no. I fucking I can’t do this anymore this bullshit of how life is so poetic and beautiful and pain has a certain beauty and everything’s a colour and just hold on it’s amazing if u just open your eyes because no life is not fucking sunflower yellow and mysterious and beautiful and romantic it is real and ugly and devastating everything is right in front of me except I continually put some fucking stupid snapchat filter around my own fucking head and go round romanticising every little fucking thing and then twist words to create some bullshit metaphors about how beautifully tragic everyone is because that is not real it is blurry and numbed to how wracking and disturbing reality is and no body is going to see this but it is a truth every body should know. tumblr is a bunch of phony crap and from here I am deleting this fucking app and not posting on it today is the seventeenth of august at around three am and I am finished. goodbye.
