HOLLOW DRONES

Recently I haven't been feeling my best for a very long time. I guess there are so many changes happening and there's going to be even more change in the coming year that I don't really like it at all but I don't have the power to stop it or make it better for myself? I just foresee a really bad year coming and I've been so bummed all the time. I almost forgot how to be the carefree and spontaneous person I was. I think I'm no longer that person. I used to want to be around people. Now I just want to disconnect. These days I kept making plans but things just don't add up in the end. I get mad at myself. I cry myself to sleep all the time. I lose sleep by overthinking. It's not me but it's happening, and I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. Is it just me being overwhelmed by adulthood? Or is it something else? I don't know why I'm bummed. I don't know how to fix it. Sometimes I just want to escape from everything but the thing is I can't. I am stuck. Stuck in this place. Stuck at my job. Stuck at where I am in life. For so many nights I felt so alone and so upset. I just want to be free spirited and content again.