ilya crying during sex is at the forefront of my mind right now, walk with me here (or run idc) but post tampa bay i think he's a lot less scared to let the tears flow even if he is still trying remain very macho and stoic like he usually is, minus the shane hollander heart eyes. ANYWAYS, i think the first time he cries during sex is the type of moment where it just punches a fucking hole through his chest. it isn't the moment in the show after their i love yous (because i like to think they both ultimately fell asleep laying together with ilya on top of him), it isn't any of the times they have sex at the cottage during those two weeks either. i think it during that first week ilya has signed with ottawa and he and shane's schedules lined up magically to give both a complete day of just Them after weeks of phone calls and video chats that left ilya wanting to say fuck hockey entirely and committing himself to becoming a wag
they spend the entire day together in ilya's new ottawa place and its perfect. the closest thing that they can get to domesticity right now and the night is, of course, ended with sex that ultimately starts on the couch but eventually makes its way to the bed. he fucks shane chest to chest for a while, if at all, just a slow moving of his hips as they both hold onto each other and shane is murmuring his butchered attempt at i love you in russian into ilya's skin and he can't help but laugh at how fucking endearing it is but suddenly his eyes are burning and he quickly blinks the emotion away as he pats at shane's thigh and tells him to roll over. the muscle memory is so easy as they move together and there's only a momentary loss before ilya is pushing back inside shane and reaching for the hand that shane offers him, fingers intertwined with one hand as he holds shane's hip tight with the other.
shane is beyond blissed out, his eyes closed as he moans loudly into ilya's bedsheets and there's a brief feeling of never wanting this to end that strikes ilya before the tears are spilling and he can't stop it. it isn't gradual either. he can't remember the last time he's felt this overwhelmed and then a sob slips out and shane notices almost immediately and nearly leaps from ilya to attempt to face him but ilya shakes his head insistently, "fine—i'm fine, shane," he tells him shakily. he can tell shane doesn't really believe him so he instead motions for shane to sit more upright, back to ilya's chest as he's practically sat in ilya's lap as he sniffles and cries into shane's shoulder. shane is trying his best to comfort him too, bicep curled behind him to nudge ilya into the bend of his elbow and he can run his fingers through ilya's curls.
shane can feel the wetness of ilya's tears on his skin and the hiccuping sobs but he's still there, giving shane everything he needs and it doesn't take long before he's coming over ilya's hand where he's gripping shane's dick while pressing kisses against his spine and comes with a soft, broken noise inside of shane. there's a long pause of their paired breathing before ilya sniffles and peaks his head up and allows shane to look at him over his shoulder.
"i'm very ugly crier," ilya tells him, "i...i don't know why..."
"no, no, ilya," shane comforts him, "baby, it's okay,"
and at that ilya can't help but frown again, his forehead slumping against shane's shoulder. shane chuckles lightly and pats ilya's head endearingly, "hey, i cry during sex, too,"
"mmm, yes, but is hot and because i am making you cum too many times," ilya argues, "not because you are sappy like me,"
"was it the russian?" shane asks playfully.
ilya nods, "is partly, but i am also obsessed with you, i think,"
"well, the feeling is mutual," shane tells him and ilya smiles against shane's shoulder. eventually ilya leans back to wipe his tears with his forearms and sighs dramatically.
"okay, enough, is your turn," ilya decides, both of them separating briefly to wrestle each other into the sheets again. and yes, ilya does make shane cry from a third and fourth orgasm until he falls asleep without even bothering to shower because ilya nearly killed him
