Hello, hello! I'm Ghoul(they/them) and I write fic, like a lot of fic. This is my Directory
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I'll be honest, I did the rounds before settling in. I tried a couple of the names everyone mentions, candy.ai and ourdream.ai among them, and they're fine in their own right. But when it came to actually designing a companion who felt like she came out of my own head, SweetDream was the one that kept pulling me back. The character creation just goes further.
On sweetdream.ai you're shaping everything that matters, the appearance, the personality, the little quirks, the voice, the backstory that gives her context. And it doesn't stop at setup. The chat is remarkably natural and emotionally tuned, it remembers what you've shared, and the AI-generated photos and videos look beautiful. There are even voice messages and human-sounding calls when you want to hear her.
What sealed it for me was how private and discreet the whole thing stays. Building an AI girlfriend feels personal, and it should stay personal. If you're weighing your options for an AI companion, do what I did, try a few, then build something on SweetDream and see why it's hard to leave.
Simon "Ghost" Riley x Naya "Bambi" Walker | wc: 2.4k
You don't expect Simon to propose bringing someone into your bedroom, but you can't deny that you're more than a little interested.
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CW: 18+/MDNI, PIV sex, dirty talk, lactation, fantasizing about a coworker, exhibitionism, (discussion of) hotwifing, under-negotiated kink, dubcon picture sharing, Simon is bisexual but we're not getting into that very much right this moment (we will get into it in part 2) (and probably 3)
"Gaz asked aft'ya."
The words take a minute to make their way through your pleasure drunk mind, but when they do, the curl hot in your belly. The whine you let out sounds pathetic, even to your ears. Simon won't let you bury your face in the bedding, wraps a hand around your throat so it’s impossible to hide from him as he hilts himself inside of you from behind.
"Was right after you sent me that cheeky little picture," he continues, and the way you squirm under hiim makes him huff a breathless chuckle. "Weren't even done lockin' the screen, almost gave 'im a peek of those tits."
"Oh, oh, no." Embarrassment seizes you as the memory of just what you’d been wearing flashes behind your eyelids.
"Oh, no," he mocks, then slaps your ass. He groans as you whine. "Like I can't feel you clenchin' up. Pretendin' y'not all excited, like you didn't wear red knowin' 't's 'is favorite color. You wanted 'im t' see."
"No," you whimper, breathless, but he's changed the angles of his thrusts and your whole body is shivering it's way to a climax. "Simon, no, just you, just -"
"Just me," he growls, and his voice is ragged against your ear. His hands are hard when he hikes up your hips to grind in, in, in. "You think I don't know you was watchin' 'im, last time we was out? So cute when y' flirtin', lickin' y' lips 'n gigglin'."
You shake your head, but words get caught behind your teeth.
“No?” Simon's laugh makes you shiver. One of his hands slides under your hips, fingers zeroing in on your clit. "Weren't givin' Gaz fuck-me eyes? 'E might not've noticed, the way 'e was eyein' ya. Bet 'e touched 'imself that night, wonderin' 'ow y'r pussy looks when she's gettin' what she needs."
Your brain conjurs up Kyle’s face, handsome and attentive, and you can’t help the way you whine again. Reaching back with one hand, you grab at Simon's hair as your body ratchets closer to climax.
"Might 'ave to let him find out," he growls, and his voice is starting to waver with his own orgasm approaching. "'E's got a real pretty cock, bet you'd make real pretty noises - "
Whatever else he says is drowned out by the way you nearly shout as the tension in your belly snaps. It’s hard to gasp for breath as he works you through it, ignoring the way you jerk as oversensitivity takes over. A second peak wracks your whole body, right on the heels of the first, and every muscle in your body goes rigid. That sets Simon off, and you echo the moans that tear their way out of his throat.
Simon’s breaths are heavy against the back of your neck by the time you float back down into your body. The weight of him is grounding, comforting, even as you put your face into the bedding and groan with exhaustion and embarrassment. Simon snickers, pressing a kiss to your shoulder as he rolls you both to the side and wraps his hands around your waist.
You scrub a hand over your face and leave your hand over your eyes as you moan, “What the fuck was that?”
“Experimentin’.”
“Simon.”
“Figurin’ some stuff out,” he mumbles, running a hand up your belly and cupping one of your breasts gently. “Jus’ playin, ‘s all. You liked it?”
You wiggle around until you’re laying on your back, then peek through your fingers up at him. He blinks sleepy eyes down at you, head propped on one hand and looking just as relaxed as he ever does. Like he didn’t just bring up flirting with and fucking his coworker. He grins when he sees you pouting, big and self-satisfied before dipping down to press his lips against yours.
You tug gently at his hair as he pulls away. “What’re you figuring out?”
“’Ow best to surprise ya,” he says, matter-of-fact. “Figure Gaz is a safe bet. Thinks y’ gorgeous.”
“You want to sleep with Kyle?” You gasp, then gasp again. “Wait. Why do you know what his dick looks like?”
“Communal showers.” Simon plucks at one of your nipples, just a tease, before cupping his hand over that side of your chest again. “After ‘n op, after the gym. Easy to get a bit worked up.”
“You’ve seen him hard?”
“We’ve all seen each other ‘ard.” He shrugs. “Rude to stare, but in close quarters, y’gonna see somethin’. I’ve seen Johnny strokin’ off more time’s ‘n I c’n count. Cap’s got more restraint, but ‘ve seen ‘is favorite porn star.”
“Focus. We’re talking about Kyle,” you remind him, poking at his chest. “You said his dick is pretty.”
“Oh, so ‘e is your favorite.”
“That’s not the point!”
“Yeah? You just wanna hear more about ‘is cock? ‘Bout ‘ow I bet it’d hit all those nice spots if ‘e ‘ad you layin’ on your back like this?”
His hand squeezes, fingers drawing up toward your nipple in the way that he knows prompts your letdown. The fuzzy static of it makes you slap at him. But Simon just catches your hand and brings your knuckles to his mouth for a quick kiss. It’s a trap, of course, and he grabs your other hand in short order before bringing them up above your head. With an arched eyebrow, he presses them against the pillow before letting go, and then his fingers are back to stroking and plucking at you until milk starts beading up under his fingers. There isn’t much to give, since you’ve already done your pre-bed pump, but it’s still an overwhelming sensation so soon after orgasm.
“’E’s thick, like you like,” he says, breezy and casual as you squirm. “Just a bit o’ curve. Y’r lips’d look real nice on it.”
Your stomach swoops as he licks his fingers. Then his touch drifts lower, light and almost ticklish until his fingers can pet gently over your clit. Sensitivity makes you twitch your hips away, but he follows, keeps the pressure consistent while he waits for you to settle. Only then does he pet over your mound and thighs, gentle and teasing.
“Likes to take ‘is time,” he murmurs, licking his lips. His eyes are dark and hungry when he meets yours. “Was waitin’ for exfil, once. Nothin’ to do. ‘E pulled up some porn, somethin’ slow. Don’t remember exactly what. But ‘e didn’t skip ahead. Said ‘e likes to let things build, when ‘e’s got the time.”
His thick fingers dip between your legs, and you have to bite back a small noise. Simon’s always talkative, in bed, but this feels different, fragile. There’s none of that almost frantic, middle-of-sex energy forcing the words out. He’s not trying to get either of you off, not quite, not… not yet. He’s just… admiring his friend, sharing the intimate views he thinks you’ll appreciate with him.
That image you have of Kyle changes in your mind, becomes something quiet and warm. You can almost imagine the two of them, in some small, dim hotel room. You know what Simon looks like, when he’s not yet focused on sex, but willing to be convinced. Is that what he’s like, after an operation? Does he drape himself on a bed or a pull-out couch and watch porn quietly on his phone? He never hesitates to lean over your shoulder to get a better look at whatever you’ve pulled up. Does he do the same to Kyle? Would Kyle let him? Do they sit close, pulling something up on a phone, until their hands end up down their pants?
“Showed ‘im a picture of you, last time we was out,” he chuckles, interrupting your musing and setting your heart racing again. His voice dark and smoky, the way it gets when he’s preparing to pull you along through something that’s going to push all of your buttons. He leans down to steal another kiss when his fingers start to dip into where you’re wet and relaxed. “That one I like, the one from the beach. ‘Is cock weren’t out, but I bet ‘e wished it was. Just lookin’, that time, we was on watch. No time to do nothin’ about it.”
“You did not,” you whimper around a hitching breath.
“I did,” he he counters, grinning against your mouth. “’E said I’m a lucky bastard, and ‘e’s right. Prettiest girl in the world, you are. Can’t blame ‘im for wantin’ a taste.”
Your stomach flutters, and you want to touch him, so you lift one hand to play with his hair. “Did… did he say that?”
“Might ‘ave.” Simon’s fingers push deep, slowly, and he grins when you shiver. “Might’ve just looked hard an’ bit ‘is tongue. Can’t exactly tell ‘is superior officer ‘e wants to fuck ‘is wife. Gotta wait for an invitation.”
You swallow a moan as he adds another finger, pressing deep. You’re so wet that the movement is loud in the quiet room. Still, he moves slowly, palm rocking purposefully against you, just the way you like. It’s impossible to resist chasing the sensation with slow rolls of you hips, so you don’t try. It’s hard not to let the pleasure drag you under again. All you can do is take a couple of deep breaths to remind yourself not to move too fast.
“You want…” you have to swallow twice, force your mind to concentrate on the words instead of the way his hand unravels you, again, “Want to give him an invitation?”
“Might ‘ave to, the way you’re gettin’ worked up so fast.” His laugh is just the slightest bit mean. “If ‘e was ‘ere, I bet ‘e’d already be fuckin you. Nice’n slow, like this, give this greedy cunt everythin’ she wants while I’m recoverin’.”
His cock is thick against your hip, not quite hard again, yet. The way he nudges his hips into you makes you want to spread your legs, so you do. And then you’re moaning into his mouth as his fingers massage steadily against your g-spot. Without your input, your hips rock up, chasing that sensation, trying to coax him to move faster.
“Look’t you, Pretty. So needy. What kinda man would I be if I wasn’t makin’ sure you’re taken care of, hm? Bet Kyle’d be real nice to you, ‘specially sweet as y’are right now. Soft ‘n wet, fuck, gushin’ all over ‘is cock jus’ like this. Messy, but ‘e wouldn’ mind.”
The building pleasure makes you pant up at him, eyes locked on his face. He looks hungry, the corner of his mouth quirked up to expose some of his teeth. A part of you realizes that he’s excited at the way he can thrill you, certainly, but this isn’t just for you, is it? He likes that you like the idea, but it’s his fantasy, his friend that he’s imagining fucking you.
“Si-” you whimper.
“Yeah. Gonna make ‘im work for you to say ‘is name?” he growls, crowding even closer and using one of his legs to spread yours further. He doesn’t speed up, but his fingers press harder, just where you want and need it to start really working toward another peak. “No, I don’t think so. I think once you start thinkin’ wi’ that pretty pussy, y’ gonna cry so pretty, callin’ for ‘im to speed up, get you right where you wanna be. Say his name nice, I bet ‘e’d give you whatever y’ want.”
You whimper as his other hand captures your wrists and presses them into the pillow. “Simon!”
“Yeah, y’ gonna come? Wonder if ‘e could resist comin’ w’ you squeezin’ all around ‘im. ‘Specially if ‘e gets his mouth on y’r tits. Bet e’ tries, but can’t. Bet ‘e gives you those deep strokes y’ like so much, fucks ‘imself deep and makes a pretty mess f’ me to fuck back int’ ya.”
The orgasm crests, easy and overwhelming and wet. Simon growls, shifting over you until he can remove his fingers and push his cock into you in three hard shoves. His groan almost drowns out the wet noises of skin against skin, but every thrust seems louder than the one before. All of your senses are filled with him, his panting breaths, his thick waist between your legs.
You wonder, wildly, if Kyle would hold you while Simon chases his orgasm in your body.
It’s so unexpected, so jarring, that your belly flips and your body locks up, again. An embarrassing noise squeezes past your throat, you think, as your arms wrap around Simon’s neck again. He feels it, of course, and laughs breathlessly as he lifts your leg so he can fuck himself even deeper.
“Ah!”
“Yeah,” he pants into your mouth. “One more, pretty, ‘m close, jus’ a little more, jus’ like that.”
You can’t make your tongue cooperate, but you try, “K-Ky! Please, Simon.”
He groans like you’ve wounded him and presses close and deep, until you can’t catch your breath. His cock jerks so hard that it pulls a gasp from you, and you bury your face in his shoulder as he huffs like a bull into your hair. His muscles are so rigid that your fingers slip on his sweat, but still, you wrap yourself around him the best you can as you both shake.
You stay like that for a beat, and then his breath explodes from between his lips. The muscles holding him up go slack, all at once, and he barely manages not to land directly on you as he collapses. You’re still a bit squished under him, but there’s just enough space that you can gulp a couple of hot breaths.
A giggle ripples out of you. “Oh my god. You want to fuck Kyle.”
“Fuck,” he laughs. “’S that all you got out of that?”
“You came when I said his name!”
Simon laughs, breathlessly against your hair. “You came thinkin’ about ‘im.”
“Yeah.” Post orgasm, it’s easy to admit. You pet a hand over his side, then tweak his hip. “Does that mean you actually want to fuck Kyle?”
“Fuckin’ ‘ell,” He scrubs a hand over his face and props himself up on one elbow. “Give me twenty minutes, Bambi, I can’t feel my fuckin’ legs.”
In spite of his words, he’s smiling, warm and happy. You hum as he dips down for a slow kiss. A yawn interrupts you, first you, then him, and you giggle again as he flops back into the bedding.
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You're sloshy with drink, your long arms floating up around your head, your shimmer-smear eyelids shut against the strobing green lights. Not every night, or every song, moves you but when it does, it's as if your veins are electric conduits, networking together in silky moves to pulse to the throbbing beats. It's heady like very few other sensations are. Your hips wave and roll languidly, fingers tracing around your head like a crown of delicate flesh.
Bodies rock and jut up against you, some with intention. You never open your eyes. You let the sensations fall around you, siphoning the feeling of bare skin against yours: heated, molded, sticky. There's no concern about losing balance here; the crowd moves as one, sensuously, and you can feel them all like prickles along your damp skin.
Then there are hands clasping around yours. You're spun around to face bright eyes staring hungrily at you from a pretty face, the lights turning his eyes almost neon and unnatural. He's compact and all shoulders and upper chest, keeping you trained on his wide grin.
"Yer a good dancer, hen," the man yells over the music to you. Dark, shaggy hair, curled around his ears. Cute in a boyish way. Strong incisors flashing as he spins you again.
"I think I need to sit down," you holler back, squinting an eye at him blearily. His face is smearing into the bright pitch behind him.
"Yer alright," he laughs sharply, hauling you up against him. You can feel his hard length against your ass immediately, and he makes no efforts to hide it. He smells spicy and clean, swamping your senses. His hands swarm down your front and clutch at your waist, pinching it in like he's measuring you. "Ye feel so good, hen."
"No, thanks," you mutter and pull away from him, swerving between the throng of dancers until you're alone again.
A slow throb of a song pulls you in tight and you finally relax your head back, neck tendons stretched, until you meet wide and thick muscle. Your eyes slowly open, and you twist just enough to see a large, broad-backed chest under a bemused smile under a thick dark moustache under a pair of crinkled eyes under a shelf of heavy eyebrows. Hardy.
"Pardon me, love," he says low into the sweat of your throat and his big hands firmly cup your hips as he moves past you through the crowd, leaving you with a tingling feeling where his flesh sat. Your eyes flick over and trace him, his shirtsleeves pushed up, the strong fat of his forearm bulging over the fabric, coarse hairs laid flat around a thick sturdy watch. Where his collar hung open, thick chest hair curled out, a thin gold chain pressed into his own sweat. You feel the pulse low in your centre, spreading its fingers out to seek more of him.
You float buoyant over to the bar where he disappeared to. He shoots you a even more bemused, almost surprised look when you tuck in beside him. You beam lushly up at him. "Thirsty."
He laughs and it's a pleasant, rich sound. "Workin' up quite a sweat out there, s'no wonder."
"Mm," you hum brightly, trying to snag the eye of the bartender. "You watching me then?"
He huffs knowingly. "Hard not to, love. What's your poison?" His large body's already caught the bartender's attention.
"Umm, surprise me," you laugh. "I'm easy."
There's a sharp look in his dark eye before he trains it back behind the bar. Orders an English beer for himself, and something for you — hopefully not fruity, but you said you were easy.
You check your phone while you wait. "Oh, for fuck sakes!" You mumble down into it. "My fucking…stupid…" Your words trail off, as you flip through your group chat messages, the rideshare app, your banking app.
"Y'alright?"
You turn slightly away from him to hide your phone. "Sorry, yeah, just…my friends were supposed to come back and get me, and…" Waving a hand, you force a smile tightly on your face and turn back to him. "Nevermind. I'll figure it out."
He presses a cold, sweating glass into your hand, his hand brushing yours deliciously for a slow exchange. "Need a ride then?"
"Ah," you laugh shyly. "No, no, that's okay, I'll manage with public transit." You don't indicate which mode.
His eyebrows slide down in concern, a fatherly expression almost molding his eyes and mouth. "Don't be daft, love. Enjoy your drink, go cut some shapes, an' I can drop you off wherever you need to be."
"No, really, that's okay. You've already been nice buying me a drink." You take a polite sip of it. "Cheers." You clink against his beer and sip again.
"Broke the rules there, love."
"What?"
"S'posed to wait to drink after cheers, and you're meant to make eye contact while saying it."
You roll your eyes, giggly. "My bad."
"S'alright. Give it another go then."
You stare at him over the rim of your glass, trying to parse if that amused smile is just for show. "Uhh…okay. Cheers?" Your mouth hovers, lips over glass lip, as your eyes lock onto his, lit-up strange under the bar lights. The expression on his face makes something inside you flip funny.
"Cheers," he finally agrees after holding your eyes just a moment too long. He tips his head back to drink and you look hungrily at his Adam's apple bobbing, the hair under his chin and down along his neck, the tendons and muscles all working. He swallows hard, eye fixed on you fixed on him.
You look away too slowly. "Well, thanks again." Sliding away from the heat he gives off, you slink back through the press of people onto the dancefloor with your cold drink. Glass is forbidden out here, but it's too busy tonight for the bouncers to notice or really care, so you sip slowly and melt back where you belong, into the aching thumps of the music. Eyes closing once more, slipping back into it, shutting the world out around you.
The drink is cola-sweet down your throat, icy in this sweating heat, and over the shift of songs into the early-morning dripping sleazy bass, you're feeling it sluice through your bloodstream, thick and viscous. Your eyes stay closed and your body feels looser, like the connective tissue holding you up and together is fraying slowly, pieced apart by the music and bodies touching you.
"S'alright now, come on." Dream-dark voice and hands and a lovely smile to think about, attached to those big arms and big chest.
"—smells good," someone murmurs.
Low chuckles rumbling through skin and hair. "Watch your head, love." A shift from sweat-hot to brisk-cold to stale-warm. Your head is fat and empty and heavy, the heaviest it's ever been maybe. It's as if your eyelids have been pressed down by layers of braided silk, warm and thick, banding but not oppressive.
Get—hands—now—good—here
"Music?" You ask, but the first part of your question is swallowed up.
"—long?"
A heavy press against you, finally something solid to lean into, seek. You moan against it, a writhing serpentine sound winding out of you. You don't know what you're seeking, but it's close, right here.
Bestie, I was outside today. If this is the same heat that had 1860s!soap hitting on Moon, I understand why she was so annoyed all the time.
there is something about dry heat that has men acting like fools, has them panting like dogs looking for some fertile water to lap at. it's because they don't have the same layers to their clothes, they don't catch sweat the same way, don't feel it pool under their tits and stick to their stomach. they can strip to their shorts and relish the sun on their bare skin, and you know that they can see your envy in the pinch of your brows.
if you're going to be hot under your skirts then Soap can be too. he's so eager to spend his time between your legs then he can bake in the heat that gathers around them.
of course you both know this punishment is as poorly thought out as anything your heat addled brain could churn up. Soap is right where he'd like to be and you're left to be the only one suffering. After all the only thing worse than a dry heat is a wet one, and your husband's tongue has never felt more scalding.
Thinking about ghost's baby not having the typical emotional support blanket...
No, instead she has one of ghosts masks.
It had fallen out of his bed when he tossed it onto the table the night before. Long deployment and missing his family making ghost lose focus enough to not notice it. Of course, the next morning baby was trying to do anything but eat her breakfast as was her constant goal.
Ghost had only turned around for a moment, but he nearly dropped the skillet when he looked back to see his sweet little girl with his mask in her tiny pudgy hands.
"No, no, we don't touch that, pumpkin–" ghost had tried to take the mask away. Thankfully one he rarely used, skull print directly on the balaclava instead of his hard-shell. It made him want to puke thinking of her holding that.
Only for baby to start wailing, little arms waving around and tiny feet kicking in despair.
Ghost had always had a weak spot for his daughter, no will to discipline her like you have. So a different mask, identical except for the fact this one has never seen battle, is placed into he hands while he coos "hey, it's okay sweetheart. Just had to get you a better one, yeah?"
When you saw your beloved daughter chewing on the mask and babbling happily, you and ghost had a long talk.
The official story is your daughter getting attached to ghosts Halloween costume, kid's can be so silly in their obsessions, right? Or, that's what you tell the kindergarten teachers when you sweet girl decides to wear the mask all around school.
Ghosts team quickly learned not to make jokes about the masks true origin after you tore price a new on in the front lawn.
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I hate you shipping discourse I hate you unnecessarily aggressive DNI banners I hate you dehumanization of those you disagree with I hate you harassment over ships or favorite characters I hate you purposeful lack of nuance I hate you false equivalencies I hate you policing how people engage in fandom I hate you actively trying to make fandom spaces hostile I hate you refusal to filter your feed I hate you making it everyone else’s problem
If you're a new writer and you're asking yourself "is this too personal, is this too much, will people think this is weird" that feeling is the exact location of your actual voice. The stuff that makes you want to close the laptop is the stuff nobody else could write. The safe version is always worse. Always. I have never once read something and thought "this would have been better if it was a little less honest." go further. It's always go further.