✨ Grit & Grace ✨

Getting Married is not a guarantee that you won’t feel lonely ever again.

Please don’t get me wrong, my husband loves me unconditionally and does everything to make me feel loved and happy. ❤

I have been bullied since I was a kid (even my own family bullies me) and as a result, I grew up becoming an emotionally strung-out adult, who sought approval from everyone for how I looked and behaved. I wanted to be perceived as someone who was resilient and had it all together. At age 29, I've learned the art of managing my emotions, healing my inner child, and trying to reprogram the things that I learned growing up in an emotionally unavailable household. It has been challenging to get to this stage since it requires you to look deeply within yourself to recognize what is wrong, attempt to fix it, and understand that there may have been other ways you could have handled the situation in the past thinking things might turned out different.

I've been very vocal and open with my husband about my anxiety, mental wellbeing, and family issues, but I do not often feel as though he hears or comprehends the void I'm experiencing inside. 

There are days I feel light but most of the time, I feel empty, just like tonight.