Florish

Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won't either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.

“I think I’m in love. I want things I never thought I could ever have again. My situation is a little complicated. Most of what has happened has been on its own almost. As if this was meant to happen. I often feel as if this is it. It’s my time now. All I’ve gone through led to this moment. Littles things come together that which leads me to the conclusion that I am on the right path. The other half of me is scared out of her mind. Flashing red lights and stop signs. Yelling at me to stop. The fall will kill you. The fall that feels like flying now. I want this to be true so bad. I don’t want to hurt again. I’m trying hard because I want to. I’m trying hard because it feels good. I want to feel safe forever -Vönđ”