seeking solace

“I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot even explain it to myself.”

“I’d leave the memory of you at the station, if it didn’t already know the way home.”

What thing worthy of love can be found in me?

i could be anything in the world but i wanted to be his

I will kiss your scars as you heal, I will sit by your side and hold your hand. I will write invisible secrets and paragraphs and maybe a book into your skin at night, while you sleep warm next to me.

I thought that pain meant I was not loved. It meant I loved.

2017; you taught me more than I could handle. I learned love, loss, everything in between.

I’m fighting myself. I know I am. One minute I want to remember. The next minute I want to live in the land of forgetting. One minute I want to feel. The next minute I never want to feel ever again.

If you have to convince someone to stay with you, then they have already left.