siren.

Idk, the stress really got a bitch super suicidal lately

I just feel so depressed

Honestly I feel very alone inside my head and these 20 something’s turning to 30 something’s has me wanting to cry trying to stop feeling so uncomfortable with all that is and is not happening in my life. Sometimes I feel like I just went to scream and be surrounded by all those who love me and just embrace me in a hug and tell me that all the pain and sadness and uncertain and anxiety will stop. I can stop feeling so fucking overwhelmed about everything. My brain ever stops turning, never stops thinking. I have been feeling very defeated and especially sad the past week. I feel like depression is emerging. I feel alone here. I feel like I need my friends. I feel like I need mental and emotional clarity. I just want peace.

I had a dream last night that someone tried to break in. It was kind of terrifying.

I hate that all my friends work during the day 😩😩😩

Ugh I feel so numb

Honestly, just confused & sad

Bruh, youth work is truly not for me at alllllll. Definitely for those who are called to it, and I am absolutely not one of those people.

I am so grateful for those in my life who have shown me an abundance of love and understanding. I truly have so much love around me and it really brings me to tears sometimes.

I love my sweet baby with all my heart.

Our communication has gotten better, our sex has gotten better, our intimacy and connection has maximized, and the grace we exchange among one another is so precious. I love this woman so, so much. I truly fall in love with her more and more each day. I cannot wait to make her my wife. If not for Ezinne, I would truly not be in my current life position and I am forever grateful.

I can’t wait to have sex in another county, AGAIN!!!! 🤪

I want to be smothered in love and affection. Where is that?

I’m struggling a lot today with sadness, hopefulness, and feeling defeated. It’s okay because I know that it won’t last forever.

I’m genuinely so sad about this computer and I’m here all alone so I am just double sickened