some bitch

Step one make your mirror as dirty as possible

Step two look miserable

Step three slay

I will take a better photo later but I am very tired and in pain and 8 months preg level bloated and I just needed to make sure it fits and figure out what height heel I need

It does fit pretty damn well so I did great go me 👍 if anything it's slightly roomy from the waist down which is perfect for when I inevitably feel 8 months preg level bloated anyway if I feel better at some time in the next week I will throw on the heels and take a better shot

Should I be spending money? No

But I saw this and fell in love and I do not have the bandwidth to continue thinking about what to wear to this fucking wedding so I impulsively made an offer and it was accepted. I'm embarrassed about how much it was considering other things I should be spending money on/saving for but I'll just say it was about $20 more than the nicest looking dresses I would have been willing to buy on Amazon within my budget and this one is 100% my style

And if ever I needed a time to treat myself....

I can always return it but I'll def post pics when it comes - stay tuned !

I mostly just talk about it here because it's my space to vent. Even if no one reads it it feels good to get it out.

I fondly remember the levels of functioning I had two years ago and it's clear to me that I'm no longer that person, at least for now, and I have to manage my own expectations. I try to give myself an hour and a half to get ready every morning so I have time to recover from each task

The fact that I'm working full time with a long commute is huge. I do need to work towards something that is easier on me though. I want so badly to just quit my job because I'm so burned out.

A year ago I was laid off though and I wasn't magically cured by taking six months off though.

I guess I've proven to myself that while I technically can take on this workload....I really shouldn't lol