Why hello there

My weight dropped enough that I can fit back into my fave high waisted shorts!!! This is huge yall!!!!!!!!

But alas. I am neurospicy and grew up doing competitive dancing, so my brain is like “we only do something if it is absolutely necessary or if we’re pursuing it as a career or something”

I feel like I’ll be continuing to trudge along with that way of handling and coping with life and then one day I’ll suddenly be turning 40, and life will still feel like I’m just continuing to exist so as to not end it all. And is that as good as it gets? Not necessarily enjoying my life, just continuing to move forward because the alternative is a negative thing that negatively affects other people?

I want to go to artist fairs. I want to draw or paint. To sing and dance. For the sake of it, for the enjoyment of it. Not to make money. Not to have a side hustle. I don’t want to hustle anymore. Just let me find peace.