a flood of darkness

they perk up immediately when he agrees, and suddenly there's even a tail there, wagging away behind them. don't worry about it. "Alright! It's ok, I know a great spot- best seat in the house~"

"I mean. No one does, right? Even people who might not really be.. People..? You know... And. I mean, I don't think I deserve it- why would you?" xion's a bit better with emotions than they probably should be, even if they still.. kind of struggle with them anyway, though trying to convey what they feel is definitely harder than acknowledging that they do feel something.

He doesn't really know how to reply to that, really. Clearly, they don't get it - he doesn't think anyone can ever really understand how much he despises his own skin, and explaining feels too exhausting. So he glances away, annoyed. Should he say something and stay, or leave? He opts for a mix of the two, staying still but not saying anything.

The question does catch him off guard, because he doesn't actually know if they'll be back or not. Really, he doesn't know and he wouldn't blame them if they did.

❛  i can't stop thinking about you even when i try.  ❜ ❛  every time i see you, it's like my heart skips a beat.  ❜ ❛  i never realized how much i needed you until you weren't there.  ❜ ❛  do you ever feel like there's something missing ... like a piece of your heart is somewhere else?  ❜ ❛  i wish i had the courage to tell you how i feel.  ❜ ❛  if only you knew how much you truly mean to me.  ❜ ❛  do you ever wonder what it would be like if things were different between us?  ❜ ❛  sometimes i wonder if you ever think about me the way i think about you.  ❜ ❛  i had a lot of dreams about you recently.  ❜ ❛  somehow, you're always on my mind.  ❜ ❛  i think i've been in love with you since the day we met - scratch that, i know i've been in love with you since the day we met.  ❜ ❛  my biggest wish is to hold you close and never let you go.  ❜ ❛  all my life i've felt like a part of me was missing, but with you i've finally found it.  ❜ ❛  you deserve better than who i am right now, but i'm gonna keep trying to become someone you do deserve.  ❜ ❛  every time you smile at me, i get this flutter in my chest.  ❜ ❛  do you think i'll ever be worthy of your love?  ❜ ❛  i want to be the person to make you happy. the one person you can always come to with whatever you need.  ❜ ❛  will we ever get another chance together?  ❜ ❛  you were the best thing that's ever happened to me.  ❜ ❛  my biggest regret is ever letting you go.  ❜ ❛  i'm still in love with you ... and i honestly never stopped.  ❜ ❛  when i wake up in the morning, you're the first person i want to see.  ❜ ❛  every time i wake up, i check if you wrote me another message.  ❜ ❛  i wish i could be as important to you as you are to me.  ❜ ❛  it hurts when you don't talk to me like you used to.  ❜ ❛  i miss everything about you, your touch, your laugh, your smile. i wish i could have that back.  ❜ ❛  i want to fall asleep wrapped in your arms.  ❜ ❛  hold me closer; i always feel safer when you're with me.  ❜ ❛  there's so much i wish i was able to tell you.  ❜ ❛  i know things aren't easy right now, but i want to remain a fixture in your life. after all, you're one in mine.  ❜ ❛  i miss the way you always made me smile.  ❜ ❛  you're the reason i keep holding on.  ❜ ❛  maybe we're supposed so to remain a case of 'right person, wrong time' forever.  ❜ ❛  if only you knew how i feel about you.  ❜ ❛  i'm yearning to hold your hand in mine.  ❜ ❛  i think you are the one for me, and i hope one day i'll be the one for you, too.  ❜ ❛  do you think i'll ever become more than a friend to you?  ❜ ❛  my heart belongs to you, always and forever.  ❜ ❛  my first instinct is to protect you, no matter the cost.  ❜ ❛  i've been thinking about us a lot lately.  ❜

i get the feeling that just because ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ɪ ᴛᴏᴜᴄʜ ɪꜱɴ'ᴛ ᴅᴀʀᴋ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ that the problem lies in me.

It was quite the place - and quite, almost, the comforting one. Soon, he'd no doubt - oh. Well. If they were going to go onto the topic ...

He stares for a moment longer, contemplating to himself, idly tapping his fingers. He hadn't really expected his master, of all people, to admit there was pieces of doubt. After all, he always seemed so assured, so correct.