twenty- two n feelin blue

july 26th

i got so embarrassed last night i was u know like initiating sex and the boii fell asleep lol and then like i just shut down bc when we first started dating and i was over 100lbs lighter he wanted to touch me all the time i was cute and sexy and now i know he loves me i feel it but i’m not cute and sexy i’m warm and familiar and when he needs to fuck i’m there so i felt gross and i felt stupid and i’m not gunna have sex again until i lose 15lbs i know it would be water weight but i think it will help telling myself i can’t have something until i lose x amount

starting this thread uhhhh i’m tryna loose 30 lbs in one month lol rn i’m down 13lbs mostly water weight