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but a while ago i completely, fully peed my pants in the car. and it was...not at all on purpose

i was out at a bar with friends (pre-covid obv) and i ended up leaving abruptly because my ex showed up and i couldn't deal w/ it

so i just rush off and jump in the car and start heading for the highway and only a few minutes pass before i realize i have to use the bathroom pretty badly. it wasn't dire (or i didn't THINK it was 🤦🏻‍♀️), but definitely there. so i start getting a little anxious.

20 minutes or so later, i don't know how it happened so fast, but i am BURSTING for a toilet. i have honestly never had to pee so badly in all my life. i'm bouncing up and down in the driver's seat, fanning my legs. and i realize, i will not be able to make it home. period.

so i start panicking and trying to think of a plan B. my bladder is so swollen it HURTS, and i'm rubbing my thighs together like a cricket. "just keep moving, maybe you can hold it in," i think to myself. i decide to get off at the next exit to stop at a McDonald's or a coffee shop or somewhere with a restroom, because again, i wont make it home. i CAN'T make it home

and then as i pull off the exit and start scanning for a gas station or something, i realize something even worse - i'm not even going to make it to a gas station. i'm so desperate. it's basically now or never.

i clumsily pull the car over into this like empty lot. i can feel tears in my eyes as i squeeze my hands between my legs.

the only thing i can think of - and i'm blushing now just writing this down - is that i think i have a plastic bin or bucket in the trunk. and maybe i could sit down on that in the backseat and...go

keeping my legs tight together, i rummage through the junk in the back of the car and i find a plastic bin. anticipating relief is making it so, so much worse, and i can feel tears in my eyes as i squirm awkwardly and try to shove the bin into place.

i undo my belt, jiggling up and down, and then i try to undo the button on pants, but my hands are shaking. im shifting my legs back and forth and i'm muttering "oh god, oh my god" out loud to myself even though i'm the only one here.

and then...i can't hold it. i just can't hold it for another second. my body sort of freezes up and i can't hold it any longer and i can feel that my face is bright red and i can feel pee absolutely gushing into my underwear, filling up my pant legs. i just keep going and i'm so embarrassed but there's nothing i can do. a moan of complete relief involuntarily escapes my lips.

when my body finally finishes peeing, i just stand there for a minute, humiliated. i can't believe i couldn't make it not only to a bathroom, but even to a plastic bin in the back of my car.

my friend and i had gone to the bar and she was driving me home

and i had had a few drinks, i wasn’t too drunk but you know how sometimes alcohol…goes straight to your bladder

i peed right before we left but it was an hour to get home and by the time we were like halfway there i was BURSTING

i was jiggling my legs and bouncing up and down on the seat, trying to be as subtle as possible bc i didn’t want my friend to know how bad i had to go

and at one point i was like “you know if i asked her to stop so i could use the bathroom she probably would” but then i thought “oh my god then you’d basically have to tell her that you can’t even hold your pee for 30 more minutes” like i thought id die of embarrassment

then when were like 10 minutes away she was like “hey do you want to stop at the drive thru and grab something? im starving” and i was like oh my god because at that point i knew even like an extra 5 minutes added on to the drive and i wasn’t going to make it to the bathroom in time

so i was like “um no thats okay lets just keep going” and i must have sounded strained i guess bc she looked over and was like “…are you okay?”

and i started blushing bc i basically had my hand like in my crotch and i took a breath and i was like “i just…i need to go to the bathroom REALLY badly” and she kind of laughed but she saw i wasn’t exaggerating at all and she was like “sorry, i’ll get you home!”

and like i was SO embarrassed bc i didn’t want to be too obvious but i was literally seconds from wetting my pants and i really had to do everything i could just to keep it together. we were almost, almost there and i had to will myself like “you are NOT going to pee yourself in your friend’s car”

good news: i didn’t pee myself in my friend’s car. bad news: the second, i mean the SECOND i got out of the car i started peeing. i got out of the car, shut the door, and went “OH my god” and just GRABBED my crotch for dear life, like i could not hold it in a second longer, it was just coming. i RAN to the front door and tried to jam the key in the lock but it was too late i was fully peeing myself on the front porch

ok so i’ve been pee-shy for my entire life and it honestly gets me in such embarrassing situations. i was on a lunch date and i was very nervous and the waitress just kept refilling my water glass so i kept drinking it without thinking about it. and i start feeling like i need the restroom and for most people it would be like, whatever, no big deal, i’ll just excuse myself real quick. but i just get so, so embarrassed at the idea of even mentioning to someone that i need to use the restroom. i blush and i can’t even get the words out if i try (maybe that’s what drew me to omorashi, the fact that having to pee was always like this secret thing i couldn’t talk about. BUT w/e). and then of course i try to put it off and i start becoming more and more desperate and then its even MORE embarrassing to say i need the toilet because i feel like it’s obvious how badly i have to go. so i’m talking to this guy and my bladder is filling up too quickly. and i start crossing my legs under the table and i start getting very nervous about when the date is going to end so i can get to the restroom. i start shifting around on my chair and I’m hoping hoping hoping he doesn’t notice because even the thought of that makes me blush. Oh my gosh. he is looking at me weird. “Are you okay?” my face is like a giant fireball and i need the bathroom so, so badly and i try to bring myself to say ‘yeah i’ll just be right back’ but i just can’t do it so i just squeak out ‘yes i’m fine’ and press my hands into my lap. and just when i think i literally can not hold it in anymore, the waitress comes back with the change from the bill. and he is getting up and we’re going to say goodbye!!! i have to stand with my legs pressed together but i don’t think he notices. he gives me a quick kiss and says we should do this again and he heads toward the door. and i hope he doesn’t thinkits weird that i don’t walk out with him into the parking lot to get in my car too but i know i KNOW i could not make it home in time to-

i cross my legs again. i run up to a waitress and i ask “excuse me, where is your-“ i start blushing before i can get the last word out but she looks me up and down and she says “the restroom is to the right and down that hallway”. oh my god i have never been so embarrassed. i run as quickly as i can to the bathroom and a twinge in my bladder forces me to grab my crotch for a second. i look around to make sure nobody saw and i push open the bathroom door and there’s. a line. its not very long at all but I’m just so embarrassed for other people to see me like this and i literally don’t know if I’m going to be able to wait long enough and to hold it in long enough. i try to stand casually because i don’t want these other girls to see how desperately i need the bathroom but i truly seriously can not hold it in without bending over and shifting back and forth and crossing and uncrossing my legs and i can tell every girl in the bathroom is just staring at me and my face is on fire. this is the most embarrassed I’ve ever felt. i might not be able to make it. at one point i feel like i can’t hold it any longer and i gasp and press a hand to my crotch and i blush some more because these girls can clearly tell I’m about to go in my pants. One of the girls turns to me and says “Do you want to go ahead of me?” and oh my god how embarrassing. i would normally turn down an offer like that but i HAVE to get in there, i have to get in there so, so badly. i say ‘yes thank you so much’ and i bang open the first stall door and hurry inside and start grabbing at my pants and. my jeans button is stuck.