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A week before Christmas eve, Seoho gave you a call. He invited you for a group dinner on Christmas eve. It has been a while, so you accepted his invitation. However, you have the slightest idea that your ex-boyfriend would be there at the dinner. You forgot, they both were childhood best friend.

“Sorry I’m late—“, you paused when you saw familiar face at the dinner and it’s hard for you to act normal but you tried. You greeted everyone, including him because you does not want to create a scene or an awkward atmosphere.

“Oh here you are!”, Seoho waved at you and you did the same. Unfortunately, all seats were taken and the only one that is available is the one next to your ex-boyfriend. You had no choice but to sit next to him.

“Hi there.”, he greeted you. Silently, you took a deep breath and nods. “Hi.”

“You look beautiful.”, he said and flashed a fresh smile that you missed the most.

‘Gosh, I can’t do this.’, you thought silently pray that you got a call from anyone at the moment. You want to get away so bad.

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The foods are amazing but not the atmosphere. You know, it was just you who felt like this. Instead of talking with each other, you spent most of you time staring at them and enjoying their stories. You like hearing people shares their stories but you are not the kind of person who tells stories even if they are close with you.

Guess that was one of the reason why you wanted to broke up with him.

“So what are you up to these days? You were quiet these past few months. Are you both planning on something? A wedding maybe?”, Keonhee asks as he pointed to both you and your ex-boyfriend.

You dropped your utensils on the table as Seoho nudged him from the side. “Hey…”

You lifted up your head and look everyone in their eyes. “Guess he did not tell you except for Seoho.”, you paused. “No, we broke up.”. With that one sentence, the atmosphere suddenly went cold and awkward.

As usual, you are good at reading the room. You cleared your throat and stood up. “I’m sorry that I ruined the night. Tonight’s on me. Thank you for inviting me, Seoho. Again, I’m sorry.”, you took your coat and head to counter, to pay for your food but then a hand stopped you.

“It’s alright. It’s on me.”, immediately he slide his card towards the cashier. After saying a little ‘thank you’, you quickly walked out and went to your car. You sat there for a while, staring at the steering wheel.

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“Did I do something wrong?”, he asks when he heard you wanted to break up. You look away, trying to not look him in the eyes. It hurt you to see him hurt because of you.

“There is no problem at all.”, you tried to sound cool but only God know how hard you hold your tears and told yourself to not break down in front of him.

“There must be a reason why are you like this. You would not pushed me away just like that. What’s your reason?”, he demand.

“I have no reason and anything to tell you.”

“Then make up any shits that’s up in your head right now. I know there’s a lot in your head right now.”

“I refused.”

“Looks like the problem is with you and not me. You have some issues with your head and you simply dumped it all on me?”, he was upset. It pisses him off for some reason, maybe because he failed to be by your side.

“Fine!”, you raised your voice but still refuse to look him in the eyes.

“If the problems is me why don’t you just agree to break up? Don’t waste your precious time on me.”, you said one last time before walked away and left him alone.

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“How long has she locked herself in her studio?”, Seoho asks as he joined him watching you from your car. “Geonhak, this was your idea. She came because I asks her too. Why don’t you do something about it?”

“What do you want me to do? She still pushed me away even to this day.”, Geonhak said and his eyes never left you.

“She went too hard on herself. You know it, you saw it Geonhak. Are you still going to watch her suffer alone?”, Seoho asks again.

“Then what do you want me to do?”

“Break into her zone. I know you want to do it so bad. Just do whatever it takes as long as she does not destroy herself.”

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It has been more than thirty minutes you have been staring at your steering wheel. You did not realised that you were zoning out until you heard a gentle knock on your window. Startled, you turn your head to the side and saw him knocking a few times on your window.

As soon as you opened your door, he pulled you out from your car and dragged you to the seat next to it. “What are you—“, you were cut off when he pulled the seatbelt.

“I’ll take you home.”, he simply said and went to the driver seat. Within a few second, he begin to drive.

There are so many things inside of your head but you want nothing to come out from it. Well, as if anything would. As for Geonhak, he was waiting for you to ask anything to him but he knew you would not ask anything for now.

When you both arrived, you were still struggling with the seatbelt even though it is your car. He opened the door and undo your seatbelt. He knew something or maybe a lot in your head right now because you could not even undo the simple seatbelt.

Instead of letting you go upstairs alone, he hold your hand and go with you. “I can walk by myself. You should get home, it’s getting late.”, you told him and trying to pull away your hand from him. However, you failed.

“I don’t plan on going home tonight.”, his deep voice echoed in the parking lot and deep down inside, it never fail to make you feel giddy. The way he act right now is making you missing him more.

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“I see you did not change your passcode.”, he smirks and get inside but make sure you would get in first. Your face were red because of the embarrassment. You purposely did not change the passcode because you lowkey want him to come back.

Geonhak took off his coat and put in on the chair like he used to. “There’s some drinks in the fridge and coffee in the kitchen. Make yourself comfortable.”

“Oh I am already comfortable.”, he said as pulled the fridge, took out a beer and took a seat at the dining table. You stood still in the hall, watching him being too comfortable in your house.

Honestly, Geonhak feel bad doing this. Breaking into your comfort zone but he had no choice. Before you could destroy yourself, he should make a move. Lowkey, he feels good.

“Are you going to stand there and watch me drinking? Planning to send me away again?”, he asks, not looking at you.

It has been a minute, you did not answer him but you are still there, standing and looking at him. Geonhak sighed before standing up and make his way towards you.

Before you could ask anything, he hugs you. “It was hard, is it?”

That one simple question send you off. Immediately, your tears came down and you finally break down in front of him. Your sobs turns to be louder every second. You cried as much you want on his chest, you finally let it all out.

It broke him to see you’re crying like this.

Most of his times, that he has spent with you, he never saw you cry, even once. It is either you went crazy mad or just stay silent.

He thought all you needs was attention and time to be spend with but when all you need is a simple hug.