chill

history repeats itself

And just for some closure.........

So I'm not sure if they have a word for it in mental health circles like they do in AA, but I feel like I sort of had a "sponsor," or kind of a buddy system type thing with a friend of mine who was bipolar. So between his bipolar and my depression we were both people with a sense of humor and a hustle on the outisde, but a lotttt of dark shit on the inside that we each did our best to keep under control. And part of our friendship was keeping each other accountable, someone to be honest to, someone who will listen to your struggles and remind you you're real, valid, not alone, and all of your efforts to keep going in this shitty world are worth it. For me it was also always a reminder that someone would really, really miss me if I were gone. As I drifted from many lesser friendships in the last year, it was the strength of this one in particular that helped reassure me that I would be okay.