Whateva

I had one situation like this, and my ass never saw the problem in the first place, why you ask?

My way of speaking couldn't be transcribed into a text message, I said that i didn care about it, I meant that it didn't hurt my feelings, they took it as in, i didn't care about the relation. And from the moment I sent that message, i was thi king and second guessing myself if they got the vibe from it. They didn't. So the next day, they intionaly didn't come to school and told our shared friend to watch me how i behave. Kinda weird, but when they finally came to school I tried to explain, and they ignored me.

In this moment and probably forever, i will be replaying this situation in my head, even if it was a minor inconvinience. I tried to care for the relation, but why if they didn't reciprocate?

So in the end, Im fine, I could've texted them the vibe i meant in the message, but i kinda expected them to know me already.

It's not my fault they didn't try to ask for details and thier way of working on the relation was to just break up. I guess in the long run they would just neglect me, so Im happy.

Im happy that they were the one that "didn't care" about me. At least I got closure from the other two people that were involved. I realized that the whole group was just never ending cycle of talking behind eachother's back.

Kind acrazy that my whole life i had relatively no conflicts that made me grow as a person. Not that I never grew and stuff, I love helping others, with small or big stuff.

I guess I never see how much help I can be for someone if I can't see the finished product. Like, I don't feel like i helped that old lady in a store, becouse the store didn't have the thing that the lady was looking for and she just left me in the alley as she went to the store worker.

I just need to be reassured that I did good.