Burden On Society

Macro shot of XJ-13🔥

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Im not someone who looks depressed i am always smiling that’s to put up with anyone who comes my way when im alone i settle and feel everything that is going on around me it will hit me i dont have a father and my mom is slowly dying with less than a decade left i feel that neither of my parents will see me maybe become successful or find someone to love how they loved each other most people will read this and think “this is fake its for attention” but its not i live with this shit everyday not knowing how or what is gonna happen each day but i try to look as happy as possible so i dont have to feel people look down on me like i need some type of help there is nothing anyone can do to help. Everyone tells me to chill on how much drugs i am doing but they are the only thing helping this fucked up scenario i got stuck with so im gonna continue to feel good as possible i can stop when i want but i choose not to. Besides drugs i have found someone that really makes me happy for periods of time before I come down i feel like im falling in love honestly but love only equals pain and i think I’ve had enough of that so im gonna stay quiet for the time being until i can actually be happy and that could be tomorrow or years hopefully I make it until i can find happiness

Scared of the future, runnin’ from the past

been trying to explain myself