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@gigiyuu
I am Giyuu Tomioka, I'm a P.E teacher, at Kimetsu High, I teach the students about physical education and how to keep their bodies healthy.
However, at night, I am a demon slayer, a Hashira. It's my duty to protect those who weren't blessed nor trained with the strength to protect themselves.
Rules
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Oooo you touched my tralala~ Mmm~ my ding-ding dong-
.... What?
You don't need to know what that means, Tomioka-Kodomo.. stay innocent.
...Okay.
is it actually true a dog once bit your ass?
i heard it mentioned once by Shinobu then it was never brought up again or confirmed by you, so I need to know
No... I wasn't bitten, but I was chased.
Hello once more, Tomioka-Kodomo. I seem to have had some free time, so I drew you in my own style! I hope you like it.
Wow.... I thank you, you're extremely talented, Miss Quill.... I'll be sure to take good care of it.
I won't let your time go to waste.
do you like head pats?
(head pats anyway)
He freezes up awkwardly before he gently yet firmly grabs your hand, removing it from his head.
...... Thank you..... for the.. affection, but you should save your energy for more important things.
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Oooo you touched my tralala~ Mmm~ my ding-ding dong-
.... What?
Do you like cats? if not, what animal do you like most?
... Fish.
Hello there!
... Hello.
uh i drew your og design for a friend
Idk do whatever you want with it
needed to share, your reaction is very important
and might be funny idk
... It's very professional... you certainly have talent... I fear that you've wasted your energy however... for I am not worthy of such time and energy
... Perhaps you should draw someone of equal value to your talents.
Your compliments are making me giggle like an insane person
... Then I'm sure that's a good thing then... laugher usually means positivity...
(i just had to say this, underneath this post, I saw an ad for therapy and another post about happiness)
(It's a sign from the universe)
Tag game: make yourself as a little guy
Tagged by: @thanatos-zagreus-shagreus
Tagging: @thiamsxbitch @rhyslahey @myinnerguineapig and whoever else is up for doing it 💙
OMIGOSH THIS IS SO CUTEEE AND SILLY she doesn’t look like me but she’s my little guy :3
@butter-is-bored @babyqueenfangirl @radio-silence-fan @sleepandblog @maniacallydeppressedpsychopath @galaxys-universe @lexxiesthoughts8 @emotional-motion-sickness @west-96 @more people that I haven’t tagged and open tags ofc
hehehe they're so cuteee
aaahhsjdja :3
Meeeeeii
Don't let the smile fool you. I'm 95% close to my peiod.
@ratseathumans @highclasshomosexual @mentally-tori-261 @emily59729 @pessimisticbreadslice
ehehehe yipppeee
@highclasshomosexual @skippsmandolin @nat-the-rat326 @emily59729 @nothing-notable
I said, "do it different" anyways, here's me:3 (and yeah, I'm too lazy to do my hair properly)
@kosmickingdom @rottmeltson @nothing-notable @highclasshomosexual @xoxodustedcrypt @antl3rz @killer-bug-boi @girlsnap @ratseathumans
@antl3rz @cz3rqv @microvibing @anomal-studios @hvntlowz /nf
@dejf-rzeczny @jannavojk @m3rcuryxd2763 @cats-and-books-4-me @booyahhstormz @idiot-in-the-walls @vinnielov3r @thenameslutley @royalruin @thereiswasabi @zigadoodle
Asz kurczaka? :o
Can someone explain me why all those picrews have feauters that make me look like me? ARE YOU STALKING ME PEOPLE!?!? /j
@breadheaddoodles @f0xx1n3 @endomentendo @glitchyk @onimusha095 @thatloserkade
Bleh, I'm half awake right now :P
Fun fact: I have a hen that is so big that we thought she was a rooster. We only realized she wasn't when there was no crowing and the eggs weren't hatching
@weird-kid-of-cringe @fand0m-fano12 @breadjazz @stupidloafofbread @monitorbread
Grahhh my head hurtsss
The dog actually looks like mine tbh
But yayyyy
@wheezecheese @t0tally-n0t-lou @ray-land17 @breadjazz @bubbles077 @hazbinglazer @dokjas-lostselfpreservation @queenofthegays15 @d3w-dr0p5s @iamafrenchnerd @always-emo @yumereblogs @th34utistic-0ne @digitalcarboard @icechucker @idiot-squared @gigglestick-9000 @raskoln1kovsaxe @sparky4577 @mrflatfox
eyyyyy I’m fucking tireddddd
@loozerboykisser @internet-freakkkk
@andiv3r @iluvhavingnobrain. @edgyhedgie
@getcrazyiththecheesewhiz @whosgreymidnightthoughts. @askyourauntierosie
@professional-gru @s4pph1re-20
:3 *frog blinkies*
*silly noises*
@bikisser23 @jocyjabbers @organic-coconut-milk @your-local-bi-guy @ocherine
yippee :) @siriuslyobsessed394 @pianomouth @witchervibess @remithequeerdude @andy-pookie
yay @thetreeswillbewatching @worlds-okayest-bisexual @cieraheart @aceofgaytwinks @starman-01
The soda cans are root beer to clarify
@peace-love-and-french-toast @comettingmurder @blitzstoneshouldbecanon @ani-n-snips @monkiegirl11 @littlejumpingjoan
Almost did the red converse there but…
@yourlocalenthusiast @destroy-the-binary @boldofyoutoassumeicanspell @riordanverseaddict @projectsquid @whatonearthisgoingon
Thank you @blitzstoneshouldbecanon for the tag!
Me rn, as just a lil guy.
Tagging: @gigiyuu @thus-spoke-tengen-uzui @coleeeitgysn1infi @bluebasie @mxlovey32 @reaperlight @symbiotic-slime
This was real fun. Thanks for the tag
@whatonearthisgoingon
@aroura-quill-mother-figure @kokoheartblog @i-am-muzan-kibutsuji @thealmightypower
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uh i drew your og design for a friend
Idk do whatever you want with it
needed to share, your reaction is very important
and might be funny idk
... It's very professional... you certainly have talent... I fear that you've wasted your energy however... for I am not worthy of such time and energy
... Perhaps you should draw someone of equal value to your talents.
Your compliments are making me giggle like an insane person
... Then I'm sure that's a good thing then... laugher usually means positivity...
Hello, Tomioka-Kodomo.
.... Hello.
How are you today? Have you had enough to eat?
... I am well... But please, don't worry about me... I'm not worth the fuss.
Don't you dare sell yourself short, you're completely worth it, especially to someone like me.
... I... I apologize if I've upset you... I just don't want to be a burden to thoes who doesn't deserve such a hassle.... I apologize.
You haven't upset me, I just want you to realize how much some care for you, like me.
... Then perhaps you shouldn't...
Everyone who's ever cared for me in the past, has always gotten hurt...
I myself don't have time for any close attachments... My occupation doesn't exactly promise me to see the sun rise. So it would be wise if you'd show your affection elsewhere...
I don't want to fail anyone again.
Pish posh (idk why I said that), you won't fail me. I'm proud you've carried on this far.
... Proud?... But, you don't even know me... You don't know what I've done... How can you ge proud of a person you've never met?
... I'm a walking disaster!!... I've gotten so many people killed, and you're saying you're proud of me!?...
What's there to be proud of?... The success of a fraud?
No, Tomioka-Kodono. I'm proud of you for not letting your failures keep you from trying. Even if a few lives are lost, there's still another person to save, who you can save, and maybe one day, you'll meet the one who can save you.
... I'm tired of getting saved...
... Saving my life, is the end to another.
... I'm sorry, I didn't mean to snap at you... I just... I just, don't want you to view me as this amazing person... that's far from what I am.
You don't have to be amazing or exceptionally great, you don't even have to be good. All you have to be is you, and when you are you, things seem a little bit brighter.
... I fear there may be an issue there...
For myself.... is the one I hate most of all.
That happens, and it sucks, really, really badly. But you shouldn't let it consume you. Think about this, if you hadn't been there, neither Nezuko or Tanjiro would be alive. If you'd had gotten there sooner, you would've just been added to the slaughter pile and so would they. But since you got there when you did, you gave them a chance and they took it.
... That's true... I did save them... and I had them go to Urokodoki so that Tanjiro could become a slayer...
... That's one good thing I've done... but that's a all I've been able to do...
Since I've become a false hashira...
Who's to say what's true and false? Reality is confusing, most can't come to terms with it. The fact you have means you're stronger than most.
... I hear what you are saying, I truly do... I don't want you to think that I'm not hearing what you're saying...
... It's just that... I remember all my failures, all the times I got thoes I loved killed, because I was too weak.
... I shouldn't even be Hashira let alone alive... I'm only alive because my friend knocked me unconscious and he hid me away in some bushes...
... He was strong, and I held him back because I was too weak... he should be here, standing with you... not me.
... I appreciate your kind words... but I fear that you're just wasting your breath on me...
Well, you win some you lose a few-hundred, Haha. But still..
*she started to reach out, although cautiously as if he'd pull away from her, but patted his head anyway.*
I think you're doing just fine, even after hearing what you've said. The Kamados, they look up to you, as well as the boar boy.
(btw, I've heard a theory that the only reason Tomioka is happy after the final battle is because he knows he's gonna die ;-;)
He was stiff under the head pats, it was a foreign feeling but it unlocked deep memories that laid dormant for many years. Similar warm hands patted his head and a warm smile aimed at him. His lovely and beautiful sister.
He subconsciously leaned into the head pats, not realizing that he had missed the feeling of such a simple action.
... That boar child... he's a menace... the Kamados... I adore them.
(Honesty it makes sense, bro will be reunited with all his loved ones and then he'll ne able to properly apologize, plus he finally somewhat made friends with Sanemi!! And he was apart of Tanjiro's family.)
*she smiled sweetly at him, her eyes soft as she continued with the head pats.*
Keep them close, Tomioka-Kodomo. Keep them close.
... I will... I promise...
He said softly as he relaxed under the torches, he'd allow her to do it a little longer... just a little bit longer... especially if it ment he could keep thus warm feeling, just a little longer.
... I won't let any harm come to them... I'll protect them with my life.
I know you will, I believe in you. You're not weak, you're not a failure, you're nothing you're not supposed to be. You're a good kid, Tomioka-Kodomo.
*she took her hand from his head.*
(Kodomo=child/kid btw in case you didn't know.)
...
He remained silent as his shoulders seem to drop, he stared longingly at her hand, hoping that she's put it back on his head, but his pride wouldn't let him, instead he stood up straight as he looked down at her with a gentle stare.
... Thank you...
(Yes, I knew I was going to have him react to it, but I chose not to. He's too respectful for that, plus he is lowkey like cute names like that, which makes him feel giddy.)
(got ME feeling giddy with this low-key)
You're welcome, you're very welcome.
*she stayed silent for a moment before wrapping her arms around him in a tight but gentle hug*
(Lmaoo!!)
....
Very slowly, at a snails pace, he slowly hugged her back. It felt nice... this was something he could possibly get used to.
We can stay for this as long as you'll let me.. and be aware, this means we are friends, and I consider my friends as my children, no matter their age.
... W-well... I know you said... no matter their age... but... I would feel awkward if... I'd suddenly call you mother.
He said in an awkward tone as he hugged her.
You don't have to call me mother, you can just call me Aroura.
Aroura... Okay... nice to meet you, I'm Giyuu Tomioka, but... you seemed to already know that so...
Yes, I know that already. Don't ask how, I got it from Mitsuri. She also told me you like Salmon Daikon, wanna go get some? On me.
Yes...
I mean.... I would love to.
You can be more casual and relaxed around me, Tomioka-Kodomo. I don't bite, not much anyway unless there's food. Haha.
Yes... I apologize... I'm not... use to going out with others often.
You're fine, you're a social anxiety boy, I get it, been there, done that. But what matters is that you're happy, or at least content. Keep that in mind. Now, let's go make a restaurant run out of Salmon Daikon.
...Very well, then...
Was all he simply said as me moved to follow her.
*at the restaurant, she ended up ordering the entire stock of Salmon Daikon*
(hah lol, also gonna continue this tomorrow it's 1:30 in the morning for me)
(Okay sleep well!!)
... You must eat loads like Kanroji and Rengoku...
Well, not quite. I sometimes just buy a whole bunch of extra food when I'm at a restaurant and later give it to a local orphanage. Once a mother, always a mother, y'know?
...I see, how noble of you...
So, Tomioka-Kodomo, can I ask more about you? How'd you really become Giyuu Tomioka?
... I'm sorry... I don't think I understand the question.
What I'm asking is.. how did you become so hollow? You barely smile, your voice is almost always monotone and.. well..
Ah... Well... it's a long story... and I'd hate to bore you...
You could never bore me, Tomioka-Kodomo.
... Tiredness... hopelessness...self hatred...emptiness... that's all the emotions and reflections that are constantly swirling within me... There's no light and there's no way out... it's just an endless dark loop, over and over and over...
No matter what happened... I always got someone killed... I was always too scared too hesitant... so people tried to protect me... and they died... they care for me... they die... they love me, they die...
It was never anything different, it was always the same thing... after awhile you grow to hate yourself and before you know it you want to end yourself... but you're too chicken to do it... and you know it would be the cowardly way out... so you stay and you fight it...
Only to grow tired of the constant loop of self hatred... the you lose hope, that you'll never be able to overcome your wrongs... that you'll ever fix it or make up for it... then you just suddenly feel empty... nothing matters anymore... and yet I still try.
I still try to make friends... I still try to save people... I still try for others... but it never seems to come across to others like that... I seem like a bothersome pest... or that I'm too stiff, which I am... so... I guess that answers your question.
...Sorry... for how long I've talked... but I had to give a satisfying answer.
You've spoken well, but you've got me now, and I won't die on you, I promise. I'll protect you, I'll keep you company.
... I see... Then... I apologize in advance.
Don't apologize, be proud I'm here.
No... I'm just apologizing for the fact that you may die... because of me... and I hope it doesn't happen... but if it does... then I'm sorry.
Me? Die? Never. You see, I'm sorta like Nezuko in the sense I'm a good demon but I can't go in the sun, so that's why I have my umbrella everywhere.
...So... why would you be friends with me then?... I kill your kind with a fire of hatred...
Nezuko's a different story... so why would you, an older demon... want to befriend me?
I don't like my kind either, unless they're newly turned and haven't killed anyone yet. You.. you are just.. yes. Okay? I know it doesn't make sense, but you are yes.
.... I am yes.....okay then.
Yes, you are yes. And being yes means I'll never harm you, only protect you, and I can't even die trying unless it's against a Slayer.
... Then I guess you're stuck with me then...
uh i drew your og design for a friend
Idk do whatever you want with it
needed to share, your reaction is very important
and might be funny idk
... It's very professional... you certainly have talent... I fear that you've wasted your energy however... for I am not worthy of such time and energy
... Perhaps you should draw someone of equal value to your talents.
Tomioka-Kodomo, what did I say about talking bad about yourself?
Oh... I apologize...
It's okay, Tomioka-Kodomo. I just don't like it when you say such things about yourself, you're just proving Shinobu-Kodomo right.
... I see...
uh i drew your og design for a friend
Idk do whatever you want with it
needed to share, your reaction is very important
and might be funny idk
... It's very professional... you certainly have talent... I fear that you've wasted your energy however... for I am not worthy of such time and energy
... Perhaps you should draw someone of equal value to your talents.
Tomioka-Kodomo, what did I say about talking bad about yourself?
Oh... I apologize...
uh i drew your og design for a friend
Idk do whatever you want with it
needed to share, your reaction is very important
and might be funny idk
... It's very professional... you certainly have talent... I fear that you've wasted your energy however... for I am not worthy of such time and energy
... Perhaps you should draw someone of equal value to your talents.
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Hello, Tomioka-Kodomo.
.... Hello.
How are you today? Have you had enough to eat?
... I am well... But please, don't worry about me... I'm not worth the fuss.
Don't you dare sell yourself short, you're completely worth it, especially to someone like me.
... I... I apologize if I've upset you... I just don't want to be a burden to thoes who doesn't deserve such a hassle.... I apologize.
You haven't upset me, I just want you to realize how much some care for you, like me.
... Then perhaps you shouldn't...
Everyone who's ever cared for me in the past, has always gotten hurt...
I myself don't have time for any close attachments... My occupation doesn't exactly promise me to see the sun rise. So it would be wise if you'd show your affection elsewhere...
I don't want to fail anyone again.
Pish posh (idk why I said that), you won't fail me. I'm proud you've carried on this far.
... Proud?... But, you don't even know me... You don't know what I've done... How can you ge proud of a person you've never met?
... I'm a walking disaster!!... I've gotten so many people killed, and you're saying you're proud of me!?...
What's there to be proud of?... The success of a fraud?
No, Tomioka-Kodono. I'm proud of you for not letting your failures keep you from trying. Even if a few lives are lost, there's still another person to save, who you can save, and maybe one day, you'll meet the one who can save you.
... I'm tired of getting saved...
... Saving my life, is the end to another.
... I'm sorry, I didn't mean to snap at you... I just... I just, don't want you to view me as this amazing person... that's far from what I am.
You don't have to be amazing or exceptionally great, you don't even have to be good. All you have to be is you, and when you are you, things seem a little bit brighter.
... I fear there may be an issue there...
For myself.... is the one I hate most of all.
That happens, and it sucks, really, really badly. But you shouldn't let it consume you. Think about this, if you hadn't been there, neither Nezuko or Tanjiro would be alive. If you'd had gotten there sooner, you would've just been added to the slaughter pile and so would they. But since you got there when you did, you gave them a chance and they took it.
... That's true... I did save them... and I had them go to Urokodoki so that Tanjiro could become a slayer...
... That's one good thing I've done... but that's a all I've been able to do...
Since I've become a false hashira...
Who's to say what's true and false? Reality is confusing, most can't come to terms with it. The fact you have means you're stronger than most.
... I hear what you are saying, I truly do... I don't want you to think that I'm not hearing what you're saying...
... It's just that... I remember all my failures, all the times I got thoes I loved killed, because I was too weak.
... I shouldn't even be Hashira let alone alive... I'm only alive because my friend knocked me unconscious and he hid me away in some bushes...
... He was strong, and I held him back because I was too weak... he should be here, standing with you... not me.
... I appreciate your kind words... but I fear that you're just wasting your breath on me...
Well, you win some you lose a few-hundred, Haha. But still..
*she started to reach out, although cautiously as if he'd pull away from her, but patted his head anyway.*
I think you're doing just fine, even after hearing what you've said. The Kamados, they look up to you, as well as the boar boy.
(btw, I've heard a theory that the only reason Tomioka is happy after the final battle is because he knows he's gonna die ;-;)
He was stiff under the head pats, it was a foreign feeling but it unlocked deep memories that laid dormant for many years. Similar warm hands patted his head and a warm smile aimed at him. His lovely and beautiful sister.
He subconsciously leaned into the head pats, not realizing that he had missed the feeling of such a simple action.
... That boar child... he's a menace... the Kamados... I adore them.
(Honesty it makes sense, bro will be reunited with all his loved ones and then he'll ne able to properly apologize, plus he finally somewhat made friends with Sanemi!! And he was apart of Tanjiro's family.)
*she smiled sweetly at him, her eyes soft as she continued with the head pats.*
Keep them close, Tomioka-Kodomo. Keep them close.
... I will... I promise...
He said softly as he relaxed under the torches, he'd allow her to do it a little longer... just a little bit longer... especially if it ment he could keep thus warm feeling, just a little longer.
... I won't let any harm come to them... I'll protect them with my life.
I know you will, I believe in you. You're not weak, you're not a failure, you're nothing you're not supposed to be. You're a good kid, Tomioka-Kodomo.
*she took her hand from his head.*
(Kodomo=child/kid btw in case you didn't know.)
...
He remained silent as his shoulders seem to drop, he stared longingly at her hand, hoping that she's put it back on his head, but his pride wouldn't let him, instead he stood up straight as he looked down at her with a gentle stare.
... Thank you...
(Yes, I knew I was going to have him react to it, but I chose not to. He's too respectful for that, plus he is lowkey like cute names like that, which makes him feel giddy.)
(got ME feeling giddy with this low-key)
You're welcome, you're very welcome.
*she stayed silent for a moment before wrapping her arms around him in a tight but gentle hug*
(Lmaoo!!)
....
Very slowly, at a snails pace, he slowly hugged her back. It felt nice... this was something he could possibly get used to.
We can stay for this as long as you'll let me.. and be aware, this means we are friends, and I consider my friends as my children, no matter their age.
... W-well... I know you said... no matter their age... but... I would feel awkward if... I'd suddenly call you mother.
He said in an awkward tone as he hugged her.
You don't have to call me mother, you can just call me Aroura.
Aroura... Okay... nice to meet you, I'm Giyuu Tomioka, but... you seemed to already know that so...
Yes, I know that already. Don't ask how, I got it from Mitsuri. She also told me you like Salmon Daikon, wanna go get some? On me.
Yes...
I mean.... I would love to.
You can be more casual and relaxed around me, Tomioka-Kodomo. I don't bite, not much anyway unless there's food. Haha.
Yes... I apologize... I'm not... use to going out with others often.
You're fine, you're a social anxiety boy, I get it, been there, done that. But what matters is that you're happy, or at least content. Keep that in mind. Now, let's go make a restaurant run out of Salmon Daikon.
...Very well, then...
Was all he simply said as me moved to follow her.
*at the restaurant, she ended up ordering the entire stock of Salmon Daikon*
(hah lol, also gonna continue this tomorrow it's 1:30 in the morning for me)
(Okay sleep well!!)
... You must eat loads like Kanroji and Rengoku...
Well, not quite. I sometimes just buy a whole bunch of extra food when I'm at a restaurant and later give it to a local orphanage. Once a mother, always a mother, y'know?
...I see, how noble of you...
So, Tomioka-Kodomo, can I ask more about you? How'd you really become Giyuu Tomioka?
... I'm sorry... I don't think I understand the question.
What I'm asking is.. how did you become so hollow? You barely smile, your voice is almost always monotone and.. well..
Ah... Well... it's a long story... and I'd hate to bore you...
You could never bore me, Tomioka-Kodomo.
... Tiredness... hopelessness...self hatred...emptiness... that's all the emotions and reflections that are constantly swirling within me... There's no light and there's no way out... it's just an endless dark loop, over and over and over...
No matter what happened... I always got someone killed... I was always too scared too hesitant... so people tried to protect me... and they died... they care for me... they die... they love me, they die...
It was never anything different, it was always the same thing... after awhile you grow to hate yourself and before you know it you want to end yourself... but you're too chicken to do it... and you know it would be the cowardly way out... so you stay and you fight it...
Only to grow tired of the constant loop of self hatred... the you lose hope, that you'll never be able to overcome your wrongs... that you'll ever fix it or make up for it... then you just suddenly feel empty... nothing matters anymore... and yet I still try.
I still try to make friends... I still try to save people... I still try for others... but it never seems to come across to others like that... I seem like a bothersome pest... or that I'm too stiff, which I am... so... I guess that answers your question.
...Sorry... for how long I've talked... but I had to give a satisfying answer.
You've spoken well, but you've got me now, and I won't die on you, I promise. I'll protect you, I'll keep you company.
... I see... Then... I apologize in advance.
Don't apologize, be proud I'm here.
No... I'm just apologizing for the fact that you may die... because of me... and I hope it doesn't happen... but if it does... then I'm sorry.
Me? Die? Never. You see, I'm sorta like Nezuko in the sense I'm a good demon but I can't go in the sun, so that's why I have my umbrella everywhere.
...So... why would you be friends with me then?... I kill your kind with a fire of hatred...
Nezuko's a different story... so why would you, an older demon... want to befriend me?
I don't like my kind either, unless they're newly turned and haven't killed anyone yet. You.. you are just.. yes. Okay? I know it doesn't make sense, but you are yes.
.... I am yes.....okay then.
Hello, Tomioka-Kodomo.
.... Hello.
How are you today? Have you had enough to eat?
... I am well... But please, don't worry about me... I'm not worth the fuss.
Don't you dare sell yourself short, you're completely worth it, especially to someone like me.
... I... I apologize if I've upset you... I just don't want to be a burden to thoes who doesn't deserve such a hassle.... I apologize.
You haven't upset me, I just want you to realize how much some care for you, like me.
... Then perhaps you shouldn't...
Everyone who's ever cared for me in the past, has always gotten hurt...
I myself don't have time for any close attachments... My occupation doesn't exactly promise me to see the sun rise. So it would be wise if you'd show your affection elsewhere...
I don't want to fail anyone again.
Pish posh (idk why I said that), you won't fail me. I'm proud you've carried on this far.
... Proud?... But, you don't even know me... You don't know what I've done... How can you ge proud of a person you've never met?
... I'm a walking disaster!!... I've gotten so many people killed, and you're saying you're proud of me!?...
What's there to be proud of?... The success of a fraud?
No, Tomioka-Kodono. I'm proud of you for not letting your failures keep you from trying. Even if a few lives are lost, there's still another person to save, who you can save, and maybe one day, you'll meet the one who can save you.
... I'm tired of getting saved...
... Saving my life, is the end to another.
... I'm sorry, I didn't mean to snap at you... I just... I just, don't want you to view me as this amazing person... that's far from what I am.
You don't have to be amazing or exceptionally great, you don't even have to be good. All you have to be is you, and when you are you, things seem a little bit brighter.
... I fear there may be an issue there...
For myself.... is the one I hate most of all.
That happens, and it sucks, really, really badly. But you shouldn't let it consume you. Think about this, if you hadn't been there, neither Nezuko or Tanjiro would be alive. If you'd had gotten there sooner, you would've just been added to the slaughter pile and so would they. But since you got there when you did, you gave them a chance and they took it.
... That's true... I did save them... and I had them go to Urokodoki so that Tanjiro could become a slayer...
... That's one good thing I've done... but that's a all I've been able to do...
Since I've become a false hashira...
Who's to say what's true and false? Reality is confusing, most can't come to terms with it. The fact you have means you're stronger than most.
... I hear what you are saying, I truly do... I don't want you to think that I'm not hearing what you're saying...
... It's just that... I remember all my failures, all the times I got thoes I loved killed, because I was too weak.
... I shouldn't even be Hashira let alone alive... I'm only alive because my friend knocked me unconscious and he hid me away in some bushes...
... He was strong, and I held him back because I was too weak... he should be here, standing with you... not me.
... I appreciate your kind words... but I fear that you're just wasting your breath on me...
Well, you win some you lose a few-hundred, Haha. But still..
*she started to reach out, although cautiously as if he'd pull away from her, but patted his head anyway.*
I think you're doing just fine, even after hearing what you've said. The Kamados, they look up to you, as well as the boar boy.
(btw, I've heard a theory that the only reason Tomioka is happy after the final battle is because he knows he's gonna die ;-;)
He was stiff under the head pats, it was a foreign feeling but it unlocked deep memories that laid dormant for many years. Similar warm hands patted his head and a warm smile aimed at him. His lovely and beautiful sister.
He subconsciously leaned into the head pats, not realizing that he had missed the feeling of such a simple action.
... That boar child... he's a menace... the Kamados... I adore them.
(Honesty it makes sense, bro will be reunited with all his loved ones and then he'll ne able to properly apologize, plus he finally somewhat made friends with Sanemi!! And he was apart of Tanjiro's family.)
*she smiled sweetly at him, her eyes soft as she continued with the head pats.*
Keep them close, Tomioka-Kodomo. Keep them close.
... I will... I promise...
He said softly as he relaxed under the torches, he'd allow her to do it a little longer... just a little bit longer... especially if it ment he could keep thus warm feeling, just a little longer.
... I won't let any harm come to them... I'll protect them with my life.
I know you will, I believe in you. You're not weak, you're not a failure, you're nothing you're not supposed to be. You're a good kid, Tomioka-Kodomo.
*she took her hand from his head.*
(Kodomo=child/kid btw in case you didn't know.)
...
He remained silent as his shoulders seem to drop, he stared longingly at her hand, hoping that she's put it back on his head, but his pride wouldn't let him, instead he stood up straight as he looked down at her with a gentle stare.
... Thank you...
(Yes, I knew I was going to have him react to it, but I chose not to. He's too respectful for that, plus he is lowkey like cute names like that, which makes him feel giddy.)
(got ME feeling giddy with this low-key)
You're welcome, you're very welcome.
*she stayed silent for a moment before wrapping her arms around him in a tight but gentle hug*
(Lmaoo!!)
....
Very slowly, at a snails pace, he slowly hugged her back. It felt nice... this was something he could possibly get used to.
We can stay for this as long as you'll let me.. and be aware, this means we are friends, and I consider my friends as my children, no matter their age.
... W-well... I know you said... no matter their age... but... I would feel awkward if... I'd suddenly call you mother.
He said in an awkward tone as he hugged her.
You don't have to call me mother, you can just call me Aroura.
Aroura... Okay... nice to meet you, I'm Giyuu Tomioka, but... you seemed to already know that so...
Yes, I know that already. Don't ask how, I got it from Mitsuri. She also told me you like Salmon Daikon, wanna go get some? On me.
Yes...
I mean.... I would love to.
You can be more casual and relaxed around me, Tomioka-Kodomo. I don't bite, not much anyway unless there's food. Haha.
Yes... I apologize... I'm not... use to going out with others often.
You're fine, you're a social anxiety boy, I get it, been there, done that. But what matters is that you're happy, or at least content. Keep that in mind. Now, let's go make a restaurant run out of Salmon Daikon.
...Very well, then...
Was all he simply said as me moved to follow her.
*at the restaurant, she ended up ordering the entire stock of Salmon Daikon*
(hah lol, also gonna continue this tomorrow it's 1:30 in the morning for me)
(Okay sleep well!!)
... You must eat loads like Kanroji and Rengoku...
Well, not quite. I sometimes just buy a whole bunch of extra food when I'm at a restaurant and later give it to a local orphanage. Once a mother, always a mother, y'know?
...I see, how noble of you...
So, Tomioka-Kodomo, can I ask more about you? How'd you really become Giyuu Tomioka?
... I'm sorry... I don't think I understand the question.
What I'm asking is.. how did you become so hollow? You barely smile, your voice is almost always monotone and.. well..
Ah... Well... it's a long story... and I'd hate to bore you...
You could never bore me, Tomioka-Kodomo.
... Tiredness... hopelessness...self hatred...emptiness... that's all the emotions and reflections that are constantly swirling within me... There's no light and there's no way out... it's just an endless dark loop, over and over and over...
No matter what happened... I always got someone killed... I was always too scared too hesitant... so people tried to protect me... and they died... they care for me... they die... they love me, they die...
It was never anything different, it was always the same thing... after awhile you grow to hate yourself and before you know it you want to end yourself... but you're too chicken to do it... and you know it would be the cowardly way out... so you stay and you fight it...
Only to grow tired of the constant loop of self hatred... the you lose hope, that you'll never be able to overcome your wrongs... that you'll ever fix it or make up for it... then you just suddenly feel empty... nothing matters anymore... and yet I still try.
I still try to make friends... I still try to save people... I still try for others... but it never seems to come across to others like that... I seem like a bothersome pest... or that I'm too stiff, which I am... so... I guess that answers your question.
...Sorry... for how long I've talked... but I had to give a satisfying answer.
You've spoken well, but you've got me now, and I won't die on you, I promise. I'll protect you, I'll keep you company.
... I see... Then... I apologize in advance.
Don't apologize, be proud I'm here.
No... I'm just apologizing for the fact that you may die... because of me... and I hope it doesn't happen... but if it does... then I'm sorry.
Me? Die? Never. You see, I'm sorta like Nezuko in the sense I'm a good demon but I can't go in the sun, so that's why I have my umbrella everywhere.
...So... why would you be friends with me then?... I kill your kind with a fire of hatred...
Nezuko's a different story... so why would you, an older demon... want to befriend me?
