâre having a hard time telling yourself that youâre okay with that.Â
Seokjin doesnât give you time to ponder what you think is your budding love life. He gives you, Hoseok, and Namjoon a variety of tasks to complete throughout the day, from painting what you learn are ancient runes on the sides of buildings to helping the farmers harvest their produce to bring to the food stalls. Manual labor doesnât bother the three of you; for months, youâve all lived in a world where you work hard to survive, hunting and building your shelters. This work is easy in comparison and much more entertaining.Â
At some point, Taehyung strolls through the busy quad to check on the outdoor dining space coming to fruition a safe distance from the large bonfire. He plops down on the bench at one of the tables, elbow on the table and chin resting in his hand as he watches you, Hoseok, and Namjoon take a break to munch on some snacks one of the farmers had given you.Â
âHaving fun, little Gifts?âÂ
Taehyungâs eyes sparkle in the late afternoon sun, and you canât help but melt into the comfort that radiates from him.Â
âI could stay here forever,â Hoseok mumbles around a large bite of an apple.Â
âOh?â The twinkling of Taehyungâs eyes morphs from adoration to teasing amusement. âI thought that was already the plan.âÂ
Hoseok nods, giving the leader a sheepish look.Â
âThat would be dope, yeah.â
âThen it is done.âÂ
The exchange makes you and Namjoon giggle, though the sweet sounds quickly die out when familiar figures jog down the dirt path toward where you sit.Â
Jimin is beaming, his entire aura nearly glowing, though you know part of that is due to his Gift. Your gut twists from the memory of Yoongi, but the pain doesnât cut as deeply as it used to. At first, you thought the lessening of the pain meant you were forgetting him or no longer caring about him, and you felt even more grief from that. But a late-night heart-to-heart with Hoseok taught you that this isnât apathy; itâs healing.Â
So you acknowledge the little prick of pain that sits in your chest but choose to use the memory of Yoongi to fuel your new love for Jimin, who you know Yoongi would have loved, too.Â
âJiminie!â Taehyung calls from his seat at the table. He holds his arms open, eagerly pulling the other man into a spine-crushing hug.Â
The call of your own name draws your attention away from the men. You turn to see Jessi flashing you an uncharacteristically large grin. It makes you extremely suspicious.Â
âWhat do you want?â You question her with narrowed eyes.Â
âOh, nothing. Jungkook wants something, though,â she says in a sing-songy voice before skipping - literally skipping - away to talk to Hoseok and Namjoon.Â
Jungkook stands at the opposite end of the long wooden table. In his hands is a small wicker basket and he shuffles from foot to foot, staring at nothing in particular.Â
âJungkook-ah?â
He looks up at you with large, startled eyes. In a split second, heâs gone. The only evidence that the young man had even been there is the wicker basket now rocking from side to side in front of you on the table.Â
You canât help but giggle as dark shadows slither from table to table.Â
âDo you think he can still hear me when heâs in his shadow form?â Jessi slides onto the bench beside you. She looks around at all the shadows, likely wondering which one is Jungkook.Â
âI have no idea.âÂ
âHey, Jungkook-ah!â Jessi looks over her shoulder to survey more of the quad. âYouâre a fucking wimp!âÂ
Ignoring Jessiâs comment, you turn your attention to the basket. Inside is a small bouquet of white mugunghwa, a modern-looking pale pink jeogori, and a brand-new hard copy of Fahrenheit 451. Your heart pounds in your chest as you lift each item from the basket and gently place them on the table in front of you, inspecting them with soft eyes and careful fingers.Â
âWhereâŠ?âÂ
âHe picked the flowers himself and did odd jobs around the Commune and hunted some meat to trade for the jeogori and the book,â Jessi answers your unfinished question.Â
You feel your eyes tingle at the corners, with tears threatening to burn your cheeks if you blink too hard. From what it sounds like, the Summer gifts are extremely meaningful - something you share with those you care about to wish them a fruitful year and good health. To think that Jungkook has spent the few days youâve been here preparing such a gift for you warms your heart, so much so that you feel like youâre catching fire from the inside out.Â
âThis is very special,â Taehyung speaks as he caresses one of the flowerâs petals.Â
Youâd almost forgotten about Seokjin, Taehyung, Jimin, and the rest of your group.Â
âIt is,â you agree. You carefully return the items to the basket to keep them safe. âI donât have a gift for him, though. Is it fair to show up to the Bonfire empty-handed?âÂ
Jimin rests his chin on Taehyungâs head and hums as he thinks.
âTypically, we donât give gifts to each other during the Bonfire. The gifts you bring to the Bonfire are offerings to Nature to ask for health and prosperity in the upcoming year. Youâll toss them into the fire and recite the offering prayer - but you donât have to since you donât know it yet.âÂ
Youâre not sure you have anything to offer the Bonfire, either, but it seems Taehyung reads your mind.Â
âThere are other ways to give an offering to Nature, if not through the Bonfire,â Taehyung supplies with a small smirk. He looks mischievous and sneaky; the expression makes your skin tickle with goosebumps.Â
âYeah, you can fuck,â Seokjin adds with a smirk of his own. He looks too proud of himself when you choke on your next inhale of air.Â
âYou can what?â Hoseok nearly trips over his feet in his attempt to get closer to hear what Seokjin has to say.Â
âItâs not an official part of the Summer celebration,â Jimin interjects with a roll of his eyes at his husband.Â
âItâs a part my sweet Jiminie doesnât mind partaking in.âÂ
âSeokjin!âÂ
Taehyung throws his head back in a loud cackle as Jiminâs face turns bright pink. The poor fire Gifted sputters as he tries to defend himself.Â
âN-no! No! Itâs, no!âÂ
Seokjin shrugs and stretches his arms over his head, leaning on each side long enough to make his joints pop.Â
âSex is part of Nature, is it not? It represents vitality, fertility, birth, new beginnings,â Seokjin points out. âNature takes all that we give her with equal value.âÂ
If Jimin is uncomfortable, youâre downright mortified. You canât help but look around at the quad as Jessi had, every shadow lurking around the corner more suspicious than the next. What does it mean that they mention sex, and your thought immediately turns to Jungkook? Shame burns at your cheeks, but you canât get the image out of your mind. You know pretty much nothing about sex and can barely even imagine what it would be like, yet you latch onto the idea that Jungkook might beâŠÂ
WellâŠ
You canât say it. You canât bring yourself to think about it. Shaking your head, you quickly stand and scoop the wicker basket into your arms.Â
âIâm going to put this in my room,â you announce to no one and everyone.Â
The group shouts teasing comments about your shy behavior as you do your best to walk calmly in the direction of Seokjin and Jiminâs house, avoiding everyoneâs gaze and especially the shadows.
FIRE
You expected the Bonfire to hurt. Not physically, since there are plenty of fire Gifteds around to ensure the celebrations stay safe and under control. No, you expected the pain of the Bonfire to be internal, an emotional pain like the pain youâve been failing to run from in the months since Yoongi left you.Â
It has taken you a long time to let go of the anger youâve let fester inside of you. Your anger verges on hatred, and hatred helps no one. Who is there to hate? Yoongi, for sacrificing himself to save his friends? The rest of your group for mourning your best friend just as profoundly as you have? The Red Pins for taking everything away from you?Â
The Bonfire crackles and hums like itâs trying to speak to you, but its voice is drowned out by the singing and shouting of the Gifteds dancing in a circle around its flames. The flames reach nearly as high as the buildings surrounding it. Jimin and the other fire Gifteds occasionally pull out stray flames, letting them lick around their arms and bodies to entertain the children fascinated by Gifts they have yet to master within themselves.Â
The performance is beautiful just as much as it hurts your heart to watch. Youâre mesmerized by the dancing flames and swaddled by the heat of the Bonfire, so you donât notice another Gifted approaching you until youâre standing shoulder-to-shoulder.Â
âHave you given your offering yet?âÂ
The fire reflects in Jungkookâs eyes like an orange light show, hues swirling and dancing to the tune of whatever ancient language the Gifteds sing in.
âNot yet,â you respond, turning to look at him.Â
Jungkookâs gaze drops to take in the jeogori youâre wearing â the one he gifted you the day before. It fits you well, loose enough that you donât feel restricted, but still cut in a way that compliments your body. Youâre glad itâs short-sleeved, or youâd be sweating in the summer night air.Â
âMe either.âÂ
âWhat did you bring?âÂ
Jungkook pats his thigh. When you look down, you see that he has his knife strapped to his leg.Â
âThe fire probably isnât hot enough to melt it, but⊠I think itâs the thought that counts.âÂ
Itâs a serious matter, what the two of you are discussing, but you canât help but giggle as you crouch down to retrieve your offering from where it sits at your feet.Â
âYour bow?â Jungkook whispers as though heâs scandalized.Â
âAnd my arrows.â
âAre you sure you want to do that? You alwaysââÂ
You shake your head. âWeâre giving our weapons up for the same reasons, arenât we?â
Jungkook nibbles at his bottom lip for a few moments. He turns away from you, those big doe eyes focused again on the fire.Â
âYoongi gave them to us.â When Jungkook speaks, his voice quivers, but his cheeks remain dry. âAnd weâre done fighting.âÂ
âWeâre done fightingâŠâÂ
You mull over the thought, let it roll around in your head, test out its taste on your tongue and see how it weighs in your heart. No more fighting, just like Hoseok said. In the place of fighting, you have a community, like Namjoon wanted. Like you all wanted, no matter how afraid you are to embrace it or admit that you arenât sure how to join it.Â
Yoongi never wanted any of you to have to fight.
âYeah.â Jungkookâs shoulders sag. âI donât think I could keep it up even if I had to. Iâm⊠ready to be happy. Like the hyungs. They are so bright.âÂ
Your heart cracks with every word, nearly spilling out onto the floor when you watch Jimin sprint across the quad to launch himself into Seokjinâs arms. He wraps his legs around Seokjinâs waist as the two kiss, the fire illuminating their faces like angelsâ halos.Â
Reaching over, you squeeze Jungkookâs hand, lacing your fingers with his. You donât need to speak; gently tugging his arm has him following you through the crowd toward the base of the Bonfire. The rest of your friends are somewhere around the Bonfire, but you arenât interested in looking for them.Â
â1⊠2⊠3.âÂ
When Jungkook stops counting, the two of you toss your weapons into the fire. Your hands are still intertwined, even if the heat makes your skin sweaty and stick together. Youâre both willing to stand at the Bonfire for as long as you can, letting the flames burn your retinas as you try to follow the path the fire takes to eat away at the weapons youâve surrendered to it.Â
Letting go feels good, even if youâre letting go of something Yoongi gave you. In a way, he has given you far more than just a bow and some deadly arrows â or a knife and thigh harness. He gave you love, hope, and a second chance. He showed you what it means to love and be loved selflessly and unconditionally and taught you what it means to be a leader in the face of unbelievable hardship.Â
You donât think you could have been even half of the person Yoongi was.Â
The press of fingers at the tip of your chin pulls you out of your melancholic thoughts. Jungkook cradles your face, swiping the pad of his thumb along your cheek once a few tears slip from your lash line.Â
âSorry, this is ridiculous,â you croak out. âThis is supposed to be a happy celebration.âÂ
Jungkookâs eyebrows furrow as a pout turns the corners of his lips downward. You think heâs about to scold you over apologizing for your feelings â which you know you shouldnât do â but Jungkook is always full of surprises. Â
âCan I take you somewhere?âÂ
Forests will likely always scare you. Too many unspeakable things have happened within the woods, too many sad souls wrapped around tree roots and branches. Youâre unsure what the woods around the Commune have seen - or if theyâre even real; Seokjinâs Gift confuses you. Are the woods here the same ones you traveled through to get here? Are they imaginary, crafted by Seokjinâs mind? Does any of this exist?Â
The woods certainly feel different here than at the warehouse. Jungkook leads you by the hand down a winding path through trees decorated with brightly-colored garlands draped across their luscious green branches. You recognize the decorations as ones Jungkook, Jessi, and Jimin helped the children make while the rest of your group worked with Seokjin on the Bonfire.Â
âI found this spot when I was looking for your gifts,â Jungkook murmurs.Â
âWith Jimin?âÂ
âMhm. He said, I know a place. It was funny.âÂ
The sound of the Bonfire festivities is far in the distance, muted by the quiet rustling of life in the woods. Jungkook stops to brush a few vines away that hang from the trees. When he steps to the side to let you walk through the opening he created, you feel your breath get caught in your throat.Â
Before you is a circular clearing littered with white and pink mugunghwa shrubs. The flowers nearly glow in the dark, and their sweet scent permeates the air. But what really tugs at your heart is the smattering of tiny fireflies that meander above your head, exploring the peaceful little world away from the chaos of the Commune.Â
âJimin hyung said he doesnât think anyone else knows this place. He comes here to be alone. Or⊠with Seokjin,â Jungkook whispers, giving you a sheepish look with pink cheeks. âI think itâs supposed to be, umm, you know, for what the hyungs were talking about, but, I, uh, Iâm notâŠâÂ
You suddenly feel hot, warmth prickling at your skin and making moisture collect along your hairline despite being far from the fire. What is Jungkook going on about? You have an idea but are too nervous to respond to his rambling.Â
Jungkook nudges you with his shoulder before carefully weaving through the shrubs until he finds a more open spot to sit in the grass.Â
You follow him, the two of you sitting face-to-face, your knees bumping into each other as you cross them.Â
âThank you for bringing me here,â you whisper. âAnd for the gifts. I didnât get to talk to you about themâŠâÂ
Thereâs no need to speak so quietly, but something about this place makes you worry being too loud would disrupt the magic of it.Â
âOf course,â Jungkook responds just as softly. âI wanted to show you something special because you are special to me.âÂ
Your stomach flips at the memory of Jungkookâs similar confession when you last cut his hair at the warehouse. His gentleness has been a saving grace for you in a world so dark, even when the darkness sometimes consumes him, too.Â
âYouâre special to me, too.â Itâs easy to admit; it flows from your mouth as easily as water flows from your soul.Â
âThank you⊠I think we deserve something soft. Does that make sense?âÂ
You tell him that it does because even if you arenât entirely sure what that means to him, you know that you desire softness in a life that has been so hard.Â
Jungkook gives you a small smile. A shake of his head flips his bangs out of his eyes so he can look at you properly. It feels different, the way he looks at you. Darker, more intense, but not scary like youâve seen him look at you before. There is the same power in his gaze, but itâs gentler.Â
You donât know what to make of it, so you donât comment on it. Instead, you reach up to brush Jungkookâs bangs out of his eyes.Â
âI need to cut your hair,â you muse, a small smirk pulling up the corner of your mouth.Â
Your fingers linger on his face, migrating from his forehead to drag down the bridge of his nose. When you get to the tip, you mean to bop it lightly, but Jungkook tilts his head back. The adjustment makes your finger slip, and you end up pressing against his lips instead.Â
Jungkook watches you with curious eyes as he puckers his lips slightly to kiss your finger. Itâs a closed-mouth kiss, nothing scandalous, but you feel electricity shoot up your arm and spread through your body.Â
âOh,â you quietly gasp when Jungkook takes hold of your wrist. He kisses each of your other fingers, ending with a lingering one on your palm.Â
âCan I tell you something?â He asks, bringing your hand down to hold in his lap.Â
You silently nod because youâre afraid of what you might say or sound like if you open your mouth.Â
Jungkook takes a deep breath, and his grip on your hand tightens slightly. Whatever it is heâs going to say seems like itâs taking a lot for him to sort through in his head from the way his breathing picks up and his eyebrows furrow.Â
âJungkook-ah, you donât have toâŠâÂ
Jungkook shakes his head and takes your other hand, too.Â
âNo, I have to do this. Itâs⊠weâre just, ahh.â He tilts his head back to stare at the starry sky. After a moment, he exhales loudly out of his nostrils and drops his gaze to yours again. âIâm in love with you. And for some reason, I feel like I shouldnât tell you that âcause it seems selfish to dump this on you âcause everything is so⊠fucked up. Itâs so fucked. I donât know why I feel like Iâm not allowed to⊠to be like this, to feel like this. But Jimin hyung said love is in our Nature and is never bad. And, yeah. I guess, yeah. Iâm in love with you, and I think you need to know âcause I canât keep pretending Iâm not.âÂ
Out of breath from expelling his words as fast as he can, Jungkook clamps his mouth shut and waits silently. Waits. Waits for you to do something, to say something.Â
Heâs right. Everything is fucked up enough that you can relate to the guilt Jungkook feels for wanting to love, to be happy. He didnât call it guilt, but youâve felt it, so you know. Itâs precisely what Jessi scolded you about â on numerous occasions. Itâs what Hoseok, Namjoon, and Seokjin and Jimin have shown you that you can overcome.Â
Are you in love with Jungkook?
As you watch him bat his pretty eyelashes at you, those large eyes bearing his entire soul and the love and hurt inside, you think that maybe you arenât in love with him, not right now. But you do love him. And you think, maybe one day, when your heart no longer hurts, you could be in love, too.Â
So it feels right when you scoot closer to Jungkook and slide your hand against the side of his face to bring your lips to his.Â
Something flutters in the pit of your stomach, like the fireflies above your head, when Jungkookâs lips move with yours. Thereâs a push and pull to your movements, a hesitant dance that reminds you of how Jungkook spars. His touches are light yet calculated, showing strength when he holds himself back.Â
âItâs okay to be happy,â you whisper against Jungkookâs lips when you finally pull away â just barely because you want to cocoon yourself in the warmth of his body.Â
âYou make me happy,â he whispers back.Â
It takes more kissing, the exchange of air and spit that would normally gross you out but somehow feels good before your brain finally lets go of the negativity youâve been holding.Â
Jungkook kisses away your shame and guilt as he squeezes your hips and pulls you into his lap. You settle on his thighs with your legs wrapped around his tiny waist and let him kiss you until you canât breathe. And just when you feel like youâll suffocate in the most pleasant way, he begins planting kisses along your jaw.Â
Your hands find the hair at the back of Jungkookâs head, and you run your fingers through his hair to distract yourself from how your hands are trembling. Your entire body vibrates with a desperate feeling youâve never had before as Jungkook sucks on the sensitive skin of your throat. The sensation makes you squirm.
âFuck,â Jungkook groans into the crook of your neck. He sounds pained to you, which makes you panic.Â
âWhat? Whatâs wrong?â You feel like youâre blinking sleep out of your eyes from how dazed you are. Embarrassment creeps along your burning skin; how can you be so out of your mind that you start behaving like this?Â
Jungkook presses his hands flat against your back, the pads of his fingers massaging your muscles while he lowers his touch, slowly and gently, until his hands find the curve of your ass.Â
âJungkook-ah,â you nearly scold him when he squeezes you.Â
âI donât know what Iâm doing,â he confesses, encouraging you to grind against his crotch.Â
Itâs only then that you feel his erection in his pants. The knowledge that heâs reacting this way because of you makes the electricity in your veins spike through you even stronger.Â
âMe either.âÂ
Jungkook finally lifts his head to look at you, and itâs a wonder how he manages to wear innocent doe eyes yet bite his kissed-pink bottom lip in an air of seduction that makes your body tingle.Â
âI want to be good for you.âÂ
His words do something to you that youâre too scared to address, so you opt for humor when you reply, âWell, I donât have anything to compare you to.âÂ
With a roll of his eyes, Jungkook brings trembling hands to the side of your jeogori where the strings are tied into a bow to keep the clothing in place.Â
âCan I take this off?âÂ
âPlease.âÂ
Getting naked in front of Jungkook is a lot less terrifying than you thought it would be â not that youâd ever thought of it before! Not like this, at least. The two of you have bathed together, but thatâs different. Itâs easier to hide in the water, and both of you are respectful enough not to take peeks. So itâs most likely the calming presence Jungkook holds that keeps you relaxed once you kneel naked in front of each other. In the moonlight, you both let your eyes wander each otherâs figures, drinking in each other like you want to savor it.Â
You let Jungkookâs hands wander, experimentally pinching your nipples to draw a moan out of you and tickling your stomach as his touches make their way down your body. He whispers gentle words of encouragement and proclamations of your beauty when you fall back in the grass and open your thighs for him.Â
âI want to touch you,â Jungkook says into your chest. Your skin glistens from how his tongue explores where his hands just had, but youâre more focused on his fingers ghosting over your hips. âPlease?âÂ
âYes,â you whimper.Â
Youâre both shaking when Jungkook slips his fingers through your folds, his thumb lightly pressing against your clit while his fingers reach your entrance. Itâs an odd sensation, but youâre quickly a moaning mess beneath him. Even if the rhythm of his fingers pumping in and out of you isnât consistent, and heâs touching you almost too lightly as though heâs afraid of hurting you, it still feels good.
âAm I doing okay?âÂ
You canât help but laugh.Â
When he gives you a pout, you throw your arm around his shoulders and pull him down to kiss him. He hovers over you, spreading you open further because your thighs press against the outsides of his hips. You both notice when his cock â which youâd nervously ignored until now â brushes against the crease of your thigh.Â
âFuck,â Jungkook moans, and itâs the prettiest sound youâve ever heard. âI want⊠I wanna, ah, fuck.â If youâd thought Jungkookâs usual flustered state was cute, this is downright deadly.Â
âMe, too.â You guess what heâs trying to say â are confirmed when he lightly bites your shoulder and ruts against you.
âAre you sure?âÂ
Itâs a valid question, and you surprise yourself when you say âyesâ without hesitation. But youâve wanted this for much longer than you can admit. Your desire for Jungkook has grown with every soft late-night cuddle and almost kiss.Â
Jungkook rolls his hips, gliding his cock between your thighs, the motion wet and slippery. It takes some fumbling before he manages to line himself with your entrance and slowly sink inside you.Â
Gentle, careful, he whispers that heâll take care of you even though he has no experience. With each thrust, you promise him that it doesnât hurt, speak praise into his ear that makes his entire body shiver.Â
Your legs ache from your unusual position, and your sweat mixes with Jungkookâs in a way thatâs honestly disgusting if you think about it. Still, you canât deny how good the building pressure feels as it seems to start between your thighs and at your clit, slowly spreading like wildfire up your stomach and into somewhere deep inside of you.Â
The only time youâve heard anyone talk about sex is Jessi, and it was typically in a negative light. Something about men not knowing where the clit is or how to use their dicks. Jungkook seems like a natural; heâs the golden maknae for a reason. Maybe itâs not mind-blowing, but youâre both starting with nothing to guide you.Â
Rather than a life-changing orgasm, youâre more interested in how Jungkook looks like heâd give his heart to you, no questions asked. Like he already has.Â
Youâre more interested in how softly he kisses you and holds your leg against his hip and caresses it like youâre something worth treating with care.Â
Youâre more interested in how he moans, âI love you, fuck, I love you so much,â and lets you bite his bottom lip because he knows you arenât ready to say it back, and heâs okay with that. Because heâll wait for you for as long as you need him to.Â
âIâm so sorry,â Jungkook moans against your throat, where heâs sucked blossoms nearly as pretty as the mugunghwa. âBut Iâm gonna come, like, ahh, fuck, like right, fuck, shit, like right now.âÂ
From Jessiâs complaints, sex is supposed to end with this: Jungkook finding his release against your inner thighs because he has enough sense to pull out, and youâre left on your back, discarded and unsatisfied.Â
So when Jungkook slides down until your thighs are propped open by his shoulders, you watch in confusion because you thought it was over.Â
The flick of his tongue against your clit has you lifting off the ground from how sharply you arch your back. You frantically exhale a raspy chant of Jungkookâs name in time with each pump of his fingers heâs managed to slip inside you while you struggle to lie still.Â
âLet me make you feel good,â he murmurs with shiny lips, and you see stars just from that image alone.Â
Later, when youâre both sweaty and exhausted, you curl together under the protective barrier of Jungkookâs shadows. He hides you from the world and keeps you safe until morning when youâll return to the Commune to bring in the First of Summer with a breakfast feast.Â
But until then, you hold each other with promises of never letting go, forgiveness, and understanding.Â
âWeâre gonna be okay,â Jungkook whispers against your hair.Â
âYou just have to stick with me, right?âÂ
When he laughs, you feel it rumble through his chest. âBy your side is the only place I wanna be.âÂ
You fall asleep among the mugunghwa shrubs and fireflies to the sound of Jungkookâs heartbeat.Â
Ran the full gamut of emotions with this one! In the beginning the world was tough and cruel but they found a paradise and Iâm so happy for them. Not only a paradise with friends and safety but a paradise with each other. I may be an ult Yoongi bias but even he knew her and Kook were endgame đđ