Rose

So much anti-bullying rhethoric just rely on "ackschually that is morally wrong" which I don't exactly think bullies care about. It's not exactly a debate on right and wrong.

Not singular they. Plural they. In the same way as we/us.

As a kid, my parents constantly complained that I "disappeared" into my room. But the door was always open. Why didn't they just come in and ask "what are you doing" or "can you show me"? I'd love to tell them about the world of Flash games, my fanfics, and my Donald Duck pocketbooks.

Instead they simply demonized my hobbies as something that needed to be replaced with "family activities" that 1) I visibly had no interest in and 2) they clearly made up arbitrarily as an excuse to make me spend time with them. They also made extremely pedantic dinner table rules that was supposed to make me remain there for no point at all, they didn't even bother to strike up conversation.

But even assuming it is… what’s the deal?

Would you protest that much if they wanted to play a new instrument? Try a new sport? Remake their friend circle? Get a new SO? If not, then why make so much noise when their aesthetic, expression, or romantic preference change?

On the contrary, I find it appealing that people are interested in my life and habits and willing to monitor my boring and lonely life.

But despite knowing this, whenever I see depressed people in films and media, I always get annoyed seeing how they still have money and food and nice houses and a that. Despite all my experience I still become an ignorant idiot questioning how they can be depressed if they have all that.

All I know about this site is what I have learned from the subreddit r/tumblr, which I really really like. I do realise that that place is a “best of” compilation and I’m not in for all that automatically, like... just how I won’t be showered with beer and efficient people directly after crossing the border to Germany. But hey, you gotta start somewhere.

I’m not sure what I’ll be posting here either, but probably my thoughts about all kinds of things, the ideas I get when feeling intellectual. Facebook was long my go-to for that, but not that it ever resulted in good conversations. Here’s to hoping this place has better people.

Rumour has it that Tumblr is mostly used by women and is thus very non-hostile, which could be a relief.

Personally, I’m a straight white cismale although transcurious. I’m a first-world millennial and just as depressed, anxious, poor and unmotivated as the next guy. I’m writing this from inside a hospital; family was afraid that I’d kill myself and called the cops, who then took me to this psych ward.