I wanna be absolved of my sins. I want divine punishment. Tell me I'm worthless, make me feel like the scum of the earth, the dirt that you walk on, make me feel the guilt of everything I've ever done wrong. Slap me, spit on me, yell at me, make it hurt, make me cry. Choke me because I'm not worthy of breathing your air. Remind me that the pain is what I deserve, it's what I need to be cleansed. Then once you've made a mess of me, once I've begged for forgiveness, grant me the penance I've suffered so much for. Hold me against your chest and pet my hair and tell me it's okay. I've paid my price and I did it so well. I did it all for you. Hush me, slow my hiccuping breaths, soothe my skin with your holy touch. Let me kiss every inch of you while I cling to you and thank you, thank you so much, and you reward me with unfathomable pleasure.