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“To be with G-d is really to be involved with some enormous, overwhelming desire, and joy, and power which you cannot control, which controls you. I conceive of my own life as a journey toward something I do not understand, which in the going toward, makes me better. I conceive of G-d, in fact, as a means of liberation and not a means to control others. Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up.”

When I am like this, I can taste the earth by just looking at it, like pregnant women who crave dirt, a gesture of animalism—I, wanting to die, wanting to dig back in, in a perpetual calendar of demise and resurrection, want to put stones in my mouth. Want to taste something of rock.